My eyes were glued to the bamboo stick, "Twenty-fourth sign, down, Yu Ji." ”

Yu Ji?

Yu Ji, Xiang Yu. Life and death together. Die.

My hands trembled and I could barely hold a small bamboo stick, and I swallowed the waves in my throat and looked at Lafayette, who was still praying reverently.

I took the sign to the master who unsigned it, and he found the sign behind the many signs and handed me two notes, "The three girls don't meet, the alliance doesn't make sense, the door is dry, and the Su Su is heavy." ”

The other note is unsigned, which probably means that the villain is in turmoil, and the husband has adultery, so the person concerned is very troubled, and if it continues, he will be besieged by mourning clothes.

Villains, adultery, mourning clothes.

Every word pricked my optic nerve.

Tang Shuo ran to my side, took the sign in my hand and asked, "How is it?" ”

In a trance, he had already drawn the paper in my hand, and soon he eagerly asked the unraveling master, "What does this mean, why do you wear mourning clothes......

Tang Shuo's fierce silence, his meaningless eyes stared at me, and then turned his head to look at the unifier, "Is there a solution?" ”

The master opened his mouth, with an expression of wanting to speak, and shook his head slightly, "Don't say, don't say." ”

Nima had something to say, and I couldn't help but say righteously, "Doesn't that mean that if I don't get a divorce, my husband will die?" ”

I gritted my teeth and spit out two mouthfuls of saliva in front of him, "You charlatans. ”

Yes, charlatans.

Whether it is yesterday's master or today's draw, they are just charlatans who cover their ears and steal the bell.

Lafayette had already walked over and said lightly, "Let's go." ”

She didn't ask me any questions about the signing, and with tears in my eyes, I watched Galeries Lafayette's obscure face walk out with her feet up.

As soon as I stepped out of the gate, my body shivered, the cold air hit my face, and when I looked up, I saw that small snowflakes were flying in the sky and fell to the ground and turned into water droplets, which was the first snow of the year.

The bare tree trunks of the temple stood lifelessly, and the cold wind blew on the face like a knife, and the pain was piercing.

Snowflakes flew to the top of my head, on my face, nose, mouth, eyelashes, a layer of frost and snow condensed in front of my eyes, I could barely see the road ahead, my arms suddenly tightened, Lafayette took me and walked out, in front of me was Tang Shuo's tall back, hurried steps.

I don't believe what they say, I call them charlatans, I hate them for cursing my marriage, cursing my seriously ill husband.

My brain is like a movie switching, Xu Haochen's smile at Wu Yu last night, Xu Haochen's unexplained first aid, Xu Haochen's bloodless face......

Scene by scene, it became clearer and clearer in front of my eyes......

The internal organs were twisted together, and it hurt vigorously.

Even so, I still have hope, today, with such advanced medicine, can I still cure Xu Haochen's illness, even if it can't be cured, even if he can only lie in bed for the rest of his life, as long as he lives, he is my husband.

As for Wu Yu, I don't believe Xu Haochen has her in his heart.

"Mourning clothes", that is clearly the trick of charlatans, if he can see the future of others, why should he nest in a temple to do such a divination, so many people in the world who are troubled by disease and poverty, he can be a savior.

The car drove all the way slowly, and through the inky window, a white expanse covered the original color of the city. It was as if the heavy ink stains had melted away in my eyes, leaving only a large area of darkness.

The atmosphere in the carriage was as quiet as a pool of water. I can roughly guess what Tang Shuo is thinking, it is nothing more than that he believes the words of yesterday's master and today's signature. I turned my head sideways to Lafayette's secretive eyes, I wanted to penetrate her eyes to see through her heart, it turned out that the Xu family's thoughts were deep, one was more unpredictable than the other, I couldn't understand what Lafayette was thinking after all.

My fear is that she'll also believe the nonsense.

When I arrived at the ward, Tang Shuo took the unsigned note and handed it to Xu Haochen, with a detailed explanation, Wu Yu's triumphant eyes swept over me with disdain, and his expression seemed to say, "Look, you are a broom star." ”

"Get out." I yelled at Wu Yu.

"Haochen." Wu Yu was coquettish.

Xu Haochen couldn't see any expression in his unfazed eyes, and his faint voice was like a breeze without any emotion, "You go out first." ”

Wu Yu glared at me and walked out unwillingly.

