In November of the thirteenth year of Shunzhi, the Queen Mother 'wanted' to go to the Wanchen Temple on the outskirts of Beijing to make incense, I had to follow the 'waiting' as usual, Shunzhi had been sticking to me very tightly this month, knowing that I wanted to go out of the palace with the Queen Mother, I had to go to the Queen Mother to say that I had to go to the Queen Mother, but I had a nose of ash.

As soon as he returned to Kunning Palace, he complained: "What kind of incense do you go in on a cold day?" I said amusedly, "Don't you go every year?" Didn't I see you complaining so much? "He took me,

"You're gone, what should I do?" I patted him on the cheek,

"Ten days at the least, half a month at the most, and I'll be back." It's like a spoiled child.

"And...... You stay in Kunning Palace for two months, and you have to ...... Go elsewhere. I was extremely reluctant to say this.

Shunji looked at me with a frown,

"Did the emperor tell you something?" He said angrily: "I don't understand, she used to be annoyed that I ignored you, and now I spoil you, and she is not satisfied." I shook my head, what did the Queen Mother say to me, she looked at me, and I understood, she was not dissatisfied, she just wanted to balance the harem more.

I kissed his face lightly,

"You are my husband, as a 'woman', I don't want to share you with anyone, but you are the emperor, as the queen, I have to do this, there are many 'daughters' of important ministers in the court among the palace concubines, only by connecting them with the royal family into a community of common prosperity and loss, they will be more loyal to you, will make the imperial power in your hands more stable. These...... You know better than I do. "I'm really crazy, but I have to be crazy, these days to go to the Queen Mother to say goodbye, the Queen Mother intentionally or unintentionally 'exposed' to me some things in the court, so that I can't be at ease.

Those Manchurian nobles are indifferent to Shunzhi's new show 'women' these days, but they are very dissatisfied with the behavior of me, the ancient queen of Meng, and the conflict between Manchurian and Mongolian is intensifying day by day whether it is in the court or in the harem, I am Fulin's wife, I love him deeply, so should I support his career and let him guard his country with less twists and turns?

I threw myself into his arms,

"You are the emperor, are you obliged to make your country more secure? But give your people less faltering? "My circles are red,

"We ...... You shouldn't be so selfish. The helpless 'color' on Shunzhi's face flashed, he hugged me tightly and said in a low voice: "In this life, after all, I owe you." I looked up at him,

"Between us, there is no need to say such things again, but I have a request." I pointed to his heart and said solemnly: "Here, no one is allowed to give it to anyone, I want it here, it belongs only to me." He looked at me deeply for a long time, and suddenly raised a very bright smile: "Only for you." "I will definitely let all the palace concubines slap their hands when I leave the palace this time, except for one person, Nala, she was named by the Queen Mother to follow the 'waiting', until the moment before leaving, she still relied on the Queen Mother to intercede, and wanted to stay in the palace, the Queen Mother only said one sentence: "Only a person with a transcendent status is qualified to follow the 'waiting', if you don't want to, stay in the palace." "Nala seemed to be ruthless, turned around and got into the warm sedan chair, I also turned around and 'wanted' to go, the Queen Mother pulled me closer to her phoenix, there was a gossip that didn't have a match, and while talking, the Queen Mother suddenly smiled meaningfully: "Is your body okay lately?" I nodded dumbly, and then I understood the meaning of the Queen Mother's words, blushing slightly, the Queen Mother sighed lightly and took my hand, put her fingers on my wrist, and said for a long time: "The emperor has been staying in Kunning Palace recently, how can he not move for so long." I was slightly surprised and said, "The emperor can take the pulse?" The Queen Mother laughed: "You also let me deceive, I, I can only pretend to be a scene." Seeing the naughty smile in the Queen Mother's eyes, I couldn't help laughing, and the Queen Mother's smile gradually faded: "No movement is not necessarily a good thing, now you are on the cusp of the 'wave', if you are pregnant again, I am afraid that it will be more crisis." Looking at my indifferent smile, the Queen Mother sighed, "Do you know why I have to take you out?" I nodded slightly,

