Some people say that if you are away from home for too long, you will forget your hometown, and if you "kill" too many people, you will lose yourself!

On the afternoon of August 12, 2008, a high roller from Nanchang Bayi Square came to help my last front row - my girlfriend's circle mother to finish the last 3S work, and I fell into great grief and contemplation. Although it was just a normal Beixijian sale, although it ended with the best sister of the circle mother finally buying someone else's low discount, although it only lost less than 2,000 yuan in retail sales...... Since October 2002, when the Chinese market began to have a large-scale low discount, I have been struggling with low discount for nearly six years, and no matter where I go, low discount is like a shadow. It dawned on me that I had to stop and think about it. In the past, I was always too busy, busy with product sales, busy with new person recommendations, busy with customer service, busy with team training, busy with market communication, busy rushing from one place to another, so busy that sleeping and watching TV have become a luxury...... But he never had time to sink down and systematically organize himself.

On the evening of August 12, 2008, I did not arrive at the center as usual, for the first time in seven years, Meilu violated the precept of "every meeting", but there was not a trace of guilt in my heart. For the first time in seven years, I began to go to and from work like a normal person, accompany my girlfriend to press the road, go to the park, and watch movies...... I suddenly had a long-lost freedom in my heart, a sense of relaxation from my heart, and suddenly I began to have the desire and urge to live, and I even felt so happy and comfortable when I took a breath of fresh air...... In the seven years of Meilu, we have not lived like people for too long, like a high-speed brainwashing machine, day after day.

In the past month or so after the retreat, when I returned to my "home" after sending off my mother, I would always sit quietly on the balcony when I was quiet, looking at the starry sky outside the window, and the moonlight sprinkled on the windowsill...... A person smokes a cigarette silently, thoughtful, his heart is barren, and his mind is blank. A lot of clips, a lot of backs, a lot of past events, bit by bit, blurry and clear...... It's not as heart-rending as many people experience, everything is faint, and occasionally there will be a burst of tranquility in my heart, as if I suddenly understood everything in the dark.

Zhu Ansheng never called me for more than a month. Until then, our relationship had become delicately strained by the huge disagreement over the college student market. Zhu Ansheng Yichun College team has a depth of 12% named Zhao Ning, after graduating from university, he has been working part-time in my company in Nanchang, he is entangled in staying in Nanchang to do the United States Road or to go to Dubai with the help of family ties has been a few days, when I asked for advice, I gave him a positive and negative reference, he finally chose to go abroad, accompanied by his predecessor Gan Weijun. Zhu Ansheng was very angry about this, he felt that only staying in Nanchang wholeheartedly was the right way in the world; And I think that going abroad for three years will be a turning point in Zhao Ning's life, three years later Zhao Ning is full-fledged, if he still thinks that Meilu is his life's choice, then he is the talent that the team really needs. In terms of looking at Meilu and cultivating talents, my vision has never been limited to one city or one place. At that time, Zhao Ning is now the owner of a textile foreign trade company with an annual output value of more than 100 million, bought an Audi A6, and is ready to be a father.

Our huge disagreement is also reflected in the student team of Zhu Ansheng Nanchang University. At that time, Zhu Ansheng had more than 100 students in Nanchang University, and his performance once reached 15%. At the beginning of July, during the summer vacation of the school, many active backbones responded to Zhu Ansheng's call to stay in Nanchang full-time Meilu. The leader of the team, Su Dongxin, desperately hoped that the partners who stayed behind could find a job in Nanchang and then work part-time in Meilu, for which Su Dongxin had called me to ask for my opinion. For those student soldiers who have no food and clothing, part-time work can not only earn a minimum of living expenses, but also an effective way to train themselves and expand their contacts. Although I repeatedly asked Su Dongxin to follow Zhu Ansheng's advice in the end, Zhu Ansheng still attributed the chaos of the student army that summer to me.

If Zhu Ansheng still had some scruples about me because of my unhappiness with his mother, or because he had intervened in his extramarital affair with Xueping, then these two latest differences made him jealous and even a little unscrupulous. For those partners who have followed us, there is nothing more worrying than their survival and current situation, and Zhu Ansheng does not care about all this, for him, this is just an inevitable sacrifice and price on the road to success.

