The days are still passing unhurriedly.

I drive the garbage truck every day, driving unhurriedly between the factory and the garbage factory.

"I'm not in the factory, I'm in the garbage dump; I'm not at the dump, I'm on the way to the dump. "I often say this to Mengjie.

The dump is more than 20 miles away from the factory area, and the area is very large, in the middle of a valley.

On the garbage dump, patches of garbage spread out like festering wounds on the skin of a patient, reaching out into the distance: red garbage is red garbage, green garbage is green garbage, white garbage is white garbage, and black garbage is black garbage...... The river full of garbage is filled with broken shoes and socks and a lot of garbage that never knows its source.

On the garbage dump, wild dogs carnival and chase each other.

The stench permeated the air.

"Writers! Get on board! Lao Wu shouted, "Still looking for inspiration?" ”

"Look for the thighs that lead his mother!" I said viciously.

"If I had your ink," Lao Wu began to gush, "If I were ten years younger, if I didn't have a wife and children, my mother's would have been a long time ago!" Go out and mix, mix well, and become a writer; If you can't mix it up, even if you die, you will accept your fate, and you won't have to die in this nest! ”

For the first time, I looked at Lao Wu's face extremely seriously.

I believe that he absolutely said it from the bottom of his heart this time.

I took out a "White Girl" cigarette, threw one to Lao Wu, and lit one myself. In the smoke, I once again saw wild dogs playing and chasing each other in the garbage dump, and I suddenly realized that I was really not as happy and free as them.

"I said I envy those wild dogs now, do you believe me?" I asked Lao Wu with a smile.

"You are also to blame," Lao Wu began to count me, "I don't know how to cherish such a good job, and I don't know how to cherish such a good girlfriend, but I can't get along with the leader for such a sassy woman!" ”

"Is she a sass?" I asked Lao Wu seriously.

"Anyway, it doesn't look ordinary," Lao Wu said and took the last puff of his cigarette, casually flicking the cigarette butt out of the car window, "Look at her heels, they are as high as stilts, and as sharp as an awl!" ”

"It's really not wrong to let you drive a garbage truck!" I laughed, looking nervous.

Lao Wu looked puzzled and puzzled.

Ever since I got into the garbage truck, I have clearly felt that there is a lingering smell of garbage on my body.

"You really can't smell the garbage on me?" I often ask Mengjie so seriously.

"Not really," Meng Jie would answer me every time, "That's your psychological effect!" Don't you all have to take a shower in the team every day before you leave work? ”

I don't know if Mengjie really can't smell this smell on my body, or if she is just comforting me at all. But I felt more and more like I wanted to escape. It's not to escape from Mengjie, it's to escape from the garbage truck, it's to escape from this ghost place that makes me depressed and in a bad mood.

Whenever I want to escape, I can't help but think of Ye Qian.

Ye Qian has been in Beijing for several months.

I miss her so much.

When Mengjie is away, I often call Ye Qian's phone.

"How are you doing in Beijing now?" I asked straight to the point.

"I'm fine in Beijing!" Ye Qian smiled, "The receiving unit has been found!" ”

"I want to go to Beijing too!" I hurriedly said, "My mind is full of Beijing now, and I can see Beijing when I look down!" ”

"What?" Ye Qian asked curiously, "What do you see when you look down?" ”

"Beijing," I said, smiling, "on the map, of course." Although I am in this ghost place, I now know Beijing inside and out. The homepage of my current computer is Beijing Tourism Network, and I want to see Beijing as soon as I go online; When I look at Beijing, I want to see you; I'm calling just to hear your voice. Unfortunately, I couldn't experience what it's like to live in Beijing......"

"yes!" Ye Qian said with emotion, "Only by experiencing everything can we have the most real understanding." If you want to know Beijing, you can only truly experience it when you come to Beijing in person! ”

"I really want to go to Beijing," I said helplessly, "but what did you do in the past?" You have a bachelor's degree, it's okay to be a gangster there, just my self-examination diploma, it's not like asking for food when I go to Beijing! ”

"The road is out," Ye Qian said in a firm tone, "Beijing is a place that believes in ability rather than diplomas, and I know you have this ability." In this place, even if you fall on the road to your dreams, it is better than you being depressed and dying in that ghost place! ”

I forced a smile and put down the phone in disappointment.

