Chang Shenghua sat with Yuan Hanliang for a long time, but he didn't specifically accompany him, but he thought that An Qiu went to find out the security situation in the sixth district tonight, Chang Shenghua stayed here to avoid suspicion, and he really rescued the barbarian and the dove in the future, and he seemed relatively innocent.

Someone saw Yuan Hanliang lying on the sofa and asked him what was wrong, and Chang Shenghua said that he was drunk.

Yuan Hanliang did drink a lot, and there was a smell of wine on his body, and no one thought it was strange.

Playboy Yuan Hanliang seems to be such a prodigal/swinger who gets himself drunk anytime and anywhere.

The sorority has the meaning of a carnival all night, everyone wears a white coat is the benevolence of the doctor, and they can go crazy and play after work, but it also seems very real.

Someone was holding a microphone and singing, the melody was a little slow, Yuan Hanliang slowly raised his head and sang along: "...... A kind woman, with long hair hanging down her shoulders, has followed the twilight, and her green clothes have been reduced to ashes in the fire......"

By the time he had sung, he was choked up and unable to speak.

The man with the microphone should be a civilian worker, Chang Shenghua has only seen it once, he was a little drunk, and staggered to Yuan Hanliang's side.

"Brother, sing together!" The man patted him vigorously on the shoulder, "Let those sad things get out!" ”

Someone next to him laughed: "Lao Han must have fallen out of love again, why is Xiao Yuan so sad to look at?" Drink it, right? ”

The two men were singing with the microphone in their arms, and their voices were almost broken after drinking, and their voices were hoarse, and many thoughts were in the singing.

After singing, the man crouched on the ground and cried, and many people came to comfort him with amusement and sympathy.

While the man was crying, he was still singing at the top of his throat "It's not a sin for a man to cry, no matter how strong a person is, he has the right to be tired", everyone has no choice but to drag him to dance and vent.

Yuan Hanliang declined their invitation and sat down on the sofa, holding his forehead and laughing.

The sadness just now was like water stains that had been sunburned, and he was giggling, as if he really had no heart or lungs.

I don't know who changed to a rock song, which was deafening and pushed the sorority atmosphere to the point of frenzy.

"Sister Chang," Yuan Hanliang suddenly poked his head over, and said loudly with red eyes: "Thank you!" ”

Chang Shenghua glanced at him and shook his head to indicate that it was nothing.

For the sake of this fat sheep who always takes the initiative to contribute his own wool to her, it is possible to make such a friend......

The main reason is that Yuan Hanliang's second-type friend is similar to Svende, there is no threat, but he can be slaughtered casually, and the little lion will not be too jealous after seeing it, and he can also slaughter him with Chang Sheng's painting......

It was just perfect!

Chang Sheng drew the abacus in his heart.

After all, she will open a studio in the future, and she can be a maverick in research, but if the studio really wants to settle in China, it must manage contacts, and if she can make friends and do business, it will be better.

What's more......

In order for Ning Shaoming to get out of the Ning family smoothly, Chang Shenghua had to accumulate some team for him and let the Ning family see - without them, Ning Shaoming would not be worse than others!

It is certainly impossible for Yuan Hanliang not to be aware of Chang Shenghua's thoughts, but he took the initiative to release the signal of coming and going, and Chang Shenghua took this olive branch, and he would not just let the cows work and not let the cows eat grass.

At one o'clock in the night, Chang Shenghua calculated that the time was almost up, so he left quietly, and Yuan Hanliang naturally followed her.

The sound insulation of the indoor activity room just now is very good, and there is a lot of noise inside, and there is still not much movement outside.

When they walked out of the door, the too quiet atmosphere in the deep mountains suddenly rushed over, and Yuan Hanliang's still somewhat drowsy head woke up immediately.

After hesitating for a moment, Yuan Hanliang still said, "Tonight...... I'm sorry for Sister Chang. ”

Chang Shenghua was noncommittal, "It's nothing, I'm used to it." ”

Sometimes, her profession can be simply and crudely summed up as a tree hole.

Many people come to seek psychological help, in fact, they don't really need any advice, but they need someone to listen to them and say some secrets that can't be seen, and Chang Shenghua is familiar with this.

Sure enough, Yuan Hanliang laughed at himself: "Some words have been held back for too long, I thought I had forgotten ......"

The girl's death was a wound to his heart, and he never dared to touch it, and he did not dare to oppose the family's arrangement again, for fear of causing the same tragedy again.

But if you think about it carefully, he has been at the mercy of his family like a puppet for so many years, and there is no longer anything around him that he will be afraid of losing.

His life is barren and barren, and he sees the end at a glance - worry-free work, getting married, having children, raising children and grandchildren, and rising step by step......

The perfection in the eyes of ordinary people does not seem to lack anything in him, so comfortable, so smooth, so smooth that he thinks that he will live like this in the next few decades, and he feels that this life is too long, and every minute and second is painfully slow.

He seemed to understand the desperation of the girl's "can't live anymore".

Yuan Hanliang knew that Chang Shenghua woke him up at the beginning, not with pure kindness, but so what?

