Chapter 190: Knowing My Heart

"What? Are you trying to protect that person? Do you feel sorry for him? Afraid I'm going to be mad enough to hurt his body? Little fool, do you have no faith in me? Dirty things are not something we can do. From now on, I want to compete fairly with him, and I hope you can give me the opportunity to participate in the competition and take care of you justifiably. ”

From the moment Xu Xiaoyu saw Zhang Fengyi crying, his heart immediately softened. He didn't want to play dumb riddles with Zhang Fengyi anymore, and he didn't want to keep talking about it all the time. He wanted to be honest with him, and gave up the idea of intrigue behind his back. Because if he can have a fair competition with Fang Longxing, it would not be a good thing, at least he finally disclosed the secret that had been buried in his heart for many years in front of Zhang Fengyi.

Although Xu Xiaoyu said it easily, he was not easy in his heart. It's one thing when you're pretending to be confused, but once it's clear, it's really naked and open. That's fine! The mussel has stripped its shell and is the softest. He is willing to show his softest side in front of Zhang Fengyi.

This is not stumbling, so that it is more like a gentleman. Although this will make himself indecent and sacrifice the most, Xu Xiaoyu finally admitted it. What if you don't recognize it? It's better to have a fair chance to compete than to get a fish to a dead end! Author: Jin Lan Xiuxian

"Xiaoyu, to be honest, I don't want to hurt you on purpose, you know how important you are in my heart, and I cherish the friendship between you and me. I have always regarded you as a brother and a relative, and it is because I know that you are good to me, which makes me so greedy for this family and friendship.

I'll admit that I deliberately avoided you, just because I didn't want you to have too many illusions about me. I always have him in my heart, and I can't let go of him, so I can't promise you too much. I'm afraid that fruitless love will make you and me fall into the abyss of pain, so I will deliberately avoid you. If it's a hurt like that, I'd rather never get it, and that's why I don't want to lose you. In fact, sometimes, it's better to be a buddy than a lover!

I thought that when you got married, everything would be on the right track, and who knew that it would develop into what it is today. Maybe I should have made it clear to you from the beginning. It's not your fault alone, most of the fault lies with me, so I'm willing to work with you to solve this problem. We all have to face it with a normal mindset, and I hope you don't let me down.

Actually, I just want to tell you this today, I want to make it clearer to you, and I hope you can understand. It will hurt you if you say it, but I still have to say it, please don't mind, okay? I really love him! I really love him, I love him very much!

Am I greedy? Isn't it selfish? On the one hand, I don't want to lose you buddy, and on the other hand, I want to have him. Please Xiaoyu, don't blame me! This is something I have identified since I was a child, and I can't blame anyone, I can only say that we were doomed to be impossible from the beginning. By the way, when did you first know I loved him? ”

A person who usually talks very little, when he meets someone he wants to get close to, he will inadvertently become more talkative, and Mr. Zhang is no exception. He is willing to explain, but he doesn't want to lose Xu Xiaoyu's buddy. Xu Xiaoyu has been deeply rooted in his life and is an indispensable part.

"It's a secret, I won't tell you, anyway, I just know. (Xu Xiaoyu would not confess that he had peeked at Zhang Fengyi's diary, and it was true that he was afraid that someone would clean it up.) ）

Xiaoyi, at first I thought: I can leave you and want to give you the life you want, but I really tried hard, and the more I wanted to escape, the more crazy I wanted to get you. It's really hard to explain the emotional thing. But I promise you, as long as we can have normal interactions as before, I will try to slowly give you back a peaceful life.

It's just that it's really hard to do it right now, and I hope you can give me some time, okay? Sixteen or seventeen years of feelings, can you say let go of it? I will try to treat you as my dearest relative, my good brother. I will learn to deal with you in this capacity.

Seriously, I'm so sad to see you crying, and I'm sorry for that. We've known each other for so many years, and it's the first time I've seen you cry, little villain, in front of me. And the person who made you cry is still me, my heart is very uncomfortable, I feel very guilty, I really want to slap myself a few ear scrapers.

Little fools! Promise me that you must live happily in the future and not shed another tear, okay? I really can't afford it! I want my family's little righteousness and a happy life in this world. Baby, if you cry and have a flowery face, you won't be beautiful, come, give my brother a smile. ”

Xu Xiaoyu stroked Zhang Fengyi's soft hair dotingly, completely playing the role of a gentle and good husband. If Guan Yingai sees this side of him, she will definitely feel that Xu Xiaoyu is really crazy. A person who looks like a tough guy of steel can actually have such a gentle side. After other people saw Xu Xiaoyu, they would be in awe or fear him a little, but only his majesty and his unapproachability lost his color in front of Zhang Fengyi.

Although Xu Xiaoyu was very sad when he heard Zhang Fengyi admit that he loved Fang Longxing, he still hid all his sadness and dissatisfaction, and he put Zhang Fengyi first. In this world, there is no other person or thing that can compare with his small righteousness. No matter what is for Xu Xiaoyu: it is not as important as Zhang Fengyi! The first thing he showed was: try his best to make Zhang Fengyi happy!

"Xu Daben, you are as brainy as me, even if I fall alone, you still come to join in the fun with me. Knowing that I have others in my heart and love others, and I still want to come and entangle with me, do you say you are incorrigible? ”

Zhang Fengyi gently pushed away Xu Xiaoyu, who was hugging him, and returned to his normality, this kind of normalcy that can only be shown in front of Fang Longxing and Xu Xiaoyu - the image of a cute child who has not grown up.

"Xiaoyi, you can't blame me for this! Look in the mirror, who made you look so attractive? I'm stuck in it! You can only blame yourself for this, I was originally a straight man, but my first hobby was a woman, and you broke and bent me.

Look at your snow-white, delicate, smooth skin, tender as if it could pinch out water. Look at your goblin-like graceful figure, this soft and slender waist, and this beautiful buttocks. and this fairy-like handsome appearance, which is so seductive, beautiful and moving. Especially this enchanting charm, how like a man!

We are all in our thirties, and our looks and ages basically match. But what about you? It looks like a college student, and it hasn't changed at all over the years. Coupled with this pear blossom crying like rain, what a fragrant scene! You! I'm going to cry my heart, which is as stiff as a stone! ”

This hasn't teased Zhang Fengyi a few words! Xu Xiaoyu's ruffian energy came up again. We have to say that Young Master Xu's aesthetics are absolutely amazing, and he treats a cold and beautiful man as a woman. It's no wonder that over the years, he has always hovered between liking men and women. He just can't tell the difference, and he can't figure out the sex, don't!

"Xiaoyu, it turns out that you can still be so nasty! I didn't know this before, but today I've finally opened my eyes. You're hiding so deeply! I've been in your eyes for a long time, and that's how 'glorious' the image is?! Our buddies can be regarded as wonderful. Again, to the point, you know, it's not what I want to hear. ”

"I've always been so bad! Men aren't bad, women don't love! No, if I'm not bad, Xiaoyi doesn't love it. Xiaoyi, don't worry! I will definitely do what I promised you, I will not take the initiative to destroy your current life, I don't want to ruin your happiness with my own hands.

But one thing to be made clear: if he dares to treat you badly, I will never let him go. Also, don't reject me anymore and give me a chance to express myself. In the past, I used to wear a mask in front of you, and I had to disguise my true intentions, but today I took off my mask, so let me be kind to you openly? ”

"Xiaoyu, you know that we can't do it, why are you still obsessed? Why bother? Isn't it better for us to be relatives and brothers, and still be the same as before? Take me to dinner, I'm going to get home on time!" ”