Suo Mei's album has not yet been filmed has attracted a lot of attention in the local industry, Yan Xuhui, who is in charge of the camera, has become famous in recent years, known as the latest fashion photographer in China, the model invited won a competition award last year, signed a contract with a well-known agency in Beijing, although he has not yet entered the ranks of supermodels, but the potential is also obvious.

Yan Xuhui is in the limelight, has a lot of contracts in hand, and began to take fitting and makeup photos for models the next day. He asked Xin Chen to participate in the whole process, basically doing post-processing while shooting, Xin Chen didn't have much to do now, of course he agreed.

The residential area where she lives still has neighbors passing on the news in twos and threes, but it is no longer as lively as it was at the beginning. As soon as the news of the demolition broke, the tenant compensation process over there started at an eye-popping speed, and went very smoothly, and many people immediately chose to take the money to move out, watching the moving company's vehicles keep coming in and out, and other residents with their own property rights were disturbed.

However, the demolition company was very determined, and did not make any reaction to the gossip revealed by the big-character posters posted in this area, but immediately sent a team of migrant workers to enter, and began to use pure manual methods to dismantle the abandoned warehouse of a bankrupt unit surrounded by residential areas and the dormitories that were vacated one after another.

This kind of psychological warfare is naturally quite effective, and the residents who are clamoring for a piece of protection of their rights and interests have their own plans, and before the group has been divided, some unbearable households have begun to quietly move out.

Xin Chen goes out at noon every day and goes home at night, does not participate in the discussions of the neighbors, does not inquire about anything, and only waits for the next step of the demolition policy to be officially introduced.

On this day, Xin Di went to the scene after work to see the shooting situation, and after dinner in the evening, Dai Weifan drove the sisters home, and when he arrived at the street where Xin Chen lived, he saw that the roadside was full of demolition debris, and there were rows of stalls, sewage flowed sideways, a large number of migrant workers were gathering to drink and spend the night, and a simple open-air karaoke was also opened next to it, so it was not lively, Xin Di was surprised, "It has begun to be demolished, how can people live here, Chenzi, you move to my side." ”

Dai Weifan also said: "Xin Chen, I think it's better for you to move out first, and the security here here will definitely not be too good now." ”

Xin Chen smiled and said, "I still have to deal with the things at home, wait and see." She said goodbye to them and walked in alone.

Xin Di knew that Xin Chen was not willing to disturb others easily, especially her mother had always been a little prejudiced against her, and she could avoid it, and her father would come over when she asked her to eat. After going back, Xin Di called his father and made efforts to render the chaos at the demolition site, Xin Kaiming was really anxious, and immediately called Xin Chen, asking her to move to Xin Di immediately.

Xin Chen smiled and said, "Uncle, it's not that serious, everyone lives well." ”

"You are a single girl, you have to be a little defensive, you can't compare with other people's big families living there, especially if you have been working late late, if something happens, how can I explain to your father, do you want your uncle to pick you up every night?"

"No, no, no." Xin Chen had no choice but to admit defeat, "I'll deal with things tomorrow and go to live with Dizi immediately." ”

Xin Chen is a man of action, since he promised his uncle, put down his mobile phone and began to think about what to do with things at home, everything else is easy to do, but those flowers really make her worried, even if it is an annual herbaceous plant, after all, it is still at the end of summer, and the growth is vigorous, and she must be reluctant to leave it alone, not to mention that there are many perennial herbaceous flowers and woody plants. She thought about it, posted on the outdoor forum that she often mixed up, posted the name of the flower she planted with the photos taken in her spare time, and then posted the daily maintenance points, stating that because of the move, she was willing to transfer it to flower lovers for free, and asked netizens to follow the post and make an appointment to pick it up.

After posting, she turned on the computer speaker, turned up the sound, played the songs she collected, and then walked into the bedroom to start cleaning up, she first packed the outdoor equipment and clothing, and prepared to call the courier to send it to her father in Kunming the next day. Her clothes were mostly casual and athletic, which was easy to clean up, and soon the wardrobe was empty, and a dark red oxford cloth bag in the corner jumped into her eyes.

At this time, the song played on the speaker was Simon & Garfunkel's Bridge Over Troubled Water, and the song entered the bedroom, Xin Chen sat down against the closet, rested his bag on his lap, and quietly listened to the warm song with a little sadness echoing in the room.

.. When you feel small, when you feel tired,

.. When you have tears in your eyes, I will be by your side to wipe your tears.

.. The day is sad, my friends leave the team,

.. When you cross the bad waters,

.. I will be incarnated as a bridge, so that you will have no fear,

.. When you cross the bad waters, I want to become a bridge and make you fearless.

.. When you take to the streets, the sun is shining,

.. When the pain rises on all sides, and the darkness falls,

.. I will sustain you so that your heart will not break.

.. When you cross the waters of evil, I will become a bridge and make you fearless,

.. When you cross the bad waters, I will become a bridge and make you fearless.

.. The future is shining with silver, rushing forward.

.. Days and dreams have brightly intersected,

.. You want a friend, and I'm coming later.

.. When you cross the bad waters, I will become a bridge and give you a good night's sleep.

.. When you cross the bad waters, I will become a bridge and give you a good night's sleep.

