As soon as Singles' Day passed, my body was a little cold.

At the beginning of the day, I came to the Baume & Mercier Internet Café opposite the school and said to the proprietress in front of the bar:

"I'm Lao Zhou's younger brother, and he introduced me here to help."

The proprietress stroked her double chin and smiled greasy:

"Ahh Be! It's coming. He told me you had to go to class, so you could do odd jobs, right? ”

I nodded vigorously: "Sister, I'm causing you trouble, what can you do with me?" ”

The proprietress smiled: "In this way, 8 o'clock in the morning to the point, you come on time at eight o'clock, clean up the house, wipe the table, after 6 o'clock in the evening, you come over at 6 o'clock, understand the computer, right?" ”

I hurriedly agreed: "I understand, I don't know professionally, but I started mixing Internet cafes in the third grade of elementary school, and I will get small problems." ”

Hostess: "Okay, you'll come over at 6 o'clock to help, what time do you go to bed?" ”

I replied, "Sleep at half past ten." ”

Hostess: "Then you can go back at ten o'clock, okay." ”

I smiled and said, "Thank you, sister, I will definitely do a good job." ”

I made another hesitant look and said, "But sister, I will go home on Saturday and Sunday, and I can't come." ”

Proprietress said: "Go back, I don't expect you to help anyway." ”

I responded: "Thank you, sister, okay, okay." ”

Hostess: "Okay, that's it, let's start tomorrow." ”

Then the proprietress turned around and went on to chat with another aunt with heavy makeup.

I listened silently next to me: the husband of the proprietress loves to play mahjong all day long, and the aunt with heavy makeup said that the eyeliner tattoo is 400 yuan, and the roasted eggplant that I ate last night ......

After listening to it for a while, someone got on the plane, and the proprietress turned her head to collect the money and saw that I was still there, and asked in surprise:

"Why haven't you left yet?"

I smiled and looked at the proprietress without speaking.

The proprietress looked at me for a while and said, "Something?" ”

I was embarrassed to say, "Sister...... You see...... How much money do I give me for this work...... Suitable? ”

The proprietress laughed: "I wonder what kind of fart you are here, this kid, you have something to say!" ”

The proprietress rolled her eyes and said, "Our network management is eight hundred and one month, but you ...... Don't top the shell, just help, I'll treat you as half a person, right? You won't be able to come over the weekend. ”

The old father and mother made an embarrassed look: "Who let it be Xiao Zhou's buddy, so let's give you three hundred and one month." ”

The proprietress hesitated for a moment and said: "Or 200 a month, when you are not busy, when you have free machines, you can sit down and play, you can choose yourself." ”

200 yuan is a huge fortune for me, enough to meet my food and clothing.

That's right, I undoubtedly chose the latter, at that age, the Internet is just as important as eating. If you don't eat, you're hungry, and you can resist it by being young. The spiritual emptiness of not going online, the emptiness is terrible. The devastating blow to a person comes from emptiness, and as a responsible person, how can he put himself in such a dangerous situation.

If you have a job, you will have some confidence. As I walked, my feet couldn't help but drift, like floating clouds, floating on the bridge in the night. Looking along the overpass, the vehicles shuttled and flashed neon. At that moment, I felt that it was a great opportunity to go to college, and this happiness was something I was willing to sacrifice my life in exchange. The people in the university, the trees in the university, and the air in the university smell of freedom. It's all so beautiful, rounded with the edges and corners of reality.

I just like to go forward without a purpose, at this moment I want to go back to the dormitory, the dormitory is my destination, but I can change my mind at any time, I can not go back to the dormitory, I can sit in the grove behind the main building for a while, or I can wander aimlessly. Nothing is chasing me, chasing me, I don't panic because I haven't accomplished anything, all I have to do is wait quietly, wait for something interesting to happen, wait for dinner time, wait for tomorrow to come.

