"Enough! Shangguan Changzhi treats you like this, you should resent him! What do we have to do with it? Ying Nantu had already turned his head and shouted in a deep voice.

He looked at Shen Ning's tearful appearance, and didn't care that this was in someone else's mansion, so he stretched out his hand and gently patted the back of Shen Ning's hand to show comfort.

Xu is warm scene stimulated Zheng Shaoyi, and she suddenly screamed: "What do you have to do with it? If it weren't for the Shen family, would there be something happening in Chunxi Palace? If it weren't for the Shen family, how could my father have left Jingzhao? If it weren't for the Shen family, how could I have gone to Zunzhou? If it weren't for the Shen family, I would have fallen to where I am now? ”

The root of all this lies in the incident of Chunxi Palace that night, if there is no matter of Concubine Li, then nothing will happen in the future. After going to Zunzhou, they learned that Shen Huashan had taken up the post of Prince Zhan Shi, if there was no Shen family secretly plotting for the Twelve Princes, how could there be a return from Prince Zhan Shi?

The Shen family's secret plot must have something in the Chunxi Palace! If it weren't for the Shen family, why would he be here? If it weren't for the old servant of the Zheng family who had said that Shen Huashan had been to the Zheng family, how would she know that her father, who had always loved her, had left her mind alone because of the Shen family?

The Shen family has done so many things in private and done so evil, how can it have nothing to do with them?

"That's why you hate the Shen family and me, because we made you imprisoned and made you go to Zunzhou?" Shen Ning asked in a low voice, tears beginning to recede.

"Yes! If it weren't for the trapping of Chunxi Palace, there would be no such things. Zheng Shaoyi gritted his teeth and said.

"That's why you want to retire because it makes me miserable?" Shen Ning continued to ask.

"Yes! Those two things, if it weren't for the abundance of cotton in Zunzhou, I don't know that those two things worked wonders. It's a pity that you escaped. I want Shen Huashan and Shen Zejing to also take a look at what it's like for their children and grandchildren to be mutilated. "So far, Zheng Shaoyi is not afraid to say anything.

"That's why you want the Marquis of Qingping to poison and kill your own son. Just like Emperor Changtai poisoned Shangguan Changzhi? Shen Ning asked again, his eyes beginning to clear up.

"Yes! I also want you to feel this feeling, what will happen to you when you find out that your father-in-law actually died at the hands of your father-in-law. ”

"So, those weapons and siege crossbows are there to deal with the emperor and the crown prince? Are you waiting for the opportunity, waiting for the emperor to make a big move, and then you want to succeed? Shen Ning seemed to hear his heart pounding.

"Yes! It's just that I didn't expect it to be known by Chu Shixiu...... Wrong. It's the Shen family! You know there's a battering crossbow in there. These. It's you who went to inform Chu Shixiu! Right? Suddenly thinking of something, Zheng Shaoyi asked.

Originally, she was wondering why she suddenly handed over the post if she didn't have any flaws at all. Unexpectedly, everything she arranged was already known to her.

Thinking of this, Zheng Shaoyi was particularly angry in his heart, and stared at Shen Ning fiercely again.

It was this fierce glance, like a thunderclap, that split the chaos in Shen Ning's heart. Since then, the lightness of the qi has returned to the sky, and the weight of the qi has been turbid. There is a smooth road, stretching out to the endless.

Shen Ning laughed softly, and suddenly realized. The early morning breeze by Xianghu Lake made her realize what the breeze is blowing on the hills and the bright moon shining on the river, and now Zheng Shaoyi is ruthless. Let her understand what it means to keep her heart and bear cause and effect.

"Are you wrong...... Lord Zheng was also wrong. Lord Zheng's fault is that he spoils you the most, but he fails to teach you what to do and why not to do it; You are wrong because you have already lost your heart. You have lost your heart, this is your cause, and now you have ended up like this, it is your result, you are wrong......"

Shen Ning shook his head, his eyes became clearer and clearer, and his words gradually became clearer.

"When you were in the boudoir, you only had love, not your heart, so you knew that Shangguan Changzhi had no love for you, and you knew that marrying him would be detrimental to the family, but you still did that, this marriage was what you asked for in front of Emperor Changtai; After the chaos, you only have resentment, but no heart. You know that it was Shangguan Changzhi and yourself who harmed you, but you think that all your misfortunes today are from the superposition of others......"

"In fact, all the faults are that you have lost your heart, you don't know what you're doing, you can't accept what you're doing, you can't take responsibility for what you're doing, that's why you've done this kind of thing. What do you want? Or do you think that by doing this, you can make up for the loss of the first half of your life? ”

Shen Ning said lightly, there was no fierce accusation in his tone, no angry resentment, some were just indifferent. What she said to Zheng Shaoyi, wasn't it something she said to herself?

In her previous life, like Zheng Shaoyi in this life, she fell from the clouds to the ground, from the green jade that was high above, to a stone slab that people can trample on. In that life, the glory of the first half of her life, the misery of the second half of her life, that kind of process, even if she lived a new life, she would not dare to forget it for a moment.

I am afraid that if I forget, I will repeat the mistakes of the past, and all the misfortunes of the previous life will appear again. So she is cautious and difficult, from Changtai to the present, what she has done is actually to avoid mistakes.

