"I'm dead!"

It's so sweet that my tongue is about to fall off.

"It's a shame that guy can eat this kind of thing......"

I accidentally slipped through my mouth.

"Who's that guy?"

"I didn't ...... It's nothing. ”

I looked away, and suddenly Midori caught my eye in the sink in the corner of the living room. Midori was yawning.

"Mom, does Midori eat cake?"

"Don't eat it."

I didn't think I'd eat it, but I decided to give it a try. I tried forking a small piece with a fork into the sink.

"Don't be like this, what should I do if I eat a bad stomach?"

After observing for a while, Midori became interested in the cake.

Eat?

Don't eat it?

Ahh

Vomit.

Spit it out again.

I'm so disappointed.

"It's so sweet, after all."

Mom said as if sympathizing with Midori, and then took the dishes to the kitchen to wash.

After a while, I went to Tang Ling's hospital room again. For some reason, she was painting her nails.

"Oh, what's wrong today? Do you have a favorite boy who wants to visit? ”

I hid my stuff behind me and approached it.

"That's right, after Xiaotian leaves, Xue Zhiqian will come."

"Do you like Xue Zhiqian......?"

I don't understand this aesthetic at all.

"Ah, it's boring to see the same scenery in the same ward every day."

Tang Ling complained.

"Even if you say that, you can't help it."

"That's right. Ah, in that case, Midori is quite pitiful. ”

Tang Ling said suddenly.

"I've been in the sink all my life. Just like me. Even once, I really want it to see the rivers, lakes and seas. ”

Tang Ling said sentimentally. I don't think you can help it. Her words were like a rejection of the concept of pets.

"By the way, Xiaotian, I see you've been hiding behind your back for a long time, what is it?"

"Oh yes, well, look at it."

I said, handing her a white shoebox.

"It's the happiest way to give a gift in the world."

She seemed to be genuinely upset, and opened the box with a little anger.

"Oh my God, why?"

She looked at the contents of the box in disbelief.

Inside the box was a pair of red high heels, the same pair in the magazine ad she was reading. I found it in the mall.

"That's what I've always wanted."

"You put it on and try it."

"Is that okay?"

Tang Ling looked up at me a little embarrassed. It was the first time she had seen such an expression.

Tang Ling wore high heels cautiously and excitedly. Is it suitable, is the size okay, can it really be worn, as if it was as nervous as Cinderella in a fairy tale.

"Wow, just the right size. How so? It's amazing. Could it be that Xiaotian can read minds? ”

Not only is the size of the shoes just right, but Tang Ling's slender snow-white legs are also very suitable for high heels.

"Didn't I ask about the size of the shoes before?"

"Ahh

Tang Ling looked at me in surprise with a look of sudden realization.

"You're amazing, Xiaotian."

"It's okay, it's okay."

Tang Ling put on high heels on her feet and sat on the edge of the bed dangling her legs.

"I'd like to walk a little bit."

As she spoke, Tang Ling jumped off the bed excitedly.

Tang Ling held her head high and walked out of the ward gracefully. When I walked out of the doorway, I walked back like a fashion model. I couldn't help but laugh. She put her hands on her waist, spread her legs slightly, and posed boldly.

"How's that?"

I smiled and applauded her. Tang Ling smiled a little shyly.

Tang Ling returned to the bed and whispered in my ear.

"Actually, I'm D."

This time it was my turn to be shy.

Not knowing how to react, I clapped my hands again. Tang Ling smiled.

When I got home, I fell asleep in front of Sister Xiaoyan's altar as usual, and opened the magazines I bought. Because I remembered what I said before, if Tang Ling's test results are good, the two of us will go to play somewhere. I flipped through magazines to see what places I could make a day trip. At this time, the phone rang.

> results of the examination are in. Not good at all.

It was a text message from Tang Ling.

I gently tossed the magazine in the trash.

The first floor of Tang Ling's hospital is the outpatient registration area, which is lined with rows of dark benches that are unique to the public sector. One day when I went to the hospital, I saw Aunt Chen Lu sitting there. I wanted to say hello, but as I walked over, I noticed that she looked like she was going to die.

Aunt Chen Lu's face was pale and her expression was solemn. On closer inspection, her whole body was trembling. Not only the fingers, but also the legs, the whole body was shaking. It's sad to look at. I swallowed the "hello" back in my throat and asked instead, "Auntie, are you okay?" ”

Aunt Chen Lu looked at me deliriously.

“…… You're coming to see Tang Ling again today? ”

"Is something wrong?"

I asked, holding back my uneasiness.

"I'm not like this, it's far from it."

I couldn't say "yes" or "nothing", so I had to be silent. At this time, Aunt Chen Lu handed me a paper bag beside her.

"I'm sorry, can you transfer this to Tang Ling for me?"

