I was stunned, of course I understand the painstaking efforts of the noble concubine Jackie Chan, but in this palace, the emperor can only be alone...... Her words were so explicit that I was immediately nervous, and if she had to ask me to give her an answer, then I really didn't know what to do.

"So, Qingyi, Yucheng may be the best candidate for a husband. If you make a decision, our Dong family will definitely not treat you badly, we can ensure the stability of your court for ten years, and we can ensure that you have peace of mind in the harem, so think about your aunt's words today. Dong Guifei smiled, the look on her face was full of confidence.

It seems that Dong Guifei has a considerable grasp of her power, she doesn't even shy away from leaving Yan Qiming, nor does she shy away from her two children, she said this directly, first, to show her trust in her own strength, and secondly, it also shows her straightforward personality, and she is unwilling to beat around the bush with others.

I like her simply, but I don't know, what does this harem woman want? Do you pursue the favor of the Holy One for the sake of your own family's power, or do you desperately want to increase your family's power in order to gain the favor of the Holy One?

Perhaps, a woman is just because she is not safe, she just wants to get everything that can make her feel stable, and if the relationship is gone, then she must be materially good.

I can't say that the concubine is not anything, she is in the deep palace, maybe every woman needs to learn these skills, everyone has everyone's helplessness, because they only have one man. However, can a woman only live for one man in her life? Can't you live a little more chic for yourself?

Suddenly, I felt that these high-profile concubines were precious but also pitiful.

I lowered my head, not knowing how to respond to her words, and finally Qi Ming helped me out, he said respectfully: "The concubine Niangniang can appreciate Qingyi so much, Qingyi must be very grateful to you in her heart, it's just that Qingyi is a daughter's family, and she is ashamed to go straight to the point of feeling, and it is not easy to answer you, and her current situation is also relatively difficult, not that she can marry whoever she wants, and her daughter's family at this age is also a little simple, and she always has too many uncertain illusions about the future." ”

The concubine easily heard Qi Ming's voiceover, she covered her mouth and smiled, and replied: "That's natural, Princess Qingyi is the future queen, that is to say, the prince who will succeed to the throne in the future must not only be able to marry Princess Qingyi, but also his own strength must be qualified, this point, I believe that the Dong family can give the emperor will not be stingy at all." However, a girl's mind is always delicate and unpredictable, and I have had a girl's time...... But the old love may not be a good destination. ”

My face was a little sneering, I knew that the old love that Dong Guifei said was referring to Ye Linghan.

My heart began to become restless and manic, why, why did each of you know about me and Ye Linghan, everyone believed me and Ye Linghan's affair because of Heze's lies, but we do have a children's affair, why do you all know but pretend not to know anything? Still here as if nothing happened? is still acting in front of me, matching a prince who doesn't love me and a prince who doesn't love me? Why?

Just because the emperor said that I am the future queen, you are desperately trying to make your son my husband? And it doesn't matter if there is a relationship between us or not? Regardless of my boiling love affair that is still rumored and the fate of my son's unfree marriage? In order to make yourself feel comfortable in your heart, do you just treat it as if you don't know about my relationship with Ye Linghan at all, and turn a deaf ear to the truth of everything?

I don't know if the saint and the concubine Niangniang suffered this kind of involuntary fate when they were young, I don't know if they resisted at this time? Do they regret it now? If they have hated and repented, why should they impose such a fate on us and perpetuate it?

The concubine looked at my face red and white, thinking that I was a little unhappy, so she comforted me and took Yucheng and Sheng Yao to leave.

I looked at Yucheng's figure, I don't know how the shy man thinks of a strong mother like him? However, the little Sheng Yao, he may have been invincible to all poisons a long time ago, so he can maintain such purity, he has grown up in this environment since he was a child, everyone talks like this, and he does things selfishly, so he may not find any gaps, not change and not be disappointed.

"Qingyi, it seems that all the ladies are serious." After sending off the concubine, Liyan said to me seriously, I could see the distress in his eyes, and he knew that I didn't want to marry.