"I don't believe that." Xu Haochen's weak voice was soaked with weakness, "Even if I die, I don't want a divorce." ”

"You're not going to die." I said eagerly, "I won't let you die if there's even the slightest hope." ”

Tang Shuo spread his hands indifferently, "Anyway, the master and the sign said so, believe it or not." ”

Lafayette only sighed vigorously, her eyes filled with anxiety, sorrow, and a light that I couldn't understand.

I knelt beside Xu Haochen, "Do you want to eat, you haven't eaten anything in the morning." ”

Xu Haochen shook his head lightly, "I can't eat, my stomach is uncomfortably swollen." ”

I choked with tears in the corners of my eyes and said, "How can I do without eating, how can my stomach be swollen, I'll call Dr. Zhang to check it out." ”

"No, you don't." Xu Haochen's pale lips closed one by one, "Dr. Zhang came to check it just now, and said that it may be caused by a bad mood." ”

"Fart." I couldn't help but explode, "Bloated stomach has something to do with bad mood." ”

Xu Haochen closed his eyes and the faint voice was erratic, as if there was nothing, "I'm tired, sleep for a while." ”

Seeing his weak appearance, tears rushed out like this, and I turned my head to look at Lafayette, "Mom, let's transfer Haochen to another hospital, or go abroad, it's just a car accident, and it's not an incurable disease." ”

Galeries Lafayette sighed again.

"The best experts in the country are here." Tang Shuo said, "It's the same no matter which hospital you go to. ”

I couldn't help but pick up the pillow on the folding bed and hit Tang Shuo's body hard, roaring angrily, "You get out of here, that bullshit master is what you found, aren't you just looking forward to me and Haochen divorcing, we don't want to divorce, I will accompany him whether he is dead or alive, I see that you are also a liar, and Haochen usually ......"

Tang Shuo didn't dodge, just let me fight.

Eventually, I rushed out of the room, crouched on the couch and cried.

Yes, I will accompany him when he dies or lives. Still, I wanted him to live.

He is only 31 years old, just the best age, with parents and a son who is more than 1 year old. Most importantly, I love him and I want to see him live well, whether I'm around or not.

The word divorce haunts me like a spell, and I feel like I'm in an invisible net, and the more I struggle, the tighter I am bound.

Throughout the day, Xu Haochen only drank half a bowl of soup. All day, Xu Haochen was sleeping.

At dinner, I called his name in his ear, he opened his eyes weakly, and I forced myself to put on a smile, "Husband, it's time to eat." ”

"I'll sleep again, I'm so tired." He said with an unsteady breath.

Tired.

How could he be tired.

I reluctantly turned my head and went out to find a doctor, and the doctor said the same words that have not changed for thousands of years, "in further analysis." ”

The smile on the corner of my mouth gradually dyed until tears flowed from my laughter, "You analyze, if my husband dies here, I will fight with you." ”

Xu Yunchang sighed, apologized to the doctor, and sent the doctor away.

I choked up, "Dad, do you also believe the words of the master and the lottery?" ”

Xu Yunchang sighed deeply again, and his solemn eyes looked at Xu Haochen, "I support any decision Haochen makes." ”

"Haochen doesn't want to divorce me." I said eagerly.

Xu Yunchang's dark pupils embellished the unfathomable body that fell on me, "As parents, they all want their children to be good." ”

I only thought he was thinking about Xu Haochen's health, and I didn't think deeply about his words, let alone understand another layer of his meaning.

I looked at Xu Haochen with a blurred vision, then at Lafayette and Xu Yunchang, and finally I held Qi Qi in my arms, Qi Qi raised his hand to wipe my tears, and his immature voice hit my heart, "Mom, don't cry." ”

Lafayette came over and was about to hug Qi Qi, Qi Qi drilled into my arms, and kept saying in his small mouth, "Mom, don't cry." ”

I raised my hand to wipe my tears, and reluctantly put on a stiff smile, "Qiqi and grandma go home, mom didn't cry." ”

Qi Qi blinked to see that I really didn't cry anymore, so he jumped off of me and took Lafayette's hand, and Lafayette said softly, "Let's go and say goodbye to Dad." ”

I went into the room with them, Xu Haochen was breathlessly panting, my heart was almost jumping out of my chest, Xu Yunchang quickly pressed the service bell at the head of the bed, and called the doctor.

Soon Xu Haochen was sent to the emergency room again, watching the doctors coming in and out, I sat on the ground weakly, like a straw floating in the sea, and my thin body could be swallowed by the sea breeze and waves at any time.

After a while, the doctor brought us two slips and asked us to sign, and my legs were so weak that I could barely stand, and the doctor was still urging me.

Lafayette and Xu Yunchang looked at each other and looked at me together.