This is the lyrics translated by Li Ao that Xin Chen searched from the Internet, which has more meaning than the general literal translation. She was moved by the song from the first time she heard it, and collected several cover versions, including Elvis Presley, Teresa Teng, Whitney Houston and the papal choir, but in comparison, her favorite is still an early version that she didn't like the original singer, it is said that after recording this song, the two broke up and flew solo, for different reasons, one of which said that Simon didn't like Garfunkel to make the song gospel style, and refused to give Garfunkel a harmonic voice, and it was this style with soft warmth that Xin Chen never got tired of listening to.

Her fingers ran through the bag to the chess, each of which she rubbed over and over again, familiarizing herself with the shape and texture of each of them, including the tiny notch on one of the black elephants.

After Lu Fei left, Xin Chen got her own admission letter, she took the exam in a sluggish state, and her grades can be imagined to be very average, and she entered a new graphic design major in an unknown university. She found the city he was going to on the map of the geography book, and slowly traced her finger over where she lived, little by little, across the continent, across the ocean, and resting on the name of the place that had no meaning to her before.

How can such a vast distance be overcome?

Xin Chen couldn't give himself an answer, so he could only close the book and decide not to think about it anymore.

After the start of school, Xin Chen moved to school, and she didn't want to go home on weekends, but when the temperature suddenly dropped in late autumn in the local area, she shivered from the cold, so she had to come back to pick up clothes. When she opened the door that had not been opened for nearly two months, and looked at the deserted and gray room, a voice suddenly echoed in her ears.

"You're a girl, is it hard to tidy up your room?"

That was what Lu Fei said to her with a thin reproach when he first entered her house, and she didn't think so, but then she did start tidying up, and formed a habit, not that she suddenly had a love for neatness, but she just liked to look at the gentle and satisfied look in the eyes of the boy who was slightly clean.

However, he was gone anyway.

Xin Chen went to the bedroom to get clothes, saw the chess bag at a glance, took it out, returned to the living room to set it up, moved it casually, and in a sudden burst of anger, she slammed over the chessboard in front of her, and the chess pieces fell all over the ground. But when a person loses her temper, she has to clean up the mess by herself, and after a long time, she goes to pick them up one by one, and finds that one of the black elephants has fallen off a corner.

Caressing this small dent, she wept out the tears she had been holding back for a long time. It's not the first time that I've been so childish, but it's probably the last time. She cried until she curled up on the couch and fell asleep, sinking into a deep nightmare. She was trapped in the dark corridor again, bumping and bumping, stepping into the air from time to time, hitting unknown hard objects, unable to see the floor clearly, up and down could not find her home, and what was even more terrifying was that she knew that it was a dream, but she was powerless to get rid of, and when she finally woke up, she was already sweating profusely and almost collapsed.

She tried to get up, poured herself a glass of water to drink, and told herself, you can't do this again, and if you don't come out with a pair of hands in the future, then you can only rely on yourself.

No one is turned into a bridge, and you must cross the bad water by yourself to find a good night's sleep. Xin Chen began to adapt to life without Lu Fei, and it should be said that he adapted well.

It's just that in the anxiety of struggling out of the nightmare, and in the lonely moments that can't help but find warmth in the memories, she has opened the bag countless times, set up the chess pieces and play against herself.

Finally, time helped her, and she became more and more calm, calmly entering and leaving her own home, calmly facing the memories, calmly waiting for the nightmare to dissipate, and calmly letting another boy take her hand.

Even if there is no longer him, life still goes on.

The phone rang, and Xin Chen thanked the voice and brought himself out of his momentary distraction. She put down her bag and jumped up, went out to answer the phone, it was Yueqing who called, he was going back to the United States in two days, and he was going to meet his old classmates today, he smiled: "Do you want me to help you move tomorrow?" ”

"Did you see the post too? Of course, I want you to do the physical work, I don't know if anyone will come to claim the flowers I planted tomorrow. ”

"Didn't you read the reply? Let's go check it out, it's really lively. ”

Xin Chen sat in front of the computer to refresh his post, and was taken aback, first only a few netizens praised the beautiful flowers with the post, or helped the top, and then there was an ID called Road to post, claiming to be willing to receive all the plants planted by Acacia, and promised to plant them all. Then there were familiar netizens joking, including Bruce, who was beaten on his chest and said that he was a step late; Some people laughed and said that Road students only posted this post when they registered, and they obviously coveted the landlord for a long time; Some people analyze whether there are potential admirers in the battle and list possible candidates to bet on. Xin Chen couldn't laugh or cry when she saw it, and when she looked at the registration time of Road, it was really only a few minutes after she posted.

"Hey, you're listening to Scarborough Fair, such an old song."

"yes." The speaker is still playing the Scarborough Fair of Simon & Garfunkel's early chorus, which is also a song she likes very much, the perfect chorus is like a natural sound, with calming power, Xin Chen hums along with the song: "Are you going to Scarborough Fair? Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme, Remember me to one who lives there, Tell him to make me a cambric shirt...", and laughed, "Coriander, sage, rosemary and thyme, maybe one day, I will have a garden, and I will definitely plant all these flowers." ”

Lin Yueqing smiled, "There will be a day." Hey, don't tell me you can't guess who Road is. ”

Xin Chen also smiled, "It's good that someone receives the flower, it doesn't matter who it is, I won't guess." ”

Putting down her phone, she leaned back in her chair and looked around the house, thinking, indeed, it doesn't matter who it is.

The next day, Lin Yue came over early in the morning to help Xin Chen clean up, packed all the books and materials she was going to keep, and the bookshelves were empty. Xin Chen called the people downstairs to buy old electrical appliances and furniture, negotiated the price, and began to ask them to disassemble the air conditioner and electric water heater, and remove the washing machine, refrigerator, bookshelf, workbench, and wardrobe.

