"You don't want to stop Dad. This time, Dad has made up his mind to let you live a good life. Father said.

"Shanmei, you are the boss and the most worry-free one. Dad knows that you are caring and kind. Persuade your mother not to come to me. I'm fine. Father said.

"Dad, we won't stop you, but you have to tell us, where do you work, and what do you do? Let's rest assured! Song Shanmei said.

But the father said to himself: "Shanmei, when your father is away, you have to take care of your mother and your sister." ”

"Your sister is still young, and she is a little willful, and sometimes it is easy to get into the horns, so you should guide her more......" said his father.

"Actually, when Dad left, I really wanted to see you again and hug you again...... It's a pity ......," said my father.

Song Shanmei's heart was a little worried, and it wasn't life and death, how could her father say that? It's very uncomfortable.

Song Shanmei had a vague premonition, could it be that her father didn't want to drag them down just like a long time ago, so she didn't plan to come back?

"Dad, what are you talking about, aren't you coming back to see us?" Song Shanmei frowned and asked anxiously, "Also, I'm graduating soon, or on holidays, or on weekends, I can also go to see you, you can send me the address." ”

"Good-beauty, good boy." The father seemed to be laughing, "Don't look for me." Dad will send the money home every month. ”

Father seemed to choke up a little.

"Daddy loves you guys. Also, tell your mom that I love her. Father said.

Song Shanmei was anxious and said, "Dad, why do I think you are weird today?" What the hell is going on? You tell me, where you are, what are you going to do, I'll go to you now! ”

"Also, if you have anything to say to my mother, you go and tell her yourself, don't let me be a microphone!" Song Shanmei yelled anxiously.

"Dad, if you have anything, don't hide it from us! Is it good, is it good? Song Shanmei said eagerly.

However, on the other end of the phone, my father was silent.

"Shanmei, your mother and your sister, I won't call." The father was silent for a while, and then said, "I left a letter for the family, and pressed it under the pillow at the head of the bed. You tell your mom. ”

"Alright, I'm hanging." Father said.

Song Shanmei was anxious, "Dad, you wait!" That's not all there is to say yet! ”

On the other side, however, there was no sound.

Song Shanmei "fed" several times, until a busy tone came from the phone, and she didn't know that her father had hung up the phone.

Song Shanmei's heart sank to the bottom.

It's not right, it's definitely not right!

Between my father's words, it was as if it was a parting of life and death!

This feeling is really bad!

Song Shanmei only felt that her heart was up and down, and she hurriedly called her mother again, saying, "Mom, I just called my dad, don't worry." ”

"He said he left you a letter, and hid it under the pillow under the head of the bed, you can look for it." Song Shanmei said.

The mother was a little anxious, seemed to be trotting, panting, and said, "Shanmei, don't hang up the phone yet, Mom will look for it." ”

After a while, my mother's voice came from the other end of the phone: "Found it!" There really is faith! ”

"However, my mother doesn't know how to read......" my mother was a little anxious.

"Don't worry, I'll be right back." Song Shanmei said, as she spoke, hung up the phone, and stretched out her hand to stop a taxi.

From here, there is a distance of more than a dozen stations to her house, usually, she has never fought, but this time, she can't take care of much, so she has to be extravagant.

Normally, it takes an hour to walk, but this time, it took half an hour.

Song Shanmei hurriedly ran upstairs.

After seeing Song Shanmei, her mother's anxious mood seemed to ease slightly, and she hurriedly handed over the letter with a trembling hand.

It was a letter written on ordinary homework paper.

The handwriting is clean and powerful. It was my father's word.

Under the eager urging of her mother, Song Shanmei read it.

"Red Plum:

By the time you read this letter, I may have left home.

This is the only time in so many years that I have made a willful decision, and I am steadfast. This time, I want to make my own decisions. Please forgive me for not listening to you. Please also understand me and support me.

Speaking of which, I've treated you badly over the years.

I think back then, when you married me, you were a white and fat girl. But now, it is full of vicissitudes, white hair is full of sideburns, wrinkles, and hunched back. A pair of soft wattles have also become old branches.

The gentle and soft girl of the year has also become the rough woman she is today.

And, over the years, the only thing that hasn't changed is your true heart to me. ”

When Song Shanmei read this, her mother's wrinkled, dark face was flushed with a few invisible flushes, and she scolded embarrassedly: "Phew, this old and unscrupulous!" What are you saying these things for! ”

Song Shanmei continued to read.

"Hongmei, you may not know how much I love you.

At the beginning, I went to the countryside to come to your hometown, and in the crowd, at first sight, I took a fancy to you.

At that time, you were full of energy. The smile is brighter than the flowers. And the windblown blush on your face, which is also so cute.

I thought at the time, this girl is the partner I am looking for for a lifetime.

Despite my parents' objections, I insisted on marrying you. It's something I've never regretted. It is also the luckiest thing in my life.

Over the years, my love for you has grown unabated.

I was thinking, give you happiness.

However, the heavens did not fulfill people's wishes.

I am disabled and cannot give happiness to your mother and daughter. I wanted to give up and leave several times, but in the end, I couldn't give up on you and my children.

So, for so many years, I can only live like a man, and even, not like a person, just to stay by your side.

Only love, let me, support so many years.

I still love you today.

But I am old and dying. Looking back on my life, I lived like an ant, surviving for a long time, and I didn't contribute anything to society, let alone this family.

All of a sudden, I felt a sense of panic. I was afraid of myself, and I would die like that, leaving nothing behind.

This time, it's an opportunity.

When I was younger, didn't I learn Russian, and because I had a lot of free time, the Russian language was never wasted.

Cousin Song Weiguo, didn't he work in a coal mine in Shanxi, and the equipment they used was imported from Russia.

I heard that this time, for some reason, the equipment was a little malfunctioning, because I happened to know a little Russian, so let me go over and have a look.

Perhaps, to go to the mine. But don't worry, I'll take care of myself.

When the cause is found, I can communicate with the manufacturers in Russia and ask them to send technical experts to solve the problem.

Therefore, my job is very easy, just read the manual, communicate with others, you can rest assured, not tired, I can also handle it.

Moreover, they said that they would give me a salary of 2,000 yuan a month.

So, I went.

I know you're going to stop me from going. So, I had no choice but to say goodbye. Please also take care of yourself and take care of your children.

I love you.

- Love you, Song Yanqing. ”

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