Yahan didn't know how to drive at that time, so going back and forth to Zhuozhou every month became a tiring long-distance training, and if there was no car in the evening, it would be even more difficult to delay the arrangement of transferring to Tianjin. It's really hard to have no private car to pull the surrounding market, and this is something I have already suffered when I ran through the state market at the beginning of the year.

Around September 2002, Yahan suddenly announced that she had bought a car. It was a second-hand Honda Accord, and Yahan's brother-in-law was anxious to use the money, so he sold the classic car, which was already more than 300,000 kilometers, to Yahan for 40,000 yuan. Of course, newcomers don't know much about the inside story, but having a car is an exciting thing after all, and everyone seems to see hope for the future all of a sudden.

There weren't many people on the team at the time, and I was pretty much the only one on the team who had driven for a few years. On the day of picking up the car, I went to Yahan's brother-in-law to drive the car to the center, and Yahan, Lin Chao and several team backbones were waiting downstairs early. Lin Chao ran into the cab, stroked the steering wheel for a long time and refused to let go, I still remember it vividly. Lin Chao finally failed to realize his dream of a private car.

Yahan began to learn to drive in a driving school, as Yahan's friend and partner for many years, every pick-up and drop-off became my exclusive patent, that is, from that time, I began to accompany Yahan to and from Zhuozhou. In the early years, Yahan had a lot of jokes when driving, including pulling the handbrake to drive a long way, but still wondering why the engine always turned off. For a girl with absolutely lively power, the technical work of driving a car is really boring to her. Later, as long as I am here, Yahan never touches the car, and after more than five years of love, I am basically her queen driver.

At that time, we often went to the wilderness south of Meijiang to practice after finishing work at night, and we were always bound together to work with each other. Since I joined, I've been involved in every front row and depth of Yahan. The deepest impression is that I once went to a front row house named Tian Li to open the lid (that is, the church's first partner to use the product), and ate in a small restaurant downstairs, because of Meilu, we were chased and beaten to death by the restaurant owner and a group of guys, Yahan's hands bled a lot, and I was knocked out in order to protect Yahan. Later, I listened to Hu Zuan from Chengdu share the story of going to a restaurant to sell Meilu in his early years and being chased by the boss with a dog, Yahan and I couldn't help but smile bitterly, we can be regarded as sparing a little blood for Meilu and our dreams!

Years of knowing each other, cherishing each other, coupled with common thoughts, common pursuits, common experiences, and common circles, make this emotion continue to warm up in my heart. I've never been a fast-hot person, I often have to use it for a long time to like someone, and then stick to it for a longer time, whether it's career or relationship, I never give up easily.

Yahan had a vague affection for me when she was in high school, but I already had a place in my heart at that time, and it wasn't until years later that she confessed everything to me. But at that time, Yahan's feelings for me have always been evasive, she is positive and optimistic in her career, never give up, but emotionally she is negative and inferior, and always wants to give up, you can rarely find someone with such a complete split personality. Yahan had never believed in love, and it wasn't until five years later that I finally found out sadly.

Yahan was born in a typical military family, and his father is also a legendary figure in his life, from an ordinary private to a major general of the republic, leading Luan into Tianjin and Qingjiang hydropower diversion tunnels...... Pages and pages are written about miracles in the history of water conservancy in Asia. Since childhood, her father has been a hero in Yahan's mind, which has created Yahan's later style of daring to fight, brave and tenacious, and has also branded Yahan's life pursuit of daring to be the first and benefiting the people, of course, she also inherited her father's irascible character. Of course, such a strongman was unhappy in the feudal arranged marriage of his youth, and he was exposed to the fierce quarrels and domestic violence of his parents since he was a child, how could Yahan have a complete personality?

Just when I was still indulging in a bitter love for Henan, Yahan also experienced a rather failed first love. Yahan's first love was her college alumnus Hu Bin, who also graduated from the tourism major, and we met back then. Hu Bin was born in a declining family in the Northeast, his parents died early, his eldest brother went insane, and his second brother was seriously burned at work, and he was raised by his sister. Two equally crippled people fell in love for three years on Mars and on Earth. At the end of this relationship, Yahan and Hu Bin slashed each other with kitchen knives and finally went to the strange road. Hu Bin's spirit is slightly split, and Yahan's love has since gone to death.

