I walked out in the rain, and the road between me and him was not long, but I used all my life's strength.

"Thank you for taking care of you for so long." I handed him the order of the general, which was originally his, but it was always by my side to save my life.

I could feel my hands trembling, and when I pinched it, I could still feel the warmth of his love for me, but I had to pull my hand.

I have thought of thousands of reasons to hate him, and I have thought about how I should settle accounts with Chen Fei because of his death, but in the end, I only said two words of thanks, if you love him, then you will be willing to bear the pain, and even the person who is loved doesn't even need to apologize.

"Qingyi......" he began, his voice heavy.

"I'm leaving today, and in the future, I will cherish each other." The rain was even heavier, and the whole universe was only the sound of rushing water, and it was so good that it was raining, and it was the first time that I liked it so much, so that I could smile at him, and I didn't have to hide the warm tears that had already flooded my face, mixed with the rain, without a trace.

He walked over and put his sword in my hand, "If you hate me, slash at me, whatever you want, I will never dodge even half a step!" ”

I held his sword, and suddenly I was relieved, the moment his sword stabbed at Chen Fei, I really hated him very much, if I had a sword in my hand, I would definitely slash at him without hesitation, but now, it is different. His sword weighs a thousand pounds in my hand, and if I vent my resentment, will Chen Fei be able to resurrect him?

No!

If I hurt him, will the estrangement and hatred between us be lessened?

Nor will it.

However, what is even more ridiculous is that the person in front of me who I should have wielded a knife to cut is the only person I love in this world, the only person I want to cherish and protect......

God is kidding me.

Love and hate can not be investigated, and hatred can not be asked, why did he kill Chen Fei, in fact, it doesn't matter anymore. The important thing is that Chen Fei is dead, and he and I can't go back. Then, the only thing left is to say goodbye, which is the best way for each other.

He will continue to stay here, to be the brocade guard of his dreams, and I, will go where I need to go.

We are not people of the same world, and we cannot walk on the same path after all, and we will not end up on the same path.

"Qingyi ......"

"Lord Night!"

He wanted to say something more, but I had already interrupted him neatly, I couldn't listen to him anymore, I wasn't sure if I would lose control of my tears and emotions if I listened to him again, I didn't know if I could hide it anymore, I didn't know if my next move would be to throw myself into his arms or swing my sword at him.

So, I interrupted him, and I handed his sword to him again and bowed my head to say a final goodbye.

"From now on, the end of the world will forget each other, and each will be safe."

With that, I turned again and threw myself into the boundless rain, letting the sound of the rain drown out my silent sorrow.

At this time, Liyan came up with the saint.

The saint saw Ye Linghan and me in the heavy rain, and after entering the Anle Palace, he sent everyone back, and the first sentence said: "Qingyi, I know about you and Ye Linghan, do you want me to come forward......"

"No need!" I interrupted him coldly, and he excused himself when I needed his affirmation the most, and now this relationship has no effect on me, and he has become a good person.

"You know, Lord Ye's identity is like this, and killing Chen Fei is also a last resort...... Sheng Shang explained.

"Since this is the case, then we are even more inappropriate to be together." I refuse.

The saint looked at me and didn't speak again, I knew that he was willing to let me be with Ye Linghan now, it was nothing more than sympathy, the way I was now, in his opinion, was indeed pitiful enough.

"And what do you want me to do?" His tone bordered on pleading.

"You don't have to make any amends to me, and of course, I won't forgive you. You will carry this guilt for the rest of your life. ”

The saint's face was red and white.

"However, I won't do anything to you, don't worry, I'm not interested in your emperor's position, and I won't grab it, you still sit yourself, I think I'm unlucky, I didn't avenge my father, that's it, I won't say it." But I have three requirements. ”

"Qingyi, thank you," the saint said with a serious face, "No matter what you ask, I will promise you." ”

"First, bury Chen Fei thickly, send him to the funeral with the etiquette of the prince, and bury him in the cemetery in the back mountain today."

"I promise, and there's more."

"Second, marry Heze to Liyan, he really likes Heze, you have broken up so many pairs of mandarin ducks, it's better to treat your daughter."

The saint thought for a moment, and finally nodded in agreement.

