The young man does not understand the sadness of the world and is rampant and exaggerated, he speaks to the stars in the sky every night, and he doesn't realize that it has been ten years, and the person in the mirror has added some gray hair, and he doesn't want to remember that he needs to buy drunk, and he regrets losing her, and his life is black and white from now on. This night, the insect chirping in July annoyed people and thought of her, she was dressed in white and slim, she spoke softly and full of love, she lifted her long hair like a spring breeze caressing the earth, she stood in place but I left, leaving the past without her into reminiscence, into reminiscence. - Zhang Mian, "Reminiscence".

Maybe every ignorant teenager has a beautiful him or her in his heart, she in Zhang Mian's heart, let's call her Yanzi, when he was a child, the first sentence of the first children's song that Zhang Mian learned seemed to sing: Little Swallow, wear flowers.

The girl who shone the first light into Zhang Xuan's heart was called Yanzi.

From Zhang Yan's current point of view, Yanzi is a thin and quiet girl, not pretty, but the quietest one in the group, she will raise her eyes and look out the window, which is incompatible with the real scene.

Because of this, she was deeply attracted to Zhang Mian.

The last time Zhang Mian saw Yanzi was about ten years ago, or seven or eight years ago, since last year's physical examination report said that Zhang Mian had a mild cerebral infarction, Zhang Mian is not sensitive to time.

When the report came down, the doctor solemnly warned Zhang Mian not to dwell on unnecessary details, to keep a broad mind, not to raise the bar with others, and to always make it clear that he is a cerebral infarction patient.

That afternoon seven or eight years ago, the sun was shining, no different from an ordinary day.

Zhang Mian walked around the streets of Fengcheng, because now Zhang Mian really can't recall what happened on the street that day, that is, wandering.

At that moment, as if there was a kind of traction of a secret force, as if God had arranged it, the moment Zhang Mian turned his head and saw the swallow on the other side of the road, the swallow was not only married but also pregnant, walking with a big belly, she was still very thin, and she was still walking with a figure-in-eight.

She walked east from the Rose Garden Hotel opposite Fengcheng No. 2 Middle School, walked to the Industrial and Commercial Bank of China, and then turned south until she disappeared.

She is not like the bridge in TV, when Zhang Mian looked at her, she suddenly looked back, and her heart was a collision of flirting between people who loved each other, and Zhang Mian was buried or forgotten in her heart.

At the time when the swallow left Zhang Mian's sight, Zhang Mian stood motionless and watched the swallow disappear, he was dizzy in the sun, suddenly like a dream, as if in another world.

Although they have broken up for many years, they are still embarrassed to see each other.

Lang rode a bamboo horse and went around the bed to make green plums. Living together for a long time, the two have no suspicion.

The distance between Zhang Mian and Yanzi's house was about one kilometer, and Zhang Mian walked 2,237 steps to her house for the first time, a difference of 20 seconds to 9 minutes.

Zhang Mian knew Yanzi when she was in the first grade of primary school, Yanzi was a weak girl at that time, she didn't talk much, she spoke in a small voice, and her eyes narrowed into a line when she smiled, which was very charming.

If you count from the time you meet a swallow under the pine tree at the entrance of the elementary school campus, Zhang Mian fell in love with the eight-year-old swallow when he was seven years old.

Yes, he swears by a mild cerebral infarction that there will be no deviation in this node of memory.

In today's words, Zhang Mian fell in love with the young lady, so is it okay.

When they were in elementary school, Zhang Mian and Yanzi were of the same level but in different classes, and in junior high school, they were assigned to a class, and Yanzi was still quiet and studied quietly. Zhang Mian was obsessed with playing games, and in the game console room opened by the middle school physics teacher, he frantically played games such as "Three Kingdoms" and "Street Fighter", and then he skipped school, and his grades plummeted.

In addition to attending classes, skipping classes, and playing games, Zhang Mian spent three years in junior high school, and there was a secret that he still hadn't had time to tell Yanzi.

That was to watch Swallow go home when she was out of school, for three whole years.

At that time, he was happy when he looked at her, and when he walked up to her, his heart pounded, and he did not dare to look her eyes.

Love makes people happy, but it also makes people humble.

When Zhang Mian sat on the dirt slope of the Toulun kiln factory in the east of the village and told Fa Xiaocao Xiaoshan about this feeling, the representative of the Chinese class immediately told Zhang Mian, who had a sparse beard, with disdain, that this is called unrequited love, and it is pure, pure like the dried radish pickled at your house, which is rattling when you bite it, but you can rest assured, there is absolutely only the smell of radish, and there is no meat taste at all.

After saying that, he didn't look at Zhang Mian to see the sunset, and after a few minutes, he solemnly asked Zhang Mian if he understood.

