The photographer keeps shouting and directing the models, the models keep changing their clothes and posing in various poses, the makeup artists keep touching up the makeup, and the assistants keep adjusting the lights to arrange the clothes and replace the background props. What Xin Chen has to do is to keep comparing and comparing the photos taken, and make adjustments and modifications at any time. As usual, it was busy until late at night, and everyone was exhausted, so Yan Xuhui announced that he would call it a day and let everyone rest.

April Garden is not far from Xin Di's residence, Xin Chen refused Yan Xuhui to send her, and she didn't bother to call a taxi, so she walked back along the streets of the old city alone, this neighborhood is safe, she has long been familiar with the crisscrossing roads, and she likes the feeling of walking slowly alone in the cool night.

Walking to a cake shop that was about to close, she stopped and bought egg tarts and hadou, two sweets that both she and Xin Di loved. She took it in her hand, went to the convenience store next to it and bought a chocolate cone to eat while walking, and when she turned a street, she looked up and stopped.

Lu Fei was standing under the dim street lamp not far away, his face was half-hidden in the darkness, his figure was obliquely elongated, projected on the sidewalk, this scene was clearly familiar to her, he had stood in the same position waiting for her before, but when was that? She paused, thinking.

Of course, it's been too long, I don't know if it's a blurry memory or a bit of a trance in front of me, everything doesn't seem real enough, it's like turning a corner and walking home, but suddenly strayed into some dream.

Xin Chen walked to the side first, threw the remaining half-baked cone into the garbage bin on the side of the road, and then turned to him, "Hello, Lu Fei, what's the matter?" ”

Lu Fei looked at her, her thin lips were tightly closed and she didn't speak, the line of her jaw was obviously clenched her teeth, as if she was trying to restrain some kind of intense emotion, she was a little surprised, and asked suspiciously, "What's wrong?" She didn't get an answer, she thought about it, and said, "Originally, I wasn't going to say those superfluous words, but since you're here, I think it's better to make it clear." ”

She looked at him seriously, "Maybe what Yueqing told you made you misunderstand." What he told you is true, but please don't miss a premise, at that time on Taibai Mountain, I was having a high fever, probably ordinary people will call mom when they encounter that kind of unlucky situation, but I don't have a mother to call, what I said at the time, I don't know myself, I don't think I have to be responsible for the nonsense I said during my illness, so don't take that seriously, okay? ”

Lu Fei still didn't speak, just stared at her. Xin Chen continued helplessly: "I have been hiking since I was in college, and I decided that going to Qinling has nothing to do with you, and being sick was just an accident. Before and since, I have encountered more dangerous situations, such as this time I went to Tibet, the tire burst on the road, and the car almost lost control and rushed down the winding road. You don't need me to explain that playing outdoors is inevitable and one of the pleasures of stimulating people's engagement. If you feel guilty about this, I think it's a bit of a no-brainer, after all, we've been separated for a long time, we're all adults, and it's good to be responsible for our own actions. As for you and your fiancée, please don't get involved with me, I don't like to be approached by someone I don't know to negotiate. ”

"You went to Beijing three years ago, why didn't you want to see me?" Lu Fei finally spoke, his voice low.

Xin Chen frowned in annoyance, "Why should I see you?" Okay, I'll explain it again, I went to Beijing to look for a job, and I found a job, but I hate the climate in the north, it's dry and windy sand, so I'm back, I said it clearly enough, right?! ”

Lu Fei stared at her, his eyes were completely different from usual, and Xin Chen didn't avoid it, he also looked at him, and there was no trace of waves in those eyes. After a long time, Lu Fei sighed, "Xiaochen, why do you want to do this?" They didn't even call me face to face. ”

Xin Chen's face suddenly turned pale, and after a pause, she smiled, that smile was cold and detached, "It's a miracle, after three years, I suddenly remembered that I had been face to face with you, but it was already in the past, and it was not interesting to turn it out again." ”

"Your face is all covered, I really didn't recognize you, if it weren't for Yan Xuhui's blog, I probably would never have known that you went to Beijing to find me. Even if you only call my name, everything is different, is it really that important to say angry words when you were a teenager? ”

"Very well, you just keep me angry." Xin Chen turned to leave, but Lu Fei grabbed her arm and grabbed her.

"Xiao Chen, at that time, Ruoli and I were just ordinary friends."

