Often in my dreams, back to the village where we live, I am a little boy, carrying a canvas schoolbag, pushing an iron ring squeak, the sun is a little noisy, the dirt road leading to the school, full of rape gold, I concentrate on pushing my iron ring, watching it spin, accidentally, it rotates into her appearance, butterflies don't want to tease me, classmates don't want to annoy me, you don't understand me. As long as I pushed open the wooden door of the classroom, I could see her at a glance, the morning light fell on her braids, Chu Chu was her, Chu Chu was like her, quiet eyes, soft back...... Zhang Mian "She in My Dreams".

The night after his father left, Zhang Mian stayed at Mr. Hu's house, and lived with Hu Dong in a wing room near the kitchen, which was very simple, with a desk, a large bed, and a wardrobe.

Hu Dong is very thin, half a head taller than Zhang Mian, his two eyes are very bright, Zhang Mian can feel who is on the other end of Hu Dong's burning gaze in the dark night, probably because Zhang Mian suddenly broke into his life, Hu Dong is observing him, thinking about how to get along with Zhang Mian.

This night was also the first time that Zhang Mian had insomnia, and the first time Zhang Mian seriously thought about his past and future in a real sense.

When he was in elementary school, Zhang Mian did very well in mathematics, and participated in the Mathematics Olympiad with Cao Xiaoshan and Lv Wei as class representatives.

One night a few years later, Cao Xiaoshan sat under the flagpole in the playground of Zhangjiacun Middle School with Zhang Mian, and told Zhang Mian in front of the starry sky that participating in the math Olympiad in elementary school was the nightmare of his life.

"It's just that I didn't make it to the finals, and I couldn't go to Fengcheng to eat beef soup again, but the beef soup opposite the experimental primary school is really delicious, it's just a little spicy."

"Isn't it because of this that I'm so delicious?"

"Yes. Once I gave you a piece of candy and you ignored me for a week, I thought it was because I spit on your pickle jar and you knew about it. ”

"What, you've spit on my pickle jar, forget it, I've spit on yours too."

"How can that be your nightmare?"

"Because I was beaten by my math teacher, Mr. Gao, I was beaten so badly, the worst I ever suffered."

"It's worse than peeking at your cousin in the shower, and your mother pumped it with a belt."

"What's that, Mr. Gao called me to the company to smoke with wicker, and my two legs were drawn into stationery by Mr. Gao, a bar after a bar, every time I smoked, it hurt, I didn't remember how many times I smoked, Mr. Gao used such a thick fresh willow strip, thicker than the water snake we caught that time" Cao Xiaoshan gestured with his hand.

"You just have to cry, if you cry, I won't beat you."

"You and Lu Wei are in the finals, but I didn't enter, I am the class president and the representative of the Chinese class, Teacher Gao said that I threw her face to my grandmother's house, her grandmother died the year before last, and I can't find my face back" She was right, I didn't cry. "Teacher Gao was tired, so she threw away the wicker, and I twisted the wicker with her beating me a few times, removed the willow branches, dug three holes, and made a small sound that could blow four times, and blew all the way back home."

"If you're up to you, have you told your mother?"

"No, don't you have to take a beating."

"Then do you hate Mr. Gao?"

"I don't hate, I heard that she divorced when we were in the second year of junior high school."

"You must hate her, I swear to the playground"

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When they were promoted from primary school to junior high school, Cao Xiaoshan and Lu Wei were both admitted to the junior high school of Fengcheng No. 1 Middle School, and Zhang Mian was the only one of the three who participated in the mathematics Olympiad and was not admitted.

What made Zhang Mian feel not so sad was that Yanzi was not admitted, and he was assigned to a class with Zhang Mian.

A place where there are swallows is a good place.

According to the general logic, Zhang Mian should work hard and become an excellent student, so that Yanzi will ask him when he encounters a problem he doesn't understand, he can look at her at close range and frown and think, when he sees Yanzi's adoring eyes, Zhang Mian will forgive her single eyelid and a few freckles on her face, and teach her to answer the question hand in hand.

