My name is Wang Suchun.

I still remember that more than ten years ago, with full joy, I was carried into this splendid and solemn palace in a delicate flag costume and in a sedan chair. This changed his life.

Too much sadness and helplessness have tormented me for many years, I have resented and hated, and I have accepted my fate, but I can't change anything at all. So, I learned to be patient, I learned to turn a deaf ear, and I even learned to play dead. If you are not careful, you will not feel how tiring life is, and spending your days like a year is just a little pastime after tea and dinner, a little comfort in lonely time.

But I think I won't have to see the endless red wall and the boxy blue sky again. More and more blood was coming out of my body, and there was no particular pain, just a lot of weakness. Every step that made me climb to the gate of Yonghe Palace became extremely difficult. But I can't stop, I can't give in, if Xiaowei comes back, she will definitely come to Yonghe Palace to find her mother.

This kind of belief supported me and finally climbed to the gate of the palace safely, dragging my body and mind full of holes.

Gently closing my eyes, I only felt my body float lightly. The smile on his face seemed to be difficult to maintain, and he only felt that his cold skin was gradually stiffening, and he could no longer be decent and bright.

In his ears, there was a sudden heartbreaking cry like a grief-stricken concubine. The voice was poignant and graceful, and it did not show the nobility of the noble concubine who was brilliant and beautiful. But it was the last voice I could hear, from the world.

It is not a good thing to leave with the arms of a concubine like this. What's more, I still hold the bright red bow on Xiaowei's head in my hand. It was Xiaowei's favorite flower silk.

You guessed right, in this life, the only thing I can't give up is Xiaowei.

The road from the Forbidden City to Baiyun Nunnery is actually not long. But who would have known that they would encounter the rebels who revolted. I knew that the guards of the Cavalry Battalion did their best. I can't forgive, but it's just such a useless self. Why did I lose Xiaowei when there was such a chaos? Why didn't I do my best to protect her?

Will she be afraid, will she cry hoarsely, and will she be in danger of her life?

I'll never forget the rattle of the tip of the knife that pierced through the thick curtain of the chariot. Fear and panic made me cover Xiaowei's mouth and nose tightly, for fear that she would cry a little. At that moment, I didn't hesitate to stop her behind me, and let the knife cut and stab at me.

The pain in my body didn't seem to be obvious, but the trembling from Xiaowei behind me made me feel particularly distressed. That was the real knife that stabbed me in the heart, and I was suddenly scared what if the tip of the knife was long enough to pass through my body and hurt Xiaowei.

Soon, however, the sword-wielding men stopped attacking, and they lifted the curtain and looked indifferently at me, covered in wounds and wide-eyed, and the evil man laughed wildly and rushed towards the others.

My heart is smiling, Xiaowei should be fine. But my body didn't listen to me, I couldn't move if I wanted to, I couldn't even open my eyes. Later, I really didn't know about it, but when Mianning woke me up and asked me how my injuries were, I only cried and told him that Xiaowei was gone.

Mianning didn't see Xiaowei, how could he tell me that he didn't see Xiaowei.

Tears blurred my eyes, and having Xiaowei by my side made me feel that I had not wasted my life. I can't live without her, even though she's not my own.

If you can turn back time, please follow me back to when I first entered the palace.

I can't remember the first time I saw Niu Co Lu Ruyue, when the emperor gave her the Yongshou Palace to live alone on the day of her draft, or when.

But I clearly remember her appearance, and it is by no means something that can be described by such gaudy words as the country and the country. It's an amazing feeling, and just one look at her and I promise you'll never forget it. She seems to have an invisible hand that can firmly grasp your heart. Even if you are about to go crazy with jealousy, you still keep telling yourself in your heart that she is really beautiful and incomprehensible.

From the first time I saw her, I knew that she was the same kind of person as me, intelligent, calm, calm and proud. It was at that time that I made a decision that I regretted for the rest of my life. That is to soar to 90,000 miles, and must become the most favored concubine around the emperor. It's not about the sidelines, it's just the innate arrogance.

It's a pity that I don't have a good family background, and I am a woman from the Han family, so I know that the road in front of me is really difficult to walk.

I was personally ordered by the emperor to enter the palace three days earlier than the rest of the embroidery girls. On the night I entered the palace, the emperor turned over my sign. Yonghe Palace only rewarded me with one person to live in. This kind of honor is what I have always dreamed of. To be the concubine of the greatest man in the world, I naturally hope to be held in the palm of his hand.

The emperor is very gentle and approachable. He loved it when I leaned into his arms and held my hand and talked. I'd be bold enough to stroke the beard on his lips, even the freshly grown, tied stubble on his cheeks.

He never glared at me, smiled and listened to me. Under the shadow of the red candle night, we talked and laughed. Sometimes she sang and danced lightly to play a song "Phoenix Seeking Phoenix" for her, and sometimes she painted a scroll of Danqing with her hands.