"Third, after Chen Fei's funeral today, early tomorrow morning, I will leave Yan and set off back to the Northern Desert. I won't go back to the palace today, stay at Chen Fei's grave for a night, and we'll leave tomorrow. ”

"It's raining heavily, how can you stay out and stay overnight? I will definitely handle Chen Fei's funeral well, and I will definitely do it beautifully! It's just that tonight, you can sleep wherever you want, but don't stay alone in the wild, okay? ”

"You're still worried about me?" I couldn't help but sneer.

There was some embarrassment on the saint's face.

I continued: "I think, should you go to handle Chen Fei's funeral now, I'm in a hurry." ”

Sheng Shang pursed his lips, slowly turned around and walked out of the door, and when he was about to reach the door, he turned his head and looked at me sadly: "Qingyi, do you really have nothing to say to your uncle?" Are you really in such a hurry to get out of here? I'd rather you scolded me like you did last night, and I don't want to see you treat me like that now. ”

I turned my back to him and stopped looking at him, as I had already said, there was some parting, there was no need for a farewell ceremony at all.

Liang Sheng packed up his things in the palace, and I went with Liyan to see Chen Fei off for the last time, I cried all my tears and pain on his grave, and I also left all my youth in Chang'an......

And now, I'm going back, I've lost everything I've gained here, I'm leaving, I'm going back empty-handed......

That night, I went to Shennongtang, I went to Yuchun Building, I got drunk myself, drunk not only can not make people feel sorrowful, but can only make people recall more things, but wine is a good thing, he can make you forget the pain, only think of those beautiful things, I remembered the appearance of seeing Ye Linghan when I was three or four years old, I remembered the appearance when he asked me to play Chunjiang, I remembered the words he said to me for a lifetime, I remembered the warmth in his arms, I also remembered all the dreams I had about the future that all of them had him......

However, everything is fake, and dreams are really just dreams......

The cruelest thing about a dream is that it can't be realized.

When he woke up, he was still desolate and desolate.

In the end, I didn't even know where I was, and I didn't know how I got back to the palace, and when I woke up in the morning, I was already lying on my own bed in the palace.

I rubbed my sore head and walked out, Liang Sheng and Liyan were already in the living room. Heze and the crown prince also arrived.

It suddenly occurred to me that today was the day of parting.

I wanted to say something, but I saw that Liang Sheng had already packed all his bags, so he just said lightly: "Let's go." ”

Due to yesterday's rain, this morning, there was a thin layer of fog condensed in the air, and it was hazy and it didn't feel very real, I took my things and walked out, everything was ready, I followed Liyan, and the three of them got into the carriage together.

The send-off team is naturally spectacular, the emperor, queen, prince and princess all came, but there are not many of these people who have anything to do with me, and there are few who really come to see me off, but they are all here to put on a show.

I saw Heze secretly wiping his tears behind the queen mother, and I couldn't think of any words to comfort her, but when I opened the curtain to look at her, I was free by the saint, and he said: "If there is anything you are not used to, come back, here, will always be your home." ”

I smiled at him, I was grateful, he was also old, I am afraid that this uncle and I will never have the opportunity to see each other again in this life, I don't want to mention everything in the past anymore, when I parted, I actually wanted to wish him a long life and happiness, but as soon as my heart warmed, those pains overflowed, reminding me of the grievances I had endured.

I unwillingly lowered the curtain of the carriage, and in the short exploration, I did not find the shadow of Ye Linghan.

The carriage creaked forward, and before I drove out of the palace gate, I couldn't help it, and once again opened the curtain and looked out.

Everything here is still familiar, when I came, when I fled, when I left in a carriage today, it was the same road, but every time I walked this road, something different story would be played.

My heart was getting colder and colder, and after all, I still didn't see him, and he didn't come to see me.

I don't know why I still have expectations, obviously I have already said that I want to let go, but I am relieved in an instant, some things, after which it is not so painful and profound.

The carriage turned and drove out of the palace gate, Chang'an City is still prosperous and lively, everyone lives their ordinary days on the streets, and they don't know what is happening in this world Thrilling and war-to-arms, they are so happy, so happy, they don't know anything, but someone has to do their best to protect their simplicity, to protect their ignorance, hopefully, they will never know what scheming and war are for the rest of their lives.