Song Shanmei laughed, "What's wrong with everything, is it so difficult to fall in love?" ”

"One by one, I want to be tested. Don't worry, I'm a kind, strong, hard-working girl, someone has tested it for you. Song Shanmei said.

Pei Shengyang frowned slightly, didn't answer, he said, "I'll go out to smoke a cigarette." ”

After saying that, he walked out.

Song Shanmei looked at his back, and the smile on her face disappeared. Her mood is also heavy. She remembered again that Pei Shengyang shouldn't smoke, because there was no smell of smoke on his body at all, but a special, good-smelling smell, very light and charming.

"As the boss of the Black Society, you don't smoke!" Song Shanmei flattened her mouth and complained.

Pei Shengyang walked out of the emergency ward and walked out of the building. He went to the commissary, bought a box of cigarettes, and, in the yard, found a place, squatted on the ground, lit a cigarette.

"Ahem, ahem!" Soon, he was surrounded by pale cyan smoke, and his choked eyes were about to burst into tears.

At this time, a young doctor passed by him, and then, stopped.

Pei Shengyang glanced down at his feet in black leather shoes, then saw his white coat, and then saw his face.

It was the doctor I met in the inpatient department that day, Director Jiang.

"Why are you smoking here?" Director Jiang frowned, asked, looked around again, and didn't see the figure he was expecting, so he said, "What about Susanna?" ”

"Susanna?" Pei Shengyang suddenly remembered that when he first met Dr. Jiang, Dr. Jiang called him Song Shanmei.

"Hehe......" Pei Shengyang laughed again and whispered to himself: "Susanna, Susanna...... Don't even tell me your name, really ......."

"What's wrong? You two have an awkward relationship? Dr. Jiang asked with a frown.

"Nope." Pei Shengyang replied coldly. No one knows how cold his heart is, and the cold is about to shrink into a ball.

Never had such a painful feeling, never!

Is this what it feels like to be in love?

Brothers don't often say that the feeling of being in love is as sweet as honey, why, it will be so painful?

"Why are you in the hospital? Is Suzanne sick? Director Jiang asked again.

"It's none of your business." Pei Shengyang had a cold face and stood up. If it weren't for the darkness, I could see the depressed expression on his face that wanted to cry.

It was a rainy expression.

The expression on Director Jiang's face also became very bad, he gritted his teeth, endured not getting angry, and said: "Since Suzanne is your girlfriend now, no matter what she has done in the past, no matter what her temper is, please tolerate her and be kind to her." ”

"She's a sensitive, desperate girl for love." Director Jiang said, "Once you fall in love, you will be stupid to death." Even knowing that he was deceived and toyed with, he would willingly give his life for the other party. ”

"It's like a fish can't live without water, it can't do without love. Not a minute is inseparable. Director Jiang said.

"I hope you can be nice to her and love her a little more, really." Director Jiang said, "Only people who love her enough can lift the spell on her." With that, he took a step and left.

Pei Shengyang was left alone, messy in the wind.

A sensitive and complex, hurt girl?

Pei Shengyang couldn't connect this evaluation with the Song Shanmei he knew.

I really was, I had never been in love, but I suddenly fell in love at first sight, and I didn't even know who the other party was, what kind of person it was, or even what its name was.

It's ridiculous to keep saying love.

People say that people in love are fools, and they can't be fooled.

Does he need a complex girl who regards love as life, melancholy, neurotic, suffering from gains and losses, not firm, not brave, not open-minded, to be his wife?

Can a person like him, with such an identity, give her such a girl, happiness and stability?

No, he can't.

He can't accompany her anytime and anywhere, coax her, make her happy, can't satisfy any of her little willfulness, can't spoil her like a princess.

His love can only be the lowly part that is divided, the pitiful part that is few.

And she, on the other hand, needs more, more than an ordinary girl.

In this matter alone, there can be no balance and reciprocity. Even if, both of them are trying, the relationship will break down sooner or later.

This is the conclusion reached by Pei Shengyang's rational analysis.

He had to let go, and this girl was not for him.

However, emotionally, he felt that he couldn't let go.

The most painful thing for people is the inconsistency between rational and emotional analysis. It was as if two people were fighting, one was pulling him eastward, and the other was trying to drag him west. His flesh and body were dragged to pieces.

Pei Shengyang sat on the ground with red eyes, smoking cigarettes one after another.

The smoke was constantly diffusing around him, and it was constantly spreading. It was as if he was enveloped in him.

He kept coughing, coughing until his lungs hurt, but he was still pumping desperately.

Smoking did not bring him a fleeting pleasure or a little comfort. It only makes his brain sluggish and slows down; Let his heart settle down a little.

He didn't know what to do.

He liked the girl so much. He had to make the most careful considerations and the most difficult choices.

He thought about it for a long time before deciding to come down.

He stood up and snuffed out the last cigarette butt. Then, pick up all the cigarette butts, throw them in the trash, and then walk inside.

After finally making a decision, his mood relaxed. Even the pace has become lighter.

Yes, his choice is not to give up.

Either way, she was the girl he liked at first sight. He can't just give up halfway and give up lightly.

No matter how rough the road ahead is, no matter how difficult it is, whether it is full of thorns and bumps, or whether it will break your head and bleed in the future, it will be in the future.

If he doesn't act, he will regret it now.

And take action, even if the result is bad, he will not regret it, and he has no regrets.

Because it will be a valuable lesson in his life, and it will also be a good memory for him. Even if he falls and falls badly, as long as he lives, he can still get up. He will always have hope to pursue his own happiness.

If we say, everyone will take some detours in life. So, what's so special about him to take some shortcuts?

At the very least, he has no regrets at the moment.

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