These are some of the moods that I wrote down in those days, and I am not a person who likes or has the time to be diligent in recording.

Diary One:

Monday, 22 July 2002

Towards the end of the month, the performance is only more than 3,000, the new front row has not been opened for a long time, and the old customers are not easy to follow. In October, I was awarded the silver medal, and the psychological pressure is so great, how far is the road ahead?

Diary 2:

Wednesday, 31 July 2002

In the afternoon, it finally reached 9%, and I was relieved!

Diary Three:

Thursday, 29 August 2002

At night, he communicated with Xiao Fu (Xiao Wan's girlfriend in the front row) and tried to bridge the rift in the relationship between Xiao Wan and Xiao Fu, so as not to affect the operation of Meilu in the future. Unexpectedly, the more everyone talked, the more stiff they became, Xiaofu's mood and mentality were so bad that it was better to coax them well. Lesson: (1) Don't get involved in departmental family strife! (2) People who don't do Meilu always have an excuse, so it's better to go with the flow!

Diary 4:

Thursday, 5 September 2002

When he called Li Jiang at night and asked about repaying the money, he suddenly turned his face and didn't recognize anyone, he was quite unreasonable, and he wanted to repay the debt, or he would return all the products. I felt uncomfortable for a while, and I really regretted why I lent him the goods to open a family store in the first place. Finally negotiated to buy back the remaining products, and will pay off the remaining 600 yuan tomorrow, but tomorrow even the food money is not enough, and I blame myself for being too soft-hearted at the beginning, so that the capital turnover is so tight now. What will I do with the money for tomorrow's delivery? What should I do if the customer Xie Hong wants? What to do with a bunch of nutritional products at home? What to do with the money for meals? What about the fare to Beijing and Dagang for meetings? My heart is in turmoil.

Diary Five:

Tuesday, 10 September 2002

Beijing Tongzhou follow-up is not a big gain, Xiaowan and Xiaofu's mentality and state are far from success, let them go, just be a customer. Xiao Wan's determination is okay, but going back to Sichuan to study is a problem, Xiao Wan's conditions are too poor, the price to pay for success will be a lot, and it is more difficult to take him, if it is in Tianjin, of course, the situation will be much better. I lost my wallet on the way back, and I didn't have a penny this month, which is really worse!

Diary Six:

Wednesday, 11 September 2002

Zhao Yi and Yanan have not participated in the study for more than a week, and they seem to have a big difference on the issue of Meilu, and they also have some problems in terms of mentality, such as the mentality of working for me, and the requirements for leaders. Should you ask more for newcomers, or should you coax more? It's really hard to grasp the scale of the department! The mortality rate in the department is too high!

Diary 7:

Thursday, 14 November 2002

I went to the stock market in the morning, only to find that the day before yesterday was not traded, and the stock price fell by one yuan. Today, the money on my body is almost gone, the delivery customer is in arrears, there is no money to buy, and the money to pick up business cards in the afternoon and eat in the evening has not yet been settled! I made an appointment to meet Lin Chao at the company, and he promised to lend me some money. I thought that by the end of the year, the financial situation would be better, but it was a difficult time! This week's time is not very tight, two afternoons were wasted, several job opportunities have not been implemented, and the silver medal at the end of the year is worrying. There are still many people on the road to success on Sunday, hurry! There are still two days to go.

I opened the notes again and saw these handwritings written casually back then, and my heart felt like a world away. At that time, we were truly loyal and invincible Meiluren, but the system and the high-level ruthlessly sent us to be "cannon fodder".