269. I can't think of it
When I fell into Gao Cheng's arms, my blurred eyes stared straight at the mirror and refused to move, and the fragmented illusion could not be surrounded, and it became even more blood-red. Both hands tugged at the placket of Gao Cheng's shirt and asked word by word, "Is the glass broken?" In the afterglow he stared at me fiercely, silent and reincarnated, and finally, heard him say, "Broken." ”
When my heart is relieved, it is broken, then it is not my delusion. Weakly closed his eyes, but his consciousness remained lingering.
I felt Gao Cheng pick me up and leave, and after a while, Luo Jinghan asked in surprise: "What's wrong with Xiao Xia?" Gao Cheng didn't answer, and continued to move, a familiar and indifferent voice came close to his ears: "Where are you going to take the small box?" "It's crazy! But he had never spoken so coldly, and there was even hostility in his voice.
Gao Cheng paused and reprimanded: "Get out of the way." ”
"I won't let you take her alone again."
Gao Cheng hugged me tightly and said, "If you want her to die, you will continue to stop her." The space suddenly fell silent, and the movement continued, obviously the madman no longer stopped after taking my life as the premise, but when Gao Cheng walked a few steps with me in his arms, he heard the madman's voice: "Chu Gaocheng, you said that this will be the end of the place, no matter what the situation, you will keep the small box." Don't forget your oath. ”
The voice faded away, Gao Cheng ignored him, and walked on his own, and walked very fast. Judging from the spatial perception, we are out of the cave again, but where are we going? It shouldn't be dark yet, so it's unlikely that you'll go to the ruined city again.
I don't know if it's because I can't tell the time in a daze, I just feel that I have been walking for a long time, and when Gao Cheng stopped, I thought it was here, but I heard him speak, but not to me: "Don't follow it secretly, come here." ”
In my surprise, I heard Luo Jinghan's embarrassed cough and explained: "It's not that I want to follow, he can't make trouble." The madman shouted: "What's the matter, obviously you can't rest assured that your brother Cheng." Then he said to Gao Cheng: "Today, my old Qin is with my family's small box, and the eight horses can't be pulled away, so I have to watch her stop being so sick." ”
Unexpectedly, Gao Cheng was silent for a moment and said, "You can follow if you want, but when you get to the location, I don't have time to save you." Luo Jinghan hurriedly asked, "That place is dangerous?" But the madman ridiculed: "Don't be alarmist there." Gao Cheng sneered back, "The advice to you is that it's best not to wander around. ”
After that, he didn't say anything more, and walked in silence. A moment later, I heard the madman ask in wonder, "The so-called dangerous place you said can't be the ship we sailed over, right?" "I suddenly understood that after walking such a long way, I actually walked back to the dock to the berth of the ship. quickly understood the purpose of his return, asked Luo Jinghan to take out a kayak from the boat, and waited until he was traveling on the river before listening to Luo Jinghan ask again: "Brother Cheng, where are we going?" ”
I thought that Gao Cheng would not speak, but I heard him say after a moment of silence: "I originally thought that the demon was a kind of thought, but I didn't know that I was ridiculously wrong until just now, it is a kind of thought, but there are various manifestations. It can be an obsession or a shadow. ”
When I heard the word "shadow" at the end, my heart shook, and I suddenly felt that Gao Cheng knew that I didn't have all my consciousness annihilated, and he was actually saying this to me. Sure enough, he added: "I have never found out the root cause of your shadowing, I know that it will eventually cause a big disaster, like a double-edged knife, it can cut thorns and thorns for you, and it will hurt back." If I knew this was the case, even if I fought with the crocodile, I wouldn't let you sail back to shore with the picture. ”
His voice was very calm, and he didn't seem to be emotionally fluctuating, but I couldn't hear the sadness, and then my heart became sour. He meant that I suddenly became like this, because I used the ability to draw shadows before, which caused the demon to enter the master and produce a delusional hallucination, so the previous glass was not broken. As soon as his thoughts flipped, his mind became very clear, and he even understood where he was going now: to find my roots.
Since it's because of the problem with the painting, only by finding the root cause can I break my current catastrophe. I used to feel uneasy, and I don't know if those emotions have dissipated because of being immersed in this dim space. I feel that what should come must always come, and I can't avoid it. I'm afraid that Gao Cheng is thinking the same as me at the moment, so he is also very calm.
It may be that he was infected with a condensed atmosphere, not only Luo Jinghan, but even the madman didn't speak anymore. After a long silence, my consciousness floated and fell, and I kept wandering at that critical point, and it took about half an hour or more before I heard Gao Cheng let Luo Jinghan stop at the shore, measuring this distance by the speed of the kayak, obviously this destination was really far from the island of Gao Cheng.
Suddenly the breath is close to the pinna, and a low voice hits the eardrum: "Try to open your eyes." As if by magic, the consciousness that was still free quickly condensed, and the eyelashes fluttered twice, and the originally unconscious eyelids opened. With deep eyes and a cool face, I gently leaned my face towards him. I don't know when I became more and more dependent on him, and I longed to be separated from him for a moment, even if I closed my eyes.
