The quarrel with Yahan day after day, in addition to the conflict of personality and the pain of not being able to be exposed, was mixed with my deep doubts about Yahan's leadership art. At that time, I was far from thinking about the more far-reaching aspects such as system manipulation and institutional genes, but it was becoming more and more difficult to identify with Yahan's way of treating new and old friends. Human beings are sentient animals, after all, goals cannot determine everything!

In addition to being arrogant and lively, Yahan of type O blood is more dominant in her image as a leader. As a new branch jade that year, any suggestion, whether public or private, was difficult for her to accept and tolerate at that stage. The team has won a lot in the past two years, and ***** will always be wise, won't they? I've been in love for five years, and I've been friends for five years, and my mouth is a little thinner. As a result, the Cold War grew longer and longer, and by the bitter cold months of early 2004, we didn't even say a word, even because of work. A lot of necessary cooperation, Yahan also began to convey to me through Lin Chao.

In the special closed environment of Meilu, it is easy for leaders to fall into the problem of the relationship between men and women. In addition to the joining of many unmarried women, more importantly, in the hustle and bustle of the god-making movement, small circles of light began to appear on the heads of the team leaders one by one.

At that time, my public identity was about to cross the gold medal of DD, unmarried and "unmarried" at the right age, and "no" girlfriend, in his prime, far-sighted, and strategic, such a diamond king Lao Wu could easily become the favorite object of some specific groups of people in the team. At that time, I already had the reputation of "living encyclopedia" in the team, and the passionate OPP, especially the overwhelming "Vision Value", inspired groups of newcomers and even old people to go forward and succeed. In view of this, Yahan has always hidden me from the snow and never introduced it to the external team, which can be regarded as a little selfishness of Yahan.

In a young team like ours, with an average age of only twenty-seven or eighteen, as one of the few core leaders in the team who don't have a girlfriend yet, it's normal to harvest a few bundles of "spinach" every month. I have received scarves knitted by my deep partners, knitted carefully with one stitch at a time. If it's as messy as I did before the beautiful road, at least there will be no problem at all to change it every month. But I can only pretend to be deaf and dumb, many times at most one laugh, the Buddha said: Don't say, say it to scare people to death!

The heroic Gu Xin was a reporter for the TV station at that time, Li Xiaodong's depth, and later the mainstay of the Guizhou market - DD Wang Qiang's front row and friend. Born in the second generation of wealth, she joined the team with a yearning for freedom. She was still a 9% at the time, a newcomer who drove a big Buick to deliver dish soap, and she was still quite swaggering in the team. There are actually not a few people in the team who pursue her, as a white-collar petty bourgeoisie who was deeply moved by my ideal of freedom in the audience, she is also one of those "autumn spinach". I've heard about this for a long time, but I can't say anything, I can't do anything. I'm already a master of grass, and stepping on two boats is a thing of the past long before the beautiful road.

Valentine's Day on February 14 of that year was carefully designed by me, I bought flowers, and waited for Yahan to go to the appointment, hoping to end the two-month-long cold war through this date, but it ended up being unhappy, and Yahan finally drove away. A person returned to the center depressed, just in time for Gu Xin to come over to pick up the goods, looking at my depressed appearance, Gu Xin asked me to drink together. That night, at the Left Bank Coffee in the Little White House, we drank a whole bottle of red wine. With the strength of wine, Gu Xin confessed to me her admiration for me all along, and I also poured out to her the bits and pieces of the pain I have been with Yahan - I, as a person, can't get drunk!

That night, I finally made up my mind to end my perverted relationship with Yahan, and holding Gu Xin's hand, I agreed to be her boyfriend. Clear a pool of water, lonely Taoist people's hearts, return to the ...... We talked until late at night, Gu Xin was a little drunk, I had to drive her home, and I stayed at Gu Xin's house like this. Although they lived together, nothing actually happened, Gu Xin really wanted something to happen, but I have been trying very hard to restrain and suppress my desires. Until I officially end my relationship with Yahan, I will not allow myself to cheat on my conscience or morals. But Yahan doesn't understand it that way, the emotional betrayal is far more unforgivable than the physical betrayal. Perhaps, it is always difficult for men and women to look at such issues from the same perspective. Men are from Mars and women are from Venus, and that's true.

