This is the only Orthodox church in the region, built in the early days of the Republic of China, hidden in a chaotic residential area, after the departure of the Russian diaspora, the church gradually abandoned. A wedding company rented the building, renovated it and converted it into a Western-style wedding chapel.

Lin Yueqing set up the tripod and photographed the appearance of Russian architecture from all angles, and he had a slight regret, this church building is quite distinctive, but it has been repaired to be bright and vulgar, and there is not much old-fashioned flavor, but it is probably better than not caring for it and then decaying.

He put away the tripod and walked in, only to see that there were glass windows on the four walls and the ceiling, which were transparent and bright, and Xin Chen was sitting in the last row of seats, staring at the cross in front of him.

Lin Yueqing put the camera bag aside and sat down beside her, "What are you thinking, Hehuan?" ”

"After I came back from Qinling, the first job I found was as an assistant in a photography studio, and my first day at work was to film the marriage of a couple. It was also a hot day, the priest who presided over the ceremony kept talking about Jesus, and the bride's makeup was almost gone. The corners of Xin Chen's mouth hooked up, and he smiled, "Alas, I don't know how to do it, sitting here reminds me of the scene of that day." ”

At that time, Xin Chen stayed in the hospital in Xi'an for nearly a week, and then insisted on being discharged from the hospital to buy a train ticket to go home, called the uncle to report that he had returned safely, and then lay at home for a full day, neither wanting to eat nor moving, and when the sun was setting, the smell of food wafted from the neighbor's house, which caused her to be even more nauseous and vomit. She thought that it was really strange to be trapped in the mountains and swallow compressed biscuits in the rain, and lie in the hospital to eat canteen food.

She finally ordered herself to get up, and leaned on the windowsill to look out. The so-called smokeless stove is nothing more than pushing the kitchen windowsill out and putting the gas stove on it, and the exhaust fan installed in the window draws out the fumes outside, and there are long traces of greasy under each exhaust fan. When it's time to cook, all kinds of flavors in the residential area are mixed, and the sound of stir-frying comes and goes, full of the smell of fireworks in the world. Xin Chen raised her head slightly, only to see the flock of pigeons fed by Master Lu on the opposite side flying by, they flying and circling, repeatedly skimming her line of sight at almost the same angle.

In front of her was an ordinary scene that she had seen since she was a child, returning from such a magnificent and dangerous place as Qinling, such a popular scene also had a different meaning, remembering the promise she made to her uncle on the phone yesterday, she cheered up, changed her clothes and went downstairs to buy something to eat.

The next day, Xin Chen began to look for a job, and accepted the first position that hired her almost without selection, of course, this is also a part-time job she did in college, following the photographer, without his guidance angle on the reflector, and occasionally quickly touching up the bride's makeup with the makeup assistant.

At that time, the church had just been renovated, and the colors were even brighter than now, and there were blooming roses everywhere, and there was a lot of joy. The couple didn't know if they were religious or not, but according to Western etiquette, the presiding priest was also very energetic, and preached at length the true meaning of marriage, such as not to love impulsively, strive to cultivate oneself to be a good partner, clear life goals, and understand God's will. His sonorous voice resonated in the church, and the momentum was quite impressive, but Xin Chen only felt tired, she didn't know if it was because her body had not fully recovered, or because the hot weather, the dazzling colors everywhere in the church, and the echoing sermons made her feel uncomfortable.

Finally the priest began to talk to the bride and groom and asked them to exchange rings. She suddenly couldn't hold it anymore, handed the reflector to her colleague, sat down in the last row, and looked at the tearful bride and the applauding guests from a distance, and shuddered and almost collapsed at the thought of having to watch this scene repeatedly in the future.

Of course, she was overly concerned, not many people in the local area chose church weddings, and her image processing skills quickly earned her a post-production position where she no longer had to follow the photographer to such scenes that caused her intense discomfort. Thinking about it now, I only feel that the reaction at that time was quite absurd and ridiculous, "I still thought that I would never come here in the future, but sitting in the same position today, I feel very peaceful and peaceful, how strange." ”

Lin Yueqing also smiled, "Do you believe in religion?" ”

Xin Chen shook his head and said, "I don't believe it, sometimes I wonder if it would be easier for me to achieve peace of mind if I had a faith." ”

"You're calm enough, Hehuan, not like a girl your age." Lin Yueqing looked at her with a smile, "When I hiking on Taibai Mountain, this point has already impressed me. ”

"I confess, I'm pretending, Yueqing, in fact, I'm scared, but I'm even more afraid that my fear will frighten you, or it will restrain you and make you give up your chance to escape, after all, you were still a child at the time."

"Here it again is, I was almost 20 years old at the time, not a child."

