Chapter 16 Confession and Confession

After opening the door, I stood at the door, looking at the light face in the room, and did not move for a long time, because I didn't know how to face the light face, and I didn't even know if I should take this step.

I hesitated for a long time, but decided to walk in.

By the time I closed the door and turned around, I was already awake and sat there, looking at me with the same smile as usual.

"Coming back?"

I nodded, "Yes." ”

"I'm sorry I came in while you weren't there, you wouldn't blame me, would you?"

I shook my head, "No. ”

I didn't give me the key here, but I didn't ask about the key.

I slowly approached Qingyan and sat down, the expression on my face was calm, or rather serious, because I was ready to ask Qingyan for a final answer.

"Ah Yan—"

"What's wrong?" He smiled softly at me.

I looked directly into the eyes of the light face and asked word by word, "Are you really light face?" ”

"It's like a fake." Qingyan answered me in the affirmative.

"I met a girl who looks very similar to you today, and she said her name is Li Moran."

"Then did she tell you that her sister's name is Li Qingyan?"

"She told me, and—" I took a deep breath and continued, "and she also told me that her sister had died three years ago. ”

"Really?" Qingyan stood up, stretched, and said with some frustration: "Ahhh ”

Qingyan turned around, looked at me with a grin, and said, "I, I did die three years ago, so what you see now is actually a ghost!" What do you think? Do you think it's scary? ”

I looked at Qingyan quietly, the smile on her face couldn't hide the sadness in her eyes at all, and I only felt inexplicable heartache in the face of such a lightness.

Seeing that I didn't respond, he tilted his head: "You don't believe it? ”

I shook my head and said, "I believe it." It's just that I don't understand, why are you with me? ”

"Of course it's because I like you!" I replied lightly, but the next sentence made me shocked.

"I've liked you since three years ago!"

"Three years ago?"

I can't help but get confused, three years ago? At that time, I was still a student who had never stepped out of school, and the lightness did not exist in my memory.

"It's normal if you don't remember, I was in very poor health at that time, and I was very afraid of contact with people, and I was wrapped like a mummy all day long, how beautiful is it now." She lifted the corners of her skirt lightly and rotated it slightly, like an elf in a flower field.

I searched my mind hard and asked, somewhat uncertainly, "We've met in the library?" ”

Qingyan's eyes lit up, and he said happily: "So you still remember!" ”

There is indeed a figure in the corner of memory, always alone, huddled in the corner of the library reading a book of poetry, like a poor cat.

But with such a person, I can't match her with the light face in front of me.

Qingyan paced slowly in the living room, occasionally touching the corners of the table and the wall with her hands.

"Lan, do you remember what I told you when I was on the Ferris wheel?"

I nodded, "Yes." ”

"I said at the time that I always wanted to ride the Ferris wheel once, and it was true, because the Ferris wheel is the most beautiful thing in my opinion, but unfortunately I never sat on it once, not because I didn't have the opportunity, but because my body didn't allow it."

"According to my mother, I was born with bad luck and had congenital heart disease, and it was the kind that ordinary surgery could not cure. But that's it, I still survived, my parents didn't give up on me, and they were very good to me, even after my sister was born, I was still the most favored little princess. Hee-hee! ”

"My health has always been very poor, I can't cry, I can't laugh, and I can only play quietly, like the Ferris wheel, which is absolutely forbidden."

"Going to college can be regarded as the most willful time for me, because my parents didn't agree, but in the end they agreed to my unreasonable request."

"Life in college is really good, but I can only watch the beauty of others from afar, and all I can feel is loneliness. I didn't dare to communicate with people, I was afraid of contact with people, and I managed to win the university life, but I could only read poems in the corner of the library to pretend that I was not lonely. ”

"But loneliness never left, so I began to yearn for a companion."

Qingyan's eyes kept looking at me when she said this, and I understood what she meant.

I sighed and said, "The companion you are looking for is me, right?" ”

He smiled lightly and nodded, "That's right." It's God's favor for me, every time you go to the library, you sit alone in the corner with a book. I was like, "Ah—this person looks like me!" If it were him, would he be able to understand my loneliness? ”

I couldn't help but smile bitterly in my heart, it turns out that lonely people can also attract each other!

Qingyan said: "I have been silently observing you, but I don't even have the courage to say hello from beginning to end. Then one time, you didn't show up for three days in a row, and somehow, I was so disappointed, we didn't say a word, but I felt a sense of loss that I had lost everything. ”

During my college years, I was indeed a frequent visitor to the library, and I went to the library almost every day except for holidays, and for three consecutive days, I only remember once, and that was when Su Yu got sick.

I never thought that there would be people who were paying attention to me, or even being lost for me.

"Fortunately, it's only three days, and when I see you again in three days, I'm really happy, if I have a good heart, then I'll be so happy that I can't, but unfortunately I can't."

"I made up my mind that I must say hello to you, and I hesitated for a long time and encouraged myself for a long time, but the result was not satisfactory."

"The first time, I finally opened my mouth, but it was already time to turn off the lights, and I could only watch you leave. The second time, when you had just sat down, I said 'good evening' almost with all my strength, but you didn't hear it at all, just looked at me suspiciously, and then got up and went to change a book. ”

"The third time, I practiced for a long time, was well prepared, and waited for you to arrive, only to see you sitting side by side with a girl. I watched as I couldn't say the 'good evening'. ”

"At that time, I realized that you and I are actually not the same, and I am always the only one who is lonely."