"What the hell happened to my husband?" I felt compelled to ask why.

"Lumbar spinal cord rupture." The doctor's words were cold and piercing to my ears.

"How can it break while lying in bed?" My heart was pounding out of my chest.

"The cause is under further analysis, sign it quickly, otherwise it will be accompanied by muscle atrophy, even if he can save his life, he will not be able to stand up in this life." The doctor urged like a talisman.

"Let's sign it." Xu Yunchang said with a solemn face.

Lafayette burst into tears, "My son is pitiful, you are his wife, you can sign it." ”

"Hurry up, it's too late to have another operation."

The doctor's urging seemed to be taking Xu Haochen's life every minute and second, making my heart tremble so much, the doctor handed me two pieces of paper and a signature pen, I looked at it in a daze for two seconds, Xu Yunchang snatched it and handed it to me, "Sign it." ”

With trembling hands barely holding two pieces of paper and a pen, I scribbled my name and the doctor quickly took it and walked back to the operating room.

I sat down on the ground, cold tears had already flowed down my cheeks and into my mouth, and the three words "during surgery" were refracted in my eyes with bright red light, gradually rippling like blood, and bits and pieces gathered into an ocean, stinging my eyes.

I muttered, "Mom, will he be okay if he gets divorced?" ”

For a long time, there was only empty silence in my ears, accompanied by the sound of Lafayette sobbing from time to time.

"There are some things I should say and I shouldn't say, as a father, I hope Haochen is good, and I hope you are good, you are all my children." Xu Yunchang's rich voice seems to be without any emotion, and it seems to condense all the love in his life.

It was as if a piece of my heart had been stripped away, empty and painful, "If divorce can make him better, I will divorce." I just want him to get better. ”

"My poor son." Lafayette lay in Xu Yunchang's arms, crying and his shoulders were trembling.

Two hours later, Xu Haochen was pushed out of the operating room, and my heart twitched when I looked at his increasingly pale lips and face without a trace of blood.

I asked the doctor again about the cause, and I still pinned my hopes on medicine, and replied to my still cool words about the spleen and lungs, "Further analysis is underway." ”

Analyze, analyze.

I looked at Xu Yunchang's much older face, and the wrinkles on his forehead seemed to be a little deeper, "Dad, can't we take Haochen abroad?" ”

Xu Yunchang sighed deeply again, "The top experts in China are here, what problems can be solved when you go abroad?" ”

Expert? I think they're just as charlatans as bullshit masters.

Xu Yunchang and Lafayette threw Wu Yu onto the sofa, they slept in the next room, and Steward Su had already taken Qi Qi home.

This night is destined to be a sleepless night.

I sat next to Xu Haochen, holding his barely warm hand with both hands, I stared greedily at his face, if my departure could be exchanged for his health, I would be willing to stand in a no-man's corner and look at him.

My eyes traced his facial features, his nose, his eyebrows without blinking, under the illness of more than three months, every inch of his skin has faded from its former glory, but in my eyes it is still handsome, he is still the same seductive squirming beings who came against the light when they first met.

In my heart, he will always be my husband.

At three o'clock in the morning, Xu Haochen woke up.

"You, what's the matter, didn't sleep?" His faint voice panted.

"Waiting for you." I replied.

Xu Haochen opened his mouth to say something, and I touched his lips with my fingers, "Save some effort, don't speak." ”

After hesitating for a long time, I asked him, "Do you believe the words of the temple sign and the master?" ”

The corners of Xu Haochen's mouth trembled, nodded slightly, and shook his head slightly.

"Husband, I really want you to get better." I wept.

The wrinkles in Xu Haochen's eyebrows seemed to be unsmoothed, "I, I know." ”

"But, I want to guard you too." I continued.

The corners of Xu Haochen's mouth slowly opened, and the arc that seemed to be there quickly diffused, and he closed his eyes tiredly.

Looking at his shriveled lips, I picked up a cotton swab dipped in water and traced his lip line, I looked at him stupidly, tears fell on his cheeks, I caressed with my fingertips, all I wanted was his health, if I could......

The sky was white, and I was still sitting on the edge of the bed, and my tired eyes were locked on his face, and I wanted to carve everything about him into my eyes.

