210 Self-blame (2)

My emotions were not controlled at all, and as much as I wanted to, the result was the same. I think that Xu Yi is really the calamity I have encountered, even Fang Ziqing has never let me do this, but he is the only one who can make me extremely uncomfortable every time.

I couldn't control the feeling of urgency, and it was like I was going to lose it.

I know my request may be a bit vexatious, but now I really want to know, I want to know everything inside, I wonder if that hateful man is really going to leave me. But it seems that even this only hope was dashed in an instant. As he said, "Enron, it'll be fine, let's just wait." "This is the answer Chen Yuyang gave me, I just want him to help me, but now......

Will it really be okay? I hope so, but I can't calm down at this time.

I don't know where Lin Xiao got the news, and he appeared with Fang Ziqing.

A sudden slap in the face was expected, but it didn't seem to be enough. I wish someone could beat me hard at this time, whatever I wanted, even if I was killed, as long as I could let me know everything inside, let alone this slap, I could beat me any way. But alas......

"Lin Xiao, calm down, calm down." Fang Zi hugged the person tightly and was anxiously relieved.

"Bastard, you let me go, let me go. Fang Ziqing, don't think I don't know what you're thinking. What's the matter, you're distressed now. As far as this slap is concerned, it is already light for her. Xu Yi is still lying inside, why is it Xu Yi who went in and not her, shouldn't the damn person be her? Just like last time, I really hope that the fire can directly burn her, so that Xu Yi will not be in danger. Fang Ziqing, don't dream. Of course, if you're willing to ask for this evil spirit, then I don't mind. Lin Xiao was also on fire, struggling and talking, completely saving face, let alone caring what Fang Ziqing thought.

"It's all your fault, if it weren't for you, how could Xu Yi be what he is now. I shouldn't have blessed you with what you have done to him now. Lin Xiao has been accusing sharply, regardless of whether her decibel has an impact in this quiet corridor.

Of course I know her psychology, but even if it is, I am powerless to refute it. Lin Xiao's words were like thin needles piercing my heart, and I didn't even have the strength to scream in pain. But this is also the truth, and that sentence is all the truth. It's all because of me, and if it weren't for me, things wouldn't be like this. Think about it at that time, if I had persisted, maybe it wouldn't have happened. But what I didn't think about was that even if I didn't go, we would have an accident.

Self-blame is the only thing I have now, of course all of this is my fault, it is because of me that Xu Yi will become what he is now.

Fang Ziqing tried his best to comfort Lin Xiao: "You calm down, this matter has to be discussed in the long run, it's not Enron's fault." ”

Listening to Fang Ziqing's words, I also have mixed feelings in my heart. I really didn't expect him to speak for me at this time, completely ignoring Lin Xiao's clamour. This would have been impossible for him before. But it was at this time......

Chen Yuyang just looked at them coldly and never spoke. He was so calm, it was as if he had changed into a different person, at least in my impression. Although Chen Yuyang is a calm master, in my impression, he seems to have never been so calm as he is now. I don't know what he's thinking now, just sit quietly.

"Safe ...... you"

"Shut up and fuck off if you don't want to wait."

Before Lin Xiao's words could be spoken, he was stopped by Chen Yuyang. That cold voice was indescribably terrifying. Especially that grim face, I don't know how to describe it.

It seems that Chen Yuyang's words are too scary, but it also makes Lin Xiao shut up obediently.

Time passed minute by minute, and none of us knew how long this wait would last. No eating, drinking, no rest, just waiting for the man inside to come out.

I kept blaming myself while waiting, and tears fell from time to time, making the men around me anxious.

"Enron, listen to me, if you continue like this, I don't mind letting you disappear from here. Xu Yi is still inside, and if you continue to do this, get the fuck off me. Looking at me, Chen Yuyang said sharply. Su Ri'an's voice was not loud, but my heart tightened when I heard it.

I want to be in control, I want to let myself relax. Don't say that you can't do it on the surface, you can't do it in your heart.

"Everything is my fault, it's my fault. I wish I was the one lying in there, so that my heart wouldn't hurt so much. Senior, I really don't want to wait any longer. Let me go in or not, let me go and change Xu Yi, as long as he can be well, it doesn't matter what I do. "What else can I do but feel guilty of this?