"You don't have to explain this to me, we've been apart for so long, I've had more than one boyfriend, it's completely normal for you to have ordinary friends, girlfriends and fiancées." Xin Chen said lightly.

"I deserve to be punished, Xiao Chen, but you shouldn't punish me by leaving quietly by yourself."

Xin Chen narrowed his eyes slightly and smiled, with a bit of mockery, "Do you have to force me to completely confess my humility in front of you, Lu Fei?" Well, I ran to you, neurotically misunderstood your pure friendship with others, and then gave up looking for a good job and went home in disgrace. Not only that, but when I heard you come back, I ran again, this time running even more outrageously, almost throwing my life out, this version is bloody enough to be funny, and it's dramatic, right? ”

Before she could finish speaking, Lu Fei reached out to hug her with his arm, he used so much force that she was suddenly dragged into his arms, he hugged her tightly with one hand, and pressed her head against his chest with the other, a position he used to make when he hugged her before. His voice came hoarse and painful from her head, "Don't talk about Xiao Chen, it's all my fault, I didn't go back to China to find you as soon as I got my degree, and I broke your heart." ”

Xin Chen's face was pressed against his chest, and he could feel the fierce beating there through his shirt. She lost her mind for a while, and the memories of the past came flooding like a tide, and a tingling swept through her heart to her fingertips, so that she suddenly lost the strength to struggle and move, and could only lean softly on him.

However, what filled her breath was the light smell of aftershave and shower gel mixed with him. It was the aura of a mature man, not the arms of a big boy she had known and wanted to indulge in as a teenager, and realizing this, she adjusted a smile and tried to look up at him, his hand still on the back of her head, fingers in her hair, holding her in place.

For the first time in several years, the two looked at each other so closely, and the emotions in his deep eyes were complicated, and the pain, pity, and helplessness were so deep that she could no longer maintain a mocking expression, and the smile was like a broken leaf blown away from the branch, leaving her face little by little.

"I'm sorry, Lu Fei, I forgot that you have always been responsible for your upper body. I have a bad sense of humor now, and I like to make jokes that aren't funny at all, so please don't take it seriously. She said calmly, "Not what you think." I'll admit that I did go to see you, but I knew that you were in Beijing at the time and wanted to meet you. When I actually saw you, I was a little embarrassed, and suddenly realized that we had broken up earlier, hadn't seen each other for a few years, and were strangers. Everyone has their own lives, and I don't have the right to be an uninvited guest in someone else's life after saying goodbye, so I walked away, it's as simple as that. I didn't say it before, but I didn't want to complicate things. ”

Lu Fei looked at her deeply, under the street lamp, her face was thin, her chin was pointed, and she had lost a little baby fat from her girlhood, and she no longer had that fullness and roundness like a freshly ripe peach. At this moment, she calmly met his gaze, her eyes were still as clear as water, without the love and coquettishness that she used to show in front of him. Her voice was crisp and soft, calm and calm, without any negative connotations. Lu Fei only felt the pain in his heart even worse, the fingers he clasped the back of her head tightened unconsciously, she could feel the sudden pressure of the slender fingers, but she only stood motionless.

"If you don't want to mention this again, forget it, Xiao Chen." He whispered.

He fully understood that her well-coherent answer seemed reasonable, but in fact she was evading, understating, and prevaricating.

Standing motionless in the wind and sand of Beijing for a few hours, remaining silent in the face of him and Ji Ruoli, leaving Beijing alone and returning to her hometown, and avoiding him to go hiking alone, this is certainly not simply angry or angry, she is probably just dead. He had a lot of questions stuck in his mind: What were you thinking when you stood there alone? Are you really disappointed in me? What did you write on the front of my car that day? Have you finally erased me from your heart? But he knew full well that he had no right to ask any more, and he couldn't bear to touch the wounds she might have healed.

Xin Chen looked relieved, as if satisfied with explaining the matter in this way, she gently broke away from his embrace and retreated a little distance, "Let's talk about it, don't mention the past again, especially don't drag me into the entanglement between you and your fiancée, my cultivation has never been good, I'm afraid I don't have much patience to explain to people like this." ”

"There's nothing I need you to explain, I'll clean up all the trouble I've caused."