The first rays of sunlight in the early morning shone in, Xu Haochen's eyelids moved a few times, I knew that he was awake, maybe he was tired and didn't want to open his eyes, I fell in his ear, "Can I make you some sesame porridge?" Add a little more honey. ”

Xu Haochen slowly opened his eyes, there was a faint light floating in his eyes, and his voice was like a dead grass that had almost been uprooted in the mountains, swaying weakly, "Okay." ”

I tried my best to suppress the fluctuations of my bloody heart, and said softly, "I'll go and make porridge for you." You rest for a while, and I'll call you when the porridge is ready. ”

I walked into the kitchen with vain steps, mechanically washed rice, and poured water......

Wu Yu walked over and leaned against the kitchen door and sneered, "What's the use of deep love and righteousness, you husband and wife restrain each other, it seems that you can't let this Mrs. Xu's position go unacceptable, unless you wish Haochen died, so as to inherit his inheritance." ”

"He's not going to die." I muttered.

Today, I have long lost my fighting spirit.

"That's right, he won't die if you divorce, I advise you, if you really want Haochen to get better, get a divorce quickly, otherwise others will think that you are looking forward to his death." Wu Yu sneered sarcastically.

I rubbed my sore eyes, and walked to the room with a strong spirit, Xu Haochen was still resting with his eyes closed. I sat on a chair in front of the bed, took his hand in one hand, and rested on the side of the bed.

The whole night of exhaustion had drained me so much of my energy, and I wanted to be in a better state of mind to take care of him when he woke up.

After breakfast, Tang Shuo came again.

At this moment, I was a little stunned from the bottom of my heart when I saw him, as if he was the Fahai who beat the mandarin ducks, I swept him coldly, but he didn't care, and called my sister-in-law as usual.

When he entered the room, he asked Xu Haochen if he felt better as usual, and it happened that the doctor was doing rounds, so he knew what happened last night, "I'll just say that the master is very accurate, and many people are looking for him." Tang Shuo's voice was quite gloating.

I ignored him lazily, looked at the doctor, and said in a straight voice, "Doctor Zhang, I want to believe in science more, you give me an accurate sentence, what is the cause of Haochen's illness, is there any possibility of cure?" ”

Dr. Zhang's face was gloomy, and he said the words that have not changed for thousands of years, and have cooled people's spleen and lungs.

I sneered, "You are all sanctimonious doctors, and when you go out, everyone respects the angels in white who save people's lives, but in the end you are not as good as a charlatan, and the Medal of Honor hanging high in your office is just scrap iron and waste paper used to deceive the world and steal your name." ”

My words were very vicious, insulting not only their medical skills, but also their medical ethics.

"Yaoyao." Xu Haochen called me, "Don't talk nonsense. ”

Tang Shuo also hurriedly apologized to the doctor, "My sister-in-law is in a bad mood these days. ”

I just told the truth, but it became mine.

After the doctor left, Tang Shuo sat next to Xu Haochen and said to himself, "If the master I am looking for is a liar, then the temple's signature is also a liar, how can it be that two people join forces to deceive us, Xu Shao's name is also well-known, I don't know the temple, I dare not guarantee it, but the master I found is borrowing his ambition leopard gall, and he will not dare to deceive us." ”

I glared at Tang Shuo, "You don't have to provoke me with words, I don't believe in those illusory things, if the divorce can make Haochen better, I will divorce, but after the divorce, his condition is still recurring, and I will come back." ”

Xu Haochen glanced at me with meaningless eyes and did not speak.

Tang Shuo said: "I think it's okay, if he is still like this after the divorce, you can remarry, anyway, it's just a piece of paper." ”

He slammed his head, "I'll call that master to do the math again, and see when you get divorced." ”

I never believed in the auspicious day of the zodiac, but I never thought that I would have to pick an auspicious day for divorce.

Tang Shuo called the master again.

Galeries Lafayette sat beside him, not agreeing with us, not stopping us, silently thinking about something.

Tang Shuo's face was so big, and soon the master came.

The master said that if I sleep here every day, it will also affect Xu Haochen's health. He pretended to pinch his fingers and calculate, a week later is an auspicious day, I need to stay away from Xu Haochen before the divorce, his body will remain the same, and the recovery speed will be accelerated after the divorce, only if I remarry, he can get completely better.

Remarry?

I was so worried about guarding my family and my husband that I was asked for a divorce and asked to remarry.

"As long as his illness can get better, I think it's worth it." Tang Shuo stroked his chin with his fingers and said thoughtfully.

Tang Shuo sent the master away as if he knelt down to send the emperor back to the palace.

"Sister-in-law, you have to find someone to marry quickly, so that my brother can get better completely." Tang Shuo's voice was faint.

Galeries Lafayette sighed and walked out.

