I looked at Li Yifeng's appearance, remembered my brother, and then remembered our childhood, when I was a child, I lived in a forty-year-old adobe house, that house also had a yard, when I was born, my family was so poor that I had nothing, hehe, there is something my mother told me that I still can't accept, that is, when I was not born, our family had not yet drilled a well, it was the kind of old-fashioned rolling well, the kind of well that would produce a lot of water when you rolled hard, my mother used the water in the big tank in the kitchen to cook and stir-fry, and as a result, a kind of rat sores began to grow on the body, and my mother said that it was the consequence of being poisoned by corpsesBut there were no dead animals in the kitchen, and she began to wonder, and on the day she ran out of water in the tank, she found that a mouse had fallen into the tank and drowned, and she only found out at this time that the water in the whole tank was soaked in mouse water.

Well, if my mom hadn't told me, I would have thought I was living a clean and healthy life, and she herself was sick and wanted to vomit, but the water had been eating for months.

The adobe house is no longer there, and I remember when the yard was full of mud, and my brother made several pairs of beautiful little boots out of mud, and painted them with colored chalk, and I wondered if it was bad for him, and he looked at them with some sadness and asked me what was wrong.

I even replied that it was the wind that blew it, and I didn't dare to admit my mistake at that time, so I blamed the wind. Now I want to apologize to him and tell him that it was all my fault, and I wonder if he remembers.

I remember another time, he bought a lot of slippery fish, and told me that it was the most vigorous fish in the world, and when I heard it, I thought to myself, I want to see how strong your vitality is, and then I picked up a fish and brutally beat it to death, and it was still alive, and my brother came back and asked me what was the matter?

I didn't have the courage to admit that I did it, so I said, "I don't know." "I've been remembering this until now.

I wanted to say to my brother, "I'm sorry, I did it." I just want to see how strong it is. "Another time, our family somehow came to a dog, that dog should be a stray dog, but it is the kind of stray dog that is strong and strong, it is a very long short little wolf dog, because of the two eyes on the two small black dots, my mother named it four eyes, at the beginning we gave it steamed buns, and then it often went out to forage, and rarely ate the steamed buns we fed, I remember one time she was very friendly to put her head to me, I guess it wanted to be friends with me, as a result, I inexplicably had a thought in my heart: slap you, see what you do？

As a result, I hit it hard, and it must have felt pain, so it walked away disappointed and angry.

Disappeared from my sight since. Many years later, I felt like I was doing something wrong. I've always been aware of my mistakes.

Later, after reading the book "Lao Tzu", I realized that God would definitely give him a benevolent heart if he wanted to have someone.

What about me? I don't seem to have been born with a kind heart. This showed itself when I was very young.

I remember when I was a child, there was a big pit dug outside the courtyard wall of our adobe house, and my brother and cousin and I were playing nearby, and suddenly I walked to the edge of the pit and asked them who dared to stand at the edge of the pit.

It was like a challenge to them, and my cousin said to me, "I dare!" and he stood at the very edge of the pit, and I stood very close to him behind him, and then quickly pushed him while he wasn't looking, to see how he had fallen into the pit, and then laughed at him.

As a result, he seemed to be on guard, and deliberately stood as if he had taken root, and my brother saw this scene, and he said, "I can too! In the same way, I quickly pushed him, and he fell into the pit unexpectedly, and then he was so frightened that he cried so much that his face turned red, and I was still standing there watching and laughing, and he cried even more fiercely when he saw me laughing.

Then my parents knew, my dad had a cold face, ready to beat me hard, at that time I was so scared that I got behind my mother, I don't know what to do, but fortunately at this time there was a very important guest in my house, my dad endured his anger and received the guest, and then the guest stayed for a long time and said a lot of good things, he forgot about it.

I will avoid being beaten. But I still remember vividly that I haven't done anything to sneak up on someone in the back since.

For this, I would like to thank my dad, who corrected my behavior in time and let me know how terrible it is to do something to plot against people.

I remember another time, my grandmother bought my brother an inflatable pillow, and I took a mechanical pencil to try how strong it was, and ran away, my dad was very angry and started beating me when he found out, at that time I didn't even learn to cherish things, but to try, to see how strong it is, how much endurance it has as a way for me to understand it, and now I know that it is far more important to love a life first than to try to understand them first, and it is more important to care and love than to draw conclusions after understanding.

I remember what Yishu said

"A woman has a lot of money, and if she doesn't have a lot of money, she has to have a lot of love. "I think a woman can make herself happy if she has a lot of money, and if she has a lot of love, she can make others happy.

