Every morning at five o'clock in the morning, I woke up punctually with the sun, and the green vines on the side of the road beckoned to me warmly, wanting to tell me where the Beetle was hiding, but I wanted to talk to the sky and pass on my thoughts to her in the clouds. The whole school was shrouded in rising water vapor, and many people were asleep, dreaming of places they could not reach in reality. I have her in my dreams, she laughs in my dreams, and makes my dreams laugh colorful, so clouds, have you asked me for me, what color is her dream, is there me in my dreams - Zhang Mian "Clouds Help Me Ask Her".

Maybe there is really an inflection point in people's growth, such as giving up their former hobbies or obsessions overnight, I don't know if others have such an inflection point, but this situation has really happened to Zhang Mian several times.

The first time was the second day when Zhang Mian went to Gaojiacun Middle School, and after a night of life thinking, he decided not to play games anymore, but to study hard and pursue a positive life.

First of all, he understands that no matter how well the game is played, Yanzi will not pay attention to him, Yanzi is a very strong girl, she said when she categorically refused to pay one in the second year of junior high school, she is going to go to university.

Fu Yi's grades at that time were not as good as Zhang Mian, Zhang Mian had at least one physics to pass, Fu Yi was not only beaten but also saddened, and was depressed for a whole semester.

It's different if you study well, Zhang Mian can easily be admitted to the university that Yanzi was admitted to.

The most important reason is that Zhang Mian has heard many people say that being admitted to university is like being chosen by God, and he is a child of light in the true sense, and beauty has opened the door for them.

In this way, on a tree-lined college campus, college students can fall in love without shame in broad daylight.

Thinking that he could fall in love with Yanzi without shame when he went to college in the future, Zhang Mian's little heart was like an electric motor, and his blood pressure went up as soon as he "howped".

It seems to be said in the Bible that when God created Adam, he was afraid that Adam would be lonely and would not want to hang himself from a fruit tree in the Garden of Eden, so he took one of his ribs and made Eve. In the beginning, Adam and Eve had no shame at all, and they ate fruit without clothes in the Garden of Eden, and after eating the fruit, they pondered each other's bodies, and when they were tired of pondering, they went to eat the fruit again. Adam no longer wanted to find a tree to hang himself from.

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After the first week of classes in Gaojia Village, Zhang Mian rode the bicycle left by his father home, and as soon as he got home, he went to see his grandmother, and insisted on helping his grandmother feed the chickens.

At this time, Cao Xiaoshan, who returned home from Fengcheng, learned that Zhang Mian was back and came to the door, and his grandmother, who had never been smiling, asked Cao Xiaoshan to take Zhang Mian away.

Under the osmanthus tree at the gate of Cao Xiaoshan, Cao Xiaoshan crossed Erlang's legs, and his spit flew to Zhang Mian about what Fengcheng had seen and heard this week.

"Do you know that a few female students in our class have white skin like lotus roots, and they came to class in miniskirts, and you can't stand the short skirts," he said, comparing his hands to his waist.

"Do you know how big the game room in Fengcheng is, there are more than 20 machines in it, and you haven't played many games at all."

"Do you know that there is a XX mall in Fengcheng, and a pair of extremely ugly leather shoes sells for more than a thousand."

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Just when Zhang Mian was about to fall asleep sitting against Cao Xiaoshan's pickle jar, Cao Xiaoshan stopped boasting.

"Fengcheng is no longer the Fengcheng we used to participate in the Olympiad three years ago, don't talk about it, I invite you to play games."

"I'm not going, I'm not going to play games in the future, what's the point of playing games." Zhang Mian said seriously, he didn't lift his buttocks, he left it a week ago, and he went early.

"I haven't seen you change sex for a few days, oh yes, the boss lady is gone, what kind of game are you going to play."

When they graduated from junior high school, Mr. Liu, the owner of the game room, did not hesitate to marry a female classmate in Zhang Xuan's class that summer, which became a sensation in the news of the whole school.

Whether these teachers get married or not is the same for them, as the saying goes, there is a car in front and a rut in the back.

Teacher Liu's original wife went to the principal to cry and make a fuss for several days, and the principal couldn't stand the tears and crying of his aunt.

A few days later, the only game room in Zhangjia Village was relocated from the back door of the school to a store across the road.

In fact, Mr. Liu's ex-wife not only cried sadly and moved, she was also a beautiful young woman with a hot body, she was only about thirty years old at that time, her speech was very good, and she still smelled of lavender perfume.