Xin Chen nodded, "That's good, it's not early, I'll go home first, goodbye." ”

Without waiting for her to turn around, Lu Fei stretched out a hand to stop her again, "When I can face you again, Xiao Chen, let's start again, okay?" ”

Xin Chen looked at him with wide eyes, and after a long time, she smiled politely, "This is not a good proposal, Lu Fei, I said that there is no need to mention the past." ”

"What you don't want to mention, I promise I won't ask again."

"But when it comes to starting over, can we act as if we didn't know each other before, that nothing happened, and do it again?" She shrugged, "No, Lu Fei, you probably haven't changed much, it's the same as before, but I really can't pretend to be an innocent girl." ”

"Do you like little girls when I have a pedophile? What I love is you, Xiaochen, you before, you now, just you. ”

Xin Chen shook slightly, and the fingers holding the food bag unconsciously clenched tightly, she clearly remembered that when they were together in the past, the boy who was too restrained beyond his age never said love to her, he just looked at her lovingly and cared for her, and she was full of confidence at that time, enjoying his tenderness calmly, and did not need to ask for words to affirm her own. Today, when everything has changed, she ushered in a belated confession, and her nails were unconsciously embedded in the palm of her hand.

Lu Fei continued: "I have always been dull, I think my feelings are too reserved, and I always think that there are some things that do not need to be said. If it weren't for you kissing me when I was 15, I don't know what I'm going to miss out on in my life, and now I'm not qualified to ask for more from you, I just want to ask you to give me a chance. ”

"You may not be a pedophile, but you do know me at the age of 15." Xin Chen narrowed his eyes again and smiled, "yes, I was crazy enough at that moment. As long as I like it, I don't hesitate to say that others feel the same way as me. I don't regret being that crazy, but you can't keep me at 15. I'm 25 years old this year, Lu Fei, I've been in love many times, and I've even discussed the possibility of getting married. We haven't seen each other for more than seven years, and that one time in Beijing doesn't count. If you say love to me now, I can only say thank you, I'm sorry, my love is not so strong and can't stand the test of time and distance. And you should remember, there is one thing that I have not changed, I still have not the habit of standing still and waiting for someone to turn back. ”

"Xiaochen, look at me now, a man who is almost 30 years old, has always loved a girl, but has repeatedly lost her, and at the same time has failed another person, making other people's lives and his own life embarrassed, do you think I will be arrogant enough to ask you to wait for me in the same place?"

Xin Chen stared at him, his facial contours were still clear, and his heroic facial features had a mature charm, but his expression was anxious and bitter, his brows were slightly frowned, and there was a faint cyan stubble on his chin, she couldn't match this face with the warm and jade-like big boy in her memory, she could only smile, "You let your guilt run rampant, messed yourself up, and even didn't hesitate to cancel the marriage contract to compensate me." But I don't think you need to feel guilty, and I don't think I need to make amends. It's none of my business whether you're fair to your fiancée like this, but it's not fair to me to compensate me with an affection I don't need. ”

"Guilt? I'll admit I do, but do you think my feelings for you are as simple as a little guilt? Lu Fei looked at her and said softly, "Don't rush to draw conclusions about my feelings, Xiaochen, don't be in a hurry to reject me, give me a little time." ”

Xin Chen smiled dumbly, "Don't ask me for time, Lu Fei, I can't give it to you." Your advice doesn't appeal to me, my age is not in vain, and I'm no longer the little girl who needs to hold on to someone for security. Now that I am in love with someone, I want to be happy and happy. For you, this feeling is too heavy, I can't afford it, so forget it. ”

Lu Fei held her hand, pulled her tightly clenched fingers away one by one, took the food bag, stared at her hand, still slender, but there were a few deep crescent-shaped nail marks in the palm, he raised her hand and put it on his lips and kissed it gently, "No matter what you want, I will do my best to give, if I can't meet your requirements after working hard, you can refuse me, when, for any reason, I will accept it." ”

"As I said earlier, when I grew up, I never allowed myself to be an uninvited guest in other people's lives, and in the same way, I don't welcome uninvited guests in my life." Xin Chen pulled his hand back, and said tiredly and helplessly, "I can't control your decision, but I can tell you clearly, I won't change my plan for you, what do you want, I'm sorry, it's all your business." ”

When Lu Fei knocked on the door and came in, he looked depressed, Xin Di had accumulated a lot of questions, but when he saw his appearance, he could only sigh, "Chenzi hasn't returned from working overtime in April Garden, she went to Beijing to find you, don't you know?" ”

"I didn't recognize her." Lu Fei was silent for a while, and only said simply.