In other words, a woman must first let herself get a lot of happiness, if this can't be done for some reason, then let others have a lot of happiness, I don't know if Yishu means this?

In the past, when I lived in an adobe house, I also abused cats, dogs, chickens, field chickens, When I was a child, I went down to the ground with my mother to pull weeds, and I caught grasshoppers, put them on the stalks and roasted them alive on the fire, and then ate their meat, and they all flowed out of yellow-green liquid, I guess it was their blood, so I decided that they were my food, and I thought that they were inherently inferior to me, even if I burned them and ate them, it would not constitute a crime, and there would be no retribution, but it turned out that I was wrong.

All lives are equal, and they will have grievances after death. I remember when I told my mom that I was afraid of insects, my mom told me that I wouldn't be scared if I wanted to kill them, and I said I was scared when I looked at them, so how could I dare to kill them?

My mom said that no matter how good a worm is, if you cut off its head, it won't be able to help you, because any creature that doesn't have a head will die.

I took my mom's word for it, and it did. At the time, I still felt scared. That's one of the scariest bugs I've ever seen.

I still feel very panicked when I think about it, because I saw in my mind that it was seeking revenge on me, and at that time I was scared into a vegetative state, and I felt like I had cerebral palsy.

Now I want to say to the bug, "I'm sorry, it was all my fault that caused you to lose your life when you first saw me." If you hear my apology, then I hope that Amitabha Buddha will take you to Elysium, and that you will remove the resentment you have against me. "I think Amitabha Buddha will bless the worm whose head I cut off will always be in Elysium.

I think that's all I can do. Later, I felt in my heart that the cactus was protecting me, and the cactus was picked up by me.

Then it multiplies. So I want to say to the cactus, "Thank you, thank you so much for protecting me." I hope you are always healthy. I hope Nam Mu Amitabha Buddha will bless you with eternal health. "I remember I also caught a lot of bugs and took them to our chickens, let them rush to eat them, and a wounded cicada, I also stuffed it into the mouth of my hen, it was still alive but I forced it into the chicken's mouth, although those bugs supplemented the nutrition of the chicken, but I felt that what I was doing was wrong, I am sorry for those bugs, I did not respect their most basic freedom and dignity as a life.

I put them in a bottle without asking for their consent and let them suffocate inside.

Now, I want to say sorry to them and hope that Amitabha Buddha will take them to Elysium. I want to thank that cicada for letting the chicken I raised lay a double yolk egg, but I also want to say a word to the injured cicada

"I'm sorry to take you home and stuff it into the chicken's mouth without asking for your consent, causing you to lose your life.

"I remember when I approached a maggot with a burning match, and then the maggot felt very hot, and then its whole body began to swell and change color, and I felt that it was very painful and painful, and I realized that it must have been injured, so I quickly withdrew the match from it, but its resentment towards me had already arisen. I wanted to say to it, "I'm sorry, it's my fault."

"I hope Amitabha Buddha will take you to Elysium. As well as the ants, fleas, flies, mosquitoes, small bugs, and lice that I have killed, I want to say to you, "I'm sorry, I hope Nam Mu Amitabha Buddha will take you to the Elysian World."

"When I was growing up, my family used to have a lot of cats and dogs, some of which had very short lifespans, and no matter how they died, I wanted Nam Mu Amitabha Buddha to take them to Elysium. Let them be happy there. My tiger, I'm sorry, I once let you live so painfully, I didn't take a good look at you, I hope that Nam no Amitabha Buddha will bring you to Elysium, I wish you eternal happiness! My coffee, I'm sorry, I once abused you, making you extremely scared and helpless, now I hope that Nam no Amitabha Buddha will bring you to Elysium, I wish you eternal happiness! And the puppy that my sunspot gave birth, if I hadn't stopped it from being taken away, would it still be alive? In any case, I want it to go to Elysium, hoping that Nam Mu Amitabha Buddha will bless it to go to Elysium, and also bless its brothers and sisters to go to Elysium. If their mother Kuroko is still alive, I hope it is healthy and happy, if their mother is also dead, then I hope it also goes to Elysium, Nan Wu Amitabha, you have to bless it to go to Elysium, I hope that the three dogs can meet again in Elysium. And live happily together. I also want to say "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm too reckless, too impulsive, too impatient, I killed you."

I hope that Nam no Amitabha Buddha will bring you to Elysium, and may you live happily there forever.