I walked to the window, looked at the bare trees in the hospital through the glass window, looked at the layers of frost and snow on the benches, and my heart was already like a long desert, desolate with no grass.

"Yaoyao." Xu Haochen called my name in a low voice.

I hurriedly walked over and shook his hand, "Husband, I'm here." ”

"Tang Shuo, you go out." Xu Haochen said.

Tang Shuo walked out with his legs raised and closed the door of the room, and an ominous premonition arose.

I stared at his face like the sound of a prisoner on the execution ground waiting for the sound of his life ending.

"If it weren't for He Boming, you would have been hit by a motorcycle and either killed or injured." A series of fluent words came out of his mouth, as if he had exhausted all his strength, "He really loves you, you can marry him." ”

"I don't want it." My throat seemed to be blocked by a barbed iron ball, and the flesh and blood blurred with pain every time I moved, "I don't marry him, I know you don't like him, you have fought with him, every time you see him, it is like a thorn in the flesh in the eye, I don't want to marry the man you hate." ”

"Yaoyao." Xu Haochen raised his hand with great effort, and his fingers touched the corners of my eyes, "Listen to me, those are all over, and it is difficult to find a man in this world who can exchange his life for your life at a critical moment, he loves you, he can give you happiness, and the happiness of the second half of your life is the most important thing." ”

"Didn't you almost lose your life for my life?" I cried out in a heart-rending voice.

Xu Haochen shook his head lightly, and slowly closed his eyes, "However, I can't give you happiness." ”

"Do you really believe the master's words?" I asked unwillingly.

I still hoped for his sober and wise mind, but this time I was wrong, he nodded slightly, and his bloodless lips poured out a crisp byte without thinking, "Faith." ”

Letter.

Even he believed it, what else did I have to say.

My heart felt like a blunt knife was cutting my flesh little by little, "Okay, in a week, we're going to get a divorce." ”

A tear slipped from the corner of his eye.

"Let's go." He said.

"Are you going to keep me away from you for a week?" I continued to ask unwillingly.

Xu Haochen nodded lightly and did not open his eyes.

What season is it now, by the way, it's winter, the floor heating in the hospital is very hot, the room temperature is 22 degrees, you don't need to be stinky and beautiful here to wear thin autumn clothes, but why do I feel cold, it seems that the cold wind outside the window penetrates through the cracks in the window, not only the body is cold, but the heart is also cold. It was so cold to the bone, as if every drop of blood was frozen, and it could no longer circulate.

Xu Haochen never raised his eyes to look at me, I just stood by the bed and looked at him intently, for a long time, until my legs were numb. I leaned over, kissed him on the cheek, and choked up, "Husband, I love you, forever." ”

Yes, even if I leave him, even if I am not with him, I love him.

He only knew that He Boming loved me, but he didn't know that my love had already been given to him.

He only knows that He Boming can give me happiness, but he doesn't know if I will be happy.

Without him, would I still be happy?

I began to pack my belongings, clothes, shoes, there was really nothing to pack, except for a few changes of clothes and pajamas, and I simply stuffed my things into the suitcase.

After packing up, I went to the bed again, holding Xu Haochen's face with both hands, and letting a tear fall on his face, I choked up, "Husband, you open your eyes and look at me, I'm leaving, I will come to see you every day in the future." ”

Xu Haochen raised his hand to hold my hand, but he still didn't open his eyes, his face was full of tears, I don't know if it was mine or his.

When I opened the door of the room, Tang Shuo got up from the sofa and said categorically, "Sister-in-law, that's right, don't worry, we will take care of him." ”

Seeing that I ignored him, his voice softened slightly, "My brother's body is the most important, isn't it?" ”

Tang Shuo personally drove me, I asked him to send me to Genting Jingyuan, Tang Shuo walked on the front foot, and someone came to visit the door, and the person who came was He Boming.

When I saw him through the wrought iron gate, I couldn't tell how I felt in my heart, and I could only be grateful to him in this life.

"Are you okay?" He Boming's breath was condensed in the air by the cold wind.

"Why are you here?" I asked.