Xin Di recalled the photos on Yan Xuhui's blog, and had nothing to say for a while, of course, Beijing has a big clothing fair and fashion week at the end of March every year, she went every year from her sophomore year to work, caught up with two sandstorms, the streets were full of loess, all the people were tightly wrapped, wearing big masks and sunglasses, in the words of the little girl in the design department of Suomei before going out to the mirror and self-pity: "My mother may not be able to recognize my daughter and me." "The front of the hotel where they live is an outlet, and when they came out to wait for a taxi, she was caught off guard by the petite person, and was blown by the wind and snapped to the wall, and the colleagues next to her laughed wildly, and then covered her mouth, already a mouth full of sand.

If the masked photo wasn't hung in Yan Xuhui's diary, she wouldn't have recognized it as Xin Chen. After she called Lu Fei in the afternoon, she immediately called Yan Xuhui and asked the teacher: "Lao Yan, three years ago, I was also on a business trip in Beijing, and we met almost every day at the National Exhibition and Fashion Week conferences, why didn't you tell me that Chenzi went to Beijing?" ”

Yan Xuhui found out what she was talking about and exclaimed: "Xin Chen won't let me say it, as soon as she comes, she will interview everywhere and say that she must find a good job and then tell you." Who knew that she had found a job and suddenly said that she wanted to go back, and asked me not to mention to you that she had been to Beijing. ”

Xin Di was dumbfounded, of course she knew the quiet stubbornness behind Xin Chen's usual cheerfulness, Yan Xuhui sighed on the phone, "I'll tell you honestly, Xin Di, I really wanted to keep her at that time, I confessed to her, I like her, I hope she will be my girlfriend and stay in Beijing, I will definitely cherish her, but she just shook her head and said that if she can't pay the same feelings, she will no longer casually perfunctory other people's sincerity." ”

Putting down the phone, Xin Di naturally couldn't say that she was in a good mood, and Dai Weifan called to say that he wanted to pick her up for dinner, but she was also angrily pushed away.

Lu Fei sat with her for a while before leaving, Xin Di knew that he must have gone out to wait for Xin Chen, and he didn't keep it, "I'm not sure if it's right to turn out Yan Xuhui's blog three years ago to show you, it's obvious that Chenzi doesn't want others to mention this matter again." ”

Lu Fei was gloomy, "I know, but what I want to ask for is not her forgiveness, she has been carrying it alone for so long, no matter what, it's my turn." ”

Xin Di watched him go downstairs, the former straight figure was lonely, and she could only conclude again that she didn't know what the complicated and tangled feelings meant to others, and for her, it was indeed better to avoid it.

She took a shower and changed into pajamas, made popcorn in the microwave, poured a small half glass of red wine, and snuggled up on the sofa to watch the fashion show one after another, with the drawing board resting on her lap and the pencil in her hand. It's her weekend repertoire, and she's always felt most comfortable and relaxed than any date.

Xin Chen took the key to open the door and walked in, handed the food bag to Xin Di, Xin Di cheered, took out a Ha Dou and ate it, "I like to eat this Ha Dou the most, I'm always too lazy to buy it." Hey, you look very tired, is this guy Yan rushing too hard? ”

"Fortunately, he has a lot of contracts in hand, of course he has to hurry, and he should go into the studio after filming the part of April Garden in the next few days." Xin Chen sat down beside her, picked up an egg tart and ate it, "I don't have to follow all day long." ”

Xin Di turned the pencil between her fingers, looking at a sketch sketched casually on the drawing board, the brief face was still Xin Chen, her eyebrows and eyes were full, she was already familiar with this face, and she didn't have to think about it at all, but at this time, looking at Xin Chen, who was calm and seemed to have no emotional ups and downs, she was a little puzzled. Is she really painting Xinchen? Is it the 16-year-old Xin Chen, who she has always thought is invincible in youth, or is she a phantom living in her imagination of indulgent and willful youth?

"What are you thinking, I didn't pay attention to the press conference, but came to see me." Xin Chen has long been accustomed to being a model for her cousin, and she is not afraid of her scrutinizing gaze.

