Chapter 14: Disappointment
"I don't know, and I don't know." Su Mu denied it, as if she had forgotten that she had sworn that Su Qian had been ghosted. "You are obviously born to me in October, and I raised it with hard work, why is it not my daughter? Why don't we have anything to do with each other? Su Mu burst into tears, I don't know if she suddenly had maternal love for Su Qian, or out of guilt for Su Qian over the years, or simply didn't want to believe that Su Qian, who was at her mercy, disappeared.
Su's mother also poured maternal love into Su Qian, and she was also a gentle mother. It was when Su Jie was not yet born, the joy of being a mother for the first time made Su's mother take careful care of Su Qian, she maintained Su Qian in front of her mother-in-law, and silently felt sorry for Su Qian in her heart, she took care of Su Qian in every way, and she also treated Su Qian like a jewel, but all this came to an abrupt end at the moment when Su Qian was born. After the birth of her longing son, Su's mother shifted her focus to Su Jie little by little, and gradually ignored Su Qian. At first, she only occasionally ignored Su Qian and forgot that she had a daughter waiting for her to take care of, and then as Su Qian grew up, she would habitually ignore Su Qian, and then because of the psychology of wanting to give her son all the good things, Su's mother's psychological burden became heavier and heavier, and her temper became irritable, and Su Qian became an object for her to vent, at first she scolded, all kinds of ugly words and vicious words were said to Su Qian, and then she was beaten, and Su Qian still felt guilty when she did it the first few times, but after a long time, Su Qian was cowardly and did not dare to resist, Su Mu had no worries, and she became more and more ruthless every time, and finally became what Su Qian was when she was just reborn, beating and scolding at every turn, and taking dominating Su Qian as a matter of course.
Sometimes the poor really have something to hate. For example, Su Qian, who knew that she should resist, always suffered silently, and in the end, no one took her seriously.
When Su Qian saw Su's mother's tearful appearance, she suddenly felt a little sad and astringent, and wanted to cry, but she couldn't be soft-hearted, couldn't compromise and couldn't give up, otherwise everything would return to the original point, back to the trajectory of her previous life, she knew this very well in her heart. "Su Qian, you can't be soft-hearted, isn't it because you weren't ruthless enough in your previous life, you were soft-hearted when they said a few soft words, and they pretended to be pitiful and you couldn't wait to give them everything, how could you end up like that in the end? People say that you grow wisdom after eating a trench, and you have suffered so many losses on them, why don't you have a long memory? You deserve to be played around by others in your previous life. Su Qian almost relented, but fortunately, at the critical moment, she woke up in her heart and prevented herself from being stupid.
Su Qian sorted out her mood, looked directly at Su Mu with both eyes, looked at Su Mu, smiled slightly, and said to Su Mu with a strong sense of irony: "Are you really not clear in your heart? You should know that your daughter disappeared on the night you forced her to go to the graveyard. For the sake of a piece of jade, you should think about the consequences when you force her to go to the cemetery regardless of her life or death, right? Su Qian paused and said, "You obviously know that the cemetery is far away from the village, and the road is rugged, so you let her go alone when the lights are blind, not to mention that there is no one there, aren't you afraid that she has any other dangers?" Tears were about to overflow her eyes, and Su Qian used all her strength to force it back, "What? You have nothing more to say? You don't ask how the jade ended up there, you believe everything Su Jie says, and you don't care about Su Qian's life or death, so why pretend to be heartbroken now, who to show it? The Su Qian who is at your mercy does not exist, the fool who couldn't find the north after being fooled by your few words disappeared, and you sent her away with your own hands, so now there will be no one like her who seems to be a fool and agrees to everything because of your few words, you don't have to pretend in front of me, I am not her, and I will not be soft on you. After Su Qian finished speaking, she put the dishes and chopsticks on the table, got up and left. She was afraid that she would be soft-hearted if she couldn't control herself, afraid that she would cry if she couldn't control herself, and even more afraid that she would still be stupid involuntarily even though she knew that she was married.
Su's mother was stunned, and a string of tears hung on her face, looking very funny. "Bang" is the sound of something being swept to the ground, "Bang" is the sound of Su Mu sliding to the ground, this "pop" seems to fall in Su Qian's mind, constantly echoing, making her feel uneasy, this "bang" seems to be smashed in Su Qian's heart, stirring her heart upside down, and her heart is uneasy. Su Qian still couldn't hold back and turned around.
Su Mu sat slumped on the ground, and the six gods muttered to herself, "How can this be?" I didn't mean to, I just, I just didn't expect it to be like this. "People are always like this, never feel that it is their own fault, and use a sentence that is not intentional to cover up their mistakes.
"I'm soft-hearted again." Su Qian laughed at herself in her heart, sometimes Su Qian really wanted to slap herself twice, so as not to lose her memory again and again.
"It's just an excuse that you don't care about her. If it were Su Jie, would you be willing to let him go? If it were Su Jie, would you force him to go recklessly? Su Qian's heart was as clear as a mirror, but the clearer she was, the more sad she became. said that he didn't care, but he made up his mind not to care, but how could blood and family affection be so easy to give up? How can you easily let go of the long-awaited expectations?
"It's not like that!" Su Mu excitedly denied it. "I love her too. She was conceived in October, how could I not love her? Su Mu tried her best to defend herself. Even if she doesn't like Su Qian anymore, she still has a little bit of feelings.
"Really? Maybe it's love. Su Qian asked in a low voice, not knowing whether she was asking Su Mu or herself. A sentence may be full of bitterness, uncertainty and lack of confidence.
"I really love her, I just usually have a bad temper and scold her more, but I love her as much as Su Jie in my heart, I never thought of letting her ......" Su Mu's expression was already a little crazy, like a demon. Is it the disbelief that Su Qian disappeared, or is it too sad because of Su Qian's disappearance? Who knows?
Su Qian didn't want to listen to it anymore, and there was no need to listen to it anymore.
Su Qian crossed the threshold, looking sad and lost, more should be disappointed. "Are you still defending yourself?" Su Qian was very disappointed in Su's mother.
Just when Su Qian's figure was about to disappear, Su Mu shouted loudly at her back, "I really love her!" ”