He Boming paused for a moment and said bluntly, "He called me." ”

I opened the door, let him in, lifted the sofa cover, I let him sit on the sofa, I removed the white cloth on the coffee table, and sat on the coffee table in front of him, "Bo Ming, do you still love me?" ”

He Boming's eyes flickered a little unnaturally, and his mellow voice said in a low voice: "Love." ”

My eyes looked at the window covered with frost and snow, "I also loved you before, and my love for you is mixed with too many deeper feelings, not only the love of ordinary lovers, but also a kind of family-like thick feelings." But you let go of my hand halfway, I never blamed you, but from that moment on, I was destined to no longer love you, I later met Xu Haochen and married him, and now the person I love is him, and I left him because I loved him. ”

My voice paused, staring at He Boming's deep face, "I believe you also know the cause and effect of the matter, I can marry you, and I know that you won't hurt me, I can stay by your side without guard, but my love is given to Xu Haochen, and I can't take it back, can you accept it?" ”

The sparseness in He Boming's eyes grew wantonly, and he smiled with relief for a long time, "Yes." ”

The corners of my lips slowly opened the arc that seemed to be nothing, "Okay, you can go back." ”

"I'll accompany you, I'm worried that you're not safe alone."

I got up, "I'm still Mrs. Xu, it's inconvenient for you to be here." I'll call my mom and ask her to come and stay with me. ”

I lifted my legs and headed upstairs.

After I reconciled with Xu Haochen, I didn't call the cleaner here to clean up, every corner fell a layer of dust, I don't know how long I can live, I just lifted the sheets, took out a clean set of beds from the cabinet, I lay on the bed, crying silently.

Half an hour later, the doorbell rang, I got up to open the door, and I was greeted by Steward Su and a servant, "Madam, let us clean up your room." ”

I opened the door and let them in.

Ten minutes later, the doorbell rang again, led by a middle-aged woman about forty years old, who handed me the mobile phone in her hand and said respectfully: "Hello Miss Bai, why don't you call." ”

I took it, and it turned out to be the servant of He Boming's family who came to help me clean up the room.

I hesitated and refused, "I've got someone to clean up." ”

At noon, Steward Su made six dishes and one soup.

Looking at the colorful and fragrant food on the table, tears welled up in the corners of my eyes, "He ordered it." I asked.

"Yes." Steward Su replied.

I picked up a prawn and put it in my mouth, and after only one bite, I spit the shrimp onto the plate, and the chopsticks made a muffled sound when they were placed on the solid wood table, and I lifted my leg and walked out of the restaurant.

"Isn't it unappetizing?" Steward Su asked.

I turned around, the smile on the corner of my mouth gradually dyed, until tears flowed from my laughter, "You ask Xu Haochen for me, since he believes that his body can get better after the divorce, what do you want you to do in my room, and what do you come to cook for me, what is the difference between this and not getting divorced?" ”

After saying that, I strode to the bedroom while wiping my tears, and I fell on the bed and cried, since he wanted a divorce, why did he take care of me so much and disturb my heart.

Until I couldn't breathe until I cried, I went to the bathroom and washed my face, which was spotlessly clean.

An hour later, there was a knock on the door, and Steward Su stood at the door and said respectfully: "Miss Bai, the house has been cleaned up inside and out, and Xu Shao told me to stay and take care of you." ”

Miss Bai?

Scold. I sneered.

When I came in, I was still my wife, and in a blink of an eye, I became Miss Bai, needless to say, it was Xu Haochen's meaning, "I'm not sick or sick, I don't need to take care of me." I said coldly.

With that, I slammed the door slammed shut.

I just nestled in my room, and I didn't know what I was complaining about, what I was angry about.

It was getting dark, my stomach was already growling, I walked downstairs with vain steps, in the living room, Steward Su sat on the sofa, and when she saw me coming down, she immediately stood up, a little respectful between her eyebrows, "Miss Bai, I have already made dinner." ”

"Let's eat together." I said lightly.

Steward Su didn't eat with me, but stayed here at night, and she went to the guest room on the first floor to sleep by herself.

This night, I was very tired and went to bed early, but when I woke up, my red and swollen eyes were sore and uncomfortable.

I went to the kitchen to boil porridge, poured it into the thermos kettle, and after breakfast, I asked Steward Su, "I'm going to see him in the hospital, will you go with me?" ”

"Go." Steward Su replied without hesitation.

When the words fell, she suddenly raised her voice, "Miss Bai, you can't drive out by yourself." ”

"For ......"

I want to ask why, I regret just saying one word, do you still need to ask, this is clearly Xu Dashao's idea. He was worried about my safety, and his own body was almost unable to support it and was still worried about my safety.

I said in a hoarse voice, "It's okay, no one can take care of me for the rest of my life." ”

When I arrived at the hospital, in order to facilitate the doctors and nurses to make rounds the ward, the door was basically unlocked, I didn't knock on the door, I pushed the door in, there was no movement in the empty living room, I went straight to Xu Haochen's room, I didn't know if he was awake, I gently pushed the door open.

