Xiaohu told me a lot that day, and the general meaning was that she liked me very much, as if she had never liked someone so much, and when she was first with me, she had a feeling of dreaming, and she felt that her dream had come true and she was so happy. But after being with me for a long time, she found that there are too many things about me that are different from what she thinks, and she has been trying her best to accept it, because that person is me, and she thinks I am her soulmate. But now he feels more and more tired of being with me, and she doesn't want me to do anything for her. At the end, she was going home for the holidays, and it happened that we were both calm and calm during this time.

I looked her in the eye: "I said I thought there would be today, but what I didn't expect was that it all came so quickly. ”

Xiao bit his lower lip tightly: "Don't think too much, it's okay, I'm just not very happy, I can adjust it myself." ”

I felt like I was begging for mercy: "Is there anything I can do?" ”

Xiaohu: "I'm really fine, it's almost time, half past five in the car, I went upstairs." ”

Then she turned and left. I looked at her back, and I knew that when a person was going to leave you, it was useless for you to do anything.

I stood downstairs for a while, and then sent a text message to Xiaohu: "I'll see you off later, okay?" ”

Xiaohu: "No need, a few of us took a taxi and walked, but we couldn't sit down." I'm fine, don't worry. ”

Disappointed, I walked to the school gate. Now, I don't know where I'm going, and I feel like going home. Passing by the overpass in front of the main building, the sun was shining, and a group of migrant workers were clattering snow shoveling. One semester of college life, but I feel longer than three years of high school, some experiences are processes, will become memories, and some are difficult for me to let go. I suddenly decided that I was going to wait for Xiaohu at the train station, not to move her, but to think that I would not see her for nearly two months, and I really wanted to take a closer look at her, even if it was to hide behind the pillar and take a look, then I would feel a little better.

After deciding, I immediately turned back to the campus, went back to the dormitory, washed my hair with cold water, turned out the third brother's small scissors to trim his eyebrows, cut his beard, and then kept throwing my head off with my hands, hoping that my hair would dry faster. I looked at my phone, it was half past three, and although my hair was not dry, I had to go, so I buckled my hat and ran out, took a taxi to the door, and went to the train station. I looked at the electronic display board in the hall, the train to Dalian at half past five was 2052, and in the second waiting hall, I was ready to buy a platform ticket and go to the waiting hall to wait for Xiaohu. As a result, when I arrived at the small window next to the exit, the platform ticket seller told me that now platform tickets are not only sold, but you must hold a train ticket to buy them. I hummed back and said I'm going to get my train ticket and I'll be right back.

Turning around, I immediately turned back again, and said with a flattering look: "Sister, you can sell me one, my dad is buying red sausages over there, and I will have to queue up again when I come back." ”

The aunt in the window picked her double eyelids that had cut four layers: "Two pieces!" ”

I hurriedly handed the two dollars in: "Thank you, sister." ”

With this platform ticket in hand, I sneaked into the second waiting hall, and my eyes swept around, but I didn't see Xiaohu. I sat down in an inconspicuous position and watched the doorway. It's half past five, and I still haven't seen Xiaohu, so I sent a message to the third brother while waiting to relieve the loss in my heart.

"I, what if I can't wait for someone to wait?"

Third brother: "Who are you waiting for?" ”

Me: "Someone who shouldn't wait." “

Third brother: "Is there such a person, it's still virtual." ”

Me: "There's this guy. ”

Third brother: "Then are you the one she is waiting for?" ”

Me: "No. ”

Third brother: "Then I don't think she's the person you have to wait for, anyway, I don't love me if you don't love me, you can still think of a way to be happy, I can't like it if I don't like me, no matter how good or good-looking I am." ”

Me: "I think it's a good relationship, but we're not suitable." ”

"I'm also willing to hook up ambiguously, everyone thinks that they are in love with me, and they can be suitable for anyone, but that's not the case."