Because subconsciously understand one thing, sometimes when you close your eyes, you may ...... I can't open it.
Two dry coughs came from the side, I turned my gaze, and it was Luo Jinghan who made a sound, but the first thing I saw was a madman. He honestly and unceremoniously stared at me with wide eyes and stunned, and when he saw my gaze scribble, he said faintly: "Little box, I don't want to play with you anymore, you always sneak away alone." ”
My voice was a little hoarse: "Isn't this still in front of your eyes, where has it slipped away?" ”
But he said: "You are here, but the soul has run away, this time the soul can come back, next time I'm afraid the soul will not find its way." ”
I don't speak, the madman is actually clear in his heart, and no one can hide it from him. And now I look like a weak ghost, and I can't fool him if I want to lie to him that it's okay. The boat leaned against a hidden bush, and after carrying me ashore, Gao Cheng put me down and put his arm around my waist and said, "Try to walk." "This move is exactly what I want, I really don't want to be held by him all the time in front of the other two.
In fact, fortunately, except for the pain in the chest and lungs, the legs and feet are not completely weak, and the body is stable after walking a few steps. But Gao Cheng suddenly walked forward and bent down and squatted, "Come up." I looked at his shoulder and wanted to say no, but he didn't give me a chance to speak, turned his head and grabbed me with both hands and turned over his shoulders, and as soon as he pulled me, he lay on his back, and when he got up, he ordered: "Hold my neck tightly and don't fall down." His palms had been changed to support my legs.
I could only wrap my hands around his neck, if it was just me and him, I wouldn't feel uncomfortable, and I would like to be pampered like this. But with these two people next to him, especially the madman's little eyes, which always glanced at him gloomily and sadly, he felt a little embarrassed. But Gao Cheng didn't take them seriously at all, and cautiously instructed me: "Tell me where you think you have an impression." ”
After a moment of silence, he asked, "Are you asking me to draw a shadow?" ”
Seeing him shake his head, "Don't draw shadows, little bamboo, from now on you don't use shadows anymore." Just rely on the memories to see if you can remember. I nodded earnestly, but I doubted in my heart that it would not be easy to think back to the past with the memories that I am now overwriting. But I also know that he is afraid that the shadow will lead my demons to emerge again.
This island is different from the one in the high city, it is covered with dense trees, and the grass grows more than half a man tall. And it may be that we parked the boat in a deliberately remote place, and there is no way to go at all. The madman volunteered to lead the way, twisting and turning, but Gao Cheng didn't even bother and followed closely behind.
When he finally reached a clearing, the madman stopped in front of him and said, "No, it's a desert island, and no one is there." I retorted, "It's impossible, it's not yet at the realm." But the madman said, "Don't believe me, little box, I may not be good at anything else, but this kind of jungle is like my home." Whether anyone has been to the house or not, do you know if you know? ”
I saw that he was swearing, and I couldn't help but ask Gao Cheng: "What do you think?" ”
"He's right."
Instead, I was stunned, "Is it really a desert island?" Gao Cheng hummed lightly and said, "It's a few minutes of walking to the place, and I'll tell you later." This time he took the lead, striding into the grass. Obviously, his heart was in a daze, but there was something faintly touching, and when he walked out a dozen steps, he realized something and turned his head, and found that Luo Jinghan and the madman were standing in place, just silently watching us and not following.
I didn't understand what this was going on, but when I turned around and wanted to ask, I heard Takahiro say, "It's here." ”
Instinctively look around, it's still in the jungle, overgrown with weeds. It's the same as just now, I don't understand where he meant by "arrived", he didn't turn his eyes to look at me, as if he knew that I was confused, and reminded me loudly: "Think about it carefully, this place has surfaced from your memory." My heart fluttered, and I looked carefully again, and gradually saw the clues.
"You put me down."
Gao Cheng let go of his hand, and as soon as my feet hit the ground, I let go of the hand that was holding his shoulder. When I walked under a tree, I wanted to close my eyes, but my mind gave up on it, and when I took the tenth step, a strong wind swept from the side. A similar image flashed before my eyes, and I was pounced on by Takashiro, only to flip over and fall on top of him as soon as my body touched the ground.
Looking at each other, he asked, "Did you figure it out?" ”
I smiled bitterly, "You've personally performed the scene again, can't you think of it." This is where you hid after being wounded by them, and I came to you, and you threw yourself on the ground, but in an instant you passed out on top of me. ”
Indeed, as he said, this experience has broken through the maze covered by memories and is remembered by paintings. But what I don't understand is, "Why did you choose this?" "Isn't it supposed to take me directly to a place where I might train and grow, and it's easier to wake up something that is sleeping or dusty? He helped me to my feet before he said, "No matter what kind of mental tantric understanding it is, it has to be done gradually. Since this location was the first to be remembered by you, it proved to be a breakthrough, so let's start here. Now you try to remember, what did you do after I was unconscious? ”
I thought about it over and over again, but I always came to one conclusion: I couldn't think of it. <