My little folding bed was still there, and a young man slept on it, looking like a nurse.

I walked to Xu Haochen's side, he seemed to be asleep, breathing evenly, his face was slightly better than yesterday, maybe he didn't see it for a day, this small change fell into my eyes, my heart was much happier, he will get better day by day, if that's the case, then there is nothing to complain about when I leave.

I looked at his face greedily, and couldn't help but bow my head and kiss his forehead, I clearly felt his eyelids move slightly, he slowly opened his eyes, and there was a slight light floating in his eyes, "You're here?" ”

"Hmm." I nodded slightly, "How are you feeling today?" ”

"The body is a little lighter." He replied.

"I boiled walnut and wolfberry porridge, you can drink a little." The corners of my mouth curled up in a vague curvature.

Xu Haochen's eyebrows softened, "Okay." ”

While we were talking, the nurse also woke up, a little respectful between his eyebrows, and Xu Haochen ordered him to go out.

I opened the thermos kettle and picked up a spoon to feed him porridge little by little, he drank very slowly, and would look at me with every sip.

I was in a trance, we were still the most loving couple, and I was taking care of my seriously ill husband. Every eye wave seems to have exhausted thousands of words, and the morning sun softens the warmth of the room.

After drinking the porridge, I shook his hand, "What else do you want to eat, tell me, and I'll bring it to you." ”

Xu Haochen's hand held mine, "If you're fine, stay at home, don't run around, take care of yourself, you've lost a lot of weight during this time." ”

There was a fine haze in my eyes, and I choked up: "Don't worry, I don't go anywhere, I just come to see you every day." ”

Xu Haochen's eyes looked in the direction of the cabinet, "Take the documents inside." ”

I obediently opened the cabinet and took the documents on the surface, and what caught my eye was a few big black characters of "divorce agreement".

Is he and I really going to get this far?

Xu Haochen opened in a calm voice, "House, car, shares, I will transfer some more to you, He Boming does not have children yet, you will have children in the future, Qi Qi will stay in the Xu family, I assure you that all the fixed assets of the Xu family are Qiqi, and Wu Ziheng will get a little deposit at most." ”

My hazy gaze met his calm eyes, and he said these words with such calmness, without any emotion.

"You really don't love me, do you?" I choked.

I knew he loved me, but when he was so eager to divorce, I was unwilling to hear the phrase "love." ”

"It doesn't matter anymore." Xu Haochen said lightly.

"Good. I know. But this little thing can't get me away, let me think about what more I want. "I deliberately embarrassed him.

I understand his helplessness over the pain, and I understand his desire for health.

Xu Haochen closed his eyes again, I looked straight at his face, I expected to see some reluctance on his face, all I saw was that expressionless face, and the pale sick face that made me worry.

Yes, I'm a little angry, angry at his choice, and I'm distressed, distressed that he clearly loves me, and he pretends to be indifferent to me everywhere.

He hurts, and I hurt.

If he can recover, I am willing to exchange the pain of the rest of my life for his sound body.

I turned around and left his room, Steward Su followed me, my steps froze, "Steward Su, stay here and take good care of your eldest young master." ”

Steward Su said eagerly, "Miss Bai......"

"I can't die." I rebuked.

As soon as I walked to the door, Lafayette came over with Qi Qi in his arms, and I played with Qi Qi for a while, and Lafayette kept looking at me in a trance, "Mom, what do you want?" I couldn't help but ask.

Lafayette said, "Nothing. ”

At noon, I received a call from He Boming to invite me to dinner, but I was not in the mood and refused directly.

When the doorbell rang in the evening, I walked to the courtyard, and I saw He Boming through the fence of the wrought iron gate, I walked over and opened the door, and he drove the car in and took out two lunch boxes in white plastic bags from the back seat.

"Have you eaten?" He asked with a smile.

I shook my head.

Walking into the living room, he took out the lunch boxes one by one and placed them on the coffee table, looked at the dishes I loved to eat, and said, "You still know me like this." ”

He Boming hooked the corners of his lips lightly and handed the chopsticks to my hand, "Let's eat." ”

After the meal, He Boming put the lunch box into the white plastic bag he brought, looking at him so thoughtful, I only felt that my heart was steaming in boiling water, almost suffocating.

I know his goodness, but my heart is not in him. I can't afford to repay his love in this life.

Xu Haochen is right, if he didn't really love me, how could he rush out without hesitation at the last moment, and use his body to resist the harm to me.

"Let's go." I opened my mouth to pry.