In the big and crowded city of Beijing, I know that it is certainly not easy to work hard. I have seen in many media that when many people first went to Beijing, some lived in dark and damp basements, some cheekily slept on the floors of their classmates, and some even had the experience of not having money to eat for three days and mixing 10 yuan for a week...... Of course, there are many people who have thought about leaving Beijing many times. But when all the suffering was overcome, they all succeeded.

"If you don't experience wind and rain, how can you see a rainbow!" I said to myself.

At this time, I found that there was still a bottle of liquor at home that I had not finished after opening, so I bent down to take it and went to the study. While I was drinking, I thought about Ye Qian. Think about the past with Ye Qian, the small simple happiness that passed, and the angry years when the world was the enemy.

Time flies like an arrow.

It's been almost a year since Ye Qian went to Beijing.

The hope of publishing my novel, "In Dreams and Dreams," is getting slimmer by the day.

Over the course of a year, Ye Qian and I had many phone calls. Every time I hang up the phone, I always have a feeling in my heart that I can't put it into words.

Last month, Ye Qian and I only spoke on the phone five times, each time for only a few minutes.

Last month, Ye Qian and I only spoke on the phone three times, each time for less than a minute.

This month, Ye Qian and I only talked on the phone once, and as soon as she answered the phone, she said that the water in the pot was boiling, and then hung up the phone and never called again.

I feel that Ye Qian and I are getting more and more estranged.

I want Beijing.

Every day I feel like I'm running away from the small city of Hanzhong, and this feeling is getting stronger and stronger.

Life has to go on, work has to go on.

On this day, the team had dinner together.

My colleagues advised me to drink too much before I knew it.

I have always rarely spoken in the team, and even when I call my mobile phone, I go to the hallway for fear of disturbing my colleagues. In a drunken haze, I actually dialed Ye Qian's phone at the dinner table as if no one was around, and I wanted to muster up the courage to say what I had always wanted to say but didn't say.

The phone went through.

"If you have something to say, say it quickly," Ye Qian's impatient voice came from the other end of the phone, "I still have something!" ”

"I've thought about it," I said excitedly, "I've decided to quit my job and go to Beijing to spend it with you, I really can't stand this kind of 'space' love!" ”

"Good!" Ye Qian smiled, "Beijing welcomes you!" You're welcome too! ”

"What kind of bullshit, 'If the two love for a long time, how can they be in the morning and twilight'?" I said viciously, "That's a lie!" Even if the couple is deeply affectionate, but they can't be accompanied day and night, the ears and temples grind, like the roses planted in the garden, no one fertilizes, no one waters, no one weeds, no one kills insects, let the wind and sun, rain and frost, insects and rats hurt, who still believes that it will never wither? ”

"Yes!" Ye Qian said with certainty, "Never use time and space to test love, there is nothing in this world that cannot be changed by time and space!" Moreover, in this era, which is changing rapidly, eating different meals, drinking different water, absorbing different information, and contacting different people, can we create the same feelings? ”

"Yes!" I said seriously, "Chai Mi husband and wife, Chai Mi husband and wife, it means to stay together day and night, for such a small thing as Chai Mi, carefully discuss, make careful calculations, and live a plain life, until the sea is dry and the stones are rotten, and the sky is wasted and the earth is old, and they are not separated!" ”

……

The phone quickly ran out of battery.

I looked up and was about to ask someone to borrow my phone, only to find that the table full of colleagues were staring at me with wide eyes.

"What's wrong?" I asked, confused.

"You're married?" Colleagues asked in unison.

"Who's married?" I was embarrassed to say, "It's just a female friend of mine!" ”

"Oh my God!" Colleagues quipped, "Chai Mi and his wife have come out, and what about female friends, who will believe it?" ”

"Don't believe it!" I, who had never been smiling, suddenly smiled and said drunkenly, "Comrades, this may be my last supper with everyone!" ”

"You're resigning?" A colleague asked tentatively.

"I'll quit tomorrow!" I say it categorically.

"Is it still that woman?" A colleague asked with interest.

"That's her!" I said in a firm tone, "In this life, it's just her!" ”

I saw my colleagues looking at each other, staring at each other with big eyes.

It's a good feeling.