She turned her head and called a few neighbors who knew her well downstairs and told them that she was going to move out, and that many daily necessities were gone, so she asked them to take them if they could use them. She has always lived here, many of these old neighbors are acquaintances and colleagues of her grandparents and father, almost watching her grow up, has always had a good relationship, after a few polite words, she began to choose her own suitable things, and soon rice cookers, electric kettles, microwave ovens, desk lamps, chairs, duvets, air conditioning quilts, blankets, electric blankets and other things were taken downstairs by them in the same way.

Lin Yueqing neatly cleaned up the connection lines on the desktop, packed her desktop computer, scanner, and printer, and pointed to a dark red Oxford cloth bag in the corner, "What's in there, are you going to pack it or give it away?" ”

Lu Fei appeared at the door, and he was slightly surprised by the crowds and chaos in the room, and he stopped and stood in the hallway.

He also saw the bag at a glance, and was stunned, of course he remembered that this was what he had brought over, he had taught Xin Chen to play chess in this room, and he was about to speak, only to hear Xin Chen say casually: "Master Lu, this bag is chess, take it back and play it for your grandson." ”

Master Lu agreed, picked up his bag and a few other daily necessities and walked out from Lu Fei's side.

At this time, the receiver of the courier company also came over, walked in from Lu Fei's side, picked up the cardboard box she was going to send to her father in Kunming, and asked her to fill in the address. The workers who dismantled the air conditioner unloaded the indoor and outdoor units of the air conditioner, carried them through them, and placed them in the corridor.

Xin Chen turned around and faced Lu Fei, not knowing what to say for a while, through the chaos of people coming and going, Lu Fei looked at Xin Chen without any expression on his face, and paused for a while before saying, "I'm sorry, I'll come up later." ”

He hurriedly turned around and walked out the door, Lin Yueqing looked at Xin Chen in confusion, "The expressions of the two of you are just as strange. ”

"Really?" Xin Chen smiled slightly, then lowered his head and concentrated on filling out the courier form, paying the courier fee, and then the person who bought the second-hand electrical appliances settled the bill with her, and finally they all left, Lu Fei reappeared at the door, he glanced at the room that had become empty and unrecognizable, and looked calm.

"I called the migrant workers to come up, what other things do I have to move besides flowers? I drove a pickup truck over today. ”

"I guessed right, it's you. The pickup is just right, I look at the posture of the acacia, and I probably don't plan to take away much furniture. ”

Xin Chen took a few steps back and sat on the chaise longue, "This kind of furniture is the only thing in my room that has been praised by the flute and is considered comfortable, I plan to give it to her, other things, I don't want it." ”

Lin Yueqing said with a smile: "Is there a little pleasure of dispersing all your wealth?" ”

Xin Chen laughed, "Absolutely, the red stripes come and go without worry, how good." ”

"If you like this chaise longue, I'll give it to you, Tatsuko won't mind."

Lu Fei smiled slightly, "No need, it's good to put you here, and it goes well with the sofa." ”

Xin Di had no choice but to admit that after Lu Fei sent Xin Chen's things over, he looked so silent, and it didn't seem that he coveted this chaise longue. She couldn't think about it, so she took out the red wine she had brought back from France and poured him half a glass.

Lu Fei laughed, "You take me like a drunkard, Xiaodi." ”

"I've never seen you drunk, your fault is that you're too self-controlled. Drink, drink, I'm not going to comfort people anyway, there's only one trick. Xin Di also poured himself a small half glass of wine, "I'll go to New York next week, and Chenzi will live on my side in the future, but looking at her thorough handling of her belongings, she will probably leave when she gets the money, whether you can keep her or not, you can do it yourself." ”

Lu Fei looked at the red wine in the glass, but pulled away from the topic: "I'll call my friend in New York and ask him to pick you up at the airport." ”

Xin Di thought that an ex-fiancée hadn't left yet, and he really couldn't make any moves, so he could only sigh secretly, "No need, Ah Ken will also go over, he is very familiar with that side." ”

Lu Fei was still restrained in drinking, and after drinking half a glass, he leaned back on the sofa, his two long legs stretched lazily, his eyes half-closed, the top button of his off-white shirt was unbuttoned, and his sleeves were hastily rolled up, which was completely different from Xin Di's usual meticulous appearance of neat and meticulous clothing, but it was a little decadent, and his handsome face was tinged with a knotted color, which made his temperament even deeper.

If it weren't for the fact that he was really sad and people had no other arms, Xin Di would definitely suggest that he might as well try a more casual style of clothing in the future.

Lu Fei's mobile phone on the coffee table flashed silently, but he didn't respond, as if he was asleep. Xin Di looked tired and planned to let him sleep for a while, she picked up the flickering mobile phone and was about to turn it off, but found that the name of the caller ID on the screen was "Ruoqi", and hesitated. She thought, this girl is staying in a strange city, and the people she knows here have only one ex-fiancé, and it seems a little unreasonable for Lu Fei not to answer her phone again. She hurriedly pushed Lu Fei, and Lu Fei opened his eyes, "What's the matter, Xiaodi?" ”

"Answer the phone."

Lu Fei took the phone and looked at it, and then answered: "Hello, Ruo Li." ”

I don't know what was said over there, Lu Fei whispered, "Okay, you wait, I'll come over right away." He stood up, "Little flute, I'll go first." ”

"Hey, I don't want to be mean, but you've broken up, and you're still on the way, do you want her to misunderstand and have room for redemption?"

