Chapter 5 You don't understand my heart

Fang Qianyi, you have the same resolute and stubborn character as your eldest brother, once you decide on something, you will move forward without hesitation, I really don't want you to waste your time on me, I don't want to ruin your life because of my existence.

Zhang Fengyi really couldn't bear to see Fang Qianyi's sad face because of himself, this is not what you should have at your age, he still remembers his appearance when he first met Fang Qianyi: Qianyi is like a prince, a cute, immature, and innocent smiling face, and even the two thick eyebrows have soft ripples, as if they have always been smiling, crooked, like a bright first quarter moon in the night sky. The fair skin is set off by the pale pink lips, the handsome facial features, the perfect face shape, especially the dazzling diamond stud earrings that shine in the left ear. It gives people a sunny and handsome look, but also a little uninhibited, and a feeling of not being bound by the world.

But what about Fang Qianyi now? He was always cautious about contacting himself, for fear of causing me unhappiness. Qianyi, don't be so careful for me, you don't owe me anything, you should be yourself, the one who was once happy, straightforward, and simple.

Because my heart has already been filled with that person, and I can't pretend to be anyone anymore, although I have made it clear to you over and over again, I have been hurting you all the time, why have you always been so obsessed with me, so obsessed? Why keep sticking to your own ideas and not want to give up on something that doesn't lead to fruition? Seriously, you're really giving me a headache, but I really can't do anything about you!

Maybe I should really go back to that person, let you die to me again, and let you fall into despair countless times, so that you can be free! Forgive me for not knowing what to do, forgive me for being cruel to you, and now I am still ruthless to you, so good for you, for me, for him, our relationship is too special, isn't it? Maybe that's the best way to do it! At the very least, long pain is better than short pain.

yes, I think that's the best way to go, and at the beginning, it makes people feel broken, it makes people sad, it makes people feel like the whole world is collapsing. But it's better than a long time of pain, and although this method is a little cruel to you, what can I promise you? It will not bring you any happiness, it will only bring you endless hurt and pain. Then we have to let this pain end sooner.

If I had been smart enough at that time, I had discovered Wang Haitao's thoughts about me earlier, or I could not easily believe Xu Xiaoyu's promise to me, and cut through the mess earlier, why would there be such a result? Why did it come to this point? Maybe Long Xing won't be so embarrassed by this! For you, I have repeatedly accommodated, and I wanted to be more ruthless several times, but in the end I didn't do anything more desperate, so I shaped the appearance of you now.

People tend to think cranky when they are free, especially in a hospital bed. Zhang Fengyi felt that he should really do something for Fang Qianyi again, and he did it urgently. He just doesn't want to cause any more bitter fruits, so try to avoid it if he can!

These days, Fang Qianyi's only joy is to take care of the man he loves. Although that man is always cold to himself, he ignores him, and he doesn't even say a word to himself for a day, just thinking about something silently. Sometimes his face showed coldness; Sometimes there was confusion on his face; Sometimes there is a shallow smile on his face like a self-deprecation. No matter what kind of expression it is, Fang Qianyi feels that this is the most beautiful and moving face in the world.

On this day, Fang Qianyi looked at Zhang Fengyi, who was in contemplation, and heard a whisper from him:

"Fang Qianyi, can we have a good chat?" Zhang Fengyi's voice was soft, it seemed to be very weak, but there was still coldness in the weakness, and there was no trace of emotion in his expression, even though it was still incredibly beautiful.

"Of course you can, Fengyi, can you call me Qianyi in the future?" Hearing what Zhang Fengyi said to himself, Fang Qianyi was very excited, these days, this is the first time Zhang Fengyi has taken the initiative to chat with him, no matter what he said to him before, Zhang Fengyi ignored it, or even said nothing. Just looked at him silently.

Being able to chat with Zhang Fengyi is the happiest thing Fang Qianyi feels, they haven't spoken freely for a long time, even if that person's attitude towards him is still cold now, but he doesn't mind, who makes himself really love him? loves to the extent that he doesn't have himself, and Fang Qianyi is willing and happy to do anything for him.

"If you keep calling me Zhang Fengyi, or Brother Zhang, you won't think it's inappropriate for me to call you Fang Qianyi." Zhang Fengyi glanced at it indifferently, and Fang Qianyi, who was smiling at him, still said coldly. Oh, yes! He had to do this now, he had to make Fang Qianyi completely break off his thoughts about himself.