She was really not shocked, Xin Di sighed and admitted defeat, so she had to look at the TV again, suddenly lost her smile, and motioned for Xin Chen to watch it too. On the screen is the end of the fashion show, a thin old man in black wearing sunglasses is hugging left and right to take a curtain call, Xin Chen doesn't have much concept of fashion, so he naturally doesn't know which master it is.

"Karl Lagerfeld, known as the 'Julius Caesar' in the fashion industry, is over 60 years old, it is said that he has lost about 40 kilograms in 13 months, and now he is wearing the favorite of beautiful teenagers, Dior Homme, this brand of clothes is only suitable for the body like a telephone pole."

"You still say that I am masochistic in the mountains, and in my opinion, this old gentleman can be regarded as cruel enough to himself."

"Well, look at him and then look at us, just drink red wine with popcorn, and when I go to bed, I'm still eating Hadou and egg tarts, and I suddenly feel very happy."

Xin Chen licked the tart crumbs on his fingers and admitted that she was reasonable, "Yes, I have always believed that if the requirements are not high, happiness is not difficult to find, as long as you don't deliberately get along with yourself, the probability of living a tragedy is still relatively low." ”

"But if you don't have high requirements, will you miss out on people and things that are more worthy of investment?"

"Anyway, the bigger you are, the more you know that investing is not an easy task, since you can't invest, why care about missing out, I don't worry about it." She stood up and stretched, "It's time to take a shower." ”

"Tatsuko—"

Xin Chen lowered her head and looked at her, but she didn't know what to say.

Xin Chen immediately understood, and said with a smile: "So, you also read Yan Xuhui's blog, it seems that I am the only one who has not read it." His habit of lyrical exaggeration really doesn't know how bleak and terrible it is to write me. ”

"Fortunately, when it comes to you, he is still restrained and reserved. Tatsuko, why don't you want me to know about going to Beijing? ”

"Actually, it's nothing now, it's just a matter of self-esteem," Xin Chen's tone was relaxed, "I just wanted to find a good job and then tell everyone, but then I came back in disgrace, so naturally there was no need to say anything." ”

Xin Di looked at her and smiled too, "You know what? Tatsuko, I really think sometimes, if you don't say it, I don't seem to have to ask you anything anymore, and you have a ready-made, very fluent answer to any question. ”

Xin Chen froze and touched his face, "I actually didn't blush, it's terrible." I promise God, Dizi, I didn't mean anything perfunctory. ”

"I understand, I understand, you're not perfunctory to me, but I'm really a little suspicious, you're perfunctory to yourself."

Xin Chen stood in place, thought about it sideways, and smiled bitterly, "Yes, I can't figure it out when I say this, I really don't care, or I pretend to be pretending to be and even coax myself." ”

Xin Di couldn't stand her self-reflection, her beautiful face showed helplessness and resignation, so she could only admit defeat and wave her hand, "Come on, you go take a bath." Go to bed early, I can rest tomorrow, you still have to be exploited by Yan Xuhui. ”

"By the way, Dizi, I won't stay for long, why did you go to such trouble to buy a new bed?"

She used to live here occasionally, and she used a dual-purpose sofa in the study to use as a bed, but when she came here for the first time last night, she found that there was a brand-new wrought iron bed inside, and a full set of light beige bedding was spread on the latex mattress.

Xin Di smiled: "I didn't buy it." ”

Xin Chen went to work after handling her belongings yesterday, her computer equipment, clothes and the chaise longue were all sent to Xin Di's house by Lu Fei, of course she would not be stupid enough to ask who bought it, so she could only shake her head and get the pajamas.

Xin Di's mobile phone rang, she picked it up and saw that it was Dai Weifan calling, and answered lazily: "Hey, hello." ”

"Did you sleep? To the balcony. ”

Xin Di inexplicably took her mobile phone and walked up to the small curved balcony, she lived on the second floor, looked down, and saw Dai Weifan leaning on the side of the car in the courtyard, looking up at her, she admitted that the moonlight was like underwater, and the tall and straight man looked quite pleasing to the eye, "What the hell, why do you come here so late without sleeping?" ”

"Come down, I'll take you for a ride."

"I've changed into my pajamas and I'm going to sleep."

"See, wearing such a tiny tooth pajama really doesn't fit your identity as a designer."