I thought for a moment, wouldn't you just give it to her yourself, but I took it in silence.

"Now, I'd better not meet that kid."

After saying that, Aunt Chen Lu stood up, left a sentence of "then please", and then hobbled towards the exit. After watching her leave blankly, I walked towards Tang Ling's hospital room. In the elevator, I kept chewing on Aunt Chen Lu's words and thinking about the deep meaning, but I really couldn't think of any good explanation.

When I entered the ward, I immediately met Tang Ling's eyes.

"I thought you'd never come again."

Sunlight shone in through the window, painting her silhouette a pale gold. Her face was so beautiful, I couldn't help but think about it. If Tang Ling hadn't been sick, what would her life be like? There must be a lot of friends gathered around, and the personality is even more cheerful than it is now. I probably won't have much to do with it.

"Why do you say that?"

I sat down on a round chair next to the bed.

"I thought you were angry."

"What am I angry about?"

"Obviously I said I was going to go out to play, but now it's in the soup."

"Why be angry about such a thing?"

I don't understand her thoughts at all.

"I've always wondered if you're going to hate me one day and never come back again if you're going to make things hard for you by saying wayward things. And then it all ended. ”

"No, it won't."

I didn't think too much about it, just comforted her.

"Now, even if one day I tell you never to come, will you still come?"

Tang Ling always said something vexatious and embarrassed me.

…… She seemed a little scared. I don't know if it's because the test results are not very good, but in short, for various reasons, she panicked and was a little worried.

"Don't worry."

To end this conversation, I handed the paper bag to Tang Ling.

"I saw your mother at the entrance just now. She seems to be quite busy, so let me pass this on to you. ”

"Mom isn't actually a bad person. Xiaotian, I'm sorry last time. She used to be a very stable person. It's all my fault, maybe she's a little tired. ”

As she spoke, Tang Ling took out the contents of the paper bag. That's knitting needles and half-knitting stuff.

"What."

I asked incredulously.

"I started knitting this when I was in middle school, but I didn't finish it because I was in trouble soon. I suddenly remembered that it would be better to finish this kind of thing. ”

For some reason, Tang Ling looked at the half-woven yarn a little overwhelmed. This mass of fabric has not yet taken shape.

"I wanted to knit a sweater at that time, but it was too late, right?"

"What?"

"I can't finish weaving in winter. It's useless to wear a sweater in the spring. ”

Tang Ling sighed deeply, then lay on the bed with a plop and looked at me with melancholy eyes.

"What do you want to do next time?"

I asked with all right.

"Well, I want to go to astronomy."

"I like little stars." Tang Ling said to me with a smile in a somewhat coquettish voice. This is the first time I've heard this sound.

Maybe it's because the distance between us has been shortened. Or maybe it's too close.

Actually, no matter who shines, it will glow faintly. It's just that it's hard to identify with the naked eye, and people don't usually notice it. It is said that not only humans, but all living beings emit a faint light. This light, called a "biophoton", is only one millionth the brightest of a star. In the population, people who glow abnormally brightly are considered to have luminescence.

When I got home that day, I was alone. At night, lie in bed and look at the ceiling in contemplation.

What can I do for Tang Ling?

What she said she wanted to do before she died, was it her real wish?

I suddenly realized it.

I fulfilled Tang Ling's wishes one by one, but for some reason, I felt that her mood was getting closer and closer to death.

Am I doing the right thing?

It was a sleepless night. I looked at my watch, and it was past two o'clock in the morning. It was twelve o'clock when I went to bed, and I pondered for two hours.

I got out of bed and went downstairs. Came to the dimly lit kitchen and fumbled to open the refrigerator door. The light leaking out of it was very harsh. At night, when I was a little hungry, I would look through to see if there was anything to eat.

I walked to the balcony with the ham and soda. On summer nights, insects chirp constantly.

I thought to myself that Wu Jie couldn't have slept at this time, but I still called him.

"What are you doing, Xiaotian? It's strange that you're calling me. ”

"Wu Jie, why are you still awake. Go to sleep. ”

I laughed for no reason.

"What are you doing? …… Hey, where are you now? ”

"The balcony at home."

"Second floor?"

"First floor, what are you worried about?"

"The ground floor is good. Are you drinking? ”

As soon as he said this, I realized that at this time, people seem to be drinking.

"I'm not an adult."

"Haven't you drunk it?"

"It's not for nothing."

"So, you're not drunk, what are you doing at this time?"

"Hey, why can't I sleep in the middle of the night?"

"How do I know?"

Wu Jie said, snorting coldly and laughing at me. He's always been like that.

"Hey, Wu Jie. Tang Ling, her condition is not very optimistic. ”

"And then?"

"Aren't you coming to see her?"

"I'll go when I want to."