Lu Fei's expression was gloomy and he shook his head, "She ran to the bar to drink, it seems that she has drunk a little too much, I have to go over and pick her up." ”

"Wait a minute, I'll go with you." Xin Di was a little angry and stood up, "What the hell is she going to do, what's the point of dragging it like this?" ”

Lu Fei smiled bitterly, "Xiaodi, why are you bothering to wade into this troubled water." ”

Xin Di ignored it and went downstairs with him to call a taxi.

This bar called Blue Sky is owned by foreigners, located in the financial district, and is quite famous among local foreigners, Xin Di and Lu Fei walked in, and saw Ji Ruoli, who was sitting alone in a corner with a crimson face and a confused face, talking to a sturdy foreign man in a black T-shirt, the man's hand was already on her shoulder, and she was obviously unable to dodge.

Lu Fei walked over, photographed the man, and said a few words of English in a deep voice, and the man immediately got up and walked away. Ji Ruoli looked at Xin Di and smiled, "It's really funny, I seem to only call Lu Fei to come over, don't you clear yourself, don't you have nothing to do with him, what are you doing with such a tight relationship?" ”

Xin Di thought, no matter how ladylike she usually is, as soon as she drinks too much, she will have a little bit of direct energy, but she doesn't care, and said with a smile: "We happened to be chatting together just now, come over and see if there is anything we can help with." ”

"You're probably afraid that I'll use wine to pretend to be crazy and pester him." Ji Ruoli stood up with his hands on the table and squinted at her, "Let me tell you, Miss Xin, I really used the strength of alcohol to seduce him before, haha, he wasn't fooled, I guess if I make this trick now, it probably won't be better." ”

Lu Fei frowned, stretched out his hand to support her, "Ruo Li, let's go, I'll send you back to the hotel." ”

Ji Ruoli pushed his hand away, his movements were quite violent, his body tilted to one side by inertia, and he stumbled, Xin Di, who was standing here, had no choice but to help her stand firmly, Ji Ruoli giggled, leaned on her, and whispered: "Hey, you don't love Lu Fei too, then you are worse than me, he loves your cousin, you know?" ”

Xin Di smiled and pushed her away a little to avoid her mouth full of wine, "Well, I know now, you told me a lot of amazing news, I admit it." ”

Ji Ruoli was about to speak, but he covered his mouth, frowned and hurried to the bathroom. Xin Di looked at Lu Fei, so she had to follow her resignedly, and after walking a few steps, she saw Yan Xuhui, Dai Weifan and two girls sitting at the other table, one of the girls in a suspender top had her arm hooked on Dai Weifan's shoulder, and was whispering something in his ear, which was of course intimate. Yan Xuhui saw Xin Di first, beckoned to greet her, she glanced at it, didn't bother to pay attention, and walked straight into the bathroom, only to see Ji Ruoli vomiting at the flush toilet, and then rinsing her mouth in front of the washstand, she hurriedly pulled out a tissue and handed it over.

Ji Ruoli covered her face with a tissue and cried out loud, Xin Di looked at the sky depressedly, but she really couldn't think of anything to comfort her, so she could only wait for her to slowly control herself, and her crying gradually became a sob.

Xin Di paused for a while before saying, "Miss Ji, let me tell you again, I've never had a crush on Lu Fei." But just now I saw a man sitting outside, he said a few days ago that he wanted to be with me, and now he is biting his ears with a cool hot girl, or I will cry with you for a while. ”

Ji Ruoli turned back in amazement, looked at her with tears in her eyes, Xin Di spread her hands, "Okay, I'm sorry, I'm exaggerating, I can't cry, I don't plan to cry for him at all." I've never been comforting, and you probably don't need my poor comfort. ”

"Are you proving to me that I'm stupid enough, and you're free enough?"

"What does this prove, but it probably only proves that I don't take this too seriously. I also seemed to have said to you last time, I don't think love is the most important thing in life, and if a man can't even make me happy, then I don't see any need for me to spend time on him. It's not because Lu Fei is my friend, Xin Chen is my cousin, I just speak for them, I really think that it really doesn't make sense for you to drag it out like this. ”

"I know I'm embarrassing myself and others."

Xin Di shrugged, "It's okay to make Lu Fei difficult, he deserves it to some extent, but have you ever thought that sooner or later, one day, his guilt towards you will even be exhausted." ”

Ji Ruoli looked at her blankly, then turned her head to look at herself in the mirror, and said for a long time: "I have loved him for five years, but I am unwilling to just give up, I want to see how far he will persevere." ”

"You probably have a good family, so it's okay to put down your work and not do it, but it's really unfair to yourself to take your own time to witness this kind of thing."

Ji Ruoli smiled bitterly at the mirror, "Yes, after vomiting, I seem to feel a little worthless." ”

"Let's go, let's go out, you go back to the hotel early to rest."

The two walked out of the bathroom, but found that Dai Weifan was spinning around outside like an ant on a hot pot, and when he saw Xin Di coming out, he hurriedly caught up with her, and grabbed her, "Xin Di, don't cry, I promise to ......"

