"Have you been more energetic lately than before?"

Mom said with a sigh. Now, in the eyes of others, I may seem to have become as lively as a rebirth. But in reality, this is not the case.

"Wow——!"

Tang Ling's eyes lit up and she jumped with joy.

"Turtle!"

Is it OK to bring a turtle to the ward? No, it's hard to think about it...... But I still put the turtle in my bag and brought it smuggling.

"Great, you remember."

"The salary of the part-time job has been paid in advance."

However, the only person who is so happy because of a turtle is probably Tang Ling.

"What's its name?" Tang Ling asked.

"Name? A turtle is a turtle. ”

I replied bluntly.

"Are you serious?"

"Hmm."

"It's unbelievable!"

Tang Ling shouted as if she was angry. One will be happy and the other will be angry, it is really busy.

"Then Tang Ling, come and choose a name."

"Huh? May I? May I? ”

I always feel that Tang Ling is very happy.

"Looking forward to your taste in naming."

"Midori, how's it going?"

"It's tasteless!"

It was a terrible name.

"Isn't it good? It's cute, isn't it, little green. ”

It was as if the name Little Green had been ingrained in her head. So, the name of my pet was so happily decided.

After that, I also dealt with Tang Ling's unreasonable demands. Among the "things she wanted to do before she died" that she told me, there were many things that made me feel that she really wanted to do before she died. Or is it a whim who wants to see me embarrassed and have fun with it? Still, I reluctantly accepted them all.

She said she wanted to be accosted, so I stood at the crossroads of a busy street. Of course, no one accosted me at all. I said to the girl on the street, "Can you talk to me?", but it was misunderstood as a new way to talk to me, and I was scolded miserably.

She said she wanted to sing at karaoke until she was hoarse, and I did. The next day, looking at me with a hoarse voice like an evil wizard, Tang Ling smiled.

I didn't do all of Tang Ling's requests, because there were many things that were impossible to achieve.

She said she wanted to get into a taxi and said to the driver, "Please take me to the riverside." But I was afraid that my pocket money would not be enough, so I stopped this matter.

She said that she wanted to fight zombies, but unfortunately there were no zombies in the world we live in, so she couldn't fight them.

She said that she wanted to race at 00 kilometers per hour, but of course it was impossible. I don't have a car or a driver's license, and I wouldn't do that if I had.

Hey, anyway, I still admire her for thinking so many things. After all, I don't have anything I want to do myself.

Every time I did what she said she said "what I wanted to do before I died" and reported it to her, she would laugh a lot. Actually, I don't hate such days, but I enjoy them.

"Thank you, so I have one less regret."

She said this after the karaoke presentation.

One thing suddenly occurred to me.

Am I responsible for helping Tang Ling eliminate her nostalgia in this world one by one?

"Now, Tang Ling."

I tried to ask her.

"Huh?"

"Tang Ling, have you ever thought about committing suicide?"

She replied to me in the same tone as she would in everyday conversation.

"Every day, I think so."

I was a little shocked by her answer.

Think about it every day.

I had a vague feeling that maybe this was true.

I also asked my sister Xiaoyan the same question. But I don't remember what she said to me.

However, since the death of her lover, Sister Xiaoyan has become a frequent outing.

Even though it's going out, it's not about going somewhere to meet or who to hang out with.

She really just walks, but it's not as easy as walking. Five hours, six hours, she didn't mind, she just kept walking.

Sister Xiaoyan has her own principles. You don't decide where you want to go, you can start at any time and walk in a way you want. There is no speed allocation, no breaks, and when you are tired, you can take a train or taxi home.

Sister Xiaoyan died during a night stroll.

After Xiaoyan's death, I occasionally followed her for a stroll once a month. In the middle of the night, try not to be noticed by your mother, sneak out of the house, and walk aimlessly. At this time, I will try to follow Sister Xiaoyan's simple way. Aimless, wandering. Alone.

But only once, I went with Wu Jie.

It was a night on a secondary school trip. Speaking of nights like these, it seems that there must be all kinds of nonsense, and the guys in the class are drinking behind the teacher's back. They talk with great interest about who they like, who they are socializing with, and so on. But it's not appropriate for me to go to bed alone, and even if I want to, I can't sleep because it's too noisy.

So, I tried to sneak out of the dorm. At this time, I met Wu Jie at the top of the stairs.

"Xiaotian, it's so late, where are you going?"

“…… Go anywhere. ”

"Then I'll go too."

I refused, but Wu Jie insisted on following. I ignored Wu Jie and kept walking; He didn't talk to me, he just followed me.

On the night of the school trip, we walked silently.

