When I opened my eyes again, the first thing I saw was still Pei Zhao.

He had just come back from the court, because he was still wearing that heavy court dress, and the crown was drooping with a crown, she actually rarely saw him wearing court clothes, and at this time she only felt a little out of reach, and couldn't help but think a little dazed: When was the last time I saw him wearing court clothes?

Her mind was buzzing, but she still remembered that at that time, she and Pei Zhao sat side by side on the throne and pushed her family to the other side with her own hands. At that time, she thought that when the child was born, she would take her to visit her family, they loved themselves so much, they would definitely like this child very much, and they would accept Pei Zhao.

Thinking of the child, she only felt very scared, she remembered that she had a terrible dream just now, in which Pei Zhao told her that the child had died, of course she would not believe such words. She felt Pei Zhao holding herself into her arms, feeling the warmth in his arms, and she could even hear the footsteps of the palace people coming in and out, so it seems that this nightmare should be awake?

She subconsciously raised her eyes to look at Pei Zhao, he may be tired, his face was a little haggard, and his eyes were bloodshot, she wanted to reach out to help him rub the corners of his forehead like before, but she remembered that in her dream, Pei Zhao actually lied to her like that, and she was a little angry.

If...... She secretly thought in her heart that if Pei Zhao confessed her mistake to her immediately and then took her to see the child, she would definitely forgive him with a smile, otherwise the child would secretly laugh at herself in her heart when she saw her mother being so stingy.

She waited and waited expectantly. She waited for Pei Zhao to tell her: "Ah Ming, I'm kidding you, you don't know how healthy our children are." Waiting to see the child's pink face, waiting for the child to call her "mother", waiting for the family to spend a quiet and warm time. But she didn't forget that Pei Zhao rarely lied to her, so she waited for a long time, and she didn't wait for this sentence.

His slender fingertips brushed lightly on her face, she could feel a little rough calluse, rubbing her cheeks itching, and then she saw Pei Zhao's eyes, she had never seen such a pair of eyes, with endless sorrow and despair, she looked at the little self in Pei Zhao's eyes a little sluggishly, only to hear him whisper:

"Ah Ming, it's me who is incompetent, I didn't protect our child, but no matter what, the child is gone, you are her mother, she will definitely be reluctant to see you so sad."

"If you want to cry, just cry, I'll be with you and I'll not go anywhere, okay?"

"Tell me what you want, and I'll promise you everything, okay?"

"Our child is gone, I beg you to cheer up, don't leave me, okay?"

......

Pei Zhao's repeated words were in her ears, and she lowered her head a little dazedly, very puzzled in her heart.

Cry? Why is she crying?

She still remembered that a few days ago, Pei Zhao had told her that their child was weak, so he had to soak the medicinal soup every day, but what about that? She didn't know how long she would have to wait, but she always felt that she would see the child, and she would be wrapped in swaddling clothes and smile sweetly at herself in a belly she had sewn with her own hands.

Pei Zhao saw that she had been silent since she woke up, not crying or laughing, and was very anxious, when even if the imperial doctor came in, several imperial doctors took turns to come forward for her, she didn't move, like a begonia flower that had lost its brilliance, the imperial doctors whispered for a long time, and then told him that the queen was probably stimulated, and she lost her mind for a while, and she might get better after a while.

But how long will he have to wait?!

There were only three years between them, and only three years left in her life, how could he love her so much that she could spend three years in such endless despair? She looked at those dull eyes, her heart really felt as if she had been slashed by a dagger, with endless pain, if the pain of being cut out of her heart could make Ah Ying get better, and she could exchange for the child's safety, how good would it be?

"Ahh Pei Zhao tried to speak to her again: "If you don't want to talk, then I'll sit with you, are you hungry?" If you're hungry, nod your head, and I'll let them pass the meal, okay? ”

But she just looked at him blankly, and slowly buried her head in his arms, and refused to look at him again, he tried to help her lie down, and her body trembled slightly the moment it touched the bed, and then quickly curled up, and hid in the innermost part of the bed, he lay down beside her, put his arms around her trembling shoulders, and whispered:

"Ah, don't be afraid."

There was silence in the warm pavilion, he quietly patted her on the back, seeing that she slowly closed her eyes, that sleeping face still made him haunted by dreams as before, if she had been sleeping peacefully like this, it was actually not bad, the helplessness and dazedness in her eyes really taught him to be heartbroken. She still frowned tightly in her sleep, and shivered from time to time, he stayed with her for a long time, and when he saw that she was finally asleep, he got up lightly and walked out of the hall.