Xin Di shook off his hand angrily, "I'm crying, Davifan." ”

Dai Weifan didn't see Xin Di just now, and listened to Yan Xuhui gloating, so he hurriedly pushed away Shen Xiaona, who was talking to him, and hurried outside the bathroom, hearing the faint cry inside, he was suddenly dumbfounded, and he was thinking about how to explain while walking around, but when he looked at Xin Di again, his eyes were shining, his face was as usual, how could there be a trace of crying, so he could only say in a sneer: "Lao Yan said that he was tired and wanted to relax, I just accompanied him, he can testify, I have nothing to do with that girl, she has always been a little crazy." ”

Xin Di waved his hand like chasing flies, walked out with Ji Ruoxi, met with Lu Fei, went out and got into the car, Lu Fei sent Ji Ruoli back to the hotel first, and then sent her home.

Xin Di went home and saw that Xin Chen had already returned first, and Dai Weifan was actually sitting on the sofa waiting for her, Xin Chen glanced at her and entered the study.

Dai Weifan decided to put down his body, "Xin Di, listen to my explanation." The bar was too noisy, and her family also ran a clothing company, so she asked me about shooting albums. ”

Xin Di covered his mouth and yawned, "No need to explain, I know, you are pure, it is said that there are men and women lying on the bed covered with quilts and just chatting, let alone talking in the bar." Let's talk about it another day, I'm sleepy. ”

Dai Weifan could only say goodbye in a huff, there was nothing to do, he felt that he was really wronged, and he had put down his body like never before, but she was still so light, if she didn't pretend to be indifferent, she probably didn't care about this at all, let alone herself - when he thought about it, he couldn't help but feel frustrated.

In the afternoon of the next day, Xin Di went to the shooting site of April Garden to see the progress, and Yan Xuhui immediately said: "Xin Di, look at my blog, I will write a certificate of innocence to him at the request of Lao Dai." ”

Dai Weifan was so embarrassed that he didn't know what to say, he was annoyed the night before, and Yan Xuhui, who didn't know each other, called again: "Old Dai, run to explain, does it work?" Dai Weifan couldn't help but be annoyed and angry, and before he could attack, Yan Xuhui laughed wildly, "Don't worry, don't worry, I'll help you prove your innocence and guarantee that Xin Di will believe you." ”

When Dai Weifan saw his so-called proof, he could only blame himself for making friends carelessly, and greeted this guy who was afraid that the world would not be chaotic countless times in his heart. Xin Di knew that he couldn't write anything good, so he pouted and smiled: "If you take a photo of him wearing chastity panties and put it on your blog, it will definitely attract more attention than a broken proof." ”

The crowd burst out laughing.

After Xin Di returned to the office, she continued to do things, and when she was about to get off work, she decided to read Yan Xuhui's blog.

Yan Xuhui has always kept his camera in his hand, and he likes to record his life with pictures and texts, and he started a blog very early, but in Xin Di's opinion, the greatest value of his blog is that he sometimes posts some fashion show photos and fashion samples that ordinary people can't see. But this person's exclamation comments from time to time dilute her viewing pleasure, and although she agrees with his level of photography, she has never had a high evaluation of his writing, and she has no interest in the running account recorded in the blog, so she has no collection address at all. Fortunately, he is now a celebrity in the fashion industry, and he will find it immediately after a search.

His blog interface is made to be dark and simple, but the friendship link is a row of deafening beautiful names in the Beijing fashion circle, which makes people dazzled at first glance. The diary hanging on the first page was written in the early hours of this morning, and the beginning is a photo taken outside the Blue Sky Bar, processed into a dark blue tone, the neon lights are blurred and dragging, and passers-by blur into a fluttering figure, the content of the log is completely incommensurate with this picture, and there is a funny title: How to Confirm a Man's Innocence and Chastity.

When she looked at it, she saw that Yan Xuhui wrote quite sarcastically, on the surface it seemed to be whitewashing for David Weifan, saying that the beauty was enthusiastic, and he was not messy, but in fact, he half-mocked and half-sarcastically said that he "wet his shoes before he went down to the river, and he didn't eat mutton and caused a smell", and then sighed, "It's really difficult to let a man confirm another man's innocence, probably women are wary of the tacit connivance between men, especially in Sandy's opinion, my reputation is not good, and it is in vain to say it sincerely, so Lao Dai, you ask for more blessings." ”

Xin Di couldn't help laughing, she didn't think about how serious last night's incident was, but she did think that it seemed that there was no need to continue with Dai Weifan, this person didn't have much concentration, and he had always attracted bees and butterflies, if she was really emotional, she would inevitably have to face such a scene in the future, and she didn't have any interest in being jealous.

She was about to turn off the computer and go out, when her heart suddenly moved, remembering her strange evasive attitude when she mentioned Xin Chen going to Beijing to look for a job a few days ago.

While rummaging forward, she secretly scolded Yan Xuhui, a talker and narcissist, for keeping her blog updated so frequently. She finally patiently found the late March three years ago, and she could see her mind for a while, and picked up her mobile phone to call Lu Fei: "Lu Fei, where are you?" ”

Lu Fei is sorting out documents in the company, he handed in his resignation report, and he has not yet made a formal handover, and is still working in Haotian's office building, "I'm in the office, what's the matter, Xiaodi?" ”

Xin Di hesitated for a moment, and decided to tell him: "You turn on the computer, I'll send you Yan Xuhui's blog address, you can take a good look." ”

Lu Fei quickly turned on, clicked on the link sent by Xin Di, and the date displayed was the end of March three years ago, and sure enough, there were several logs in the ten days before and after that that were related to Xin Chen. I saw that the title of the first article was: Dear Xiaochen is here.