This is where Zhang Mian still admires Cao Xiaoshan, others use metaphors for images at most, and he makes analogies with sound.

In the three years of Zhangjiacun Middle School, Zhang Mian would run home in advance and stand under the window on the second floor every day after school, on the way for the swallow to pass through school, when the swallow walked in front of the window, he watched her walk into the sight like that, and then watched her disappear from sight, at this time the swallow seemed to belong to him alone, he hid in the shadows, and looked at the swallow openly.

Later, he used the daily counting method of Li Bei'er in the book "Golden Vase Plum", and wrote the word "zheng" on the wall with his fingernails.

Zhang Mian almost got nail fungus for the second time, and when nearly 200 "positive" characters were written on a white wall, Zhang Mian graduated from junior high school.

In the whole three years of junior high school, Zhang Mian basically did not talk to Yanzi, sitting in the back row, Zhang Mian would use two fingers to put in an inverted V-shape in front of his eyes, cut off the other backgrounds around Yanzi, and just looked at Yanzi, he was so bored to look at Yanzi's various backs and silhouettes, and finally he could find out which one was Yanzi from the backs of more than 300 girls in the school at a glance.

Now Yanzi's face has long been blurred in Zhang Mian's memory, but he can clearly remember her emaciated back that has long been engraved in the depths of his mind, her back in front of the window where she once appeared, on the playground, under the street lamp, and among the rape flowers, churning and jumping in Zhang Mian's mind.

The backs of the swallows in countless different scenes are intertwined in Zhang Mian's memory, and sometimes in his dreams.

When they first broke up, Swallow always appeared in his dreams as if he had deliberately gone to the wrong room.

In my dream, I didn't know that I was a guest, and I was greedy for joy.

The last time Zhang Mian dreamed of swallows was several years ago.

In that dream, Zhang Mian bullied a woman, he couldn't see her face clearly, but he was familiar with this face, but he couldn't remember who she was, in the dream Zhang Mian couldn't control that primitive impulse, this is a kind of desolate power, Zhang Mian's rationality was broken into pieces before it had time to resist, he needed to vent and collide, and the woman in the dream gradually stopped resisting and crying. When the madness calms down and rationality gradually returns, Zhang Mian in the dream is the loss after satisfaction.

The woman in the dream turned to leave, and the back was clearly the back of the swallow.

In the dream, she is a swallow.

In the end, the swallow appeared less and less in Zhang Xuan's dreams, and his face gradually blurred, leaving only a silhouette of his back, leaving sadness in Zhang Xuan's black and white dreams.

The night is short, and the people are far away.

After the results of the high school entrance examination, Yanzi was more than ten points short of being admitted to Fengcheng No. 1 Middle School, Zhang Mian learned that Yanzi applied for Fengcheng No. 1 Middle School, and also pretended to study for a few days, so that other students would at least not laugh out loud when they learned that he was applying for Fengcheng No. 1 Middle School.

The results did not disappoint Zhang Mian, who was more than 200 points short of reaching the line, but to Zhang Mian's relief, he and Yanzi both failed to make the list.

Yanzi continued to repeat in Zhangjiacun Middle School, Zhang Mian's father changed Zhang Mian's school, to Gaojiacun Junior High School, four kilometers away from Zhangjia Village, the principal of the school is a very good classmate of Zhang Mian's father, Zhang Mian's repetition food and accommodation are in the principal's house.

In the summer of this year, under the ceiling fan of an office in the Zhangjiacun Supply and Marketing Cooperative, Zhang Mian was massaging Cao Xiaoshan.

Judging from time alone, Zhang Lu and Cao Xiaoshan were the first batch of self-taught technicians.

"It's exciting," Zhang asked as he pinched Xiaoshan's shoulder.

"De Jin, I will have money in the future, you press me like this, I will give you five yuan for an hour" Xiao Shan's tone obviously increased when he said five yuan. Five dollars in the 80s was a lot of money.

"If I like a girl, what should I say to her?"

"Be sure to tell her how you know you like her if you don't tell her"

"What if she doesn't like me and rejects me?"

"You just write a letter to Swallow, and if she replies to your letter, it means that she is interested in you"

"You, how do you know I like swallows"

"Your eyes are on her spine, as long as you are not blind and no one in the entire Zhangjiacun Middle School does not know, it is estimated that she has needles on her spine."

"It's so exaggerated"

"Yes, have you read an article called Ah Bao in "Liao Zhai"?"

"No, I'm not a representative of the language class."

"It's a man named Ah Bao who likes a woman, and becomes a parrot to pursue this woman, and after a lot of hardships, he succeeds"

"Then why doesn't Ah Bao become a dog, her family disagrees, and directly bares her teeth and bites one and throws one out of the door."

"Roll"