It is difficult for the adult world to survive in pure black and white, and Yuan Hanliang only needs to know that he can get a beneficial side from it.

The night is vast and the mountains are quiet.

Chang Shenghua looked at the Milky Way stars in the sky, "Emotions should be vented in time, cry when you should cry, don't laugh if you don't want to laugh, cover it for a long time, and you won't be saved." ”

Like her little lion, the indifference of the Ning family and the suicide of his mother Song Minxia have become a nightmare that has followed him for half his life.

Yuan Hanliang smiled, his smile was faint and pale, "Do people only love one person in their lives?" I've seen so many women, and they don't seem to have the same heart-warming feeling as they did then. ”

Chang Shenghua thought for a while, "It's hard for others to say, but I will only like one person in my life." ”

Yuan Hanliang smiled bitterly: "You are simply sticking a knife in me." ”

Chang Sheng shrugged, "It's just the truth." ”

Yuan Hanliang was silent for a while, "If you ...... Separated? What will you do? ”

Chang Sheng's voice was very calm: "What can I do, I have to live, it's just that there is one less person around me." ”

Yuan Hanliang's eyes were complicated, "Is it just that there is no one missing?" ”

"It's like you've been like this all these years, there's no threshold you can't cross," Chang Shenghua looked at the face of the ring that reflected the glimmer of light in the night, "But you're right, dervishe...... Without him, I would have been an ascetic. ”

An ascetic who can endure the pain that ordinary people can't endure.

Yuan Hanliang closed his eyes, "If she is as strong as you......"

Chang Shenghua said lightly: "No matter how powerful a person is, he can be fatal with one blow if he finds his weakness." ”

Isn't Ning Shaoming strong enough? He is the spiritual pillar of all the soldiers of Dragon Destroyer, but he still has depression that cannot be completely cured, and once it attacks, survival becomes the most painful torment.

"Is that ......" Yuan Hanliang was a little dazed, "Will everything be okay?" ”

Chang Sheng painted: "You haven't finished this life, who knows?" ”

Yuan Hanliang was silent for a moment, the wind rose, and the wind seemed to blow sand into his eyes, making him almost cry, "But I think I can't forget her in my life, if she lives, then she is just her first love, but when she dies, she becomes a knife in my eyes...... Like or love, I can't tell the difference, all the women I date have her shadow, her eyes, her voice, her smile, even if I have a good life in the future, she will always be the biggest regret of my life......"

The wind swept through the corners of Yuan Hanliang's clothes and flew to the mountains and forests in the distance, whimpering, like a mournful roar.

Chang Sheng's gaze looks beyond the high wall, as if through the mountains, looking into the distance.

Regretful...... Is it?

In matters related to Ning Shaoming, she didn't want to leave any regrets.

……

In the Dragon Destroyer Garrison.

The psychological intervention team has been staying at the station for a week, and they made an appointment with Ning Shaoming on the first day they came to learn about the basic situation of the Dragon Destroying Brigade.

After obtaining Ning Shaoming's consent, the psychological counselors of this group interviewed other team members one after another, and even accompanied and observed the training of a certain team throughout the day.

Ning Shaoming secretly asked Bai Mei in private, and the latter said that the group's actions did not exceed the scope of the assessment, and Ning Shaoming left them alone.

On the last day before the psychological intervention team left, they made another appointment to meet with Ning Shaoming, this time with a psychiatrist who spoke with him alone.

Staying in the special operations forces all year round, even if there is no Chang Sheng's painting, Ning Shaoming is very familiar with this set of processes, and is not afraid to communicate with the psychiatrist surnamed Li, in fact, this doctor Li is still an old acquaintance, and has done several routine assessments of the soldier's psychological state for him before.

After Dr. Li talked to him for about twenty minutes, he suddenly said, "Compared with two years ago, the mentality of the Ning squadron has changed a lot. ”

Two years ago, there was no accident in the Dragon Destroying Brigade, and Ning Shaoming did not meet Chang Sheng's painting.

Ning Shaoming said lightly: "After going through so much, there must always be some changes." ”

Dr. Lee thought for a moment, "You have a knot in your heart, has it been untied?" ”

Ning Shaoming knew that what the other party was talking about his mother Song Minxia, and he never said it, but Dr. Li could see it and tried to help him, but he didn't accept it.

"Sort of...... Ning Shaoming pondered his words, "at least I've learned to look forward and not care about those things." ”

People can't completely throw the past behind, but they can choose to turn the past into motivation instead of baggage.

Doctor Li smiled a little, he was not young anymore, looking at Ning Shaoming's kind eyes as if he was looking at a junior, "Before I was here, I was still thinking about how I could help you if I consulted you again...... I'm glad you don't need my help anymore. ”

"Thank you," Ning Shaoming also smiled, "I already have an exclusive psychiatrist, so I won't give you more work." ”

In fact, there are countless regrets and unfulfillments in his life, what he didn't get, what he lost after getting it, and what he didn't let go of in his hands, no one can tell whether he made or lost.

It's just that the rest of his life is so long, he has someone who can go down hand in hand, and those regrets and unperfections will one day disperse like wind and sand, and will no longer become a shadow in his life that cannot be overcome.