[Sooner or later, she castrated that person!] 】

……

#2012年3月#

I can't stand it anymore......

My whole being seems to have broken down from the inside.

I often feel like the walking dead.

It's annoying, I don't want to move, I can't be interested in anything......

I don't even feel like there's anything in this world to be nostalgic about.

Life is really, there is no fun at all-

Songs and dance exercises that are repeated every day,

Invitations to various programs, advertisements, fashion magazines.

I was so busy that I didn't even have the strength to breathe.

The daily diet is also a prescribed thing.

The amount of meat that the company allows me to eat every day adds up to about one slice of chewing gum, right?

I often feel very hungry......

These are all small things, what I don't understand is,

On the one hand, the company did not allow me to fall in love, but on the other hand, it asked me to have an affair with other actresses.

I've been in the industry for more than two years, and I'm not happy at all, I don't know what I look like.

A dog? Or a puppet at the mercy of others?

……

#2012年4月#

I took the time to see a psychiatrist.

His name is Li Yuanxing.

In addition to his Ph.D. in psychology, he is also a scholar of the occult.

He is also a Buddhist, although I don't know the sect of his faith.

He is very quiet and indifferent, like a master of the world, this mental state, I can't reach it anyway......

After chatting with him for a while, my heart became calmer.

But I'm hiding some unspeakable facts.

He said that depression is not terrible, and that there are cats that can make me feel warm, and that I can still be saved.

But I'm so busy that I can only find time to get psychotherapy.

……

#2012年5月#

Antidepressants are quite effective.

I also wish I didn't think too much, so I tried to go to bed as soon as possible after taking a bath.

But sometimes I wake up in a dream.

I'll probably never forget what I was forced to see for the rest of my life......

Recently I had a crazy idea -

I want to commit suicide in Park Jung-hyun's office.

Or, preferably, die under his bed.

When he lifted the quilt at night, he must have been shocked to see a bloody corpse......

Hahaha, I'm such an idiot.

Why should I kill myself? Why wasn't he the one who died?

Never in my life have I wanted to die alone, even someone as scumbag as my father......

I don't feel guilty about trying to kill him, probably because he can't be called a "human" anymore.

But I want his crimes to be made public.

But it's almost impossible. The power of the Park family almost enveloped the whole country.

What can I do?

I can only deceive myself and stop thinking about it, and live until I can't live anymore......

……

#2012年6月#

Won an award.

The award speech was "His sunny and cheerful smile has given countless people positive energy and hope".

Haha, what an irony.

It's really useful to practice smiling in the mirror every day.

It's a pity that what they see is a "human design" wearing a mask.

The real, rotten "life" inside is known only to me.

……

#2013年1月#

Shouldn't I be glad that Park Jung-hyun is a man of his word and won't attack me for the time being?

But why should I trust a beast?

……

Seeing this, Tilt Huang's eyes were red.

In my heart, I was whipped like a little whip with thorns.

His situation is so miserable......

She regretted learning this so late.

That person, the man who actually coveted her?

Park Jung-hyun, a person who takes advantage of the convenience of his position to satisfy his selfish desires,

She felt sick from the bottom of her heart.

She clenched her fists, her eyes full of murder.

Be sure to resolve this matter as soon as possible.

And, no matter what Park Jung-hyun ends up with, she has to-

Emasculated him!