"Do you know why only that year did the aunts get pregnant?" Shangguan Feng asked.

Shangguan Jingyu shook his head, "Ah Jing doesn't know." ”

"The last words your mother left me were that I had a son, but unfortunately I didn't have a chance." Shangguan Feng's eyes were slightly cold, "Your mother is a saint, and she only has two wishes in this life, one is to grow old with me, and the other is to have a son." ”

"Mother-like son?" Shangguan Jingyu lowered his eyes.

Shangguan Feng shook his head, "It's not that I like my son, but I want to avoid the entangled fate." As a saint, she naturally knows that the women of the saint family, no matter who they are, are very likely to become the next saints. So your mother doesn't want to give birth to a daughter, because she doesn't want to continue her fate to future generations. ”

Shangguan Jingyu frowned, "I was born in the Prime Minister's Mansion, so my mother doesn't have to worry about it at all." Why did my mother die? ”

"Because-" Shangguan Feng frowned and stared at Shangguan Jingyu, and finally sighed lightly, "Because her physique is different from ordinary people, she is not suitable for childbirth." Just like in Beizhao, the saint is just an object of worship and a symbol of blessing, so the Beizhao Emperor needs to use the saint to unify the hearts of the people. ”

However, the Emperor of Beizhao also tabooed the Holy Maiden, and the Holy Maiden clan relied on the name of the Holy Maiden to grow stronger, and the people's desire made the Emperor of Beizhao even more frightened. Therefore, it is not allowed for the saint to give birth, and all dynasties have taken the saint as the queen, but they all died childless. ”

"In addition to the factors of the saint herself, there is also the emperor of Beizhao. Your mother's physique is cold, and I don't know how many doctors she saw back then, but she was never able to get pregnant. Your mother didn't believe it, took a lot of medicine, and finally forcibly became pregnant by taking medicine. ”

Speaking of this, Shangguan Feng did not continue, but walked slowly outside, "Okay, let's get here!" You know it in your own heart, and I don't want you to be the second your mother. In my life, there are only a few people who can cherish it. Except for your mother, there is only one you left. ”

Shangguan Jingyu's eyes were red, and she suddenly understood why she had stayed with Xiao Dong for many years in her previous life, but she didn't have a son and a half daughter under her knees. It turned out that as fate would have it, she would not have children.

Unless she learns from her mother and fights with her life, she may be able to have a son and a half daughter.

But—is it possible?

Dad said that the chance of forcibly becoming pregnant is almost pitiful. What's more, even if you are pregnant, what if you give birth to a daughter?

Her heart was in turmoil, and she didn't know what kind of mood she should be in to face the bleak future.

The future of her and Xiao Dongli.

Shangguan Feng patted her on the shoulder, "With your mother below, there will be no more children in this backyard, and none of the women in this mansion will have children." It's not that Daddy is ruthless, Daddy doesn't want to lose you. Even if you're alone, Dad likes you to die of old age. I lost your mother and don't want to lose you again. You say that I am selfish or ruthless, I am a cold person, so naturally I only do cool things. ”

"The well water outside the study flows through the ice room, which keeps the ice room at a constant temperature, but when the well water flows back, it flows into the wells. Fuzhong relies on well water for laundry and cooking, so Dad's aunts will never be able to conceive Dad's child. Shangguan Jingyu turned his head to look at him, "Dad is so selfish, but—is it worth it?" ”

"It's worth it." Shangguan Feng took a deep breath, "As long as you live well, it's worth it." ”

"What else is Daddy hiding from me?" Shangguan Jingyu frowned, "Even if the well water flows through the ice room, even if the ice room is cold, it won't make people unable to get pregnant, right?" ”

Shangguan Feng's eyes were dark, "This, don't ask." ”

"What did Daddy add?" Shangguan Jingyu asked.

