On Monday, Li Miao, as usual, wore a uniform and stepped on high heels to work. She will go to the office in advance every day, mop the floor and pour water to water the green plants, this is a habit she has always adhered to, she doesn't like her field to be violated by others, although the clerk Xiao Tang has an office with her, and the little girl is also very diligent, but Li Miao strongly asked Xiao Tang not to go to the office in advance to do these things, this is her private habit, just let Xiao Tang go to work on time. Li Miao touched the gauze on her neck, the wound had healed a lot, it seemed that there was no reason to ask for leave, there were too many backlogs of cases at hand, and taking a day off meant that she would have to work a few more days to make up for it in the future, she shook her head, although she liked work, she hated meaningless overtime very much.

"Sister Li, morning", a cute girl with a round face poked her head out and greeted her with a smile.

"Xiao Tang, morning", Li Miao replied blandly. The girl is her clerk, a young and lively girl, who still has a little relationship with Li Miao. Her cousin Tang Xu is Li Miao's college senior, met at the hometown meeting, and is now a partner in a law firm, because of the relationship between work, Li Miao and Tang Xu have been relatively close over the years, Tang Xu's little cousin graduated from college and came to Li Miao's side as a clerk, and it is more or less related to the friendship between the two.

Li Miao doesn't have too many requirements for her clerk, she tries to complete everything she can do by herself, and she is cautious and careful about anything related to the case, which is the awe of legal people. Xiao Tang did chores such as printing things, sorting out materials, or bringing food to Li Miao every day. The two of them rarely talk in the office, Li Miao is very busy, or often not in the office, and the relationship between her and the clerk is not far away.

On this day, Xiao Tang seemed to be particularly enthusiastic, she took a box of chocolates and put it on Li Miao's table, and said mysteriously:

"Sister, guess who gave this box of chocolates?"

Li Miao looked through the case file, didn't raise her eyelids, and said:

"Your brother, Barrister Tang."

"Sister, my brother said that he will come back tomorrow, and I will send a gift and condolences today."

Li Miao turned the page and continued:

"He's a barrister who is really idle, and it has something to do with my injury." He pushed the chocolate and said, "I'm injured, I won't recover well from intaking sugar, so you can eat it." ”

Xiao Tang pouted, "I don't eat, I'm losing weight." When he finished speaking, he sat down in his seat and typed, without saying a word.

Li Miao was a little annoyed, Tang Xu was really the most stubborn person she had ever met. She knew what he meant, but no matter how long people don't call, they can't get along for long. She thought of another person, with a tall posture and a cold gentle ....... She smiled bitterly, thinking of his unfamiliar eyes that year, but the voice that she didn't dare to recall kept ringing, and her neck began to hurt again, as if the wound had cracked on its own, telling the ...... of the pain of those youths.

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"Li Miao, long time no see." Cao Cheng patted the snowflakes on his body, took off his coat, and sat next to Li Miao. The winter vacation of freshman year is a time for high school friends to get together, leaving familiar classmates to go to college in an unfamiliar city, and after a few months of not seeing each other, everyone misses it very much, so they propose to get together with high school friends. Li Miao actually didn't have many friends in high school, Cao Cheng sat at the same table with her, and the relationship was relatively familiar, so she also went.

"Well, long time no see, Cao Cheng". Li Miao smiled lightly and received it casually. Everyone arrived one after another, there were about eight people, all of them were high school classmates, and Li Miao knew most of them. Unexpectedly, Cao Cheng also called friends from other classes, there were one or two classmates who she had a vague memory, so she talked less, only lowered her head and played with the water glass, listening to them talk about the wonderful life ......of her university, after a long time, Li Miao felt a little bored, and quietly withdrew to go outside to breathe, and the party with unfamiliar people really made her uncomfortable.

Li Miao stood at the end of the corridor, looking at the snowfall outside the window, catching a snowflake with his eyes, watching it slowly fall, and then catching a ....... She felt interesting, I don't know how long it took, she felt that there seemed to be a gaze behind her, turned her head, she was stunned for ......, always upright, dressed in casual clothes, 180+ Zhou Shunyao blocked her vision, she felt blurred in front of her, and she couldn't see Zhou Shunyao's expression clearly. The person opposite was stiff, his aura was as cold as the weather outside the window, and he had a down jacket worn outdoors hanging from his arm, obviously after being indoors for a long time, and the snow on the down jacket melted into a little droplet.

Li Miao's blood was frozen all over her body, and the person she wanted to see suddenly broke into her sight, she was excited, trembling, but also timid and scared. Li Miao wanted to escape, but he was afraid that he would regret it, so he stood in place like that, looking at Zhou Shunyao's figure getting closer and closer without blinking. Zhou Shunyao approached, his eyes were burning, he looked at Li Miao, and the words he said made people tremble coldly:

"Li Miao, what are you afraid of?"

Li Miao's neck shrunk, unconsciously wrapped the sweater on her body, and her hands were twisted together, showing her inner uneasiness. That's why she hates unprepared things, which make her flustered, gaffes, and even ...... do things recklessly.

"I ...... Fear...... What the. You...... It is not a flood beast. Although Li Miao was afraid, she was still unforgiving, especially when facing Zhou Shunyao.