"If you think your current self-blame is useful, then I think you might as well die." For a while, Lin Xiao directly gave me such a sentence.

Waited left and right, and finally opened the door. It wasn't until I watched the bed push out of it that I rushed over it impatiently.

Looking at that familiar face, looking at that bloodless face, my eyes fell once again.

I wish he could open his eyes and come to see me now, at least it would prove that he is alive. But this way to the ward, the man on the bed did not open his eyes.

I don't know if it's because my legs are weak or I really can't hold on, the moment the ward door closes, oh go straight down.

"You are the family of the patient, the patient needs to be observed in the intensive care unit now, and if you can survive such an hour, then you are out of danger. If not...... Now it's up to the patient to wake up. ”

Listening to the doctor's words, I sat on the ground and instantly came to my senses, stood up and grabbed the doctor's hand. His words did give me hope, "Doctor, I can go in, I can go and stay with him, and I'm sure he'll make it." "That's my hope, and now that it's out, I'll do my best to be around his word until he wakes up.

"Doctor I beg you, please let me in, let me be by his side, doctor I beg you." This time I knelt right in front of the doctor, and I knew it was a threat in disguise, but I could only do that. As long as you can get in, it doesn't matter whatever.

Unfortunately, my pleading didn't work, and the doctor wouldn't let me in at all, even if I hugged my thighs and cried.

"Enron, don't be like this, calm down, he'll be fine, calm down." Trapped me tightly, Chen Yuyang whispered.

After all, I was still looking at the man on the hospital bed without any movement through the glass, and I was just like this on the glass.

"Xu Yi, can you wake up quickly? It makes me so uncomfortable to see you like this every day. I have a lot of things I want to tell you, but you don't come out, and I don't know how to tell you. And our baby, who lives in it beautifully. It's you, wake up quickly, we're going to go down together. ”

48 hours, whether it is long or not, whether it is short or not, but just like this, through the glass, my heart has been uncomfortable.

In this waiting time, it is actually the most torturous, it is completely a torment. But seeing that there were still 12 hours left, the people inside still did not react.

It was my persistence that allowed me to stay, and Chen Yuyang was always by my side during this period, but without the previous persuasion.

There is still time means that there is still hope, as long as you believe, you will be fine.

After all, my parents knew about it, and when they rushed to the hospital, the first thing they did was not to blame, but to give my mother a hug. The indescribable warmth of the embrace gave me a bit of stability.

"Silly boy, why don't you tell us if something happens, it's really worrying us. How, have you ever been injured? Is there anything wrong with it? Were you scared? "I don't know how to deal with this series of things.

Such warmth, such worry, but it made me blame myself even more.

Mom was so kind to me, but I hurt his son lying in it and his life and death were uncertain. I really don't know what face to face them.

"Mom, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, it's all my fault, it's all my fault, it's all because of me. It's okay if you beat me, or scold me, and I'll admit it all. It was I who caused Xu Yi to become what he is now, and it was all my fault. Holding the woman in front of him tightly, the emotions that had been held back for so many days finally broke out at this moment.

They were so nice to me, but I did such a thing, which made me have the face to face them.

"Silly boy, it's not your fault, you don't have to blame yourself so much. At that time, he should have done this, protecting his wife, which is a man's duty. If he can't even do this, then he doesn't deserve to be this husband. ”

I really don't know what else I can say in the face of such words. And what I don't know is that in fact, this is the Xu family's education model, men, absolutely have to be responsible.

"It's okay, that stinky boy will wake up soon, you have to trust him. It's nothing to be flooded for so long and come back to life. "I don't know if my mom was comforting me by saying this or if it was true, but her hand gave me warmth once again.

"Mom, I'm sorry." It would be false to say that I don't blame myself, because when I'm not sure if Xu Yi will really wake up, I think my self-blame can only increase unabated.

The last hope is in these few short hours, and I don't know what Dad used to make me able to enter the ward.

Looking at Xu Yi on the bed, I suddenly became timid at this moment......