In order to avoid those mistakes in her previous life, she tried her best to pull Shangguan Changzhi down and crush him into dust, just like he did to her back then.

However, Shangguan Changzhi was defeated when he was forty years old in Changtai, and at that time, she knew that he could no longer cause half of the damage to his family. But in the past two years, she still doesn't dare to relax for a moment, even if she has married a person who loves her, she still lives every day cautiously with fear.

Why is that?

Shangguan Changzhi has been defeated, she has passed the most difficult moment of her life, and the despair of raiding the family and exterminating the clan in the previous life does not seem to appear again. But why can't she still stay in the backyard like an ordinary woman, with her husband and children in peace, only taking care of the things in the back house, and only sticking to the little affection of the husband?

Why did you have to follow your uncle and uncle to Xining Road? In Xining Dao, what she experienced would not be half an easy point than Jingzhao.

The Li family, the head of Queensland, the dispute over the Xining Road minerals, or the Xining trade route that laid the foundation but still has a long and arduous journey to take, why should she get involved in these things? Why do you stay in Jingzhao in peace, waiting to marry and retreat?

She thought about her grandfather and father again. The Shen family's power is already strong enough. Supporting the twelve princes to win the position of the crown prince, and also helping the prince to sit firmly on the throne of the prince and handle the affairs of the country, his grandfather is already a Zhongshu waiter and the prince Zhan Shi, and he is about to be the next Zhongshu Ling, but why does his grandfather still feel like walking on thin ice in the abyss?

Father's knees are full. At a young age, he is already in charge of Queensland and controls the most important medicinal materials and minerals in Queensland. The status of the family, his own official position, in these aspects, his father is already more fortunate than the children of the Dayong family and the officials of the court, but why did his father cry bitterly when the Xiyuan residence was burned?

She also thought of Shenko, a subordinate who died in office. Shenke, like Wei Jingyao, is the top minister of Dayong, and he is the most perceptive of the holy will, and has been living peacefully for decades. But why are you getting old? If you stay up for a few more years, you can go smoothly. Instead, he knelt in front of the Zichen Palace? After withdrawing from the matter, he did not go to court again? And then he fell ill and died? What is such Shenko for?

She thought of her grandfather, Yu Jinzhi. At the age of more than 80 years, he traveled thousands of miles from Xishan to Jingzhao. It's just for the sake of the discussion in the country. For that discussion, for that upright argument, Xishan Yu was also suspicious of Emperor Changtai.

A little farther away, she even thought of Lu Wuhou, who was killed by the court staff. From local officials to Jingzhao courtiers, Lu Wuhou has an upright temperament, so he can give people five qualities to the matter. If he can be a little more tactful, be able to judge the situation a little bit, or rather, be able to understand the current affairs a little bit. How did it end like that?

What are these people for? Before this, Shen Ning only knew that everything they did had their reasons.

She couldn't say she appreciated or liked it. What's more, with the attitude of an outsider, watching the changes in the Jingzhao Dynasty, following their changes, doing what they want to do, and pulling Shangguan Changzhi down.

Now, she finally knows why she is still so cautious and afraid after the defeat of Shangguan Changzhi. Because, pulling Shangguan Changzhi down has never been her most important goal, what she has to do is to protect her family and seek peace for herself.

Regardless of whether Shangguan Changzhi survives or not, she has never changed this determination.

Although his grandfather was a very popular minister, it was not what he wanted to do, what he wanted to do was the prosperity of the family and the court; My father was in charge of Queensland, and what he vowed was to clear the land of Queensland and return the people of Queensland to a clear mind;

Shenko died of depression because of the perseverance in his heart, smooth and profitable, maybe it was his previous goal, but it was not the final result he wanted, he had a righteous heart in his heart; Although Lu Wuhou died, he had no regrets.

At this moment, Shen Ning understood that the road he had traveled and the things they had done were because he still had his heart, and it was his heart that drove them to do these things, and they stuck to what they wanted to do in their hearts.

No matter what they have experienced in the middle or what they will experience in the future, this determination they have not changed.

A spoonful of food, a bean soup, if you get it, you will live, and if you get it, you will die. However, there is also a distinction between receiving and not receiving a bean soup, death and life are great, and evil is greater than death and life, this is the original intention. His own heart is to protect his family; The original intention of my grandfather and father was to make the government peaceful; Shen Ke and Lu Wuhou's original intention is to stick to the "goodness" in their hearts......

These, no matter how much they have been through, are still there. But what is Zheng Shaoyi's heart?

She didn't, so she blamed her misfortune on others; She didn't, so she set up this kind of game in Jingzhao because she couldn't accept what happened to her.

When she was in the boudoir, she could only see her affection for Shangguan Changzhi, and she couldn't see the hard fate of the family behind her; When she was in Zunzhou, she suffered from those, so she thought about setting up a bureau in Jingzhao and letting everyone suffer with her.

Personal gains and losses and honors have always been just external objects, not hearts, but what she sees is only this.

With such a person and such a heart, Shen Ning didn't want to look at her again. However, this trip here, I finally got it.

ps：

Midnight! I wrote this plot and thought about it for a long time, not for the sake of dog blood. What I want to write about is not Zheng Shaoyi's distorted brain, but these-Mencius's "Confession I". It's just that I can't do it, please forgive me~ hide your face and run away.