When I woke up the next day, the sun was shining, and the long-lost relief was like the emancipation of millions of serfs, and I didn't go to the center all day, so I just turned off my phone. Gu Xin proposed to go to Beijing to relax, so we got in the car and set off. I accompanied her to the outlets on the East Fourth Ring Road to buy clothes, to Starbucks for coffee, and to Boiling Fish Country for dinner. Gu Xin invited all her friends in the Beijing media industry over and ceremoniously pushed me out. A friend of hers from Beijing TV had listened to my class, and she said to Gu Xin faintly: "In the end, I still let you get it, hehe, happy little woman!" ”

Since I started with Gu Xin, I have begun to understand the world of petty bourgeoisie: there are strict agreements about what brand of clothes to wear, what brand of coffee to drink, and even what kind of storage box to buy at home. On the way back, we had a good conversation, Gu Xin suddenly fell silent, and after a few minutes, she turned to me and said, "Honey, let's get married!" I said, "Yes!" ”

This is a 24-hour love, and for me, who has always been a slow heater, it was almost love at first sight, so fast that I didn't even have time to think about it, and I didn't want to think about it. If you have been suppressed for too long, people, there will always be a lot of unexpected crazy actions. Just like those newcomers who have just become Meilu, they have been confused and depressed in the traditional world for too long, and once they join Meilu, they can't wait to let out all the passion of the first half of their lives, and they don't have time to think or think!

The next morning, I made an appointment to go to the Civil Affairs Bureau to register together, but it was already noon when I slept and woke up naturally, and I was about to get married for the first time in my life. I began to appear less in the center, and my energy gradually shifted to my own department, and Yahan's department naturally paid less attention. More than a month later, Yahan seemed to realize something, and she started calling me frantically, but by that time, Gu Xin and I were already driving back to our hometown to meet her parents. My phone didn't turn on for three days, and I really didn't know how to deal with Yahan's questioning.

Gu Xin's parents have met me, the future son-in-law, and they are also the first to get rich in the spring breeze of reform. Her mother pulled Gu Xin aside and asked, "Why did you change it again?" Gu Xin told her parents without question: "This is the last one!" "Yes, I also thought that Gu Xin was the last one in my life, the road was bumpy, and I needed a peaceful harbor so much.

April 9th was Yahan's birthday, and on that day, Yahan asked me to have dinner at the best hotel in Tianjin. When sending me out, Gu Xin repeatedly told me to speak well, and I decided to have a showdown with Yahan on this day, after all, paper can't contain fire. Yahan didn't make a fuss, she cried very much all the time, and the food basically didn't move. At the end of the month, I went to the Langfang store on behalf of the team to grab the goods, and Yahan insisted on driving me there. I know she still wants to make a final effort. We talked late at the hotel, and she cried again, the first time she talked about her ignorance of me in high school, and also talked about the true feelings she had always had for me, and I could only sigh. Why didn't you tell me earlier? Why do you have to put on a straight face and pretend to be a leader? Why don't you really care about me in the first place? But it was too late, and I couldn't turn back, because I had already made a promise to another girl. Cherish the people in front of you, this should be the last thing I said to Yahan. That night, Yahan cried and went back to Tianjin to find ***, while I stayed in the hotel, ready to grab more than 200,000 yuan of makeup for the team the next day. Yahan left me a love poem when she left, but unfortunately the original poem is gone, and I vaguely remember one of the sentences: I once thought that forever, the days together were as natural as breathing...... I am a person who is easily moved by poetry, which may be due to the inheritance of the poet's father's bloodline. If it hadn't been for that night's confession, I don't think I would have been able to step into the same river again......

On April 9th, the night after the showdown with Yahan, I was finally able to unload all my baggage and be with Gu Xin easily, but the beginning of the story was not as smooth as I imagined. Gu Xin's extreme cleanliness and special requirements made me lose the confidence that a man should have in bed for the first and only time, and we have never been in harmony in this regard. This experience made me deeply understand a truth: women can't just look at their appearance! I finally understood the importance and significance of trial marriage.

Gu Xin once had two official boyfriends: one was her senior brother in college, and the other accidentally caused her to have a painful miscarriage. Perhaps it was too careless at that time, Gu Xin was once infected with a serious gynecological disease. Since then, Gu Xin has begun to be cautious, and this extreme cleanliness habit has made me very painful. At that time, I had reached the last moment of the sprint DD, and it was normal to go home at one or two o'clock at night, but her other request was that she wanted to go to bed again when she came back after midnight, so in the more than two months that I was really with Gu Xin, I could only spend many nights silently on the sofa in the living room.