Tong He and Duan Niang were guarding outside, and when they saw him coming out, they hurriedly came forward: "Your Majesty, let's have some food, you have been tired in the past few days, and you haven't entered anything since the next dynasty today." ”

He nodded, and the palace people set the table neatly. He didn't care what was on the table, and the meal was just for him not to fall. His Ah Ying is so fragile now, he must not fall, he will always stay by her side and accompany her out of this haze.

Duan Niang has been silently laying dishes for Pei Zhao on the side, and after the table was removed, she hesitated, but still cautiously opened her mouth: "Your Majesty, Niangniang must be too sad this time, so she will ...... The slave and maid are brave and want to ask Your Majesty, how will Your Majesty prepare in the future? If there is anything that a slave can do, the slave or maid will die. ”

Tong He also said: "The old slave knows that His Majesty feels sorry for his mother, but His Majesty works day and night, and this body can't bear it even if it is beaten with iron." The queen mother used to be lively, and Zhaorong Niangniang and His Royal Highness Thirteen were very close, even Princess Rui, is also very favored by the mother, the old slave thought, the mother is now depressed, if there can be a few people who can speak with her, a lot of explanation, I am afraid that it will have some effect. ”

Pei Zhao listened quietly, and said lightly: "What you said is not unreasonable, just do it tomorrow." ”

Tong He hurriedly agreed, Duan Niang hesitated, and said softly: "Your Majesty, have you ever thought that if you tell Niangniang the truth, in fact, ...... It's not necessarily a bad thing......" She paused and continued: "Niangniang has a good heart, if something like this happens, she will definitely blame herself in her heart for failing to protect the princess, if she knows that this matter is actually because of the Su family's ......"

"No." Pei Zhao said coldly: "She values the Su family so much, if she knows that her family has harmed her to such an extent, how can she withstand such a blow?" There is no need to mention this matter again. ”

"But Your Majesty." Duan Niang said cautiously: "You love your mother, and you naturally want to take care of your mother all the time, but if you are a mother, isn't she as fragile as you think?" ”

Pei Zhao's hand paused, his heart was full of mixed feelings, heartache, resentment, pity and sorrow were intertwined, and after a long time, Fang sighed and said, "I will think about it." ”

On the second day, Tong He really went to the Rui Wangfu to announce the decree, announced Pei Zheng and his wife into the palace, and went to Jingchun Hall to invite Yun Shan over, Pei Mingben cried and wanted to stay by Su Ming's side, but Pei Zhao ordered him to go back to Zishantang to continue studying, and he had to wipe his tears out of the palace. The three of them took turns to talk to Su Ying in the warm pavilion, and when Pei Zhao came back, they retreated, and this was the case for several days, but Su Ying always sat quietly on the bed with her knees hugged and didn't say anything.

People who are a little closer know that Su Ying has always been very lively and laughing, but now she is like a walking corpse, dim and dazed, as if she is ignorant of everything around her, not to mention Meiniang and Yun Shan, even a few little Gong'e who are serving closely can't help but secretly wipe their tears, once happened to be bumped into by Pei Zhao, the little Gong'e was so frightened that her face turned white, but Pei Zhao didn't get angry, just said lightly: "Don't let her see." ”

From the day Su Ying woke up, he was this calm and calm appearance every day, Su Ying had not moved out of the warm pavilion, he listened to the court affairs in the Xuanzheng Palace, so he asked Yuan Lu to stay in front of the door, and went to report every half an hour, and when he got to the court, he immediately walked into the warm pavilion and stayed with her all day.

This warm pavilion is so small, it seems that it is so small that it can only accommodate the two of them, he sits on the edge of the bed with her, the palace people come to pass the meal, and after setting the table, he retreats lightly, he feeds her bite by bite, although she does not speak, but still eats very obediently, he even learned a few simple buns, after combing it clumsily, it is not ugly.

"Ah Ming, do you remember when I was in Lishan, I combed you a very ugly bun? You also know that my hands used to be just taming horse-drawn bows, and I have never done such a delicate thing, but I watched the palace ladies comb your hair, and I also learned some things, do you think it looks good? ”

She was still the same as in the pixel day, without saying a word, but he didn't feel sad, and still said with a smile: "The ancients always said that thrush is the first pleasure in the boudoir of husband and wife, I heard that there are many kinds of women's eyebrows, I don't know which one you like the most, I'll learn to paint it for you, okay?" ”

He stretched out his hand and slowly stroked her eyebrows, and said softly: "But you are already good-looking, even if you don't have eyebrows, you are beautiful." ”