"I told you not to ask, didn't you understand? Knowing too much won't do you any good. Shangguan Feng stepped out of the door, "Since you're back, take a good rest at home." There are many rights and wrongs outside, and you go out less. ”

"Daddy!" Shangguan Jingyu caught up, "Where are you going?" ”

"Prepare to go to court tomorrow, and you should meet the second prince for a while, and see if you can see the emperor." Shangguan Feng's complexion was not very good.

Shangguan Jingyu was stunned, "Dad can't see the emperor?" ”

"What do you think?" Shangguan Feng raised his head, "Now the entire palace is full of people from the second prince." ”

"Then the emperor—" she frowned, "why hasn't the emperor moved?" ”

"My favorite son, if he really has such ability, why not be a father? It's just turning a blind eye! As long as the second prince does not move the heart of killing the king, the world is only afraid - sooner or later it will be his. Shangguan Feng brushed his sleeves and left.

Shangguan Jingyu's heart was suffocated, in this world, sooner or later, it will be the second prince?

So what he said to her in the pavilion last night will come true? Can you send troops, and whether the reinforcements can go to Youzhou, is it really just a thought of Xiao Dongming?

Subconsciously pursed his lips, Shangguan Jingyu walked out of the ancestral hall in a daze, the rain outside was still falling, and it was wet everywhere.

Under the Qingming rain, who will solve the cold of the year?

"Miss, what's wrong?" Su Yan stepped forward with an umbrella.

Shangguan Jingyu shook his head and got into the umbrella, "Go back!" ”

"I heard from the old man in the house that Miss's birthday is coming." Su Yan smiled, "Miss is happy, this is a big day once a year." ”

She paused, "Really? I almost forgot about it myself. After thinking about it, he said, "Su Yan, I want to go to the National Temple." ”

"Wherever the young lady goes, Su Yan will accompany her." Su Yan nodded, "It's just that Miss remembered to go to the National Temple?" It's raining, and it doesn't seem to be very convenient. ”

"I heard that there is a Bodhi tree in the temple, write your wish on red silk and tie it to the treetops, and your wish will come true. I was not very happy and wanted to pray for blessings. Shangguan Jingyu heard the sound of Suo Suo on the umbrella surface, and looked at the rain curtain in front of him with a very calm gaze.

Su Yan bowed, "Okay, I'll go prepare the car, let's go right away." ”

She didn't know what happened to Shangguan Jingyu, and at that time she knew that the young lady was uncomfortable. Wherever Miss wants to go, she will go, and she will follow Miss whenever and wherever she wants.

The carriage went to the national temple in the rain, and by the time I got there, it was already past lunchtime. Shangguan Jingyu didn't feel hungry either, and went directly to find the Bodhi tree.

The huge linden tree is covered with red silk, and its dense foliage hides the drizzle. The red silk danced in the wind and rain, and it looked like a red maple, which was blazing red.

Above, there are many people's hopes.

There are infatuated men and women, parents and children.

"Why do so many people believe this?" Su Yan was puzzled, "Didn't you say that it is better to seek Buddha than yourself?" ”

Shangguan Jingyu sighed lightly, "When people are desperate, they are powerless. Therefore, people will believe in God when they are desperate, but who should God believe when they are desperate? I don't know, God knows. ”

The little novice presented three pieces of red silk and placed them on the table.

After thinking about it, Shangguan Jingyu wrote down the first red silk wish: I wish Lang Jun Kang'an and return victorious.

Su Yan nodded, "Excellent." ”

Shangguan Jingyu smiled, and then wrote the second article: Hand in hand with you for a hundred years, the lotus seeds will eventually become pairs.

Su Yan was stunned, this is talking about Fleur.

The third is: The father is happy and smooth, and all the people in the world are at peace.

"Miss, what about your own?" Su Yan asked.

Shangguan Jingyu Wan'er, "This is all my wishes, and there is nothing else." ”

Su Yan frowned, held an umbrella, and followed Shangguan Jingyu to tie the red ribbon. The fluttering red silk carried her full of hope, hoping that the gods of heaven and earth would take a look, even if it was just a glance.

She stood under the tree for a long time, looking at the red silk hanging from the trunk of the tree, and stood still.