At half past seven o'clock in the evening of September 29, 2008, my mother accompanied me to the center for the last time, and after listening to the last class quietly, I quietly pulled Zhu Ansheng to the balcony. I told him that I was ready to fall in love and enjoy my current life, and that I might not be coming to the center often in the coming year, and of course, it was unknown whether I would be back in the world in a year. Zhu Ansheng blushed, and only asked if I would stay in Nanchang, and I nodded. I asked him if he could leave two tickets for me and my mother for the course of the company's ACTI lecturer in the future, Zhu Ansheng looked embarrassed and said nothing, and the scene was as silent as death. I know that as a tool, I no longer have any value to him, and I feel sad for a while, and the six years of work are not worth these votes! In order to alleviate the embarrassment, I hurriedly told him that in fact, it doesn't matter if it's inconvenient, if the center still needs me to talk about nutrition and beauty in the future, just call me in advance, Zhu Ansheng continued to be silent. In the end, I exchanged the materials and CDs in my hand with him for old goods, returned the center key, settled the rent, and pulled Liu Ke, who was my most active front row, to Zhu Ansheng...... Liu Ke was still a freshman at that time, and he was unwilling to follow my choice to leave Meilu, so he could only give Zhu Ansheng a new card, so that he could continue to receive the care and help of the leaders in the future.

With the flow of people coming out of the center one after another, my mother and I squeezed onto the elevator downstairs - the seven-year Meilu career came to an end, there was no gorgeous curtain call, no applause and flowers, no send-off, no insight into the others, just gloomy faces and endless silence. Originally, I thought that I could leave quietly like this, without honor, without aura, and I didn't want to hinder anyone anymore......

The 48-day retreat is finally over, and cyberspace is overgrown with weeds and the heart is barren. I gave up the ideals and beliefs that I had adhered to for seven years, no youth, no passion, exhaustion, and scars on my heart. Of course, I also have a deeper understanding of human nature - life has long been a puddle of clear water for me, and I even saw through the red dust for a while...... I don't know if I'm gaining more or losing more. I was fanatical, but I never stopped thinking. My direct financial loss in the United States was not much, but the emotional loss was too great, it ruined my ideal of a perfect world, and it also distorted my former nature. It was only now that I learned that there can never be a perfect world, and that my search itself is absurd.

Letting go of the beauty road, it is also letting go of everything, and the thinking since December 2004 can finally make a summary, combing through everything that has been experienced in the past seven years, and the conclusions reached are difficult even for yourself to face. The truth is often unlovable, so people tend to live in lies woven by others or themselves. Too many people sink in the past, and many more overdraw in their dreams. The past is gone, and the future does not exist, so the most important thing is the present. If you can't even grasp the moment, then the result can be imagined. Everything is an illusion, and the bubble will burst one day! I suddenly found that a life without dreams is terrible, and a life with only dreams is even more terrifying!

In today's society, Meilu is indeed a place where people can dream, whether it is a dream here, or a dream is broken here, it is always accompanied by a long dark fragrance, some people give up, and some people watch...... Every day, I silently recite the quotation of "those who succeed never give up • those who give up never succeed", and how many people find that they are just a migratory bird, hovering between reality and ideals. Walking between meetings, we passed by. It's just that years later, we don't know where we are. Meet, part, but now, in the vast sea of people, Meilu, can I love you? This is a place where dreams begin, and some people say that Meilu itself is a longing but distant and helpless dream...... Meilu is destined to be like this, you can grow old in your youth, but your desire will not die!

In the past seven years, there has been a lot of deception, exploitation and true feelings surrounded by deception, in fact, this is really not a phenomenon unique to a certain company, but just a human life of all things, all kinds of phenomena are actually subservient in MLM, there is nothing particularly sad about it. In fact, if you can't understand human nature, you will always be hurt wherever you go. Perhaps, this is the real end of my youth.

In this world, the most reliable is people; The most unreliable is also people! And for ordinary people to choose the extraordinary, it may be turmoil and disaster!

Seven years ago, I thought that the bird could not fly the sea, but the bird did not have the courage to fly through the sea; Seven years later, I realized that it was not the bird that couldn't fly, but the other side of the sea, and there was no expectation......