As soon as I finished speaking, I raised my head slightly, and caught a glimpse of Lin Zheng pushing the door in.

My anger clouded my sanity at once.

I increased my strength and pushed Lin Zhicheng away, and walked towards the door like a madman, I rushed up and raised my hand and slapped Lin Zheng's face hard, I glared at him and yelled: "You scumbag!" Beast! Why are you harming my child! My first child was harmed by your wife, why did you push me when I finally got pregnant, what are you pushing me for! I ask you to push me to do something! You murderer! You killed my child, you killed my child! Are you human! ”

I slammed the palm of his face, which became painful because of the impact, but I didn't realize it, I raised my hand and wanted to continue to shake it, tears blurred my eyes, my palm deviated from the direction in the blur, I don't know who grabbed it, in a trance, I seemed to see Zhang Lei come with a nurse, and then I was held down like a madman.

Soon, my eyes went black.

When I woke up again, I opened my eyes to see the familiar lights on the ceiling, the bronze handles shining dimly, and I turned my head to see that there was a bear storage jar I had bought on top of the dresser not far away.

It's all like yesterday, but it's not yesterday anymore.

I took my gaze back, and subconsciously put my hand on my abdomen, but there was no heart-rending crying, only a sense of powerlessness without attachment after the collapse of hope.

After calming down, I felt guilty for my actions in the hospital, but I did lose the courage to spend my life with him.

I know I can't blame him for anything, but I blame him for something. I blame him for having a bunch of weird family members, I blame him for being in the mall, but none of them can help me keep my children.

I'm also to blame that, but in fact, I'm most blamed for myself.

I was originally just flesh and blood, I was originally an ordinary person, I should have been in peace, I should not have been trapped in this life that brought me nothing but destruction or destruction.

But what about me, frustrated all the way, standing up in the blur of flesh and blood, and then because I can't let go of attachment and obsession, I hurt again and again, and today I realized that when I was wandering in Lin Zhicheng's world with a broken head and blood, I was already walking barefoot through the thorns, I had to be so painful, I had to lose my child again to know clearly, I am not the Virgin Mary, I can't save anyone, and I am the one who needs to be saved and redeemed the most.

What I'm living now is not a life, but an episode of a b-reality drama with an intense and hurtful plot.

If Lin Zhicheng and I were a love drama three years ago, then now we are more like a sequel to the tiger's head, from the grandeur and brilliance of the fireworks night, to the storm in the process, and now we must rely on a hasty ending to save each other.

I was so tired that I was exhausted.

What's more, I don't want me and Lin Zhicheng to live in the next few days, I am resentful, he is in a dilemma between guilt and guilt, and between Lin Zheng and me, and the only trace of affection between us is exhausted.

At this time, I will retreat in a hurry, and I will be embarrassed and embarrassed at that time.

So, the most important thing I should do now is for me to be like a man, to end all this, to end all this falsehood, to end everything that hurts, to end everything that does not belong to me, to end everything that seems perfect but is scarred.

Just like the beauty of fireworks, after it has been beautiful once, we should not covet it again, otherwise it will be even more sad to see those ashes later.

I climbed out of bed and walked out barefoot.

Lin Zhicheng seemed to be cooking something, and he turned his back to me, and seemed to be a little in a hurry.

I coughed softly.

Probably preoccupied, my cough made the things in Lin Zhicheng's hand fall to the ground with a "clang", he quickly picked it up, turned his head, the smile was very reluctant, but it seemed bright, he said: "Zhou Mo, you are awake, you can eat later." ”

I'm so cruel.

I took his face as the focus of all my eyes, I just looked at his good-looking outline and good-looking eyebrows and eyes quietly, looking at him even if he was smiling, the tiredness and sadness in his eyes could not be concealed, I slowly spoke, I said, "Lin Zhicheng, let's divorce." ”

I was too cruel indeed.

With my words, the soup spoon in Lin Zhicheng's hand immediately fell to the ground again, and the crisp sound echoed in this huge space, and then it took a long time for me to hear Lin Zhicheng's weak response, he said: "Zhou Mo, don't talk nonsense." ”

I still looked at him, occasionally at the spoon that had fallen on the ground, his red eyes and the quiet spoon blurred in my eyes, but my soul was numb, and I felt that I had to hurry up and finish it all so that I could have a moment of peace of mind.

So I said indifferently, "Let's get a divorce." ”

As my words were thrown to the ground, Lin Zhicheng rushed over quickly, he hugged me fiercely into his arms, his voice was anxious and incoherent, he said: "Zhou Mo, give me another chance, I will protect you well in the future, I will definitely protect you well." Don't leave me, I can't do without you, don't go, don't go. ”

I broke his hand with a blank face, and watched his tears turn into gray in the process of breaking, and how could I continue to break his hand so indifferently, and I resisted his embrace so much.

I finally pushed him away.

In the increasingly heavy atmosphere, my tears came out again.

I meditated in my heart that this was the last time to shed tears in front of him.