Not far away, Master Yiyan recited the phrase "Amitabha", and Shangguan Jingyu came back to his senses.

Seeing Shangguan Jingyu and Master Yiyan leaving, Su Yan asked Xiao Shami for a piece of red silk, and wrote a line on it following Shangguan Jingyu's appearance.

In the rainy weather, the trunk was a little slippery, and it took a lot of effort for her to tie the red silk to the top of the linden tree.

It is clearly written: I hope that the young lady and my aunt will be together for a hundred years, and the children and grandchildren will be full and share the family.

When I got off the tree, I was dirty, so I went to clean it up.

Fortunately, Shangguan Jingyu went to Master Yiyan's meditation room, and in this national temple, she was also at ease.

"Last time, the young lady came over, her face was full of sadness, and this time she came, it seems that there are only a lot more grievances." Master Yiyan's room is lit with incense, and the faint fragrance can make people calm down.

Shangguan Jingyu sat opposite him as always, pulling his lips but not smiling, "Master Eye." ”

"All things are causes, either iniquities or blessings, but some sins are to be repaid and some to be atoned for." Master Yiyan said lightly, "This is not the same thing as redemption. Can you understand the young lady? ”

Shangguan Jingyu bowed, "I know." ”

It's like she and Xiao Dongli are separated, even if it's a sin, it's used to pay it back.

And she and Fleur are used for ransom.

"The world is full of knowledge, but this person is sometimes not as confused. The so-called rare confusion, confusion is rare. Master Yiyan sighed lightly and turned the Buddha string in his hand, "There are some things that are good to not know, but it hurts to know too much." ”

Shangguan Jingyu nodded, "Yes, if you know too much, you won't be able to get over it in your heart." ”

"The people of the world are all so ambitious, and they are all far away and smelly. If an irrelevant person hurts you, you will not go to your heart, and if you are grateful, you will be grateful. But the closer the people are, they forget to cherish it, and they feel unforgivable when they get into the horns. But a lifetime is so long, you hate for a day, and love for a day. Master Yiyan shook his head, "What can't be forgiven?" Life is a process of reincarnation. Tormenting oneself year after year, taking revenge on oneself day after day, it is better to forgive others and let oneself go. ”

"Listening to the master's words is like an initiation." Shangguan Jingyu took a deep breath, "What some people can't let go of is not hatred, it's their own hearts. ”

Master Yiyan nodded, "It comes from the heart." If the heart is good, the face is good, and if the heart is evil, it will tolerate evil. It all depends on your own control, whether you advance or retreat, it is your own choice. ”

Shangguan Jingyu pursed his lips, "Thank you, Master." ”

"Every man has his own blessings, and you don't have to worry about everything. There are some things that are not destined to be solved by you. Master Yiyan poured a cup of tea, "Follow your heart, everything is worry-free, and there is no regret about success or failure." ”

She nodded, "Yes, I am a woman, and the world is beautiful, how can I deserve it because of this." The greater the hope, the greater the disappointment I fear. ”

"Look down on winning and losing, only then can you win and lose. Look down on the world, only to win the world. The things in this world have their own fixed numbers, and they cannot be reversed by human beings. Master Yiyan looked at Shangguan Jingyu kindly.

She frowned, her heart chuckling.

Own fixed number?

So what's her fixed number?

What is Xiao Dongli's fixed number?

Do you want to follow the original fixed number, the original old way? She died in the cold palace, and he ascended the throne as emperor? No, no, no, he doesn't want to be an emperor anymore, and she will never enter the palace again.

So what's the trick?

Look down on the world, only to win the world?

Shangguan Jingyu raised his head, "The meaning of the master's words is ......"

"Don't be persistent, let the joy and sorrow; Don't force it, let it be free; Don't forget it, a thought becomes a motto. Master Yiyan got up, "Just follow the fate." ”

When I walked out of the meditation room, the rain was still falling.