"My dear ex-girlfriend Xiao Chen came to Beijing, and of course she didn't recognize me as his ex-boyfriend (a grinning emoji). As soon as I bragged during the meal, she calmly said to my buddy, let him talk nonsense, anyway, there are more lice and it is not itchy, and I don't worry about one or two more ex-boyfriends. This kid is still as straightforward as before, and he will hit wherever it hurts. ”

The following is a photo taken indoors, it can be seen that the room is not spacious, seven or eight men and women are crowded around the table to eat, there is naturally Xin Chen inside, she is wearing a light pink turtleneck, her hair is curled at the back of her head, her smile is bright and moving.

A diary post a few days apart wrote: "Xiaochen's interview went well, and he will go to work next Monday." Celebrating that there is another person to drift in Beijing, the heart of the great capital motherland, we are all here. However, this stupid child said that she didn't want to be a graphic model, the reason was that this industry was a youthful meal, and she was already vicissitudes enough. Looking at her, although she is not childish, but still young and beautiful, I can only sigh, this statement makes me embarrassed. ”

Here are a few photos taken, Xin Chen is wearing a small black blazer, coming out of the office building, his beautiful face is thoughtful, and he is not excited to find a job; The other stretched out his hand in front of him, as if he didn't want the other person to take a picture.

Look at the next blog post, written the next day, at the end of March, and the title is: Goodbye, Xiaochen.

"It's the weekend, but there's still work to be done. When I went out with Xiaochen in the morning, she looked very happy and asked me for the bus route, and it just so happened that the places we were going to were near the National Exhibition. She said she was going to meet a friend first and then find a house to settle in. No matter how I tease, this little girl won't say what kind of friend she is, whatever, I'm happy for her, even if the reason why she stayed in Beijing is not because of me, I hope she will be as happy as before from now on, thinking of this, the wind and sand are not so annoying. She underestimated the weather in Beijing, didn't bring much clothes, and saw how funny it was for her to borrow my coat to wear, so she took a picture of her, and then rushed to work.

"Come back in the afternoon, Xiaochen went back first, she didn't have a key, sitting in front of the door in a daze, I sat down with her, asked her if she had found a friend, she smiled, said she found it, but it was better not to find it. The first time I saw her smile so bleak, I wanted to comfort her, but she suddenly said she was leaving, and there was no room for negotiation and she began to pack. No matter how much I asked, she didn't say anything. I know I can't ask anything, well, beauty will always have the privilege of being wayward, especially her.

"I took her to the train station and she didn't say anything all the way, but when I looked at her window, I knew she was in tears. I don't know who the person who made her cry was, and I hated the friend she went to see. The weather in Beijing is still terrible, and I'm going to shoot Fashion Week tomorrow. It's good for Xiaochen to go back to her hometown, at least life there is more leisurely, and I hope she can live happily.

"When I came back from the West Railway Station, I looked at these two photos and suddenly felt sad. When she was photographed for the first time, she was still a carefree child, and let me borrow someone else's words to express my feelings: every teenager will grow old, and whose youth can be immortal. ”

Ji Ruoli walked over and knocked on the door of his open office, but Lu Fei's full attention was focused on the two photos below and didn't notice her at all.

In a photo, Xin Chen is wearing a dark olive men's hunting long jacket, a black baseball cap on his head, a large outdoor sunglasses on the bridge of his nose, and a chic camouflage pattern outdoor bandana wrapped around his mouth and nose, covering the lower part of his face tightly, and the background is a diffuse wind and sand, which is exactly what the street girls have to dress up when they have to go out in the sandstorm weather in Beijing. The sky is dark, and she looks at the camera, her figure looks thin and lonely, with a sense of depression.

Another photo shows that it is the entrance of the West Railway Station, Xin Chen is surrounded by bustling people under the light, she is wearing a thin sports jacket, no hat and sunglasses, the camouflage bandana is pulled down and loosely wrapped around her neck, carrying a small bag in her hand, she is turning around and waving, and her expression is not clear in the dim light.

Lu Fei's left hand clenched tightly into a fist, completely stunned. Ji Ruoli walked in, "Lu Fei, my sister's secretary said that she would come out of the meeting soon, have you finished your business?" Lu Fei didn't react.

Ji Ruoli walked around suspiciously, and saw these two photos at a glance, she couldn't believe that she got closer to take a closer look, and then turned her head sideways and made contact with Lu Fei's line of sight.

At the same time, they made sure that they had once stood face to face with her, very close, and even said hello.

Lu Fei returned to Beijing at the end of February of that year to work, and Lu Fei gave him a well-decorated house in a good location, but it was empty and unfurnished. Lu Fei had just taken over the job and was so busy that he had to stay in a hotel near the office building, planning to buy daily necessities and move in when he had time.

Ji Ruoli took the initiative to ask to help him go to procurement, and said with a smile: "I submitted a few resumes, and I am waiting for a job notice, and I am very free now." Women are naturally interested in buying these things to decorate their houses, and I promise that you will not get fat in mind taking into account your taste. ”

Lu Fei couldn't help it, handed her the key, and handed her a credit card at the same time, asking her to pay the fee directly.

By the end of March, there was no spring in Beijing, but sandstorms were overwhelming, the sky was earthy yellow, and the air was filled with fine sand and dust everywhere, making it difficult to breathe. Ji Ruoli is a southerner, she can't adapt to this harsh climate at all, she has a cold, but she still runs around the major home cities, carefully selected and compared, and the process makes her full of pleasure.