Xin Chen smiled, "Okay, kid, you're not a kid. ”

Lin Yueqing smiled helplessly and looked at her sideways, "Hehuan, you don't have to pretend in front of me, especially now, you don't have to be happy." ”

Xin Chen was surprised, "Yueqing, I have nothing to pretend to be in front of you." I'm not really unhappy right now, but, since you say so," she leaned her head on his shoulder, "just lend me a lean." I don't know how to do it, but it's really tiring, more tiring than six hours in a row. ”

On Taibai Mountain, the two of them sat in the tent, the showers outside had stopped, and there was a thin layer of mist everywhere, when Lin Yueqing once again refused Xin Chen's proposal to let him go alone, she was silent for a long time, and she leaned her head on his shoulder like this, but immediately raised it and asked if it hurt his injuries. Thinking of the past, Lin Yueqing smiled slightly.

"Why are you tired, because of Lu Fei?" He asked her softly.

Xin Chen smiled annoyedly, "Hey, why does everyone conclude that I should have something to do with him?" ”

"Lu Fei loves you, Hehuan. He went to the United States on a business trip a few months ago, and went to my dormitory with my little cousin, and after seeing your photo, he knew that you were in distress on foot, and at that time, he happened to be back to the local area to look for you, and you just missed it. ”

"Is this what he told you? But that's not missing at all, we've long gone on different paths, and there's no point in meeting again. ”

"So you went on to the hike just to avoid him?"

"Oh my God, you think like that, I hope he doesn't reason like that. No, Yueqing, I wouldn't deliberately look for an opportunity to kill myself in order to avoid someone, that's just ridiculously hypocritical, not to mention that it almost dragged you down. I've always been willful, but I'm not so willful as to disregard my own lives and the lives of others. I was just in a bad state during that time, tired of the work at that time, plus I didn't want to see him, and I was ready to find a random place to relax, and the only mistake was that I was not prepared. ”

"On Taibai Mountain, you have a fever and are unconscious, and you keep calling his name, tell him not to go, Hehuan, don't lie to yourself."

Xin Chen sat up straight, turned his head to stare at Lin Yueqing, "Really? Seeing Lin Yueqing's affirmative expression, she bit her lip and thought about it for a long time before she smiled bitterly, "I didn't know, I was so sick." She suddenly realized something, and raised her hand to cover her mouth, "You won't tell Lu Fei about this, will you?" ”

Lin Yueqing said with a smile: "I really said, he must ask for details, then okay, if he fails you, then he deserves to be blamed with a conscience." ”

Xin Chen's expression changed, and after a while, he shrugged, "Yueqing, I am not acting in a soap opera with him, no one has let anyone down, but he is going to study abroad, I said to break up, and then go their separate ways, it's very ordinary." This misunderstanding is so ridiculous, no wonder he looked at me with a guilty and repentant face, hoping that he didn't dump his girlfriend for this reason, I can't afford to take this responsibility. ”

"Don't you love him?"

"Yueqing, who did you love when you were 15 years old?"

Lin Yueqing thought about it seriously, "I am relatively late, and I am still very pure when I am 15 years old. Someone has written me a love letter, and I have had a vague crush on a girl, but it doesn't seem to be love. ”

"When I was 15 to 18 years old, I loved someone, and I was so much in love that I couldn't let go, I just wanted to occupy him, regardless of everything else, and in the end I knew that I couldn't keep him, and I didn't want to pretend to be generous and leave a good memory for him." She chuckled softly, "Now that I think about that fierce energy, I feel strange, I don't understand how I can take it for granted that others should change their life plans for themselves." ”

"But in my opinion, it is a wise choice to change the plan for the person you love, whether it is work or study, how important is the lover."

"Look, I'm still going to have to call you kid, you think the same way I did when I was 17."

"Does growing up mean learning to make trade-offs in love? I think it's sad to grow up like this. ”

"Yes, I want to be like that all the time, but I'm just sadly growing up, and suddenly I can forgive everything, and of course I can't have such a strong love and hate anymore. You know what I mean? None of us can go back to the past, and if we want to ask me if I love him, I can only say that I once loved, and I used to be. ”

"Hehuan, I hope you are happy, don't fall into memories and can't extricate yourself, and suffer yourself in vain."

"Memories are very important to me, and without those memories, it's like living a certain period of time in vain, but don't worry, I have a clear separation between memories and reality. Maybe I had a little ridiculous delusion for a while, but at least three years ago, I figured it out. Xin Chen looked in the direction of the cross and smiled, "Thank you for Almighty Time, for me, time is my religion." ”

"It's good that you've decided not to be bound by memories, but Hehuan, why do I listen so desolately?"

Xin Chen turned around, only to see the transparent light of the church dome shining down, Lin Yueqing's young face was brilliantly moving, her eyes were bright and clear, full of concern, she smiled, raised a hand to touch his hair with a hidden black jade luster. Lin Yueqing flashed his head, grabbed her hand, and feigned anger: "Come to take advantage of me as an elder again." ”

Xin Chen leaned back in his chair with a smile, "The girl who falls in love with you and is in love with you will definitely be very happy, Yueqing, I was jealous of her good life in advance." ”

Lin Yueqing looked at her, smiled, and still held her hand, "This is telling me, won't you fall in love with me?" ”

"You are my most trusted friend, Yueqing, I cherish our friendship, so I won't use something as fragile and easy to deteriorate as love to harm it."

