154 If you can't give me love, it's okay to give me hate
But Xia Muyao's body exuded a fragrant fragrance, so he couldn't stop, he buried it in her, and for a moment, he wanted to bite off a piece of meat from her.
Love is too obsessed, but there is no response, which makes him feel torn apart.
Zhao Yuanting took off Xia Muyao's clothes, looked at her pure and immaculate body like a newborn baby, and looked at her well-behaved appearance when she was asleep, he kissed her gently, and he was afraid that the kiss would be hard and leave traces, which would be found by Xia Muyao when he woke up, so he had been cautious, like holding a fragile treasure in his arms.
Zhao Yuanting worked hard for a long time before he felt Xia Muyao's body slip slightly, and he touched her little face, "Heshuo, you just think it's a dream." ”
When Zhao Yuanting invaded, Xia Muyao, who was in a coma, frowned, and sighed, Zhao Yuanting stopped, looked at her unconscious appearance, and couldn't help but feel sad, he had countless opportunities to get her back then, but he couldn't bear to see her panic and resistance, but now, in this case, he finally got involved in her body.
For some reason, Zhao Yuanting wanted to cry.
He slowly**, for fear of hurting Xia Muyao, he didn't feel the happiness of **, but was hit by endless sadness, "Heshuo ......" He choked up and called Xia Muyao's name, "Do you know how much I love you." ”
But as soon as the word love came out, Zhao Yuanting couldn't help but feel a little ashamed, what he was doing at the moment was not an act of love?
After being stunned for a while, Zhao Yuanting got off Xia Muyao's body, and then put on Xia Muyao's clothes and hugged her in his arms, which made him feel down-to-earth and gentle. He has never been able to do anything to her like other women, just to vent his **, what he hopes is to get Xia Muyao's response and the joy of seeing her.
This night, Zhao Yuanting hugged Xia Muyao, as if he was in Youfu Nunnery, and slept quietly.
***
The next day, when Xia Muyao woke up, it was already half a ring, she sat up, only felt that she was weak, this sleep was so long, she had one dream after another, in the dream, she saw Huerhe, they were very affectionate.
However, waking up is nothing but nothing.
Xia Muyao sighed slightly, got up and walked to the dresser, Qingyun saw it, and hurriedly brought the warm water over to serve. Then, after serving Xia Muyao for breakfast, it was sunny outside, Xia Muyao went down to the corridor, looked at the palace, and it was still familiar.
Looking up at the sky, occasionally birds flew by, Xia Muyao looked up and looked at it stupidly, thinking to herself, how good it would be if she also had wings, and fly wherever she wanted.
When Zhao Yuanting went down to the court, thinking of what happened last night, I don't know if Xia Muyao noticed it, he felt a little uneasy, so he put aside the affairs in his hand for the time being, and went to Siyao Palace after leaving the court.
In Si Yao Palace, Xia Muyao's expression was the same as usual, and when she saw Zhao Yuanting, she was still faint, but she was gone.
Zhao Yuanting secretly breathed a sigh of relief, it seemed that she was unaware of what she did last night.
Fortunately, Zhao Yuanting was also a little ashamed of himself, in front of Xia Muyao, he was finally more and more not very bright.
Zhao Yuanting looked at Xia Muyao quietly from a distance that was not far away, and seeing that Xia Muyao did not pay attention to him, he sighed slightly, and then turned around and left Siyao Palace.
The battle ahead has been tight recently, but the ministers did not allow him to go out in person, he looked at the battle report in front every day, and suppressed his hidden anger, how did these generals command this battle?
Zhao Yuanting had already decided that whether the ministers agreed or not, he would personally go to supervise the war.
Before setting out, he would write an edict to establish Zhao Yi as the crown prince, in case he made a mistake in front, Zhao Yi could ascend the throne as the emperor, and he also looked for an auxiliary minister, and he also believed in Zhang Yaxian's ability, she and the Juyi Village behind her could assist Zhao Yi.
And the most embarrassing thing for him is Xia Muyao, with her, it is not very convenient whether it is on the road or in the barracks, but without her, he can't rest assured, he is not in this palace, Zhang Yaxian can cover the sky with one hand, she wants to be unfavorable to Xia Muyao, it is too easy.
Even if he could make a holy decree to Zhang Yaxian and ask her to ensure Xia Muyao's safety, he would have to say that he would never come back if he went, he would always plan for the worst. If he really can't come back, his holy decree will be worthless, and at that time, wouldn't it push Xia Muyao into a dead end?
After thinking about it, Zhao Yuanting finally made a decision, take Xia Muyao with him, he is alive, he will take care of her, if he dies, he will let his cronies send Xia Muyao back to Beihu to Huerhe, in this world, he can only entrust Xia Muyao to Huerhe is the most assured.
***
For dinner, Zhao Yuanting went to Zhang Yaxian's Fengyi Palace.
He has always rarely gone to the harem, let alone eaten in the harem, so Zhang Yaxian was so happy that she added a lot of dishes that Zhao Yuanting liked in her small dining room.
"Don't be busy, I'm here to accompany you and Yi'er, it doesn't matter what you eat." Zhao Yuanting said lightly to Zhang Yaxian.