Lu Fei still has work to do on the weekend, and when he drove over at noon, Ji Ruoli had already come first, coughing while directing the workers to hang the curtains, all the furniture in the three-bedroom room had been placed in an orderly manner, even the bedding was ready, and sure enough, the color pattern was harmonious and low-key, which was in line with his taste. Sending the workers away, Lu Fei said thank you, but she only smiled: "It's good to let me have a good time." She fiddled with a crystal ornament and suddenly looked back at Lu Fei, "Now that your house is all marked with my mark, see how you bring other girls back in the future." ”

It wasn't the first time she had hinted, but Lu Fei didn't react, just looked out the window, "At this time, the city I lived in before was already very springy. ”

Ji Ruoli's heart was pounding, he rarely talked about the places where he lived, she met his college classmate Ding Xiaoqing because of work, and when she came back to mention it, he only passed by lightly.

"It seems that it is time for your alma mater's famous cherry blossoms to bloom, I don't know how it is different from Washington, D.C., I really want to visit your school."

Lu Fei was silent for a long time, Ji Ruoli remembered the gossip that Ding Xiaoqing revealed to her with a smile that day, her heartbeat accelerated, and she was about to speak, Lu Fei smiled, "It's not early, let's go, go to dinner." ”

The two went downstairs, preparing to walk to a nearby restaurant, Ji Ruoli pointed to a woman standing not far from his car, and said a little puzzled: "That girl seems to be waiting for someone, I saw her standing here when I came, pitiful, such a big wind and sand." ”

Lu Fei glanced at it absentmindedly, only to see that the girl was wearing an empty men's long coat with the sleeves rolled up a little, wearing a pair of large outdoor sunglasses, and a camouflage headscarf on her face, standing motionless and straight, completely ignoring the surrounding wind and sand, and a thin layer of sand had fallen on her baseball cap and clothes.

He was distracted, still immersed in his own memories. Now is it true that the cherry blossoms of his alma mater are in bloom, and the petals that have fluttered down in his dreams countless times still fall on the hair and shoulders of that girl? Who did the hands that brushed off the petals for her belong at this time?

He also went to Kyoto, Japan on a business trip one spring, when the cherry blossoms only bloomed every other week, and the host lamented that the time was unfortunate, but he didn't feel sorry at all. Without a familiar figure, even if it is in its prime, it has no meaning to him.

Ji Ruoli walked by the girl's side, a little unbearable, hesitated, stopped and turned around and said softly: "Miss, the wind and sand are too big, standing outside for too long, beware that your body can't stand it." ”

She turned her head to face her, paused for a moment, and said in a hoarse and angry voice, "Thank you, I'm waiting for someone." ”

"You can call him."

She was silent for a moment and said, "No need, I probably won't be able to wait for him, just stand for a while and leave." ”

With such a strange answer, Ji Ruoli had no choice but to say nothing, and Lu Fei continued to walk towards the restaurant, and said, "I'll go to the supermarket over there later, fill your refrigerator, and I'll show you my hand in the evening, my dishes are very good." ”

"Don't bother."

"I'm going to spend enough while your credit card is still with me." Ji Ruoli said with a smile, walked far away, but turned back and looked at the girl who was still standing there motionless, "Lu Fei, if there is a girl waiting for you like this, will you be moved?" ”

Lu Fei was stunned, and a crisp voice suddenly echoed in his ears: "I don't wait for anyone, I don't want to see you again." He looked at the wind and sand flying in front of him in amazement, and that bit of distraction fell into Ji Ruoli's eyes, and she immediately regretted it. She couldn't help but try to test him, but she couldn't get the answer she wanted, and he obviously didn't think of herself who had been waiting for him to respond, so she could only quickly pull away from the topic.

After they finished eating, Lu Fei asked Ji Ruoli to wait at the restaurant, he came to pick up the car, but only to see that the strange girl was leaning over the front of his car, writing something on the front windshield of his yellow sand with his finger, and he stopped not far from her, "Miss, is there anything I can help you?" ”

Her fingers stopped, and from his angle, she could vaguely see what seemed to be a string of Arabic numerals, and the strokes of Chinese characters were about to be written underneath, and she leaned there for a while, and suddenly waved her hand, brushed away what she had written, and straightened up, "Sorry, it's just boring." Her voice was hoarse, and she hurried past him.

They had come face to face like this three years ago, and then they passed by.

Lu Fei tried his best to recall the scene of that day, but on ordinary days, the memory had long been blurred, like through the dust, and the figure was far less clear than the photo in front of him.

He looked at Yan Xuhui's blog again: Every teenager will grow old, and whose youth can be immortal. Then, the girl quietly grew old on that day, her innocence, her love, her unhesitating love...... Lost in the wind and sand of time.

And he couldn't even reach out.

His decision was forever a step slower, and he couldn't even blame it on an unpredictable fate. From childhood to adulthood, he chose the path he wanted to take, arranged his own life, and decided the compromises and persistence he had to do, but he did not insist for Xin Chen.

Ji Ruoli looked at Lu Fei and hesitated for a moment before saying, "So, she went to look for you, but she saw us together." ”

Lu Fei gritted his teeth and didn't speak, of course, before he returned to China, he sent an email to Xin Di and told him the address of his residence, "My sister has prepared the house and car, I plan to borrow it here, and the transportation to the office is quite convenient." Xin Di also sighed when he replied to the email, "It seems that it is quite close to the national exhibition, and I can come to see you when I go to Beijing to see the clothing exhibition in the future." "Well, Xin Chen at least saw the email.