Me: "Actually? ”

Third brother: "Actually, I'm just abusive." I like them all, but I still think my boyfriend is the most important thing. ”

Just as I was stunned when I looked at my phone, the third brother sent another text message: "I sent it wrong, girlfriend." ”

The third brother posted another one in a row: "The person you are talking about is not Xiaohu, right?" ”

I said, "It's Xiaohu." ”

Third brother: "Anyway, I can't dilute it if I don't have time, I'm different from you." ”

I didn't wait for Xiaohu that day, I texted Xiaohu and said that I had been waiting for her in the waiting hall, and she said that she spent ten yuan and took the VIP channel.

——Dazzling youth, red dust refining heart——

When I got home, my mom was shocked again.

"Last time, I was like a black monkey, but this time it's as red as a monkey's butt."

I said I spent too much time outside and accidentally got frostbitten. Then my mom started scolding me, and after a while my dad joined in and started scolding. I wasn't in the mood, so I sat with my head down, and they scolded me a few times and dispersed. After a while, my mother beckoned me to eat, and I ate a little bit and got off the table.

After I went back to the house, I put on my headphones to listen to the CD, and then closed my eyes and lay down, in short, I didn't want to do anything at that time, but I couldn't sleep, I listened to half a song or so and would pick up my phone to look at it, and I always felt that Xiaohu would text me. was listening to Jay Chou's sunny day, and felt that the headphones were taken off. When I opened my eyes, I said to my mother angrily, "What are you doing!" ”

My mom smiled and said, "Let's go, son, let's go to the street." Mommy went buy you a new padded jacket. ”

I lazily replied, "No, I have clothes to wear." ”

My mother said, "You're too thin, and you can't wash it out." Let's go, let's go to Ha 100, Ha 100 discounts. ”

I turned my head and said, "No." ”

My mother said, "Let's go, it's not interesting for me to go by myself, you go with me." ”

My mom was used to me, but she rarely spoke to me in such a good tone, so I turned off my CD, got up and got dressed and went out on the street with her. Along the way, whenever I saw a girl, I would secretly look at it, and at first I wondered if I had changed color. Later, I felt that it was not that I had changed color, but that I wanted to tell myself that Xiaohu was nothing special in me, that people were almost the same, that if I could like her, I would be able to like others again, and whoever left could live, no big deal.

Walking around outside, watching, my heart is really not so depressed, and I gradually convinced myself that I should face my relationship with Xiaohu with a normal heart, she may not love me as much as I imagined, but my expectations are too high and cannot be met. In the future, she ignores me, I ignore her, doesn't she say to calm down, well, calm down, I will face her calmly, if I can't calm down, I will break up calmly.

By this time, my mom and I had tried on several coats, but none of them hit. I began to think that it was me who became ugly, so I didn't look good in anything, I looked at me in the mirror, it was really miserable, one meter eight tall, at that time it was only ninety-eight or nine pounds, the image of a walking skeleton specimen, and willow shoulders, no matter what I wrecked, my face was swollen and red, and there were pimples, and my hair was oily and sticking to my forehead, I couldn't recognize myself. I thought to myself, no wonder Xiaohu doesn't like me anymore, who can like me like this. Thinking of this, I was a little angry with myself, and that sense of inferiority that was useless surrounded me again.

I said to my mother, "I don't want to buy it, I look so bad, and I wear everything the same." ”

My mother looked at me and laughed: "Son, why are you so miserable, it turns out that you are a handsome little guy." ”

I snorted: "You think I'm handsome, my mother doesn't think I'm ugly." ”

My mother said, "When the frostbite on your face is healed, you can exercise again, eat more, and gain weight, but you don't listen to me." I can see it, let the object be dumped, what's there......"

I watched my god-like mother babble incessantly, her mouth wide open in astonishment.

Mom then said: "I won't buy clothes today, I'll buy you a fan of ribs, and when your face is better in two days, let's go to Golden Sun, Mom will buy you a new outfit from top to bottom, and dress you up like a South Korean star, I don't believe it, my eldest son is so handsome, so smart, I can't find a better one." ”

Years later, I learned that my mother's call was "a woman's way of fighting". In the face of people who leave you and people who don't like you, what you can do is to live well and live better. It is possible to make that person fall in love with you again. Or because you fly into another sky, the troubles of the past are no longer important.