One evening in April, after the center's classes were over, the core members of the team stayed for a meeting, and it was already half past twelve at midnight, but the after-meeting had just begun. Gu Xin kept calling, I finally couldn't sit still, Yahan's emotions suddenly exploded, and we quarreled fiercely in front of everyone. At that time, all the directors did not understand what was really going on between us, and everyone was stunned. Rushing home, I couldn't fall asleep right away because there were still a lot of chores waiting for me to come back. Gu Xin stipulates that no matter how late I am busy, housework can always not be delayed, which can be regarded as a small punishment. She once proudly claimed that she had finally found a Sichuan man, because Sichuan men always know how to take care of their families. Whether it is Yahan or Gu Xin, they rarely take care of housework.

Living together for less than a month soon made me unable to support it, if the life with Yahan is a blunt knife to pull meat, then life with Gu Xin is like a quick knife to cut through the mess. I followed Yahan's advice and wanted to go to Mount Tai alone to relax, although we broke up, we could still get along like friends. But Gu Xin disagreed, she thought that going to Mount Tai was an escape, and that was not what a real man did, so I had to give up.

After officially breaking up with Yahan, Gu Xin soon proudly announced the news that we were going to get married in the center's class, and everyone was shocked and sent their best wishes. Gu Xin's introducer Wang Qiang also generously said that after getting married, the main front row will follow my card (that is, Meilu household registration). Of course, I follow Gu Xin's card, and it is impossible for Yahan to agree. We began to appease Gu Xin's department, after all, Gu Xin followed my card, but her existing partners could not be taken away, this is the principle of Meilu Tie. But there was still a medical doctor who expressed great indignation, and he had been chasing Gu Xin for a day or two, from outside the United States to inside the United States, and he finally despaired. In the beauty of the road, it is impossible for an unmarried beauty road person to marry the other half of the beauty road who is not a beauty road, in the myth that the beauty road is the joint cause of husband and wife, everyone is eager to become a condor hero who is proud of the rivers and lakes. The doctor's motives for being Meilu were naturally impure, and he became the only victim of Gu Xin's preparation for marriage. Facing Yahan, Gu Xin also generously took the initiative to show goodwill. Being able to defeat such a powerful opponent as Yahan has always been a source of happiness for Gu Xin's complacency, and Yahan has been haunted by this for many years.

Among all the blessings, only Wang Qiang poured cold water on me. He is one of Gu Xin's best friends, so he naturally understands Gu Xin's temperament. He has always felt that a materialistic girl like Gu Xin, how can I be happy and happy in the future? But I had just escaped from the "wolf's den" at that time, so how could I care that I was about to enter the unknown "tiger's den"? Wang Qiang's worries soon turned into my nightmare.

By the end of May, my personal performance had already reached DD, and Gu Xin began to stipulate that I must pay 8,000 yuan every month, and also intentionally or unintentionally mentioned how many carats of diamond rings I wanted. 8,000 yuan, that's a DD normal monthly income. The day doesn't understand the darkness of the night, as a newcomer's 9%, Gu Xin can never understand: Why do I have to replenish the stock at the end of every month? Why do you have to borrow so much money from her at the end of the month? Why do you have to go home so late every day? After living with DD, the best DD in my team, for a month, the halo on my head disappeared completely in Gu Xin's mind. After all, there is a world of difference between stage life and real life, this is the truth that those newcomers can never imagine when they applaud enthusiastically under the stage, and I guess Gu Xin must have begun to regret it. Gu Xin's mental torture to me is getting worse day by day, she won't lose her temper like Yahan, but cold words are definitely Gu Xin's strongest point. Why do so many people just don't know how to cherish the people in front of them? I don't understand!

April 10th is the day when Gu Xin and I are going to register again, but on that day, the team is going to Mutianyu and Survival Island to expand in the wild. After that, we never registered. At first, I was too busy to go, but then I did everything I could to drag it out and didn't want to go. This is the only flash marriage in my life, and it still doesn't work!

That night, at Huairou's dream night, Yahan suddenly burst into tears in the process of sharing, everyone really thought it was the leader's true feelings, only I understood as the master of ceremonies: I have broken up, but I have to partner with my old lover in the past, this kind of taste, it is not comfortable. In the years of Meilu, we are like fish and water, no one can do without anyone!