Every time she is the only one who is there, Cao Xiaoshan goes to buy game currency, so that when she lowers her head and opens the drawer to get the game currency, Cao Xiaoshan will seize the opportunity of this second to stare deeply at the collar of her jacket, and after Zhang Mian discovers this secret, he is even more addicted to the game.

After dinner that day, Zhang Lu and Cao Xiaoshan went to the playground of Zhangjiacun Middle School.

"I haven't seen you for a few days, you seem to have changed, did you confess to the swallow and was rejected."

"I haven't had time to write a letter yet, and I don't know how to write it. I haven't changed, I just want to change, I don't want to be my old self anymore. ”

"Do you really like her, I'll tell you the truth, don't be angry, in fact, the swallow is not beautiful, and you haven't said a few words since elementary school, why do you like her?"

"I don't know why I like her, I'm nervous when I see her, and I want to see her when I don't see her, and I feel like my heart is pounding. What do you think I should say first thing if I were in front of her? ”

"Say hello."

"Haha, okay, then say hello. And then what? ”

"And then you reminisce with her."

"Then it will be simple, I can tell her that in the spring when she was reading in the morning among the rape flowers, I sat on the mound opposite and yawned and watched her; When I'm tired from playing games, I watch her back in the back row of the classroom; I also know that she likes to read Zhang Ailing's novels, and when she thinks, her brows are tightly knit and she likes to bite the pen ......".

"I'll it, true love. There is a saying, you are the king of the eight to see the mung bean in the eye. ”

"You're the mung bean."

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If you don't see each other, you will be alone at dusk.

On Sunday afternoon, Cao Xiaoshan took a large jar of pickles to Fengcheng by car.

Zhang Mian rode his bicycle back to Gaojiacun Middle School early on Monday morning.

He was assigned to the third (1) class of junior high school, and the head teacher was Teacher Xue, who was at the same table as Hu Dong.

In the first month, Zhang Mian was only familiar with Hu Dong, twenty-four hours a day, at least eighteen hours together, and it was difficult to be familiar with it.

Hu Dong was not bad at that time, except for his poor studies.

Zhang Mian gets up at about 5 o'clock every day, first walks around the school's playground twice, then goes to a field to the west of the school, sits on the edge of the ditch for a while, and begins to memorize Chinese, English and politics.

The foundation of junior high school is too poor, and only hard work can catch up.

In this way, he gradually became familiar with the surroundings of the school, and knew where the vines were luxuriant, where the rape flowers were blooming, where the air was mixed with the freshness of the reeds, and where the ponds were full of fish and crabs......

In the new place, he was finally far away from his family and friends, and away from the swallows.

The boy doesn't know the taste of sorrow, but loneliness comes.

This is a kind of loneliness from the inside out, like planting a seed in your heart, waiting for it to sprout and grow in a different place, which is irrepressible.

Loneliness is as tenacious as a weed in his heart, growing wildly. So that he doesn't feel hot in the sun and doesn't feel lively in the crowd.

It was like being thrown to a desert island, and after calming down, he began to despair, and after despair, he began to become numb, and after he became numb, he began to be lonely.

Learning has become a way for him to drive away loneliness, and when he is tired of studying, he will look at Tang and Song poems, and look at the poems written by Gu Cheng and Haizi.

He found that many of the psalms were lonely tears.

When the loneliness was irrepressible, he began to learn to write poetry in his diary.

When he moved last year, Zhang Mian found a suitcase under the bed, which contained a diary he wrote in Gaojia Village, and the handwriting in the diary had already turned light and yellow, but between the deep and shallow words, loneliness came through the enduring years.

"The black cat walks the eaves, I hear the sigh of the tiles"

"I miss you in a trance, and I forget in a trance."

"Lend me a pair of wings and let me see you from above."

"Grandma doesn't forget to think of me even if she forgets to feed the chickens, I want to go back to see her, she's really old."

"My sister said I was silent, but I didn't know how I forgot to speak"

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Hu Dong once peeked at Zhang Mian's diary, leaned on the bed at night and said to Zhang Mian seriously: "I think you need friends." ”

"I have friends."

"It's a friend who can be by your side."

"Aren't you just my friends, you're all lying together."

"Don't interrupt, you really need friends."

God says that if you need light, I will give you light. When Zhang Mian needed friends, new friends came.

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