Do you believe that there are ghosts in this world? Do you have religious beliefs? Do you believe in the cycle of cause and effect? Do you believe in science? A long, long time ago, I still believed in science and believed that everything that happened in this world had a reason, although not everything could be found for a reason. I remember that there was once a painter in his eighties, and his cheapest painting was sold for more than 90 million yuan, but when the reporter interviewed him, he said that he still had a lot of knowledge to learn about painting, because he himself thought he was just a beginner. Albert Einstein also said that his knowledge of science was only 0.3%. All this proves that human beings are ignorant and often feel that they know a lot. However, from birth to old age, how much of what people experience is real, how much is painful and prosaic, boring, boring.

I'm mentally ill and took an overnight taxi ride to get here - Fengyu Tower. In the past, my family accompanied me to a psychiatric hospital, but this time I came alone. I heard that this place is free of charge, and it also includes food and lodging. After being cured, you can still find a job you like and live the life you want to live. And it will never recur after being cured. (As for who I listened to, it doesn't matter, maybe I'll say it later.) ）

The third time I entered the mental hospital, I felt a lot more relaxed. It's still a little scary, but it feels good because it's the most hospital-like treatment facility. It looks like an antique villa, like that kind of villa worth tens of millions. I guess there must be no electrotherapy, no electromagnetic therapy, and no medication.

I smiled and entered through the small door next to the gate, and the small door quickly closed automatically. I have always felt that there are two kinds of mental illness, the first is normal mental illness, that is, the kind of mental illness that seems to know that there is mental illness, and the other is abnormal mental illness, that is, the kind of people who seem to be particularly normal, but are actually suffering from mental illness every day. I feel as if I fall into the latter category. Some time ago, several Chinese students studying in the United States committed suicide because of severe depression afflicting them. They are the kind of pistachios that look giggling and happy every day, and they are the kind of good children who can rest assured wherever they go. But no one really understands their hearts, so no one knows how their hearts are lost. Knowing that the suicide note of a girl who was recognized as sunny and happy was found, people seem to have rediscovered depression, the early symptoms of depression are not too obvious, but the late stage is severe suicidal tendencies...... I am a person with a very rich inner world, I love to think crankily in my heart when I have nothing to do, and then all kinds of pictures will appear in my mind, and I can still see the smile of the sunny girl, her friends said in an interview with reporters: "She will always be a happy pistachio in our hearts, a beautiful angel, we can't associate her with depression, she has never complained to us, in our impression, she has been smiling, her personality is particularly cheerful, especially optimistic......"

Thinking of this, I looked around this space, and subconsciously felt very comfortable, I used to feel very comfortable when I went to a place, and that comfortable feeling made my whole nerves feel a kind of enjoyment, so that I was reluctant to leave. I can't help but think of the first time I went to Hangzhou, where there is heaven and Suzhou and Hangzhou, and the first time I saw so many trees, and the oxygen that those trees emit, I thought it should be a suitable place for people to live, at least a suitable place for me to live. But when I come here, it feels so much better than that. At least it can make people feel at ease. It seems that staying for a lifetime is not enough. I love the feeling of quietness, the quietness and texture of everything, which always gives people a sense of infinite security. Maybe it's because I'm a naturally insecure person who prefers to stay in places like this.

Inside, the hall is dimly lit, contrasting with the foggy sunlight outside, and it takes a while for the eye to see everything in the city.

As I got used to the light, I noticed that there was nothing in the hall, and no one could see it. Then I saw that the walls suddenly lit up with orange light, which was very warm, and even the top of my head was enveloped by orange light. The whole hall becomes bright and warm. I saw that the walls were light gray. "Hello, welcome to Fengyu Tower. "I saw a guy who was at least 1.8 meters tall and very tall. I'm barely up to his shoulders. I heard his voice, very kind and gentle. Hehe, when I first meet a person, I am used to looking at his face and demeanor first, so as to roughly judge his character, temperament and state in my heart. But because I was born not tall, the height of others can always affect my subconscious, but it can't affect my judgment of this person. I looked at his still pale skin in the warm light, and those eyes, which made me very impressed. Because it looks like a star, and it's a star I like very much. The corners of my mouth rose slightly and I smiled at him.

I watched him stand across from me in a light gray hoodie, a white T-shirt, and khaki slacks, looking at me seriously and leisurely, and I didn't even say a word. He smiled lightly and told me that he was the doctor here and the owner of the building. I could tell he was a person who liked to exercise and sleep when he was supposed to. Because the clothes he wore looked like he had just come back from a walk, and his hair looked like he had just woken up. I nodded, "Hmm." After a moment, he said, "I'm here to see a doctor, I'm a mentally ill person." After a pause, he didn't speak, and I said, "I heard that you specialize in treating this disease here, and it's free." “

"Well," he smiled and said, "yes, you ......" "Why don't you register first, and I'll arrange for you to stay first." He said slowly.

He didn't even ask about my condition and medical history, which is really different from the psychiatric hospital I went to, the psychiatric hospital I went to either ask about the condition or the case, and even other diseases were asked clearly, almost all the abnormal manifestations and experiences of my life, and the privacy were excavated so that they could find a cure, but this is how it costs a lot of money to treat the condition, and the condition can be relieved on the surface, but it will relapse after a while. I don't know how it will work here, but I don't think it will fool me. My heart's wish is to be completely healed and say goodbye to this status quo forever. Live the life I want to live.

I thought of this and said, "Well, okay. "I thought, thank you, doctor, thank you for not asking about my privacy, I was going to tell you about my experience, if you asked about my medical history. Then I said to him, "Then how should I register?" and I didn't bring any daily necessities, I just came very casually, without any preparations, and I felt that preparing my luggage was just a burden and a delay in time. Oops. I think there are all the daily necessities here. I didn't bring my mobile phone with me, because I found that I was very happy before I didn't have a mobile phone, and in that era when there were no mobile phones, mental illness was very rare, and it was not encountered for hundreds of years.

He smiled and said to me come with me, and then he turned around and came to a gray wall, and then suddenly an area as big as a door disappeared on the wall, and I followed him, looking at this phenomenon but I didn't feel strange at all, I have lived in this world for a long time, and the original worldview has been changed by later phenomena, and I think any abnormal phenomenon is normal. Because my worldview that I thought the world was normal had long since been changed by some unexplained things that I encountered, my worldview became that this world should be abnormal. Humanity is only a small part of this world, but they think they have changed and created it.

He easily entered a small room from this door-like space, the walls of the small room were also light gray, and there was a desk that was also light gray, and the office chair was also light gray. It looks very primitive, but it is very comfortable. Although the light gray is a cool color, I feel so simple and warm at the moment.

There was a pile of paper-like registration forms about the thickness of a penny on his desk, and he tore off one and told me that it was a simple registration, and you should fill it out first. I saw that the patient registration form was full of basic information, the patient's gender, name, age, ethnicity, date of birth, and registration date were very simple, and even the phone number was not to be filled. I simply filled it in. He said to him, "Do you think that's okay?" and he smiled at me and nodded. I'm going to be a patient here, where am I supposed to live?" thought to himself, and he put the form in the drawer of his desk.