"Hey, I haven't started to love someone well, and you say love is so terrifying."

"It's a beautiful thing to love someone well, Yueqing, it's worth trying." Xin Chen looked up at the dome of the church, and her eyes narrowed slightly under the stimulation of the light, "But to love well, you need to have the ability to love." I probably don't have that ability anymore, I can make do with people who don't ask for anything and talk about love, and find some fun. But if you want love, it will be even more shameful than pulling you when you are trapped on Taibai Mountain and not letting you go to fight for a chance to escape. ”

"What's that called?" Lin Yueqing was surprised, "You are only 25 years old, so you say that you have no ability to love?" Everything is possible, don't rush to judge your future life. ”

Xin Chen withdrew his hand, stretched his waist widely, stood up, and said with a smile: "I should say this to you, little friend." Yes, let's not rush to determine the future, Yueqing, especially you, enjoy life. ”

The two went out and photographed a few more buildings, and as the light dimmed, they strolled home. Unexpectedly, the residential area was even more lively than in the afternoon, and people who came home from work also joined the discussion, some people were emotional and impassioned, and some people whispered to each other, this scene was something that Xin Chen had never seen in more than 20 years of living here. They were about to walk through the crowd when a chubby middle-aged woman stopped Xin Chen: "Hey, you are a resident of the fifth floor of that building, come and sign the joint letter, and we will ask for higher compensation for the demolition together." ”

Xin Chen hastily scanned the contents, signed his name and room number, and turned around and motioned Lin Yueqing to hurry into the corridor and go home.

"Are you going to fight with them? I heard that now domestic nail households are very powerful, and the means are strange. Lin Yueqing put down his camera bag, not worried that this project was developed by his little uncle's Haotian Group, but felt that it was very interesting.

Xin Chen shook her head, she wasn't going to delay here for long, "I plan to wait for the demolition compensation standard to be determined, as long as it's not outrageous, I'll accept it immediately." ”

"And you're still signing to support them?" Lin Yueqing was surprised, he had a bit of a foreigner's temper, and he didn't quite understand Xin Chen's view of signing as child's play.

"If I don't sign it, she'll pull me to talk endlessly, and besides, I do support them to try to get as much compensation as possible, but I don't plan to spend more time here."

Lin Yueqing looked at her seriously, "Hehuan, are you in a hurry to leave this city?" ”

"There's no hurry, I won't go anywhere until I get the money, and you'll go back to the United States next week, right, I'll definitely leave after seeing you off."

"Play with me again, talk about him."

"Hey, don't mess around with your idioms. I just don't understand, every time I answer seriously, others treat me as perfunctory, is my credit so bad? Yueqing, my plan is very clear, from now on, I will not take on long-term jobs, and I will take the time to apply for a passport. As soon as I started distributing the demolition money, I started to deal with the things I didn't want, and I gave away what I could give and sell. After getting the money, I will go to Kunming to live for a while, go around the surrounding places, and see if there are any job opportunities by the way. If we don't have any other arrangements, let's meet in the Czech Republic next year. ”

She said it in such detail, Lin Yueqing smiled happily, "Hehuan, then we have made up our minds." ”

Xin Chen's phone rang, she picked it up and looked at it and answered: "Hello, Xuhui." After a pause, she said nonchalantly, "No, let's talk about it another day, I'm tired today." ”

Yan Xuhui put away his mobile phone, and when he saw Xin Di's face smiling, he couldn't help but be happy, "You can say whatever you want." ”

"Lao Yan, if I tell you again now not to provoke my family Chenzi, but it's completely for your good, you are an old man, how can you still hurt your heart."

"Hey, I'm just asking her out for dinner, okay. Back then, I really wanted to pursue her, but unfortunately you slapped her head as soon as I showed some ideas. If it weren't for you, Xin Chen would have been my girlfriend a long time ago, and I have been melancholy for so many years. ”

The waiter was bringing up the light meal they ordered one by one, and Xin Di pulled the black pepper steak in front of him, sneering, "You can be lustful, you can catch up with my sister." ”

Dai Weifan couldn't help but smile and patted Yan Xuhui's shoulder, and was about to speak, Ah Ken smiled first: "Sandy is a sister lover and has infinite confidence in her cousin. ”

Yan Xuhui laughed, "Ah KEN, you are too incisive. ”

Xin Di glared at them, but also smiled, admitting that he was partial to Xin Chen to a certain extent. Dai Weifan looked at her with a smile, "Don't worry, your Xinchen is also a sister lover, and he told me during the day, I can't necessarily catch up with you when I clean my hands and feet, you two sisters have the same tone, but there is really a tacit understanding." ”

The three men laughed in unison, and Yan Xuhui slapped Dai Weifan on the shoulder in turn, "Lao Dai, Lao Dai, you're done, you actually want to pursue Xin Di, just wait to hit a bag." ”

No matter how indifferent Xin Di was, he blushed rarely, took a knife and fork to cut the steak, and said stupidly: "I have never seen such a gossip man like you." ”

Jokes aside, after eating, several people re-entered the work state, naturally they were all fully engaged, and they were busy until the store closed, and finally determined the general framework of the album shooting, although they were used to staying up late, they were also a little tired. Walking out of the April Garden, Ah Ken and Yan Xuhui got into a taxi, and Da Weifan took Xin Di to the place where he parked, and there were very few pedestrians on the road.