"Yaoyao, I'm just worried about your safety, I'll stay in the guest room." He Boming's eyes were rolling with deep feelings, and his voice sank a little.

"It's inconvenient." I refused.

As long as there is no divorce for a day, I am Xu Haochen's wife.

He Boming took a deep breath, he knew that I was a person who said the same, he didn't argue anymore, picked up the car keys and leftover lunch boxes and left.

The next day, I still boiled porridge early and brought it to Xu Haochen to eat, he said, "I can't eat it, let it go." ”

"Why can't you eat it?" I am concerned.

"Let's go." Xu Haochen opened his mouth to pick up people.

I took my nerve and walked out of his room with my legs raised.

Another day, I didn't go to see him. Although my heart is clenching, I just want him to taste the taste of missing me, and I myself am suffering from such longing.

The next day, I went to the hospital again, I gently pushed open the door of the ward and walked in, Lafayette was sitting on the sofa and was distracted, Qi Qi fell asleep in Lafayette's arms, I walked over and stroked Qi Qi's face with my fingers, and said softly, "Mom, Haochen doesn't want to see me, you go and open the door of the room, leave a crack, let me see him." ”

The crow's feet in the corners of Lafayette's eyes were twisted together, "Okay." ”

She put Qi Qi in my arms, walked over and opened the door of the room, leaving a small slit, she walked to Xu Haochen's side, "Do you want to drink water." ”

Through the thin crack in the door, Xu Haochen's face was reflected in my eyes, and his complexion was a little better than the day before, "Don't drink." His lips were a little bloody, too.

He is indeed gradually recovering, albeit slowly, but there is hope for him.

It's just that I can only look at him through the door like this. I watched his originally sturdy body lying on the hospital bed weakly, and his heart twitched violently.

I sighed lowly, so be it, if I am destined not to stay together, I will just hide in a corner that he can't see, watch him get better little by little, and then live a good life.

He Boming brought me food every night, and he would leave after dinner every night.

I would also go to the hospital every day while Galeries Lafayette was around, and I would ask her to leave a crack in the door for me, so that I could see the face that was always circling in my head.

The day before the divorce, Xu Haochen called me, "Do you have any objections to the divorce agreement?" ”

"Nope." I say.

The radio waves clearly transmitted his sigh into my ears, "After the divorce tomorrow, you can directly get a marriage certificate with He Boming." ”

"Okay." I replied crisply.

There was a long silence on the other end of the phone, "Goodbye." He said.

I didn't say goodbye and just hung up.

In the evening, He Boming came over with dinner as usual, and after the meal, his deep eyes stared at my face, "He called me." ”

"I know." I pretended to be calm.

In fact, my heart has turned upside down, Xu Haochen is arranging a divorce, and he is going to arrange for me to get married and arrange my future.

"Do you have any comments?" He asked again.

"Nope." It's still a simple and crisp answer.

He Boming opened his mouth, but finally didn't say anything.

This night, I had insomnia, and I scolded Xu Haochen thousands of times in my heart.

Following.

When He Boming came to my house, I refused to go with him.

He reluctantly took the first step.

At the entrance of the Civil Affairs Bureau.

He Boming and I stood side by side. My heart almost jumped out of my throat, and I prayed silently in my heart, praying that Xu Haochen would figure it out and not divorce me.

When Xu Haochen was carried down on a stretcher, looking at his weak body, my tears couldn't stop like a flood that had spilled the floodgates, and they merged into an ocean.

His sad eyes flickered on my face, and his countenance was a little bloody. He didn't talk to me, but greeted He Boming politely.

I felt irony in my heart, and it was like an item handover, passed from one person's hand to another's hand.

Most importantly, no one has ever asked me if I will be happy.

The medical staff carried Xu Haochen towards the inside, and He Boming and I walked side by side.

When I walked to the divorce registry, several big golden words on the wall behind the staff stinged my eyes, "The clutch is good and the affection is always there, and the family and friendship are warm." ”

Warm?

Without him, can I still have a warm family?

I turned my head sharply to look at Xu Haochen and asked, "Xu Haochen, when you rushed out to block me that day, did you ever think about what to do if you were killed, aren't you afraid?" ”

"Don't be afraid." Xu Haochen cut the railway.

"Are you not even afraid of death, but are you still afraid of living?" I roared.

Xu Haochen's thin lips opened slightly, and I threw the marriage certificate in my hand on his body again, "Why do you affect my happiness, and why do you think that I will be happy if I marry someone else, Xu Haochen, if you want to die, die, live, I will accompany you, I want to divorce, don't think!" ”