Chapter 200: I want to say I love you

I want to say I love you.

However, that sentence choked in his throat, and he didn't say it at the time, but now, he can't say anything.

Jiang Haozhe feels this way, why not Song Sunmei?

Fortunately, who doesn't have a past, who doesn't have an unforgettable first love?

Memory, just let it be buried in the bottom of the heart forever, become a precious memory that will not be excavated, don't touch it, isn't it?

It's actually good to find someone who doesn't love you so much and doesn't love you that much.

As long as it's appropriate.

It can be seen that Jiang Haozhe is a man in charge, and she is not a woman who lets go of herself. If the two of them get married, they will definitely be harmonious, respect each other, concentrate on the family, and will not have extramarital affairs, isn't it good?

Just when Song Sun-mi was preparing her mind, Kang Hao-chul was also reflecting on herself.

The bystanders are clear, and the authorities are confused. This is not true at all. Now, Jiang Haozhe feels that he is confused.

He felt that he should take a break and calm down. He had to figure out who he loved.

He lay down all night and thought for a long time. However, this kind of thing, just by thinking about it, you can't understand it.

Jiang Haozhe felt that it was necessary for him to find time to meet the real Susanna.

If nothing else, just to determine your feelings. If he really loves Susanna, then he must stay away from Suzanne and Song Sun-mi, and completely forget about the past.

And, if he loves Song Shanmei, then he can chase her wholeheartedly without any burden.

In a daze, Jiang Haozhe was thinking again, how could there be two people who looked so similar in this world?

Could it be that the two of them are related by blood?

However, looking at Susanna's family and Song Shanmei's family, their parents seem to love their daughters, and no one seems to have picked them up......

Jiang Haozhe thought so and fell asleep.

Life is still like this, Jiang Haozhe finally didn't have the courage to go to Susanna. Moreover, he did not want to go.

Not because he doesn't want to face the past, but because he is afraid of trouble. He didn't want to bother Suzanne either.

It's been five years, they haven't seen each other for five years, and after they meet, what else can they say?

In the past five years, Suzanne has been doing well, has she missed him again? Or do she feel that she has found a good home?

Or ask, how is her husband, how are the children?

No, he shouldn't have taken the initiative to see her at all. Whatever happened before, it's all in the past. Suzanne already had a family and children, and he could no longer disturb her mind, make her sad and miserable.

Is she really happy?

No, maybe the answer isn't.

At least, she's hard work. I don't know if her husband has improved?

If he recovers completely, then Suzanne can be said to be happy; But what if he's still unconscious in bed?

Jiang Haozhe didn't dare to think about it.

He was afraid that the woman who had loved him deeply and that he had already realized that life would not be satisfactory. Even more afraid, all this is due to him.

He knew deep down that the chances of a vegetative person in a coma due to trauma were extremely slim to come to his senses and return to normal.

Therefore, he dared not think about it even more. He felt that he was like an ostrich that would only run away when he was in danger.

Yes, if he doesn't run away, what should he do now?

She is no longer the girl who always follows him, following in the same steps, shouting "brother" with adoring and adoring eyes.

So, forget about what should be forgotten.

Hopefully, she's all right.

He should also start a new life of his own.

Jiang Haozhe is more enthusiastic and tirelessly devoted himself to his work. Every day, I was exhausted and tired, and I fell asleep when I got home. He didn't have the leisure to think about anything else.

And the physical examination of his body also showed that it was negative every time. This kind of physical examination will last for a full nine months before it can be finally determined whether the last medical exposure accident has affected him.

Even now, though, the picture is very rosy.

People who have experienced a test of life and death can learn to think and cherish more.

Kang Ho-chul is like that. Now, he cherishes everything around him immensely.

For example, Song Shanmei, who stays by his side every day and works together. Every time he sees Song Shanmei, even if he doesn't speak, he feels at ease.

Perhaps, true love does not need to be expressed in words, it seems to be weak, but it is far-reaching and long.

True love does not need to be unforgettable and vigorous, as long as two people can stay together for a lifetime with peace of mind, it is enough.

For example, "When she's around, she'll be at ease." "That's it.

They are both interdependent and independent of each other.

Unlike the Lingxiao flower, it will only entangle, cling, and cannot leave the tree, and it will die if it leaves;

It's like two big trees growing next to each other, both of which can stand independently against the wind, sheltering from the wind and rain and casting shade.

Yes, that's right, the love he wants is like this, independence, having free space, and supporting each other, interdependence, indispensable.

That's completely different from Suzanne's love.

Susanna's love was like a restraint around his neck, too tight to suffocate him; It was as if he was bound hand and foot, so that he could not move freely; It's like sticking to his kraft candy all the time, making him lose his independent personality and dignity.

Therefore, from knowing each other since childhood to separation, so many years of entanglement have not been able to move him.

And, the concern after the breakup, perhaps, on the one hand, is only because he treats her as a sister and gets used to it, so he will be concerned; On the other hand, maybe it's because of guilt.

After all, those things that happened had a great impact on his heart, and it was difficult for him not to forget it.

Later, he thought of something, so he went to find her. It's a pity that she had already moved out of school at that time, and he didn't know where she had moved, so he couldn't find her.

Suzanne is that kind of girl. Since she has the scheming and courage to do something like that, she must not simply go to bed and be done.

She will definitely leave a killer weapon and threaten him with what he fears most.

So, that time, no safety measures were taken, and besides, she should have calculated the days and was in the danger period. The possibility of pregnancy is very high.

He didn't contact her for months after that incident. He changed his phone, blacked out all her contact information, and discarded it.

At that time, he was dizzy, where was he still in the mood to think about this?

However, after going too far, he calmed down, but the more he thought about it, the more scared he became.

In addition, Suzanne left the school, and he was even more uneasy, thinking that his guess had come true.

He had already made up his mind, no matter what, if Suzanne was pregnant, he would definitely be responsible. However, he didn't expect that when he went to look for her, the building was already empty.

Later, he finally saw her on the side of the street one time, however, she was accompanied by another man. Even a fool can see that the man, when he looks at her, his eyes are full of love.

He just stepped back and didn't come forward to say hello.

So, it has been five years since that farewell.

Jiang Haozhe's memories are so much. He doesn't know if he is a scumbag, just like Dr. Zhou said. He only felt that he had asked himself that he had never done anything against his conscience except for Susanna.

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