It was almost the end of August, and the evening breeze finally brought a little coolness, and Dai Weifan didn't know when he held Xin Di's hand. Walking in the silent midnight street, there was a tall man beside him, his hands were wrapped in a large, calloused palm, watching him control the length of his long legs and keep walking with himself, Xin Di thought, I don't know if this calm and happy state can be counted as love, anyway, it seems to taste good. But even this can't be sure, she is a little self-deprecating, it seems that the previous few relationships have been in vain, there are not many memories and experiences, and there are really not many things that I can think of now.

"What are you thinking?"

"Vivan, how long have you loved someone the most?"

Dai Weifan couldn't help but look at Xin Di vigilantly, feeling that this question was really a trap. If he says that he has never loved for a long time, of course he seems to be unkind, and with a bad antecedent, he can be kicked off immediately; But if he wants to make up a deep and meaningful example, he can't do it, and he will inevitably have endless troubles. According to his understanding, when a girl is in love, she can't help but account for what happened before, and when the time comes, Xin Di will ask again: "Since you love her so much, why are you still separated?" "Are you still thinking about her?" Then he can just go and die.

Before he could finish his thoughts, Xin Di had already sighed, "You probably won't love someone for a long time, alas, that's fine, it's really scary to have tangled feelings." ”

Dai Weifan was made headless, "Who said that love must be entangled?" It can be a very happy thing. ”

Xin Di remembered the afternoon scene at this time, her friend Lu Fei, with such a deep helplessness on his always calm face; Ji Ruoli, who struggled to maintain calm and politeness on the surface, knew at a glance that he was only hiding his anger and anxiety; and Xin Chen, who looked casual, but clearly experienced things that he didn't want people to know. They have probably loved each other for a long time, but now they are not happy.

She lowered her head, only to see the streetlamp pull her and Davifan's figures behind her for a long time, projecting them to the front for a while, and the high heels she wore tapped rhythmically on the sidewalk, making a small and crisp sound, and occasionally a car rushed past them, adding to the melancholy feeling of the dead of night.

Dai Weifan looked at her sideways, not understanding her sudden silence, but he knew that her question just now was not actually intended to inquire about his past love history, and now he was wandering elsewhere, I am afraid that he would not have forgotten that he was by his side at all. The two had already walked to the place where he had parked, and Xin Di absentmindedly walked to the passenger seat, and his hand took her into his arms.

Xin Di bumped into his sturdy body, and only then did she come back to her senses, she looked up, only to see the street lights shining light and shadow on the handsome face in front of her through the gaps in the leaves, making it appear that the bridge of his nose was more and more high, and every line was seductive, his face slowly lowered to her, his lips pressed against hers, and the arm placed on her waist held her tightly against his.

This is the first time the two have kissed since the wine in Hong Kong, Dai Weifan skillfully pried open her lips and teeth, and drove straight in, Xin Di only felt that her heart was pounding wildly, and her whole body felt numb and weak. The dizziness caused by the lack of oxygen supply to the brain made her want to stop a little, and she was a little reluctant to think about it, his kiss was getting deeper and deeper, tossing and sucking, she responded, and there was no other consciousness.

He removed his lips and kissed her all the way to her neck and then to her ear, "Mine or you?" ”

Her heart was beating wildly, and for a moment she couldn't figure out what it meant, so she only mumbled. Dai Weifan took out the car key and pressed the remote control to open the door, the ticking sound came loud in the quiet night, she suddenly came back to her senses, understood what Dai Weifan was proposing, and quickly shook her head, "Don't, go back to your own home, find your own mother." ”

Her face was hot and red, and she was still a little out of breath, but when she said this, Dai Weifan was angry with her, and his arms tightened her a little tighter, squinting at her, "Are you scared?" ”

Through the thin clothes, against his body, he hugged her hot and tight, her head was in chaos, and after a long time, she raised her hand to support the strong muscles in his chest, "You yourself have a time to escape, okay." ”

Dai Weifan was said to be in the sore spot, so he was not embarrassed, "Forget about that, let's start again." ”

"We have work to do right now, and I don't want to make a big deal out of it."

