Chapter 118: The Past (2)
Ji Beibei will never forget.
After going out that year, when she was in the waiting hall of the train station, she was still not enough because of her own defense. One accidentally fell asleep after eating half of an orange handed over by a woman with a baby who begged to help him look at his luggage.
When he woke up, Ji Beibei found that he was taken on a train that he didn't know where to go, and he was controlled by several men who were five big and three thick.
She was groggy and squeezed by the window of the train, weak and unable to make any sound. It wasn't like she hadn't tried to call for help from the passing conductor and other passengers with her expression, but it didn't work, and no one noticed her at all.
In desperation, it happened that Mu Jinxing came back from a mission to discover her abnormality, and then saved herself.
Ji Beibei couldn't forget that Mu Jinxing saved her at that time, and in the end, because she was terrified to the extreme, she subconsciously grabbed his clothes tightly and refused to let go, and decided to escort her to Shenzhen City in person.
Afterwards, Ji Beibei recalled countless times the short journey she had with Mu Jinxing, and then realized.
It was at that time that his escort, his inadvertent gentleness and all kinds of intimate behaviors under his tough exterior made his heart finally and completely collapsed, lost in his body, and never recovered.
She was young at the time.
But being young doesn't mean you don't understand.
In fact, from the very beginning, when she knew from his comrades-in-arms that he was already a deputy battalion commander at that time, and her family background was quite extraordinary, she realized that she was not compatible with him very clearly and rationally.
Even if she has never had Lin Chunbao, who is only in name, in fact, the two have never had any feelings at all, and they have never even done intimate actions like holding hands. There is no possibility that she and Mu Jinxing will intersect in the same place.
Without him, the identity gap between them is too big.
So big that she didn't even touch the corner of his clothes, and only stood there looking up at him from afar. It can be said that if he is a cloud in the sky, then she can only be dirt on the earth.
They are simply people of two worlds.
But what's the use of knowing? When feelings come, the menacing force is simply unexpected. Feelings have never taken into account the so-called distinction of identity and status, and the question of whether it is a match or not--
Ji Beibei didn't fantasize about it, what would happen if her love between her and her was not just her unilateral one? Will the ending be different?
It's a pity that fantasy is just a fantasy after all.
After Ji Beibei's countless recollections, he found out that Mu Jinxing at that time should have realized that he had a different affection for him.
That's why he specially explained in front of her that he couldn't help but be kind to himself, but in fact, it was just because his eyes looked very similar to his fiancée who died early.
Ji Beibei still can't forget when Mu Jinxing mentioned his fiancée who died early to himself, and there was infinite grief and sorrow in his eyes.
She remembered him speaking in his usual expressionless tone. His fiancée was too young when she died, and he wasn't so sure if his feelings for her were just likes or love.
But what is certain is that since he was a child, except for his fiancée, he has never had any close thoughts about other girls. Even, he resisted, and even resented that other members of the opposite sex approached and touched him.
He said that perhaps he had completely lost the ability to like or love a woman again in his life.