I want to release him, I want to save myself, I know very clearly that too many seas and skies need to be released to each other to fulfill.

Like many people who remain single until they are old, they don't die without love.

But living in such instability all the time, living in mutual torment, and spending most of my life wandering and wasting each other, this is a waste of life.

I know that it is not easy for me to get married with him, and I also know that I have paid too much price to get to this point with him, and I am scarred and full of scars.

But I can't always because it is not easy for me to get these things, because I have paid the price for getting these things, and I have paid for the scars to get these things, I have to endure the pain and use obsession to grasp all this in my hands again.

I crouched on the ground.

I kept silently looking at Lin Zhicheng with tears in my eyes, until layer after layer of tears dried up on my face, and then I was covered by fresh water, I seemed to be about to lose all my tears today, and I seemed to want to use my tears to create another Yangtze River.

But I will never be able to shed my tears, and I will never be able to build a Yangtze River, I finally stopped my tears, and I finally said tiredly: "You let me go, Lin Zhicheng." And I will let you go, so you don't have to be caught between me and Lin Zheng and be in a dilemma. Don't say that you can cut off relations with Lin Zheng for me or something, I know you can't do it, you are also an ordinary person, no matter how much you hate him, he is still your father, and the contradiction between me and him is irreconcilable. Human life is too short, and I don't want us to waste time in this life and have nothing else to do with it. I'm tired, I'm really, really tired, I can't see hope, I can't see the dawn of happiness, all I get is pain or pain. Such days make me worse than death, I don't want to live such days for a second, I beg you to spare me, and let yourself go. ”

Lin Zhicheng was silent.

He also sat down and sat down face to face with me, looking at each other, his eyes tangled.

I don't know how long it took, but I smelled some burnt mush anyway, but the two of us looked at each other like this, not moving.

In the end, it was Lin Zhicheng who broke this deadlock.

His voice trembled a little, and he said, "Do you really want to leave me?" Do you feel bad with me? Are we really completely unable to go on? Are you talking about divorce from the bottom of your heart? ”

I froze for a moment, then nodded numbly.

Lin Zhicheng sighed, he stood up, and stumbled a little towards the kitchen, and soon I heard a clang, and the silver-white pot lid shook on the ground for a while, and then stopped.

Lin Zhicheng didn't pick it up, he turned to the coffee table, he picked up his mobile phone and dialed a call, and then he went to the bedroom and closed the door.

It was about ten minutes later that he came out, his expression was also blank, and he said: "I have already found someone to draw up a divorce agreement, I can come out tomorrow, and soon you will get your wish." ”

I hummed, and I stood up and went to the bedroom to pack my clothes.

When I was packing my winter clothes into those suitcases, Lin Zhicheng came over.

He tore open my box, and he said lightly: "This house will be given to you, you don't have to move, I am the one who wants to move." It's too late now, and we'll talk about it tomorrow. ”

I looked at the clothes scattered all over the place, and suddenly hugged my shoulders and felt a little overwhelmed.

Lin Zhicheng left like this.

When he came back, he had a lot of lunch boxes in his hand, so he stood at the door of the bedroom and knocked on the door and said, "Let's have a casual meal." ”

I didn't move, he came and pulled me up, his voice was very hoarse, he said: "Even if you want to divorce, I am still your husband now, I will give you the freedom behind you, at this moment, even if you want to be angry with me, you have to eat, don't damage your body." ”

His last words, the voice became lower and lower, and they were very heavy in my heart, and I got up, went out with him, and sat down on the couch.

He spread out all the things he was carrying, and when he brought me chopsticks, he said lightly: "It's all what you like to eat, and I won't help you buy these in the future, so you can buy them yourself, but you have to eat less parfait in the future, it's not good for your stomach." ”

I twisted my head over.

Lin Zhicheng became extremely verbose.

He said: "No matter where you go in the future, whether you go hiking or mountaineering, pay attention to safety first." Don't go alone, but find more friends to go with, so that you can take care of yourself. Also, no matter how much you are a woman, you are actually still a girl, don't work too the road outdoors, the scenery is natural, and life and health are your own. ”

I opened my mouth, but finally just hummed heavily.

Lin Zhicheng continued: "If you meet a suitable man in the future, you must not be too good to him, and don't put everything you have into it at every turn, you have to leave five points to love yourself, don't work too hard, and don't wronged yourself too much for him, let him slowly discover your goodness, let him spoil you, protect you, be good to you, and give you happiness." Don't meet people like me again, I don't give you anything but scars. Keep your eyes open in the future, you know? ”

I hummed again, tears almost bursting out of my eyes.

Finally, I raised my face slightly.

And Lin Zhicheng, he was probably the director of the political and educational department in his last life, so he would continue to chatter: "You have to eat less ice cream, and it's best not to call too much wine when you go out to eat oysters, it's always bad for a girl to drink so much, and alcohol is not good for the body." Also, don't eat the flower crab in the future, you have to make a red dot every time you eat it, don't forget it all the time, you know? ”