This reason is so magnificent, Davifan is a little speechless. He has always known that Xin Di is serious about his work, but he cooperates to shoot a picture album, the designer determines the costumes and shooting ideas, and he plans and produces here, although he is busy with one thing, it really does not conflict with personal feelings, and it is obvious that it is a prevarication. He let go of her a little in frustration, but he was reluctant to let go of his hand for a while, and put his hands around her waist, "The design director and the people of the advertising agency secretly communicate with each other, what will you say if you always know?" ”

Xin Di had calmed down at this moment and said with a smile: "It's not going to ruin my job, but I'll be happy if I don't want to review the company's promotional materials from now on." ”

David Weifan laughed, "Okay, I'll pick you up from work every day from tomorrow, and sooner or later I'll always be relieved of your drudgery." ”

Dai Weifan sent Xin Di home, she walked into the corridor, turned her head to see his car turn around and drive out of the yard, lazily went upstairs and turned on the light, there was a dressing mirror in her entrance, changed her shoes and straightened up, and saw the person inside with a face like a peach blossom, with a spring heart budding expression, I couldn't help but be amused and a little surprised.

Xin Di has never been timid, and that night in Hong Kong, he was just borrowing a little drunkenness to cover his face instead of being courageous. It's just that she was in a different place at that time, and Dai Weifan was just a senior she had never taken seriously, and she was just a developer and a photo when she watched exhibitions a year. That time her head was hot, and she thought that it would probably be okay to live until she was 28 years old to indulge herself once, and it would be a big deal to go their separate ways after one night, and she would not know each other when they met occasionally in the future. But now that she has been dating a lot, she is actually a little timid.

Xin Di leaned back on the sofa and thought about it seriously, flirting with a playboy who lived in the same city might not be a big deal, but it seemed a little unworth it to make it seem like he was in love. She decided that it was better to be cautious, not to be seduced by the beauty of this guy, thinking of his beauty, and remembering the solid embrace just now and the feeling of the hand on his chest muscles, she couldn't help but feel hot again, and she concluded that the older woman Huaichun was definitely not a good phenomenon.

Dai Weifan did what he said, and really started to pick up Xin Di from work the next day. Xin Di did not object to his courtesy, her off-duty time coincided with the delivery time of the local taxi, and she had to wait for half a day every time she called a taxi, and she had the idea of going to get a driver's license to buy a car for her own transportation, but her mother was shocked when she heard this, and said: "You are already scared when you walk absent-mindedly and do not look at the road, and then go to drive, don't you want to call me rheumatic heart disease directly to myocardial infarction?" She had no choice but to give up.

Xin Di never got along with herself, and she didn't care what her colleagues in the unit thought. Someone came to pick it up, she pulled the car door and sat down, very calmly, the car stopped in the courtyard, she said while unbuckling her seat belt: "Hey, you go up with me." didn't wait for Dai Weifan to digest this invitation into a surprise to show it, only to hear her say: "I have collected a lot of accessories there, you take them to Lao Yan, I estimate that the stylist can use them when shooting the album, and I can save it and go out to buy it temporarily." ”

Dai Weifan secretly laughed at himself, he could only go upstairs behind her, but he didn't expect that as soon as he opened the door, Xin Di was greatly startled - her mother Li Xin was sitting on the sofa watching TV, Li Xin had the key here, and she really liked to sneak attack and check, she had thought more than once that she had guarded so far, probably thanks to her mother's perseverance.

Li Xin looked at Dai Weifan suspiciously, he called his aunt very attentively, Li Xin nodded, Xin Di hurriedly ran into his room and took out the storage box with accessories and handed it to him, "Tell Lao Yan to keep it for me and don't lose it, goodbye." ”

Dai Weifan was amused, understanding that she wanted to send herself away quickly, and was about to say goodbye, but Li Xin said: "Xiao Dai, since you are here, let's drink a bowl of soup, I just stewed it." ”

She went to the kitchen, and Xin Di said helplessly: "Yes, then sit down and drink." ”

Li Xin brought out two bowls of soup, Dai Weifan drank it in a big gulp, and praised at the same time: "Auntie, this borscht is really authentic, not thick or thin, and has a rich taste, it can be seen that it took time to simmer it over a low fire, not the kind of lazy borscht." ”

Li Xin is very useful to hear this compliment, she has been relatively idle in her work in the past few years, and she is quite interested in studying cooking skills, but Xin Di is not interested in this at all, at most she only praises the deliciousness, "Xiao Dai, I can't see that you also have research on cooking, this dish is indeed not difficult to make, it takes time, and I have stewed the beef for three hours." ”

Dai Weifan said seriously: "I'm very interested in cooking, I have time to cook a few dishes another day, please ask my aunt to taste and guide." ”

Li Xin naturally nodded happily, Xin Di could only secretly look at him, signaling him to hurry up and finish the soup and leave, Dai Weifan didn't want to provoke her to be anxious, drank the soup cleanly, and then said goodbye and left.

Xin Di breathed a sigh of relief, "Mom, you make a call, I'll drink it in the past, why send it over?" ”

"Your father is on a business trip, and I've been staying with you for the past two days, isn't your mother welcome?"

Xin Di said with a hippie smile: "I will be blessed as soon as you come, how can I not welcome it?" ”

"Xiao Dai looks good, polite, tasteful, and seems to be very good to you, but this man is too beautiful, which makes people a little uneasy."

