Ji Beibei still can't forget the despair in his heart after listening to those words at that time.

She didn't have the slightest courage to humbly say to him: It's okay, I don't mind being a stand-in; I also don't mind that you have lost the ability to love a woman, if you can, it will be enough for me to love you in the future.

At that time, she had extremely low self-esteem, and she even felt that even such thoughts were a blasphemy against the pastoral practice.

For a long time after that, she spent a long time constantly spitting on herself, scolding herself for being a vain woman in her bones. She despises herself as a man she has never seen, so because of the life-saving grace of others, she doesn't care about how many pounds and taels she weighs and wants to cling to a man with a good family background and a bright future......

She couldn't remember how vicious the language she had used to curse herself at that time.

But she remembered that she kept forcing herself not to think about pastoral care anymore. At that time, even though she had actually noticed that the Lin family was inappropriate, she still took revenge on herself, forcing herself to continue to stay in the Lin family, staying on Lin Chunbao's broken boat and not coming down.

Recalling all the things in his previous life, Ji Beibei couldn't help but bite his lower lip tightly, feeling distressed for the struggles he had had.

Because she knew very well that even though she had struggled to control the feelings in her heart for Mu Jinxing, in fact, in the end, she still couldn't really control it.

Because even after more than ten years, she still has a kind of extravagant hope in the deepest part of her heart.

Especially after knowing that he had never been married, Ji Beibei found that he was secretly happy.

She even couldn't help but indulge her fantasies in a corner of her heart, would one day Mu Jinxing remember her, a woman with eyes like his fiancée? Would decide to make her a stand-in for his fiancée?

Even for her little fantasy, after punishing Lin Chunbao in her previous life, she did not hesitate to choose the capital when she persuaded her family to go to a new city to start over.

Ji Beibei almost was abducted and trafficked back then, and he never told anyone about it all his life.

If she doesn't tell her adoptive parents and sister and brother because she knows what she said, they will only be more distressed and worried about her;

Instead of telling Lin Chunbao and their family, she knew that what she said was useless, and it was very likely that not only would it not attract their pity for her, but would only make them question her innocence, pointing their noses and chattering at her for being stupid......

So back then, no one knew that she was actually selfish in her choice.

Even if he knew that there was no chance, Ji Beibei only thought about him in the capital, and even if he could get a little closer, it was enough to be satisfied.

"Beibei, what's wrong with you, did you see someone to suddenly become like this?"

Ji Beibei's unprecedented abnormal performance scared all the people in the Ji family, and she just didn't respond at all, so Chang Fengying and Ji Aizhen both stretched out their hands and shook her vigorously, and asked anxiously.

Even while asking, Chang Fengying, who was sitting opposite Ji Beibei and was also in a window position, stood up and looked out the window vigorously. Trying to see what caused Ji Beibei to do this?

It's a pity that the train has already left the platform, Chang Fengying didn't see anything, and finally could only turn around and take Ji Beibei's hand again, and asked nervously: "Who do you see here?" ”