Later, Yahan met the rich second-generation Cedar from the United Arab Emirates, a foreign Chinese who entered Yahan's world because of Zhang Yan's strange invitation during a short period of returning to China. Yahan and Cedar almost fell in love at first sight, but a few months later, Cedar left for Singapore, and this budding relationship became a wordless ending.

And I didn't know this at the time, and Yahan's imminent departure made me inexplicably melancholy. I admire her ability to act, and I agree with her high ambitions, and it is natural for her to get along with her every day and night, and her feelings are naturally germinated. "Hand in hand with the world, smiling proudly" is my life's pursuit, and Yahan has become my ideal object. In October of that year, on the frequent journey back and forth to Zhuozhou, such passion eventually and inevitably erupted.

Yahan began to respond violently to my thoughts, but she still refused to admit that she was my girlfriend. At the beginning, she said that there were not many people in the team, and going in and out all day long would make Lin Chao, who was still single, feel lonely; A year later, on the night when Sun Xuan came out in the front row, when Yahan finally accepted me as her boyfriend after a long decision, she said that I appeared as a side department and would contribute more to the whole team. I kept compromising and conniving until I finally broke up five years later. Once again, I'm somebody's underground lover or shadow boyfriend. The shadow that Herman had cast on me began to loom over me again, and I began to struggle to resist my lost self, and our conflict began to escalate. Yahan finally promised that we would hold a wedding with diamonds, but before we could get diamonds, we had already separated from each other.

From the night we were together, I started to put most of my energy into the whole team. After countless successful reveries, I drove my beloved jeep to the end of the world together, and countless times I thought about every detail of the wedding and even the volume of the background music. I began to fall into a frenzied reverie, and being too easily trapped by love was the deadliest wound I had ever suffered.

In fact, the most difficult thing is not to hide the identity of your boyfriend, but to get along well in every link in the increasingly close cooperation. Add a point to fat, less a point to be thin, can not affect the work, but also can not show the horse's feet, a slight difference in the pool will attract a storm. It's normal to walk into her office and take out the garbage in the paper basket after talking, but it will also make her suspect that the department outside the door has found out about the relationship between the two of us, and there is no need to say anything in private. And when I'm alone, if I don't seem considerate and intimate enough, I don't treat me much better. Even when the target is under pressure, I am also the most suitable person for her to vent. Of course, the tone of speech and the look in each other's eyes also need to be paid special attention to the occasion, which has almost become a compulsory homework for me every day in those two years.

Half seawater, half flames! Yahan's capriciousness often confuses me, and you never know how far away she wants you to be from her in the next second. She was too negative, too fragile, too sensitive, too irritable, and very different from the glorious image that everyone on the team perceived. The rats in the bellows are blocked at both ends, and I have become the person who knows Yahan best. She used to say, "Who called you my closest person?" Yahan often laughs at herself, isn't Socrates and Lincoln's wives also such women? Therefore, she has been looking forward to me becoming a wise man and a great man in the United States, just like Mr. Chen. Scolded by his wife? Just kidding, isn't it just a heavy rain? Of course, from a positive and optimistic attitude, this is also a kind of life cultivation!

From passionately embracing each other to kissing to holding hands and finally becoming rightful lovers, Yahan and I embarked on an emotional path that is diametrically opposed to all normal people! At that time, she always said that she would abandon the chaos at the beginning, which became a psychological hint that Yahan kept beating herself. Years later, I learned that from the very beginning, she was convinced that we were going to break up, so she never wanted me to see the sunshine on the road of relationship, and that had a really bad impact on the team. We finally gave up, and if you believe it, it will happen! In my relationship with Yahan, I was a loser, and Yahan "succeeded" and she finally achieved the goal she had set in the first place.

But how can love be like this? Even people who love each other should not take it for granted that everything that the other person has given for themselves is justified, on the contrary, we should be grateful for anything that the other person has done for us.

Many times, our misfortune is often not that the world has abandoned us, but that it is precisely we ourselves who have abandoned ourselves!