Xin Di couldn't help laughing, she was small, the pajamas on her body were on a business trip to Hong Kong, she was teased by her colleagues and went to a certain brand of children's clothing department to buy it, although it was a suspender style, but the hem of the doll, the light pink color, and the rose pattern she liked, it was not sexy at all, it was really young, "I'm just happy to wear it." ”

"Well, I'm happy to watch." Dai Weifan smiled, "Come down, you don't need to change your clothes, let's go out for a walk, and I promise to send you back." ”

His voice dragged on slightly, as if he was holding back a little smile, and a little temptation. Xin Di's determination not to entangle with him during the day suddenly wavered, and he despised himself a little, but he thought, hey, why refuse the pastime sent to the door on such a depressing night? As soon as this thought moved, he couldn't help blushing, but he couldn't help but ignore him, "Okay, wait a minute." ”

She still went back to the room, put on a white silk shirt over her pajamas, and said to Xin Chen: "I brought the key, you sleep first, don't wait for me." ”

Xin Chen smiled and nodded, Xin Di got on the double flip-flops and went downstairs to Dai Weifan's car, he started the car and went out of the yard, looked sideways, and saw her face flushed, and her eyes were shining looking ahead.

"What do you think?"

"The most memorable time I used to go out late at night was when I was 18 years old." Xin Di lowered the window glass of the car, tilted his head on the back of the chair and blew the wind, "My parents are on a business trip, and my uncle took me and Tatsuko out to eat and spend the night, and I realized that there are so many people who don't sleep and wander outside at night." ”

It was a night that stuck in her memory, and for the first time at the age of 18, she discovered that the city was not as orderly as her mother had arranged, and after 11 o'clock everyone turned off the lights and went to bed. The place where Xin Kaiyu took her sisters was very lively, every stall was full of people, and the people sitting in the middle of it talked with various accents, and from time to time there were flower girls and singing artists interspersed with business, and the spicy and stimulating aroma of food floated in the air, and she was not very impressed by what she ate, but she was still excited when she went home, and her head was dizzy and tossed on the bed for a long time before falling asleep.

After going to college, she was relatively free, and she also spent the night with her classmates, but she didn't like the greasy food and noisy environment, and she didn't bother to go out after the first novelty was gone.

She grew up to 28 years old, only in the design imagination, but has always lived a life of following the rules, her mother used to control her even if she went out to the commissary to buy a bag of salt to dress neatly, and then even if she lived alone, under the habit, but there was no urge to indulge herself. For the first time, she wore pajamas in the dead of night and went down to a man's date, and her heart couldn't help but beat faster when she thought of it.

Dai Weifan has always been free and accustomed to it, and he thinks it's funny, "It seems that your tutor is really strict," Xin Di naturally knew the implication, and squinted at him, so he had to continue, "Very good, girls are better like this, I'm the most annoying crazy girl." ”

Xin Di snorted, too lazy to remind him, as far as she could remember, many of his former girlfriends were crazy girls, and a senior sister who was quite talented and showed him frequently but did not get a response. In the quiet of the night, the car drove smoothly on the wide road, the cool evening breeze was blowing, and all the worries seemed to be gone with the wind, and there was no need to mention those uninteresting topics.

"Where do you want to go?"

"I don't know, can you keep going?"

Dai Weifan smiled, "Then I'll go straight to the highway out of the city, this looks a bit like elopement." ”

"Yes, the moon is white and the wind is clear, neither hot nor cold, it is indeed a suitable weather for elopement." She had a mischievous thought, "Where do you think we might go if we elope?" ”

"Anything, as long as it's with you." David replied very briskly.

Xin Di leaned back in his chair and laughed, "If you think about it a little and then say it, it will seem much more sincere, but you promised without a little struggle, I changed my mind, don't get on the highway, let's walk along Binjiang Road, the wind by the river is really comfortable." ”

Dai Weifan drove the car to Jiangtan Park near the place where the city was leaving, the two got out of the car, it was very quiet here, there was no one around, the river wind was mighty, blowing the big shirt on Xin Di's body fluttering, Dai Weifan hugged her from behind, "I thought about it a little, it seems that every time I kiss you, you will be easier to talk." ”

Before she could speak, his lips burned hot on her neck, followed by one kiss after another, and she couldn't remember how she turned in his arms, she couldn't remember how her arms were around his waist, and she replied mercilessly.