After three days of hard work, happiness overflowed my whole heart, and before the emperor, I had never touched the heart of a girl to the man next to me. Once I fell in love with the most noble man in the world, my heart could be so crazy and uncontrollable. Every time I look at each other, I always hope to get a glint of approval and affirmation from his eyes, full of deep sweetness.

When these beautiful things filled my heart, I realized that in an instant, happiness came so quickly and so shortly. It's only been three days. Since then, the emperor has not been so sweet and warm to me.

Even though he would come to see me from time to time, even though he would still hold my hand in his palm, his heart was far away. That taste really chilled my heart. Naturally, you can guess why, so I won't go into details.

Since then, I've been even more brazen in pretending to be stupid. I show my shallowness and jealousy everywhere, not only to confuse others, but also to protect myself. When everyone thinks that I am reckless, I will inevitably look more sideways at the outstanding Niu Co Lu Ruyue. What's more, jealousy is a woman's nature, and who wouldn't care about such a woman sharing her husband's love.

What I didn't expect was that this button was really not simple.

In front of Concubine Cheng, he tied up the Liang family, who was full of nonsense, and saved the cadres of Zhong Cui Palace. and took this opportunity to tie up Concubine Cheng, and unknowingly became the queen's confidant. Even if Zhu Jiashi was forced to death, he could escape without danger.

Offering advice to the queen and not being afraid of offending the concubine, Niu Colu Ruyue steadily preserved her position with a little effort.

In my opinion, as long as she continues to flatter the emperor, she will be able to fly on the branches one day. Who knows, not only did she not rush to work the emperor. On the contrary, he became more and more bold in front of the queen. In the blink of an eye, even Concubine Ying was defeated. And it was still when Concubine Ying was pregnant with the emperor.

Not only that, but in three or two clicks, she exposed the conspiracy of Concubine Jian to frame her, and won Yun to agree......

I started to get anxious, one might even say scared. That deep fear made me feel more and less confident, and my heart trembled when I faced Niu Co Lu Ruyue.

Although I disguised it well, although I was very good at acting, I still didn't have a half-point chance of winning. Even hiding one's emotions has become difficult. At this time, I already knew that Aunt Nan'er, who was serving beside me, was the concubine's person. No, it should be said that it is the person of the imperial concubine.

The queen went first, and the power in the palace changed. The concubine became the imperial concubine in charge of the palace. There are so many things that people can't see more and more clearly.

Maybe I'm lucky to have the emperor's flesh and blood. It is also very unfortunate that it is at such a time.

I know that Nan'er no longer counts the flesh and blood in my womb all the time, just because the imperial concubine can't tolerate the heir in my womb. I also know that even Niu Co Lu Ruyue has such plans.

Just, do you know how ridiculous I am?

When I knew that Niu Co Lu Ruyue would join forces with the imperial concubine, I was overjoyed, and I actually thought of a perfect way. Let their schemes be used on me, firstly, I can keep my light and maintain obscurity, and secondly, the emperor will inevitably feel sorry for me. The imperial concubine did not hesitate to sacrifice her royal daughter to win the emperor's mercy and gain favor for a short time. and Concubine Ying, isn't it precisely by relying on this point that she has regained the emperor's attention?

So why can't I?

A wise woman knows how to use everything she can in exchange for what she wants, no matter what she wants. If the emperor knew that my child was not available because of such a nobleman, then he would definitely resent her.

And I, not only can I be favored by the emperor again, but I can also frustrate the graceful concubine Rugui. Why not?

So, step by step, I walked up to the high tower, and I stood in front of the crowd.

So, when everyone rushed down the tower like crazy, I also took brave steps, holding my high bulging belly, and rushed down......

Everything was as I expected, and after that, the emperor treated me really well. But what kind of good it is, it can never be exchanged for the lack of heart. I can't anymore, I have children of my own.

God, do you really want to torture me like this?

I can't have any more children without children, and what a fatal blow it was to me. Remorse, resentment, and hatred devoured me, and I hated myself for being so stupid, why I had to use this method to get everything I wanted.

It's too late.

It was also at this time that I realized that I was as good as a concubine! She is not the kind of woman I imagined, and instead of falling into the trap, she makes amends to me at every turn. Help me become a concubine, affectionate and righteous, and even my own daughter-in-law is willing to raise her under my knees.

The more this happened, the more I didn't dare to tell her the truth. In fact, it wasn't her fault at all, it was my own intention.

Fate, he played such a joke on me so ruthlessly. Fortunately, there is still Xiaowei...... I clenched the bow tightly in my hand and slowly closed my eyes with a smile on my face.

In this life, I regret not being at the beginning, I don't blame anyone, I only hate myself.