"Heh...... I'm not a flood beast, so why don't you come?" , Zhou Shunyao sneered, as if laughing at her lame reason, or laughing at his humility.

Li Miao was completely frozen, and she felt so cold. Zhou Shunyao's words poured a cool breeze into her, she was sorry for him, and when she mentioned the past, she felt wronged. Zhou Shunyao shouldn't have asked her, he understood her pride and her pursuit, and he should have understood her despair and unwillingness at that time. Li Miao bit her lip and didn't speak, her fingers tightened.

Zhou Shunyao also looked at her silently, it was an accident to meet her, but he had to stubbornly wait for her explanation. He wanted her to understand how proud and humble Zhou Shunyao was back then.

He looked down at her, she looked down at her feet, and the minutes passed, and the two of them did not speak, as if they were two lifeless statues against the background of the snow.

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Li Miao took a deep breath, raised her head, looked at Zhou Shunyao seriously, her face flushed slightly, and said in a low voice:

"Zhou Shunyao, can our relationship be one step closer?"

This time it was Zhou Shunyao's turn to stay. He seemed to hear the cry of his heart rushing out of his chest, and the person in front of him turned into a blurred shadow, only the slightly shy eyes made his heart soft. He wanted to hold her, he wanted to hold her in his arms, he wanted to keep her in the depths of his heart and treasure her. She was the dream of his youth, and she was an indispensable beauty in his youth.

But the joy in his eyes flashed, his face changed from flushed with excitement to pale, as if he had endured great pain, his whole body was decayed, his straight back looked stiff, he exhaled, clenched his hands, his short, straight nails sunk deep into the flesh. His eyes passed through her, looked at the drifting snow outside the window, and said word by word, sober and cold:

"Li Miao, we're only friends, forget the rest. That's what you said back then. ”

Li Miao raised her head and looked at him directly, she didn't seem to believe it, he rejected her?

Li Miao's eyes were red, she tried to hold back the tears that were about to fall, and twisted herself her legs, it was very painful, it turned out that it was not a dream, so why did he reject her? Li Miao was sure in her heart that Zhou Shunyao would not refuse her, never. This seems to be her delusion today, and she has overestimated herself and their past after all.

Li Miao didn't dare to look at him anymore, she was about to cry when she looked at him more, she didn't want him to see it, which made the rejection of the confession even more embarrassing to her. She skimmed her face, combed her hair with her hands, quietly wiped away the tears that flowed, and stared at the oil painting on the wall in a daze, as if immersed in the painting.......

Zhou Shunyao looked at her with contradictory eyes and distressed. If he could, he wouldn't refuse her, and who would refuse the person he had loved in his youth? Even though they hadn't seen each other for a long time, she still gave him courage in his dreams, in the countless nights he had almost lost it. If he could, he also wanted to be like a college student at a local university, taking his favorite girl to see all over the wonderful world; He also wants to have a relationship with her generously, work together, grow together, and invite each other to share the past and future; He wants to go from youth to old age with her, and spend the rest of his life with her ...... this difficult life.

But he can't, people always have to pay for their choices, he has been comforted by faith and ideals, but he is destined to push her heart. Perhaps in the eyes of ordinary people, ideals and love do not conflict, and can even complement each other, but he is not an ordinary person, and he is no longer the responsibility of his children's private feelings and parents' family, but a soldier who serves the country with great enthusiasm and enthusiasm. We do not live in an era of peace, but in a peaceful country, and there is always a group of people who sacrifice their little love and small family for this peace.

At this time, Zhou Shunyao seemed to have the tragic feeling of a strong man breaking his wrist and Jing Ke stabbing Qin, and he was in a dilemma of loyalty and filial piety since ancient times, and at this time his ideals and love were in a dilemma. Why did Li Miao sacrifice for him? Why did he ask Li Miao to wait for him? She is a proud and stubborn person, who has never been in love, and believes that he will stick to the end without hesitation, and his future is full of uncertain ....... The instructor's words reminded him all the time:

"All the students here, we are not particularly compulsive on personal emotional issues. If there is an object, it is not recommended to divide it; If you don't have an object, it's not recommended to talk about it. Your status is special, and it will be very hard for local people to fall in love with you, so don't just promise other lesbians before your future is uncertain. You are not qualified or capable. At the opening ceremony, the instructors hit the nail on the head to express their helplessness and suffering. When Zhou Shunyao heard this, his heart was complicated but he also agreed.

He is a bit machismo, and he will not rashly start an uncertain relationship with her when he can't give her even the most basic companionship. Even at the best of years, he chose to push her .......

Zhou Shunyao looked at Li Miao that day, and Li Miao looked at the painting. After a long time, he left silently. He couldn't even say goodbye generously, and wanted to pull out a smile to make the most decent gesture, but his mouth didn't listen. In the end, he had no choice but to flee.

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Many years later, watching Li Miao talking to a strange man, his eyes were clear, his temperament was soft, and he covered his mouth from time to time and smiled happily. He could still remember the snowy winter vacation that year, her reddened eyes, the hidden tears, and the pain ...... her heart that was trapped in the palm of her hand. Does he regret it? Zhou Shunyao didn't know either.

Author's words: This chapter is a bit bloody, but that's how he rejected the author back then, and the confession was also the author's first, woo~(>_<)~. I didn't change anything yesterday, but I have two chapters today.