Chapter 199 was just a matter of confusion at the time

"Suzanne used to be in the same school as me. But then I found out that she had transferred to our school. Jiang Haozhe said, "I haven't thought about it. ”

Later, after a long time, I overheard Susanna's sister say that Suzanne had been crying at home for a long time and had gone on a hunger strike for three days in order to go to the same primary school as me. In the past, she had always been a good girl who was obedient, and whatever her family said was what she wanted, but that time, she didn't compromise no matter what. ”

"Then, we went to elementary school, junior high school, high school, all the time together."

"Her academic performance is not as good as mine, I have always hovered in the top three in my age, while she is hovering in the top 120 or so, and sometimes, she will be a little further behind."

"I never thought she would go to the same university as me."

"I remember that when I was in the first semester of high school, she confessed to me and secretly sent me love letters."

"When I received those things, I didn't care at all, they just took it as a child's joke."

"I told her that I want to go to ** university, which is 211 and 985 universities, and is a first-class university in China."

"If she can get into that university, I might consider it." Jiang Haozhe said, "At that time, I was just half-joking. ”

"Because, with her score, it is okay to be admitted to a university in the province, but if you want to take the cross-provincial examination, other provinces will have score protection for students in this province, even if it is a university of the same level, she may not be able to get in. Not to mention that it is also a top-notch university. ”

"What I didn't expect was that she would see me less and less from now on, and she would become thinner and thinner. Sometimes, I can doze off while walking, and I often worry that she will hit the pillar. Jiang Haozhe said.

"At that time, I just thought that I was in high school, her studies were heavy, her physical fitness was poor, and she couldn't keep up, but I didn't expect that she worked hard in private." Jiang Haozhe said.

"Her bottom line results, better than one time at a time, almost by leaps and bounds, from the beginning of the junior college is still a little hanging, to later, the score is close to two, one, and then, it is a first-class university." Jiang Haozhe said, "At that time, in the last semester of the third year of high school, there were dark horses, but she was the only girl, and her progress was amazing." ”

"If you think about it, when she was just a freshman in high school, she was still hovering in the 120th grade, and later, she was even able to get into the top 20 in her grade. What an astonishing progress! Jiang Haozhe said.

"However, Rao is like this, and her score is still a certain gap from the university I want to apply for. The teachers persuaded her to find a similar local university and apply for it, but the province was in vain. ”

"However, she wants to apply to the university of my choice."

"Because she has a good art foundation and likes to paint since she was a child, she simply applied for art and oil painting, so that with her scores, it is more than enough to enter any school."

However, everyone thought she was stupid. Because, her score is too high, originally, she can apply for a good major. And for those who study art, basically the cultural classes are very poor. Everyone thinks she's a bit condescending to do this. ”

Teachers and classmates, as well as parents, took turns to do ideological work for her, but she just didn't want to let go. In her words, either she won't take the test, or she will apply for the exam as she wants. ”

"What I didn't know was that her dad, for that, slapped her several times. At that time, she came to school wearing a mask. Jiang Haozhe said.

"Later, I slowly and bit by bit learned this, and knew that everything she did was because of me."

"She likes me, she likes me so much that she can give up everything."

However, at that time, I didn't have the kind of feelings for her at all. I just think of her as a sister. ”

"When I went to college, even though it wasn't a major, she often came to me and said that she had done it and that she wanted me to keep her promises. I felt as if I was being forced to do so, and I felt very uncomfortable. ”

"Joke, can I be led by the nose? At that time, I was just a hairy boy who didn't know anything, and I had a little temper, so I confessed to a girl I liked more in the class and became boyfriend and girlfriend. ”

"Half of it is because I really like that type of girl, and the other half is probably because it is to make Suzanne break off her thoughts."

"To be honest, I'm a free person who doesn't like to be tied down, and Suzanne chases too hard, too urgently, which makes me feel a little suffocated."