I basically don't turn around, I just keep going, trying to choose a sparsely populated road. I don't want to go back when I walk, and I feel the urge to go all the way to death. Even so, I was exhausted and couldn't walk.

I happened to see a small shrine, so I sat down in the precincts of the shrine. Wu Jie bought juice at the vending machine and threw it to me.

"You're not very sick."

Wu Jie looked at me and said speechlessly.

"I'm normal."

Pull the tab open and pour the carbonic acid into your stomach in one go. It's supposed to be a sweet drink, but for some reason it feels bitter.

"Because I've always felt like you're the type who can't go anywhere."

Wu Jie said meaningfully. I always felt despised by him, and I felt very unhappy.

"If you say that, can you go anywhere?"

"I'm not the same as Xiaotian. I am more detached than you. Don't look at me like this, I'm enjoying it. After my brother died, I felt like reality was like a game. Anyway, there will be a day when you suddenly have braids, so it's useless to be real. So, even if I hurt others, I would never let myself get hurt. ”

I can't resonate with those words in the slightest.

"I'm going to play with life."

"Whatever you want."

I replied impatiently.

"So, you can go with your worries, Xiaotian."

It was as if I was asking him to share his share of his troubles.

"It's annoying, you guy."

I threw the empty can in the trash.

By the way, I remembered.

"Sometimes, I want to get out of here and go somewhere else."

When I asked Sister Xiaoyan at that time, she seemed to answer like this.

That's right, as Sister Xiaoyan said. On this stage, the life that is staged every day can occasionally be suffocating. That's why she did that. Maybe that's why I always run to Tang Ling's ward.

"I really want to make a cake."

One day, Tang Ling said on a whim.

However, one thing suddenly occurred to me. She said so much about food that she couldn't help but ......

"Who do you think is a foodie?"

Recently, Tang Ling seems to be able to see through my thoughts. I replied, a little scared.

"It's nothing, I'll bring it to you next time."

"Thank you...... But I don't know if I'll be able to eat it all. ”

Suddenly, Tang Ling's expression darkened. That's an expression I haven't seen much lately.

"It's okay, I'll eat the rest."

"Ah, but listen to me, this time, I'm going to do a pretty big check. I've been in good health lately, so if I get better, I might be able to be discharged from the hospital temporarily. ”

"So let's go somewhere. Where do you want to go? ”

"But I can't get out of the house. Otherwise, Xiaotian, you can think about it. ”

"It's different from before."

"It's okay to do this once in a while, just go where Xiaotian wants to go. I'm looking forward to it, I'll do it. ”

Tang Ling said these willful words with a bright face.

After the maid café got off work, I stayed in the kitchen to make the cake myself. Luckily, there are cakes on the menu, and I remember how to make them, and the ingredients are plentiful. And the boss is not there, as long as it is not discovered, it should be fine.

"What are you doing, Xiaotian?"

Sister Xiaoli suddenly appeared.

"Ahh

"Then I'll help too."

"No, I'm still ......"

"Like to do it alone?"

Sister Xiaoli said a little awkwardly. I was at a loss for what to say.

"Let's do it together next time."

I hurried to cope with it.

"Next time, then. Am I serious? ”

Sister Xiaoli said and went back.

"Hey, this cake is too sweet, isn't it?"

Tang Ling said with a frown.

"If you want to say that, then don't eat it."

The strawberry tart cake is an original work that I did my best, and I don't have it on the menu.

I stayed until after eleven o'clock in the evening, and she saw my efforts as something. I'm a little.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, it's sweet and delicious! Xiaotian, don't be angry~"

I wanted to snatch the small plate, but Tang Ling hurriedly pressed my hand and said.

As a result, she ate all the cakes I had given her, despite saying so.

"How's it going, it's delicious."

I said triumphantly.

"Xiao Tian is really a genius in cooking!"

I always felt that when she said this, it sounded like a lie.

"By the way, how many cups does Tang Ling have?"

I asked inadvertently, and Tang Ling punched me over.

"Why are you asking this all of a sudden?"

"I want to know."

"Refuse to make it public."

"How much does that weigh?"

"I don't know."

"What about blood type?"

"Secret."

"No, no, my blood type tells me it's always okay."

“…… Type O. ”

"How big are the feet?"

“38。”

"It's huge."

"Isn't that all like that! It's so-so! ”

Tang Ling was angry, so I took my leave.

When I got home, I ate the leftover cake with my mom.

"Your dad has never liked sweets, I didn't expect you to make cakes. What is this? ”

"Strawberry tart cake."

I put the cake on a small plate and replied.

Mom took a bite with a fork and tasted it, "What, the amount of sugar is wrong, right?" ”

The mother protested with a frown. It shouldn't be like this...... I tasted it myself.