"First...... Avoid the limelight, right? ”

"This is just one of them," the queen mother said: "Now the palace seems to be calm, but it is really because the emperor only favors you alone, they have no choice but to temporarily avoid your edge, just like a wolf that is forcibly suppressed, if you are not careful, you will be eaten by it, but now that you are not in the palace, they are bound to take advantage of the situation and start a new round of competition for me." I was slightly stunned, and then I understood, this time Shunzhi's extreme favor to me has made them blush to the extreme, don't want to replace me, with such an opportunity, it will inevitably make them set off the strongest war, wait for them to fight to the end, and then ...... We'll come back and reap the benefits of the fishermen!

The Queen Mother glanced at me and said, "You don't have to worry, Xiao Biesheng is newly married, if you follow the emperor every day, the emperor will not miss you." "I smile bitterly in my heart, distance produces beauty, it is really an eternal truth.

"And," the queen mother said: "The emperor's 'sex' is difficult, according to the current situation, if you stay in the palace, he will definitely not pamper other concubines, which makes some Manchurian magnates quite complaining, thinking that the queen should be lenient and generous, and cannot monopolize the holy favor, as well as the imperial history's advice, please ask the emperor to focus on the foundation of the Qing Dynasty, and the rain and dew will be stained, and the emperor's heirs will be extended." "In the final analysis, it is still full of 'Mongolian' disputes, but I didn't expect me to become a hot 'door' figure inside and outside the court.

I really don't understand, who is the emperor with, what does it matter to them? The heir of the Emperor? Is being an emperor a stallion?

Although I was angry in my heart, I still nodded and said, "The emperor can rest assured, the son has already persuaded the emperor." The Queen Mother nodded,

"It's rare that you're so sensible," she looked at me and sighed, "Sometimes you will give up something, or even sacrifice something, for your own purposes." "The Queen Mother's words made me a little 'confused' and 'confused', I always felt that she seemed to mean something else, I nodded as if I didn't understand, the Queen Mother smiled at me, stopped talking, closed her eyes and recuperated.

Wanchen Temple is not a very majestic temple, but it is very quiet, the Queen Mother and the abbot Ruochen Master is many years to 'friend', every year will spare some time to Wanchen Temple to listen to the master***, I know a lot of things, but I don't know anything about Buddhism and Buddhist scriptures, so I asked Luo Yan to walk around the temple at will, Nala also wanted to follow, but Luo Yan refused, annoyed that she went back to the meditation room to sulk.

Luo Yan pulled me with a smile and came to the Daxiong Treasure Hall. He took the sandalwood from the little novice and kowtowed respectfully to the Buddha.

I saw a solemn look on Luo Yan's face, and after getting up, I teased, "What did you wish?" Ask the Buddha to bless you to marry out as soon as possible? Luo Yan lowered her head and sighed softly, and stepped out of the main hall, it was the first time I had seen her so melancholy, and I couldn't help asking, "What's wrong?" Luo Yan said faintly: "He has never been like this time, he has been gone for so long, and he has not brought back any information." ”

"Can you tell me the story between you?" I asked curiously. Luo Yan smiled,

"Except for the emperor's brother, no one knows." I shook my head and chuckled and followed behind her, no longer asking, Luo Yan suddenly said, "The imperial sister-in-law knows...... Who is monthly? "I was stunned, didn't I want to say it?

She mistook my stunned for an inquiry, and continued, "Moon is the emperor's brother's close 'attendant'. I was puzzled: "I know who is the moon, and I have seen him twice, but he doesn't seem to follow the emperor at any time like chasing stars." Luo Yan looked at me with a little surprise,

"Originally, he was the emperor's brother's close 'attendant' like chasing stars, but later, the emperor's brother sent him out of the palace." I nodded,

"Was it three years ago?" Luo Yan pursed her lips, and I asked again, "What happened in Nanyuan three years ago?" Makes you feel like a different person overnight? Luo Yan shook her head and said, "I haven't changed, I'm still me," she hesitated slightly,