Su Yan walked quickly, "Miss, what did Master Yiyan say to you?" ”

"He's talking about Fleur, and he's talking about who I used to be." Shangguan Jingyu stretched out her hand, and the raindrops dripping from the eaves just fell on her palm, and the cool feeling made the corners of her lips rise slightly.

Feel free and make your own decisions.

Since there is a definite number for everything, why force it, why ask for it in vain, just go with your heart and love with your heart. As long as the heart is there, where is the end of the earth not their home?

As if he had figured out something, Shangguan Jingyu walked out of the national temple with a smile.

"Su Yan, let's go see Hibiscus!" She smiled.

Su Yan bowed, "Just let them cook a meal, I'm so hungry." ”

Shangguan Jingyu sneered, "Okay." ”

It's been a long time since I've been with Fleur.

By the time we returned to the Eastern Capital, the rain had stopped and it was wet everywhere. Su Yan knocked on the door of the courtyard, and the people inside were overjoyed, and saw Shangguan Jingyu hurriedly saluting.

"Where's Fleur?" Shangguan Jingyu asked when he entered the door.

Everyone hurriedly said, "Miss Furui is sitting in the room, and since Miss Suyan left, she has been sitting there in a daze without eating or drinking. None of us could persuade us, and the food was heated many times, and we didn't eat it at all. ”

Shangguan Jingyu frowned, "Make a new meal and send it to the room, for three people." ”

With that, she went straight into Fleur's room.

As Mama said, Fleur sat at the window, looking out of the window fixedly, and the whole person looked sad and not angry. The complexion is blue and yellow, and it is not at all as white and ruddy as before.

It is said that pregnant women think a lot, but it is true.

Shangguan Jingyu entered the door and called softly, "Furui." ”

Furao was stunned, and Mu Ne glanced back at her, and then slowly got up and walked over to salute.

"You don't have to salute, this is your place, you are the master, I am the guest, and the guest is as the lord pleases." Shangguan Jingyu hugged her and didn't teach her to salute, "You don't eat or drink, you're so haggard that I don't even know you." Is this still the same Fleur that used to be, or is it still my good sister Fleur? ”

Fleur just said stupidly, "Miss, sit down!" ”

Shangguan Jingyu frowned, held Fu Hui's cold hand, and pulled her to sit down together, "Are you feeling unwell?" It looks very bad. Even if you don't think about yourself, you should think about the child in your belly. ”

Speaking of children, Fleur just raised her eyelids and nothing else.

"Today, I went to the National Temple and met Master Yiyan. What he said to me made me feel very deeply. Shangguan Jingyu smiled, "Do you want to listen?" ”

Fleur didn't speak.

"If you don't speak, I'll take your acquiescence." Shangguan Jingyu clenched her cold hand, "Master Yiyan said that sometimes it's not hatred that traps people, it's yourself. Furao, I know that you love Fu Shaohong, and I also know that he loves you, and even he is going for you in this battle. You have to understand that if a man dares to fight for a woman, he doesn't want the world, but she alone. All Fu Shaohong wants is just you. ”

She looked at Shangguan Jingyu fixedly, her eyes were red, and there was still no expression on her face.

"This battle is dangerous, the outcome is unpredictable, do you know that Beizhao has 600,000 troops, and Dashuo has only 100,000 elite soldiers, what does this mean, you won't not understand, right?" When Shangguan Jingyu said this, he felt that his heart trembled.

Fleur's hand trembled.

This means that once the war starts, Fu Shaohong may die at any time.

Youzhou is thousands of miles away from the eastern capital, and it is difficult to reach thousands of miles.

If there is an accident, life and death are hard to see.

"Fleur, cherish the people around us, we can't afford to squander them. Love and hatred, in fact, to put it bluntly, is just between our thoughts, but between this thought, it may be regret for life. Shangguan Jingyu choked, "Forgive Fu Shaohong, just let yourself go." I'm sorry for you, it's the Fu family, but it's definitely not Fu Shaohong. Even if you have hatred in your heart, you must find out who you want to be, and don't let yourself regret it for the rest of your life. ”