Xin Di tried to hold back a smile and followed her words and said, "yes, yes, I think so too, so I'm going to take a closer look." She wanted to put the words here in advance, even if they broke up in the future, they would just put the blame on Dai Weifan, and as for whether he was wronged, it was not within her consideration.

"Yesterday, your Aunt Xie called me and said that Lu Fei suddenly dissolved the marriage contract, do you know what's going on?" Li Xin said that Aunt Xie is Lu Fei's mother, she and Li Xin have always had a good relationship, but now Lu Fei is staying in the local area, and when she heard that her son had dissolved the marriage contract, she immediately called her to find out the news.

Xin Di swallowed the last mouthful of soup and said seriously: "I don't know, this is very common, isn't there a divorce when you get married?" If you don't feel right before you get married, stop it immediately, and it's good for everyone. ”

"What is this called, marriage is not child's play, what will it look like to get engaged today and break up tomorrow. I only heard that Lu Fei broke up with his girlfriend, but I didn't expect that they were already engaged and regretted it. Lu Fei has always been very steady, does this matter have anything to do with Xiao Chen? ”

"Mom, you're turning your elbow out, why are you stirring Xiao Chen into this matter, she hasn't seen Lu Fei for so many years, why should she have something to do with her? Besides, Lu Fei is also an adult, and he knows what he is doing. ”

"Your kid has always been lacking in this regard, and I didn't pay attention to Lu Fei's expression when I looked at Xiaochen during the meal, I felt something was wrong at that time, and went back to tell your father, he still didn't believe it, you see, something really happened. Your Aunt Xie said that she might have to come over, alas, if she knew that Xiao Chen did it, your father and I would not have the face to see her. ”

Xin Di was not annoyed, but he knew that he couldn't explain the reason to his mother, "Mom, I still have to go out and do some small things, and I won't come back too late." ”

She took her bag and hurried out to stop the taxi, and called Lu Fei: "Where are you now?" I'll come right over. ”

Lu Fei borrowed a high-rise duplex apartment in the center of the city where his sister Lu Yes lived, and he opened the door to pick Xin Di in and took her to the terrace, where a bottle of whiskey and ice bucket rested on the small table, apparently he was drinking alone to relieve his boredom.

"Lu is my sister?"

"She'll go back to Shenzhen for a meeting and come over tomorrow." Lu Fei went to fetch her a bottle of fruit wine and poured half a glass for her.

"What the hell are you doing, Lu Fei, it's okay if my ex-girlfriend came to me, I heard that your mother is coming over too. I can talk to you about it before, if Ji Ruoli goes to Chenzi to talk about the number, Aunt Xie will blame her again, with her personality, I think the two of you basically have no hope. ”

Lu Fei leaned back in the chair and didn't speak for a long time, Xin Di saw that his face was tired under the light, and there was a faint green shadow under his eyes, his expression was depressed, and he couldn't help but soften his heart a little, "Lu Fei, I always thought that you could always handle everything." ”

"I've always been so conceited, but now it seems like I'm a failure." He pulled the corners of his mouth and smiled slightly, "Don't worry Xiaodi, I have already made it clear to Ruo Li, the reason for the breakup is all my own, I brought it up with her as soon as I came back from the United States three months ago, at that time I didn't even know if Xiao Chen still had a boyfriend, I just felt that it was unfair to Ruo Li to continue, and it was none of Xiao Chen's business." I won't let her go to Xiaochen, and as for my mother, I'll convince her not to come. ”

Xin Di breathed a sigh of relief, picked up his wine glass and motioned to him, "Yes, let's drink with you to relieve your sorrows, and save me from the false name of being your crush." ”

Lu Fei smiled bitterly, clinked glasses with her, and drank them all, which was not at all like his usual style of drinking slowly.

"Lu Fei, I don't understand, since you like Tatsuko so much, why didn't you go back to China to find her earlier? Are you waiting for her to take the initiative to call you back? ”

Lu Fei shook his head abruptly, "I've never been arrogant to that point, how could Xiao Chen take the initiative to speak." ”

"So you two just went your own way and dragged it out to this day." Xin Di had to reconfirm that the sullen man was indeed a disaster, "Okay, it shouldn't be my emails that keep you from coming back, isn't it normal for Tatsuko to be pursued?" You should have contacted her directly, I would have known your thoughts, and I wouldn't have said everything. ”

"If she's willing to read the email I wrote her," Lu Fei paused, slightly distracted, and then shook his head, "No, it's better that she doesn't read it, and I don't have the right to make her wait for me." ”

Xin Chen looked into his eyes and said clearly, "I don't want to see you again." ”

Is it just that I'm afraid of her rejection? Of course, Lu Fei also asked himself. He could only admit frankly that he actually couldn't come back to face Xin Chen in the arms of another man.

Xin Di's email to him always inadvertently said that someone pursued Xin Chen, especially in the year he got his degree, Xin Di said that Xin Chen had a good boyfriend, a Northwest native, with a hearty personality, and he was very good to her, and even Xin Kaiming liked the boy very much after seeing him occasionally, saying that he was self-motivated, talented and considerate.