"At that time, I just liked you, you were Zhang Fengyi, Brother Zhang, or whatever. Now it's different from before, now I'm deeply and inextricably in love with you, you are my lover, my Fengyi, we shouldn't be so strange. I don't mind what you call me, but from now on I can only call you as: Fengyi, my dearest Fengyi. ”

Fang Qianyi still looked at Zhang Fengyi with a smile on his face, not caring at all what he said to himself, and holding a smile as warm as a spring breeze and a warm smile like sunshine to his beloved man. His handsome face, full of youth and heroism, blooms like a beautiful flower.

"Don't talk nonsense, I've emphasized many times and repeatedly, there is only family affection between us, and nothing else." When Zhang Fengyi saw him say this, he immediately corrected his ways. His phoenix eyes, which fascinated all beings, immediately revealed majesty, alienation, and coldness.

"It's still the same sentence, you can not love me, I don't force it. But I have the right to continue to love you, and you can't restrain my heart. I know you still can't let go of him in your heart, and I don't mind. But Fengyi, why can't you just look at me attentively? Is he really that good? What makes you miss in your heart, can't you forget it? Forget it, I have time anyway, and I can continue to wait until one day you fall in love with me. And I'm sure one day, you'll fall in love with me too. ”

Fang Qianyi once again unreservedly revealed his mind to Zhang Fengyi in front of him. He has long been accustomed to Zhang Fengyi's repeated rejection of him, even if Zhang Fengyi rejects him a thousand, ten thousand, or even a hundred thousand times, he still won't give up.

Unless he really decided to see Fang Longxing and offered to continue living with that person, he would let him go, this was an agreement between him and Fang Longxing, and it was also a gamble. He had to convince himself of the loss and be willing. At the same time, he doesn't believe that they will choose to go together after going through so much between them.

"If I never fell in love with you in this life, would you waste time on me like this, and keep waiting? Wake up! ”

"Of course you can, Fengyi, are you doubting my love for you, my affection for you? As long as you don't choose someone else, I'll keep waiting. ”

"The problem is: when you knew me, I already had your eldest brother, but you still entangled with me again and again! Isn't that a contradiction? What's so good about me? I really don't deserve to let you love like this all the time, that will really hurt you. Please let me go, okay? Spare yourself too. ”

"Your good, I naturally know, those people are not worthy of you at all, even Fang Longxing is not worthy, but you still love him so much, you have done so much for him, don't you also have no hesitation for him, and do not give up?"

"Fang Qianyi, please figure out the situation, that's different!"

"How is it different? Fengyi, tell me, why is it different? Does love make a difference? Just because he is Fang Longxing, and I am Fang Qianyi, right? ”

"Yes, people are really different."

"Okay, since Feng Yi said that it is different, then please tell me how it is different, what do you like about that person? I can become like him for you. Become what you like, and I'm willing to do anything for you. ”

"You are you, you are unique, you deserve to have your own life, be yourself, and should not change for whom."

"Fengyi! Why don't you understand? Change for you, I'm willing! You don't want to have any psychological burden, just let me stay by your side, take good care of you, and love you well, okay? I want to accompany you through the rest of your life. ”

"That would ruin your life, and your life shouldn't be like this."

"My life? My own life? I might as well tell you directly: my life was ruined when I saw you. But I don't care, and I feel lucky. Thank God for allowing me to meet you in this life, the encounter between you and me may have been predestined, and I am very lucky that my life can be ruined by you. As long as you are willing to believe me; You will accept me; You will give me the opportunity to love you. I promise to prove that I am the only partner in the world who is the most suitable partner for you, and your destiny can only be to choose to be with me in the end. So now please stop thinking about it, forget about that bastard, and let's start over, shall we? ”

The author has something to say: few people can explain love clearly, when attachment becomes stubborn, into an incomprehensible and extremely crazy state, it is a dead obsession...... In the eyes of some people, this obsession may be a classic love story. But I want to say: I have experienced this kind of love in my own life, and I admire the courage and obsession of the person concerned. However, I can only pay tribute to great love! Looking at the world is so big, it is really our luck to have people who are willing to love us with their hearts and lungs! Let's do it and cherish it!