"What I didn't expect at all was that Suzanne didn't give up at all, on the contrary, it inspired her to be jealous and motivated. I had a feeling that, in Susanna's eyes, I already belonged to her, her personal property, and she had to declare war on everyone and declare sovereignty. ”

"Then, she used a little trick to anger my girlfriend, and also, made me feel scared and disgusted."

"I feel that I have been greatly insulted, and I have never seen her again."

"Then, my days gradually quieted down."

"There is no more girl chasing after me, calling me brother, and there is no more girl looking at me with such adoring, persistent, and crazy loving eyes, eager to rub my life and her life together."

"I don't know why, the longer we separate, the more I miss her."

"There are a lot of girls chasing me, but none of them really make me moved."

"Over the years, I've wondered if something went wrong between me and her. Obviously, when I was a child, I had a good relationship, and I couldn't separate for a moment. ”

"I still remember the moments I got along. Her friendship with me is not half adulterated. I can't find a girl who loves me as much as she does. ”

"I think I must be crazy, how do I always think of her. I tried to restrain myself. However, the more suppressed that emotion, the more you want to get out of control. ”

"I finally understood that I was in love with her, and I loved her no less than she loved me."

"Later, you showed up, and I did think of you as her at first."

"However, later, your every move, word and deed showed that you and her are two people at all."

"I'm just guessing, if you're not her, then the girl I saw in the newspaper, the girl who married the Pei family's son, is her."

"There is a voice, in the bottom of my heart, telling me: In your life, you will never want to see her again! You've lost her forever! ”

"I'm so scared that it's true, so I've been making a fool of myself." Jiang Haozhe said, smiling bitterly, "Now, you have punctured my last bit of fantasy, really." ”

Song Sun-mei sighed and didn't say anything.

If you miss it, you miss it. What else can be said? Continuing to live in the past?

"Suzanne must be doing well now." Song Shanmei opened her mouth and said, "She should have found what she wanted." ”

"Pei Shengyang is a very good man, so even if he is like this now, she will never abandon him."

"If it were me, Suzanne would definitely be with me." Jiang Haozhe smiled bitterly.

Song Shanmei frowned slightly, "What nonsense, Director Jiang, you are so dignified, say these depressing words!" ”

"The past is gone, what do you want it to do? People always have to look forward. ”

"People have to look forward......," Jiang Haozhe muttered, a tear rolled out of his eyes, "If there is such a girl again, I won't let go of her hand easily." ”

Song Shanmei let out a long sigh of relief. Somehow, she also felt that her heart was blocked.

People, sometimes it's so cheap, what is lost is always the best.

Why can't we look ahead? Why do you always live in memories?

Perhaps, the view from the front is better. And those who have been looking behind will miss the scenery in front of them again, and then, every time, they will live in regret, constantly regretting, regretting. A vicious circle is formed.

Song Shanmei raised her head and looked at the sky. On the horizon, the sun is slanting to the west, dyeing half of the sky red, and some places have turned purple, and the clouds close to the sun are also inlaid with a gold edge, which is very beautiful.

Song Shanmei breathed a sigh of relief, smiled slightly, looked at the clouds in the sky, and said, "Look, the clouds in the sky are so beautiful!" ”

Jiang Haozhe also raised his head, and he saw the colorful clouds in the sky. He was stunned for a moment, shocked by the beauty of the sky.

To be honest, he has been busy from school to work, and he has never stopped to enjoy the beauty around him.

It's like it's the first time.

He never discovered that the surroundings, even the most ordinary, things that he turned a blind eye to, could be extremely beautiful.

"It's beautiful." He said.

On the horizon, a flock of birds flew over and soon disappeared into the sky.

"It's not just the clouds that are beautiful." Song Shanmei said, "In life, there are still many beautiful things. It's just that people often turn a blind eye. ”

"You're right." Jiang Haozhe nodded.

"So, why don't you take a good look around, what you want, maybe around." Song Shanmei said.