Zhang Yaxian heard this, her eyes couldn't help but redden, how could Zhao Yuanting say such warm words to her, she asked the palace maid to bring Zhao Yi over, the little guy can already walk, he looks strong, when he sees Zhao Yuanting, he staggered towards him, Zhao Yuanting bent down and hugged Zhao Yi, his eyes revealed the light of kind fatherly love, Zhang Yaxian saw it on the side, and couldn't help but feel a little guilty, if it wasn't for his own hands for so many years, Zhao Yuanting would have at least three or five children at the moment.
"I have decided to personally go to the front to command the battle, I have arranged the affairs in the palace, if I can't come back, you can have a good life with your intentions." During the banquet, Zhao Yuanting said lightly, and his tone was just ordinary.
Zhang Yaxian was stunned when she heard this, "Your Majesty, why did you go in person?" ”
"This country was laid down by me and the emperor, and now that foreign enemies have invaded, our army is losing and retreating, how can I sit idly by?" Zhao Yuanting said so on his lips, but he said in his heart that he would not be able to lose to Huerhe.
"Then go out on the expedition, why do you want to scare the concubines by saying that you can't come back." Zhang Yaxian said, her eyes couldn't help but get wet.
"The world is unpredictable, and you have to prepare for the worst." Zhao Yuanting raised his eyes and looked at Zhang Yaxian.
Zhang Yaxian only felt choked in her throat, and did not say anything more, she was overjoyed just now, but at this moment she was immersed in sadness.
After dinner, Zhao Yuanting and Zhao Yi played for a while, then left Fengyi Palace and went to Siyao Palace.
***
In Si Yao Palace, Xia Muyao had dinner and looked up at the sky sullenly in the palace courtyard.
Since being imprisoned in Si Yao Palace, Xia Muyao's biggest hobby is looking up at the sky, where there is boundless freedom that she yearns for.
When Zhao Yuanting came in, he saw Xia Muyao with a lonely face, and looked at the last ray of daylight left in the sky.
Hearing the movement, Xia Muyao withdrew her gaze and glanced at him lightly, without words. She and Zhao Yuanting should be much closer than others, but they have never had a heart, and Xia Muyao's heart has never been given to him.
Now, Xia Muyao has Huerhe in her heart, and she deliberately keeps a distance from Zhao Yuanting.
"Peshuo, I'm going to go on the expedition the day after tomorrow." In the end, Zhao Yuanting opened his mouth first.
"On the march?" Xia Muyao's complexion changed, "You're going to fight Huerhe?" ”
"yes, which of us do you want to win?" Zhao Yuanting asked in a deep voice.
"Huerhe is my husband and the father of my children, so I naturally hope that he will win." Xia Muyao did not hide her thoughts.
"Heshuo, you are so ruthless, do you know that these days, every word you say seems to be cutting my heart with a knife." Zhao Yuanting looked at Xia Muyao with his eyes
There is a deep frustration.
"So, why do you keep me in a position like this?" Xia Muyao looked up at Zhao Yuanting.
In the cool autumn breeze, a leaf fell on Xia Muyao's hair, Zhao Yuanting reached out and held the leaf in his hand, and said to himself: "Since your heart is not here with me, it's okay if you are here." ”
Xia Muyao looked at Zhao Yuanting, "Do you even hesitate to hate you more and more?" ”
"Since you can't give me love, it's okay to hate me." Zhao Yuanting replied in a deep voice.
When Xia Muyao heard this, she stopped talking to Zhao Yuanting, and turned around and entered the palace. Qingyun waited for her to lose her hair as usual, changed her bedclothes, and drank a cup of nectar tea.
"What kind of incense did you smoke yesterday? I slept soundly, so I'll smoke that tonight. Xia Muyao remembered that she slept soundly last night, so she said to Qingyun. She hadn't slept so well for a long time, and every night when she was in bed, she thought about Huerhe, thinking about Xiao Shizi, thinking about when she would be able to go out?
Only last night, she fell asleep in bed, and it was the best night she slept in Siyao Palace.
"Yes." Qingyun bent down to answer, and went down to prepare incense.
****
After Qingyun burned the incense, after a while, Xia Muyao was also sleepy, and then went to bed.
Zhao Yuanting also entered the dormitory, and Qingyun waited for him to change his bed clothes as usual, and then retreated.
Zhao Yuanting came to the side of the bed and lay down beside Xia Muyao, he stretched out his big hand and rubbed Xia Muyao's little face, "Heshuo, I decided to take you away the day after tomorrow, how will it be on the road after tomorrow, there are many variables, sometimes it is impossible for you and me, let's really be husband and wife tonight, whether we can have our children depends on the will of heaven tonight." ”
After speaking, Zhao Yuanting took off his and Xia Muyao's bedclothes, he covered Xia Muyao's body, kissed her gently, and patiently waited for the sleeping Xia Muyao's body to be slightly wet, and then slowly entered her body.
Zhao Yuanting's heart was sad and sad, he held the soft Xia Muyao in his arms, looked at her pure little face in a coma, and his eyes gradually became wet.
He was startled by his own tears, he forgot that he was also a person who could shed tears, he hadn't cried for a long time, and now he felt inexplicably happy. With tears in his eyes, he really merged himself with Xia Muyao.