It's a pity that Zhang Mian not only didn't work hard, but he was obsessed with playing games, the junior high school physics teacher was a teacher surnamed Liu, with a pair of glasses, and when he looked at people, he used all his energy on the game computer room he operated, he was able to open the game computer room at the back door of the school because the principal was his brother-in-law, and the only thing Zhang Mian could pass in junior high school was physics, and he opened the back door to his client students.

Zhang was so fascinated that he often didn't come home from school, and even sometimes played games until the middle of the night.

Once his mother and grandmother once looked for him in the middle of the night, Mr. Liu was not only knowledgeable in physics, but also quite good at intelligence work, and immediately told Zhang Mian's family that they were looking for him, and after getting the news, Zhang Mian hid behind a pine tree across the road from the game room, and could clearly hear the anxious cries of his mother and grandmother in the silent night.

Zhang Mian watched them leave disappointed, motionless behind the pine trees.

Many years later, Zhang Mian asked his mother if she remembered that she and her grandmother were looking for him.

His mother told him that she remembered everything about him, even the things he had forgotten.

Zhang Mian's three years in Zhangjiacun junior high school, in addition to sinking in the game, is to watch the swallow grow up day by day, and when she graduated from junior high school, the swallow has become a big girl.

When he was in his second year of junior high school, Zhang Mian heard that a classmate named Fu Yi in the same grade of the school was pursuing swallows, and he also handed over a love letter folded into a heart shape.

According to an insider who did not want to be named, this classmate named Fu Yi said in a love letter that he had a dawn appearance, Andy Lau's temperament, Jacky Cheung's singing, Aaron Kwok's dance steps, in addition to his appearance, he also let Yanzi have a deeper understanding of his other advantages, and finally told Yanzi that he would study hard with her and have a better tomorrow and future together.

After Zhang Mian learned about it, without saying a word, he found out the class where Fu Yi was on the same day, and carefully observed in the back window of the classroom in Fu Yi, if the glass was not out of shape, this classmate named Fu Yi had another obvious shortcoming in addition to all the shortcomings of the "Four Heavenly Kings", black like a loach.

In the evening, Zhang Mian dropped the white pig gypsum piggy bank that he bought for five cents, bought five yuan of game coins, nodded and bribed several senior players who played games together, and submitted a detailed battle plan to them.

As soon as school was released the next afternoon, on the playground of the school, several senior theater friends intercepted Zhang Mian's dictated Fu Yi classmates after just one glance, and before Zhang Mian, who was hiding not far away, to identify it, these senior students followed Bai Lang's plan in "Street Fighter" to pay a kO.

Because of this incident, Zhang Mian's parents went to pay the family to apologize in person, and in addition to paying for the medical expenses, they also bought a net pocket of apples and two bags of White Rabbit toffee.

Of course, Zhang Mian was also beaten hard by his mother with a mallet.

"You can bear it, and you are still looking for someone to help you fight, why are you fighting him, you don't know him, you explain it to me clearly." The mother used a mallet to start work left and right on Zhang Xuan's ass like beating clothes.

"I just look at him dark, and it's not pleasing to the eye."

"Just you, you don't study hard to play games every day, and now you are still fighting, I have created something evil in my previous life" After playing for a while, Zhang Xuan's mother put down her mallet and cried.

Zhang Mian, who couldn't stand the woman's tears, covered her swollen ass and left the house silently.

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After graduating from junior high school, he once again faced the problem of going his own way, although Zhang Mian did not have much sadness about parting, but repeating was like missing a train, and there were people he was familiar with on that train, these people all left Zhang Mian with the speeding train, although he got on another train, but after all, he needed to re-acquaint himself with the people on this train......

Zhang Mian told himself that no matter what, he couldn't live like before, it was irresponsible to life, and he had to be like Paul Kochakin, the protagonist of "How Steel is Made" that he read in the summer vacation, be persistent in his beliefs, have the courage to fight, and finally realize his own value.

Many years later, Hu Dong told Zhang Mo that when he slept at his house on the first night, his eyes looked at the ceiling, sometimes frowning and sometimes smiling, and the white moonlight cast on Zhang Mo's face from the window, his face was so pale and terrifying that he didn't sleep well all night.

"I was thinking about life at that time, can you believe it?"

"Cut, believe what you said green chicken feathers."

"Do you remember?"

"Remember the chicken feathers."

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