Jiang Haozhe's gaze fell on Song Shanmei's body, his face flushed slightly, he laughed, and said, "Are you talking about you?" ”

"What is me?!" Song Shanmei also blushed and frowned, "In the hospital, there are so many little girls who love you!" Isn't that all about wandering around you? You don't want to give anyone a response......"

"For example, Dr. Yang Min ......," Song Shanmei said.

"Forget Yang Min, I don't like that type of girl." Jiang Haozhe said with a smile.

"You're right, I should live in the present, not in the past. My gaze should also stay on the people and things around me. Jiang Haozhe said. What I have lost, I can't get back, but, what exists, I should cherish. ”

"Yo, one set at a time, it's quite philosophical!" Song Shanmei smiled, "Figured it out?" ”

"Hmm." Jiang Haozhe smiled slightly, stretched out his hand, and grabbed Song Shanmei's hand, "I like you, not because you are like anyone, but, because you are you." ”

"Don't make jokes, I'll take it seriously." Song Shanmei smiled and withdrew her hand.

Always living in the shadow of Susanna, it's really embarrassing.

Hey, why do you want to do so much, it's like Director Jiang said, she is her, and no one can replace her.

"I'm not kidding." Jiang Haozhe said, and suddenly knelt on one knee on the ground, grabbing Song Shanmei's hand, "Shanmei, I like you." From the moment you entered the hospital, I started to notice you and liked you. ”

Song Shanmei smiled, "Are you sure that you don't like Suzanne in your memory, but me?" Or, who do you think of me as a substitute? ”

"No, it's not. I think it's you who I like. Jiang Haozhe said.

"That's not convincing at all." Song Shanmei withdrew her hand, "When do you really understand your heart, let's talk about it." ”

Jiang Haozhe stood up, his face was a little dignified. "I'll figure out my heart." He said.

"Okay," Song Sun-mei glanced at the sunset again, turned her head and showed a sweet smile at Jiang Haozhe, "Let's go home." It's getting late. ”

"Okay, I'll take you home." Jiang Haozhe said.

Song Shanmei did not refuse.

The place where she lives is not far from the hospital, and she can go back in a few minutes. Along the way, Song Shanmei and Jiang Haozhe walked side by side, but they still maintained a certain distance.

She did not refuse Jiang Haozhe's kindness. She was thinking, the man in front of her must have good looks, academic qualifications, work ability, good family conditions, and good character, isn't he a perfect candidate?

It's been three years, Pei Shengyang has been married for three years, and the children are more than two years old, is it necessary for her to wait any longer?

Isn't she, really supposed to think about herself?

Along the way, the two of them have their own hearts.

Jiang Haozhe was thinking, who did he love?

In the past, the care for Susanna, and the guilt and longing after separation, was it because of love, or because of something else?

Now, at the first glance of Song Shanmei, he likes her, does he like her face like Susanna, or is it Song Shanmei who he likes?

He doesn't know, he really can't tell.

The two look too similar. If there are some similarities between the two people, he may be able to figure out what his heart thinks, right?

Or perhaps, when he really meets Susanna, Suzanne and Song Sunmei, both of whom are standing in front of him, he will be able to make the right choice.

So, it's really early to propose.

He must, be accountable to himself and to others.

It's just that he is so scared that he hesitates again and will miss it again. He was so scared that he would even lose the girl in front of him.

When he arrived at the door, he ended his thoughts, raised his head, and looked at Song Shanmei.

"I'm leaving, you should go home early." Song Sun-mi was smiling.

He looked at the familiar smile, and suddenly, his heart felt sour.

He suddenly stepped forward and hugged Song Shanmei very tightly. It took a long time for him to let go of his hand, bow his head, and say, "Go back, I'll just stand here, waiting for you to go." You go, I'll go again. ”

Song Shanmei was stunned. She didn't know if the man in front of her, who was full of complicated feelings just now, was it because of her or someone else?

It doesn't matter anymore, though. That's right, Suzanne is already married, the children are all born, what else is important?

In the past, it was just a painting drawn on paper, and when the wind blew, it would shatter.

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