During that time, I had a lot of options. The most precious thing is that I can choose not to choose to do anything, and I can just stand on the flyover. At that time, I never regretted the "wasted" life, on the contrary, I felt that only that kind of time made me feel the joy of life.

——Dazzling youth, red dust refining heart——

Back in the dormitory, it's time to turn off the lights.

The third brother asked me with concern: "Why did you come back so late?" ”

I said casually: "I went to the regiment to preach and work, and I went to publish publications." ”

Since then, in the name of working in the group, I went back to the dormitory at this time every day, and everyone said, "Xiao Wu is for people to play, and I went to work for nothing." ”

The truth is known only to me, and every night I go to the Internet café and sit on a chair across the bar from someone shouts:

"Network administrator, come to a box of cigarettes." I'll give you cigarettes.

"Network manager, come on a bottle of water." I'll just deliver water.

"Network management, add 5 yuan for machine 65." I'll go get the money.

The reason why I didn't tell the truth to my buddies in the dormitory was because I had deep inferiority. I naturally feel that we are people of two worlds, they are versatile and have no worries about food and clothing. As for me, the five-cent pickles are divided into two days, and I can't afford to invite my friends to a meal, and I have to go out to work to make a living.

At that time, I felt that it was the most difficult time of my life.

Hard, painful, and happy.

The cashier sister at the bar doesn't let anyone else get on the No. 1 machine as long as there is an empty machine, so I can play at the Internet café from 6 p.m. to 10 p.m. Although I would be constantly interrupted in the middle to open a battle room for someone, find a movie, restart the machine, deliver snacks, and instant noodles, the game and the web still brought me great joy, made me forget about poverty, and made me feel that I was not alone. On the Internet, everyone is the same person, it doesn't matter who is the second generation of officials and the second generation of rich, and my identity and wealth have nothing to do with me.

At that time, I was hooked on a game called VOS, which is a piano game like the later bands, where you choose different songs and play them on the keyboard. Every day, I wear headphones, play one song after another, music, and games are natural joy. I feel like I'm about to come out of the gloom.

Every morning, I come to the Internet café at 8 o'clock in the morning, regardless of whether I have classes or not, first put away the garbage on the table, then sweep the floor, and after sweeping, I have to wipe the screens and keyboards and mice of 120 machines with a rag, and then wipe the entire Internet café floor. This process takes about an hour to work without respite. After that, if there is a first class at school, I will go back and try my luck and meet the teacher's roll call. If I don't have a class, I'll find an empty machine and play until lunchtime.

Since I came, the Internet café has obviously been a lot cleaner, 200 yuan to take care of a guy to do so much work, I also belong to cheap labor, so the proprietress is very satisfied with me. My poverty is a matter of face, and the proprietress is somewhat kind-hearted, so occasionally I will be left to eat together at the Internet café at noon.

The proprietress always teases me with words when she eats, such as: Have you ever been with someone? Have you ever kissed your mouth? Have you ever touched a girl's breasts?

After saying this, she looked at me with my head bowed in embarrassment, always giggling. Occasionally the proprietress would ask me to massage her back, press her head, press her neck, and I knew she was rubbing my oil. But I don't care, I don't feel disgusting, looking at the proprietress with a red neck, it's a little wicked.

Every time after lunch, the proprietress will always change her face, the tone of the elders: "Hurry back to class well, it's hard to go to college, and your studies can't be wasted." If you have nothing to do, go to the library and read a book, and don't know to play here. Go to the playground and run two laps to exercise, you see that you are as thin as a wild goose. ”

Internet café, dormitory, at that time I was like two more homes, two more families, I fled, but reluctant, feeling different dependence, the warmth brought to me.

The cashier at the Internet café is called Linlin, a 17-year-old local girl.

The first impression I had was sitting in front of the computer playing the piano machine, and Linlin stood behind me and said, "What kind of game is this?" ”

I returned: "Play the piano machine." ”

"Is it fun?"

I took off the headset and gave it to her: "Listen." ”

Then turn up the volume a bit.

That song is Canon.