I don't want to think about anything at the moment, maybe because of the blow, the defense line in my heart was instantly broken, but my head was full of Ye Linghan again at this moment, his black robe, the sword on his waist, his cold face, his warm smile on me...... Everything is him, it's his figure...... I felt the air around me suddenly expand and expand and expand, so big that it was so big, so big that it made me feel so lonely, so big that it made me feel cold......

Am I really getting farther and farther away from you? Am I really powerless anymore? Am I really going to sacrifice you for the sake of others? Do I really want to be the queen who doesn't know whether it's a blessing or a curse and forget about you from now on?

Everyone around me selectively ignores you, they won't tell me that I can't be with you, because they simply ruled out all the possibility of me being with you, didn't give me the slightest chance to argue and refute, I didn't even have the opportunity to ask why, but if everyone tacitly kept silent about you, I could forget you? No, no, the more they don't mention it, the more I miss you, the more they don't say it, the more I miss you, and at this moment, after I have silently recited it in my heart a thousand times, you finally burst out and occupy my whole mind and soul...... So I can't be a regular walking corpse anymore.

Because with you, no one else can get into their hearts anymore, even if the whole world tells me that we can't be.

I don't have a family, I don't have everything, but I have a family and a posterity, but why do I still feel strange or unhappy? It wasn't until this moment that the heartache made me understand that from beginning to end, I only had you in my heart......

I suddenly squatted on the ground and cried aggrievedly. All the pent-up emotions were released in an instant, and my emotions needed a complete emptying......

Qi Ming and Liyan stood next to me, watching me cry, they knew that I was uncomfortable, so they could only accompany me quietly, and there was no way to comfort me.

Whether I am a princess or not, whether I am a future queen or not, my wish is like an ordinary woman, to find a person I love to hold the hand of the son and grow old with the son, life and death, and the son to become happy.

But why is it so hard? When I met him, we were still young, when he came to me, I was ruined, when I met him again, I was ready to send an arrow, became his enemy, but when we finally resolved all the grudges, forgot the hatred, just wanted to be a loving couple, but I almost died because of hatred, but, blessed with a great life, I came back to life and resumed the identity of the princess, in this seems to be the best moment, but I seem to be going to lose him forever......

Can you forget if you lose it? No...... For so long, every day, he has taken root in my heart a little more, and now this relationship has long been flourishing, and no matter how I cut it myself, it will not be damaged in the slightest. And how can I be willing to cut it...... At this moment, I admit that I was really defeated......

I don't want to be hard anymore, I don't want to pretend to be strong anymore...... I can't do without him, I can't marry another man in front of him, I can't do it, I can't do it...... I don't want to hide my feelings for him arrogantly anymore, what I say is for his good, what I say is for his future, in fact, it's just a proof that I surrender to the world and reason, I'm so cowardly, because I can't believe that he will abandon the powerful for me, because I can't believe that my relationship with him is real, because I can't believe that even though I have become the ugliest woman, he still loves me...... Therefore, I tried my best to hurt, and the grass and trees were all soldiers, desperately tearing apart the only emotion between us, and desperately protecting myself by hurting him. Because I have been degraded by the world, I also think and suspect with worldly thoughts......

But this is the stupidest thing to do, and it's not you who loses in the end, right? The cold face pretended not to like it, but who else could understand the pain in his heart except himself? The heartache that I thought would be polished away by time will only become more and more acute as time goes on, and finally pierce the mask of your hypocrisy and leave your cowardice with nowhere to escape......

I also want a real emotion, so I'm afraid of being deceived, afraid of being let down, afraid that others will say that they like me because of my beauty, and after being disfigured, they are afraid that others will say they like me because of sympathy......

Timidity is a common problem of women, especially after experiencing so many things, they will become less and less confident and insecure, but is there a sense of security that you can get if you want to?

Will I feel safe if I marry a certain prince? Maybe it really feels safer than being with Ye Linghan, because with the prince, I don't like him, I won't give my heart to him, and I won't be sad or hurt when I am betrayed and hurt. But if it is Ye Linghan, my whole heart is on him, expecting him to protect this heart, but I still have to cry for his neglect or carelessness...... But what about happiness? What about love? Is this something I can get without loving someone?

Instead of giving your fate to power, it is better to give it to love.