"Do you know how to play mahjong?" Li Yifeng asked, I didn't answer, but I wanted to say something

"No, it won't. I said.

"I must have read the novel too seriously, three years ago, I thought that the person renting opposite my house was Li Yifeng. Then imagine him as Wu Xie, it was raining that day, and I still held an umbrella to knock on the glass door of the store, hoping to enter Li Yifeng's house through the glass, hey, do you think I'm too naïve. I thought that walking into Li Yifeng's house was walking into Wu Xie's house, I thought I could become the person in "Notes on Tomb Robbery", I couldn't position my identity, I was too obsessed with that novel. I like the experiences and personalities of the characters, but I'm afraid of the plot. This is a kind of psychology, just like watching a ghost movie, obviously afraid of the terrifying scenes in it and can't help but be curious, so I look at those terrifying scenes from my fingers. What have I done all these years? I have been bored every day, I have memorized things that I shouldn't remember, they seem to be terrifying, I remember a street magic trick that my brother showed me, and I still don't know what happened to that magic. It is a magician who asks an onlooker to experience the magic of separating the upper body from the lower body without pain, and the passer-by follows the magician's arrangement and lies on a bench, and then the magician asks his assistant to stand at the feet of the passer-by, and he stands next to the passerby's waist, and the other assistant stands next to the passerby's head, only to see the magician press the passerby's waist with his hand, silently recite a few incantations in his mouth, and then lean over to the passerby's ear and say: "Relax, relax, relax" Then the passer-by really relaxed, and then the magician gestured to the two assistants, and the two assistants dragged the passer-by's arm and the passer-by's leg on the other, so the passerby was divided into two parts, the upper body, and the legs of the lower body, at this time the magician said something to the passer-by, and the passer-by began to open his eyes, and saw that his legs were moving ten steps away from him, trying to walk and stand up, and then the passer-by's first reaction after seeing it was screaming, an expression of extreme fear, and when her upper body tried to escape, the whole video ended。

I may have subconsciously remembered such a terrible appearance, so at the moment of my illness, I found myself being dragged away like this.

Another time, I saw a message on my phone about the truth about the relics, saying that the relics are the substances produced after the cremation of the golden body of the enlightened monk, and then I also took pictures of the cremated golden body, which are the teeth after being cremated. Bones or something, this made me feel a sense of fear and nausea, but I subconsciously combined this photo with the video of the street magic on the Internet, and then I felt that my body was torn in two, and then I was cut into pieces with a knife and put in the pot to cook, and every piece of my meat will move, and it will hurt very much, and it hurts more and more, and I found a reason why I was enlarged into the pot to cook, I actually associated my vegetarian things with Tang Seng, because Tang Seng has been a vegetarian all his life, so the monsters think that eating Tang Seng meat can be immortal, so I also think that my meat is also regarded as Tang Seng meat, because they want to live forever, so they choose to eat my meat, so it makes sense.

Thinking about it now, it sounds ridiculous.

I said. "Since I dropped out of school, I have had very little contact with my peers, which has led to a lonely inner world and a feeling of having nothing to say when communicating with my mother.

I can't find anything interesting, I hate boredom, I hate uniformity. I want to meet someone I talk to about everything, I once met a person in a closed room in a mental hospital, she was very much like a classmate, and I looked at her so normal and asked, 'How did you get in?'

''I'm still in high school, but I've been so quiet lately that I'm not interested in anything, and my mom felt the need to come to the psychiatric department, so she was sent here.''

She seems to have such a good temper, and she is very gentle. She looks a lot like the Medicine Master Glass Light Buddha.

This reminds me of another novel I read in 2016, the name of that novel is incomprehensible, it is about the owner of a shop that sells dead people's supplies and a lot of strange things happen one after another, that is, people who are close to him will die quickly, and every time someone close to him dies, he will make a lot of money, and his life will increase a lot, and his luck will become better and better, and later he guessed that this is because all the good luck of people close to him has been sucked away by him, and his good luck will skyrocket.

And his doom will be transferred to those who are close to him. So anyone who gets close to him will be unlucky or even die.

This made him very fearful, because it was in response to the fortune teller who gave him fortune when he was a child.

And when I was sick, I imagined the character in this novel to be Li Yifeng.

"Hehe, I'll take a look at Li Yifeng. The corners of his mouth turned up, and he smiled. I figured out a little bit more about the cause. I feel very happy.

"Is my inner world too rich?" I asked Li Yifeng.

"Not rich. He said.

"I'm a person who doesn't understand love, and I used to have a very curious feeling when I didn't experience what it was like for two people to be together. But I didn't know it was such a painful feeling. I was so ignorant at the time that I thought it would be very comfortable. That's what I imagined. Now I feel like it's okay to be alone. I can face that history. My past, my past, and my present feel like that. With you, I feel that it is so happy and beautiful, not vulgar at all, not dirty, and not a shameful thing. It's beautiful and warm to be in love. With someone you love, that person is the only one. I need a warm home, not because I'm a woman, but because I'm a person. You can give me this feeling, I feel that you have come into my life. But I want to escape, I want to leave you for a while. What would it be like to go back to a world without you? What kind of person are you? What is the essence of life? I just want to live quietly. I came into this world alone in the beginning. ”

"I'm always looking for something interesting. Li Yifeng said.

"Have you ever committed a crime?" I asked Li Yifeng.

"Crime?" Li Yifeng repeated these two words. I realized I had said the wrong thing.

"I've seen ...... before" I was about to say it, but I stopped, because I thought of the look in the man's eyes, the look that made my heart ache.

"You've changed a lot. Li Yifeng said.

"I've always been like this. I said.

"Is Twenty-Four Billy scary?" I asked him.

"Are you afraid?" he said. "How did you find out about this book?

"How did you come up with the idea to read this book?"

I asked. So I went to the library and wanted to look through the book, whether I had the courage to read it. "Scared, aren't you?

Li Yifeng said on the side. "You men's world is terrible. I once saw a three-year-old boy and a two-year-old boy playing a mobile game called Vice City, and I was like, 'You guys are terrible in this game, how can you shoot people in the street?'

And the three-year-old boy said it wasn't scary, it was more scary, and I asked what?

They said it was a 'mummy', but when I heard it, my heart was beating with fright, and I thought to myself, "Oh, how old are you."

Oh, the world of men is really scary.

Li Yifeng was flipping through a book in the library.