"I have known since I was a child that I am different from other princesses, I am not the biological 'daughter' of the first emperor, in order not to be forgotten by everyone, I strive to make myself more 'colorful' than others, and use all my thoughts on the qin, chess, calligraphy and painting, and soon won the love of the emperor's mother, three ......years ago" Luo Yan muttered: "The emperor's brother is going to Nanyuan to hunt, I said I don't want to go, but I really don't want to give up this opportunity, because I was fourteen years old at the time, and I have reached the age when I should get married, if I miss it again this time, I don't know if there is such an opportunity in this life. She smiled self-deprecatingly: "You are now 'your own person', and I don't hide it from you, in fact, I don't like those crepe things since I was a child, I like to ride a horse and whip, unrestrained, but I understand that everyone's love for me comes from my 'talent', if I give it up, it is equivalent to me giving up everything I have." ”

"Why do you ......" I don't know how to ask, it's hard to imagine that a child in his teens, or even just a few years old, would have such a deep understanding of his situation.

Luo Yan smiled sadly,

"Do you know what it's like to lose everything? After Ama passed away, my mother and aunt were martyred one after another, the whole family, only I was still alive, although I was still young at that time, but the feeling of losing relatives was engraved into my bones, and then I was admitted to the palace by the first emperor, and was raised by the queen mother. I've always felt that I must be not good enough, so E-Niang will desperately leave me and Ama behind. So from then on, I only do things that make everyone happy, and I don't want to be abandoned by my family again. Luo Yan's voice was slightly choked, and I felt sorry in my heart, Luo Yan's heart actually had such bitterness.

"And then?"

"Later," Luo Yan smiled shallowly,

"If I hadn't met him in Nanyuan, I think that in my life, I would be like other princesses, I would be accused of a noble forehead, and then spend my life plainly."

"At that time in Nanyuan, without the constraints in the palace, I was still the princess of 'Duanyi' during the day, but at night I would sneak out, and even go to the dining room to steal something to eat, and seize all the time to do something I usually want to do but dare not do. One day, I followed the emperor's brother to hunt, they rode very fast, I was anxious, I wanted to catch up with them from the path, and I 'whipped' the horse a few times, but was overturned by the horse to the ground, I was so painful, but no one came to help me, I had that feeling of loneliness again, just when I cried ugly, a pair of hands stretched out in front of me, I had never heard such a gentle voice, I stretched out my hand, and suddenly remembered my identity, I am a princess, how can I have physical contact with a man? I struggled to get up and thanked him with a 'duanyi' mouth, but he knelt down for me with a calm face and said something like 'see the princess'. At this point, she stopped, looked at me and said, "At that moment, for some reason, my heart was so sad. ”

"Later, I learned that he was the emperor's brother's close 'attendant', called Zhuyue, and he sent me back, and along the way, he really only treated me as a princess, and never smiled at me so gently." Luo Yan calmly recounted: "The emperor's brother knew that I had fallen and injured myself, and when he came back, he scolded me angrily, he never scolded me so loudly, but I was very happy, only a family would use this way to express their worries." Seeing Zhuyue again, I somehow just wanted to see him smile at me again, I had the courage to ask Ah, but he asked me if 'Duanyi' wanted him to laugh, or 'Luoyan' wanted him to laugh. I didn't understand, he said he had two smiles, one for the princess and one for his friends. Sister-in-law, do you know? It turned out that I slipped out every night, and he knew it, not only did he know, but he also told the emperor's brother, I was very scared, I was afraid that the emperor's brother would be angry with me and would tell the emperor about these things, so they wouldn't like me anymore. ”

"Do you think you are the only one in the world who is afraid of loneliness? Do you think you'll be able to solve everything by catering to others? Aren't you afraid that you will lose yourself in the future? Luo Yan said, with tears in his eyes,

"I have been hiding my thoughts for ten years, and he actually saw through it at a glance, and I wanted to be friends with him, but he said, 'If you are Luoyan, I will consider it', so I ......" I let out a long breath,

"So you completely did Luo Yan for his words?" This story is really long.