After reading the email, Lu Fei said to himself, since she is happy, you are not qualified to go back and disturb her. After getting an offer from a venture capital firm, he moved to New York, rented a small apartment, and traveled back and forth to the world's most prosperous metropolitan area, like every man and woman in the big city around him, with an expressionless face, coming and going. Then there is the business trip, from one city to another, and through the hotel window, you can see the different but similar lights of each place.

When he returned to his New York apartment from Europe late one night and saw Ji Ruoli waiting in the foyer downstairs for an unknown amount of time, Lu Fei felt a little guilty. He knew what the girl wanted for him, but he kept avoiding hints to her; The direct confession to her was politely refused. Now she flew alone from San Francisco to wait for him, and he felt overwhelmed by such a beautiful intention.

Lu Fei could only explain apologetically that he was tired when he came back from a business trip, first sent her to the hotel, and then went home, he didn't turn on the lights, poured himself a glass of wine, and sat alone in the dark tiredly until he fell asleep on the sofa.

His dreams have always been so real that they seem to be replayed in his mind as if a movie with a sense of scene is replaying in his mind, the half-withered acacia flowers are falling in clusters, the petals of cherry blossoms as light as snow are blown by the breeze, the warm wind gently blows his face like a gentle hand caressing, and a string of laughter and silver bells pass through his ears like a light tap, every word is clear, but it is impossible to organize a specific meaning. Sometimes a slender body snuggled vaguely in his arms, but he didn't dare to exert himself, lest he put his hands together and hug only a void......

He woke up from his dream, looked at the dark ceiling, and said to himself for the first time, let's go back to China, since I can't escape from missing it across the ocean.

Ji Ruoli told him that she had applied for admission to Columbia University and stayed in New York to continue her studies. He can only say apologetically that he has applied to his boss for a transfer to the domestic office and is awaiting the transfer. He didn't look at Ji Ruoli's suddenly gloomy eyes, and said with a smile: "Columbia University's major is also good, and it is ranked very high." ”

At the end of February three years ago, Lu Fei received an order to return to China as he wished and began to take over the work of the Beijing office. What he didn't expect was that Ji Ruoli actually flew back to Beijing before him, and had already rented a house to live in, she went to the airport to pick him up, and said with a smile: "Now that the American economy is in a recession, I plan to return to China in a fashionable way to try my luck." ”

Lu Fei clearly knew that her family was well-off, her family settled in San Francisco early, and she studied art history majors, which at least had little practical value in China, and she didn't need to learn from others to avoid the sluggish economy and return to China to work hard, her purpose was self-evident. was so reluctant to give up, he could only smile bitterly, "You make me afraid, if oak, I can't help but ask, how can I be virtuous?" ”

"I'm willing to hold on and wait for what I think is worth it." Ji Ruoli replied to him.

Lu Fei was speechless, but he clearly knew that he was concerned about the girl who clearly told him when they broke up that he was neither willing to insist nor wait.

That day, Lu Fei stood at the intersection of the corner and waited for Xinchen, the weather was warm in April, he only attended his sister's wedding, came back from the south, he stood straight in the night, only to listen to an arrogant and piercing motorcycle roar from far and near, in those years there was suddenly a group of squirming teenagers in the local area, driving various styles of motorcycles, deliberately dismantled*, arrogantly speeding around the city to play cool, some even met in the late night racing, the back seat was mostly carrying a girl dressed in fashion, the general public was very disgusted with their style and noise.

A Honda road race motorcycle drove at an almost dangerous speed, and suddenly stopped not far from the road, and a girl with a schoolbag in the back seat jumped down, it was Xin Chen, she took off her helmet and handed it to the boy on the motorcycle, arranging her hair with one hand.

"Wouldn't it be good for me to send you in?"

Xin Chen's voice was not angry, "Pull it down, your car is making such a big noise, my aunt has to say that she will have a heart attack when she hears it, and tell me well." ”

The boy laughed, "I'll get you right next tomorrow." ”

"Don't come, when you look back, your classmates will see me and tell the teacher that I'm in trouble, let's go."

The boy hung his helmet on the front of the car, slammed the accelerator, and sped away. Xin Chen turned around and saw Lu Fei standing in front of her at a glance, she twisted her head to the side and walked forward by herself, Lu Fei had no choice but to meet her and stop her. This was the first time the two had met since they broke up in front of his school, and Xin Chen had no intention of dealing with him.

"Xiao Chen." He called her, she raised her eyes to look at him, on the face with a pointed chin, her lips were pursed tightly, which was her standard expression when she was stubborn, Lu Fei sighed, "Don't take this kind of motorcycle in the future, drag racing is too dangerous, and it is easy to have accidents." ”

This is obviously not what Xin Chen wanted to hear, she was about to leave without saying a word, Lu Fei hugged her, "Xiaochen, what do I have to say to you to understand, going abroad doesn't mean I have to give up and I don't like you, wait until I graduate......"