He used to contact Xin Di often to report his whereabouts, and he also had a little hope, hoping that Xin Di would mention himself to Xin Chen, so there was a little indirect connection between the two. However, back in Beijing, the distance from Xinchen is only 1,000 kilometers, on the one hand, the work that I just took over is busy and complicated; On the other hand, he was scared and didn't know how to face Xin Chen, who had a boyfriend.

But Xin Chen was still braver than him, she came to Beijing and took the initiative to find him. Realizing this, Lu Fei only felt that his heart suddenly beat faster.

Her face and her voice haunted him countless times, but he faced her, heard her speak, and did not recognize her. To make matters worse, he went in and out with a girl, walking past her and over again.

Seeing that Lu Fei was so silent that he didn't belong, Ji Ruoli suddenly became angry and said sharply: "What is this, are you going to blame me, I appeared at an inopportune time and disturbed your reunion after a long absence?" She could have called you out loud, and left without a sound like that, what the hell did she want to do? It's really disgusting, everyone could have saved some things, I couldn't be sad for a few days, and then I would have left the scene automatically, and I didn't have to have more unexplained love, engagement and cancellation of the marriage contract in the past few years. ”

Why? Lu Fei also asked in his heart. This girl who has always been proud, did she misunderstand when she saw him with someone else? But she has always been frank and direct, and there is no need to leave without saying a word. Could it be that she still remembered what she said when she was separated, so she hated herself for taking the initiative to come to the door but saw this scene.

"You two are really a good match, both completely ignore other people's feelings, and see other people's fate as the background of your great love, are you playing drama life?" Ji Ruoli couldn't control himself at all, and said angrily, "You two just play, why do you want to pull me?" ”

"It's not fair to her when you say that. It's just me who pulls you, I'm sorry, I have nothing to do with her. ”

He looked at her, his voice calm, as if telling a dry truth, without revealing any emotion. Of course, she is no stranger to such a calm road, since the first meeting, he has behaved calmly and self-controlled, never easily exposing emotional fluctuations, and she is attracted by his slightly lonely and alienated attitude, and she is trapped in love little by little and can't extricate herself.

She actually thought that she had been close enough to him for a while, breaking through his indifference, and realizing this, her heart fell as heavy as a lead block, "You are sarcastic about me, Lu Fei, I didn't expect you to be mean too." You know as well as I do, it was me who worked hard for a few years to get your pull, so I hate her even more, what qualifications does she have to pretend to be great like this? ”

"You don't know her, she never bothered to pretend to be anything, I think." Lu Fei's voice was bitter and low, "She's just completely disappointed in me. ”

Lu is appearance at the door of the office, looking at the two people with abnormal expressions, slightly surprised, she asked Ji Ruoli and Lu Fei to have dinner together in the evening, "I just finished the meeting, let's go." ”

Lu Fei stood up, "I'm sorry, sister, please accompany Ruoli to dinner, I have something to do, go first." He took the key, didn't look at anyone, and strode out of the office.

Ji Ruoli sat down in his seat dejectedly, looked straight at the computer that had a screen-saving pattern, sighed, walked over and patted her on the shoulder, "Ruoli, I went to Shenzhen for a meeting, my mother called me over, let me persuade you to communicate well, don't break up casually." I also agreed to her, and planned to ask you to have dinner today and talk seriously, but now I suddenly feel that it is unfair to you to drag it out any longer. ”

Ji Ruoli's eyes were sour, "How can there be fairness in love?" ”

"Again, we will always give up our persistence for someone." Lu is also a little melancholy, "However, it's better not to give up on yourself." ”

"Sister, would you care about your first love like this?"

Lu was stunned, remembering that he had recalled his first love with a little girl, and the girl's unhesitating insistence made her question her life for a long time.

But now she can only smile wryly and shake her head, "First love is just a vague shadow in my heart, but everyone will probably unconsciously regard a certain relationship as particularly important, not necessarily the first love, maybe because a period of time, a memory has special significance, maybe because you have paid enough, and there will be no effort and opportunity to pay like that in the future." ”

"Yes, he sanctified his memories, and nothing else is important to give up in comparison, even if we have happy days together."

Of course, they also had very pleasant memories, Lu Fei's smiling and gentle expression appeared in front of her, the pleasure was not fake, but now that I think about it, it is extremely ironic, and all the happiness seems to be overshadowed. She suddenly discovered that there were actually many clues, but she deliberately ignored them. Love makes people so blind, she can only think bitterly, she has never chosen, if she is given a chance, I don't know if she is willing to be willing to be blind all the time, or soberly accept the reality.

"You are a very good girl, Ruo Li, and you are attentive enough to him, I have no doubt at all that he will be happy with you. But people are greedy, and the more they give, the more they want to get. What you think about now may be to marry him, sooner or later you will find that what you get is not complete, the same will be unbalanced, and you will resent why the marriage is only maintained by your efforts, listen to your sister, forget it. ”

"Everyone persuaded me to forget it, but if I don't count it, what can I do? It seems that there is only one way left to cry to my uncle and aunt, but with his current determination, I really want to do that, don't talk about turning back, we probably don't have room to see each other again. Ji Ruoli reached out and touched the mouse, watched the screensaver pattern on the display screen spread out, and the photo reappeared in front of him, and paused for a while before saying, "I'm also tired of it, sister, I originally wanted to fight for it, but now I look at it, it seems that there is no need to bother with this, I hope he won't regret it and won't be disappointed." ”