"At that time, the two of them fell in love at first sight, they held a wedding in the countryside, and they did not notify any relatives and friends, only a few neighbors came to celebrate, and their teammates who went to the countryside with them." Pei Shengyang said.

"I heard my mother say that my father's family composition is not very good, my grandfather and great-grandfather are both landlords, there was a revolution at that time, the family wealth was scattered, and the poor couldn't even wear pants."

"Because my grandfather and great-grandfather were enlightened landlords, they were usually very kind to tenants, they helped and supported the party during the revolution, rescued the wounded, and responded positively during the agrarian revolution and took the initiative to hand over the land and family property, so I was able to save my life."

"In my father's generation, he became a poor person with nothing, and because of the situation at that time, he was more or less implicated."

"At that time, you talked about everything you did, if you didn't have good ingredients, you wouldn't be able to do anything, you did more than others, you got less than others, and no girl was willing to marry."

"But my mother, despite the dissuasion of the people around her, married my father without hesitation, just because she believes in love."

"When my mother married my father, he didn't even have a grass room, because my father was still a high Chinese person, so he had been teaching and being a teacher on the team, so the team gave a firewood room, and the horses raised next door were smelly."

"After cleaning it up, I built an earthen kang again, and it was used as a wedding room for the two of them."

"My mother is a girl from the city, and she has never suffered like this, but with my father, she is willing to work hard, no matter how tired she is." Pei Shengyang said and drank another glass of wine.

"The two of them, that is, at that time, had me." Pei Shengyang said.

"My dad also loves my mom very much, he cherishes it very much, the woman who followed him when he was at his most down," Pei Shengyang said, "He spoiled her in the palm of his hand." ”

"Later, my mother went back to the city and tried to bring my dad to the city as well, and my dad gave up his teaching career and started a business for my mom."

"To be honest, he has a great talent for business, and the business is getting bigger and bigger, and his life is getting better and better."

However, the time he spent with my mother became less and less, from going out early and returning late at the beginning, to not returning home at night. Every time my mom complained, he said that he had to socialize, and he couldn't help it. ”

"My mom gradually started to suspect that my dad had someone outside. However, my dad didn't admit it, but said that my mom was vexatious. ”

"Later, my mother complained a lot, so he had a big fight with my mother, and then slept in a separate room."

"Since then, the two of them have started a cold war, and my dad comes back late every time, doesn't say anything, and sleeps with his head down."

"And my mother, from the beginning of the complaint to the anger and tantrum later, did not exchange for my father's change of heart, on the contrary, he was even more cold to my mother, and he came back later."

"Later, he said he was going on a business trip, and at first he didn't come back for a week, but then it became a month at a time, or even longer."

"And at that moment, my mother's face began to deteriorate, and she became less energetic than before."

"She would often sit on the bed in a daze, looking out the window in a daze, and sometimes when I came back from school, she would come back to her senses and smile at me, showing a desolate smile."

"Later, she stopped saying anything, stopped crying, stopped losing her temper, stopped asking for companionship and love." Pei Shengyang said and drank another glass of wine. This bottle of wine bottomed out again, so Pei Shengyang beckoned again and asked the waiter to take a bottle.

"She put all her mind on her work and her company for me." Pei Shengyang said.

"But then, I was a little scared to go home."

"Because, I found that the way my mother looked at me was a little unusual, it was not like looking at her son, but like looking at her lover."

"She became extraordinarily doting on me, personally serving me food, serving me vegetables, her tone was full of tenderness and smiles, even when she was sleeping, she would sit silently beside me, secretly tucked the quilt for me, and accompanied me all night." Pei Shengyang said, with an expression on his face that he didn't know whether to cry or laugh.

He drank another glass of wine. Song Shanmei felt that he was drunk, and reached out to press it, but was blocked by him.

"I am a little scared, a little scared, and a little disgusted by her change."

"I think she's crazy. She must have treated me as her lover and my father. Pei Shengyang said, "Because, when I washed my face one morning, I looked in the mirror and suddenly found that I and my father looked so similar!" ”

"You know what? My heart sank to the bottom, and my heart was filled with disappointment, fear, disgust, and anger, and I took all this anger out on my father, because if it weren't for him, how could my mother be crazy? ”

"Since then, I don't want to look in the mirror anymore, I don't want to come back early, every time, I have to stay at the school until the school lights are turned off and I don't leave."

"Every time I go home, I stand downstairs, and if I see that the lights are still on, I don't go up, and I keep wandering under the street lamps downstairs,"

"At that time, I felt so lonely and desolate."

"I really want to have a happy family like everyone else. I envy others and I envy others. I often get myself caught up in memories, when I was a child, when my family was full of laughter. ”

"Because, only then, is when I am the happiest."

"However, I didn't notice at all, and my mother's face was even worse, because when I came home, I wouldn't even look up and look at her. I don't look at her face, I don't answer her, I don't pay attention to her, she tries to hug me several times, but I don't give her any physical contact. ”

"Later, my mom started coughing, and at first, I thought she had a cold and didn't pay much attention to it."

"However, she kept coughing, coughing like nothing, sometimes gasping slightly, and seemed to be getting weaker and weaker."

"Although I hated her in my heart, I couldn't help but care, so I went to the pharmacy and bought her a box of Chinese medicine, Ten Great Tonic Pills. The owner of the pharmacy said that it is good for qi and blood, and all diseases can be cured. Pei Shengyang said, "I think again, she is a doctor herself, and she should take care of herself." ”

"I put the box in the most obvious place in the house, and later, when I came home from school, I found that she hadn't touched the box at all."

"Every day, before I leave school, I will take a look at the box of medicine, and when I come back, I will go to see the box of medicine as soon as possible," Pei Shengyang said, "The second day or the third day, I finally found that the box of medicine was opened, and a big pill inside was missing." ”

"That's when I was relieved." Pei Shengyang said.

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