"But that means I've given up on you, Lu Fei." Xin Chen's eyes were filled with tears, but he pulled a smile from the corner of his mouth, and said clearly, "I'm not waiting for anyone, I don't want to see you again." ”

She pushed his hand away and walked away. With such a resoluteness that had no room for turn, Lu Fei could only watch her walk faster and faster, disappearing from his sight. He thought, is this the end of it? She refused to say goodbye well, refused to have any more mud and water, did not want a little promise about the future, and all the reactions were completely childlike anger and negative breaths, leaving him completely powerless.

On a weekend after more than half a month, Lu Fei suddenly received a call from Xin Di, and she said in a hurried tone: "Lu Fei, you hurry up and go to the traffic detachment on the outskirts of the city to pick up Chenzi." ”

"What's going on?" He asked as he hurried out of the dormitory.

"She just called me, it seems that she was going to drag racing with someone, someone had an accident in front of her, and the traffic police rushed over and detained them all, and many underage children had to be picked up by their parents. I just got on the train at this time, and went to Nanjing to receive the award, you can help me pick her up, don't tell my parents, or I will have to scold her again, she has been in a very strange mood recently, probably about to take the college entrance examination, and the pressure is too great. ”

Lu Fei asked the location and called a taxi to rush over, and sure enough, there were ten road races of different colors and models parked in the courtyard of the traffic squadron over there, and a large office stood in a row of about twenty boys and girls along the wall, and Xin Chen also stood aside, looking ahead with no expression. A captain was training a few parents to look like people, "It's so irresponsible, you can't let children mess around like this if you have money, buy tens of thousands of motorcycles and play with people, I think it's best to drag you all to the hospital, and see what the two children are injured now before they know that they are afraid." ”

The parents naturally nodded their heads, and even said that they would be strictly disciplined when they went back, and signed to take their children away.

Lu Fei told a traffic policeman to pick up Xin Chen, but he didn't know that the other party said that he could only pick up his parents without discussion, and at the same time said unceremoniously: "These girls are all ghosts, and just now there were already two boys pretending to be cousins and brothers to pick up people, and they all let us drive away." We won't do anything to them, the key is to call the parents to pick them up and be responsible for them. ”

Lu Fei had no choice but to come out and call his father's last secretary when he was working here, of course, the man immediately rushed over and found the squadron leader, and Xin Chen was successfully led out.

Lu Fei said goodbye to the secretary, refused to send him, and brought Xin Chen out, Xin Chen turned around and was about to leave, he dragged her to stand in front of the propaganda board at the door of the traffic squadron, "You take a good look at these photos." ”

Naturally, the on-site photos of various traffic accidents are posted on the billboards, which are miserable. Xin Chen stopped struggling and stood there straight, looking at it with a pale face, biting his lip and not making a sound.

"What the hell do you want to do, Kota? There should be a class at school today, and you're skipping school again and fooling around with these guys, I've already told you it's dangerous......"

"What does it have to do with you?"

Lu Fei was completely enraged, and said sharply: "Okay, it has nothing to do with me, your life is your own business after all, not my responsibility." But if you look at your actions, can you be held accountable to yourself? ”

Xin Chen turned her head, her bloodless face lined her eyes deeper and brighter, as if there were two small flames flashing in her pupils, she opened her mouth for a long time, and said clearly word by word: "I will not be a responsibility for anyone." ”

Xin Chen turned around and left, the afternoon sun shining down, she walked straight, a small figure dragging behind her. Lu Fei looked at her back, relaxed his clenched fists, and the anger he was full of just now suddenly disappeared.

Of course, he was not angry at her ignorance, his anger was more out of his own powerlessness. He was full of doubts about his decision, she was still a psychologically fragile child, but he became more and more intolerant of her, I don't know if it was stimulated by her tough gesture, or the pain of parting slowly took over his heart in another way, so that he no longer had the patience and gentleness he had before.

Next, Lu Fei had to prepare his passport and visa, and often traveled back and forth between his local area, his parents in the south, and Beijing. He called Xin Di, who told him that Xin Chen had been very quiet lately, and he was slightly relieved that he had not gone out to play with people on dangerous motorcycles. When he got his visa and came back from Beijing, Xin Chen had already finished the college entrance examination and went to her father's side in Kunming.

The last time Lu Fei saw Xin Chen before leaving the country, he still broke up unhappily, Xin Chen tore up the mailbox he left behind, and told him clearly that she was not prepared to wait for anyone and did not want to receive the mail. He could clearly see the pain in her eyes, but she refused to be soothed in any way, preferring to indulge herself in deepening the pain.

Maybe his sister was right, they really need space to grow, and maybe time will help her accept reality. He could only step on the plane heading north, looking through the porthole at the city that was gradually shrinking and disappearing under the flowing clouds, and he wondered what it would be like to see her again in three years.

He didn't expect that this parting would be seven years, and time would pass like water, and what he took away was just as melancholy as what he left behind, and time had almost changed everything.