This night, after being busy, Hetu fetched water and prepared to wash her face and sleep, she was so tired that she felt that she couldn't lift her legs, and it seemed that now she could fall asleep as long as she fell on the kang. Walking into the house with a basin, she saw Heyi sitting on the edge of the kang in a daze, so she shouted. Who knew that Nizi was taken aback, and she didn't even see Hedi walk in with her eyes open, and now she saw Hedi tilting her head and frowning at her, her face turned red all of a sudden, and she hurriedly jumped off the kang, and turned around a few times in place but didn't know what to do.

"What do you want?" He asked, placing the basin on the basin stand, removing the towel from the shelf and dipping it in the water. He Yi was stunned for a moment, lowered his head, and walked back and forth in the room for a few steps before muttering, "Sister, I want to go back to school." ”

He Tu's movements were stunned, but she reacted immediately, wiped the wet towel on her face, and said, "You should say this to Dad." ”

"Actually, that's what I thought, and I never planned to tell my dad." He Yi twisted the corners of his clothes and said sullenly, "Dad will definitely not let me go." ”

"Why did you suddenly have this idea, didn't you say it was fun at home?" He put down the towel, untied his hair and began to comb his hair.

"I'm today—" Heyi sat back down, "I found my homework book from the utility room, my homework was only halfway done, and before I finished it, I suddenly had an urge to finish it quickly and hand it over to the teacher." ”

He Tu turned his head and looked at her fixedly for a few seconds, and said with a smile: "Forget it, those things should have been thrown away a long time ago, otherwise they will make you think about it again." ”

"I didn't think about it. If I had insisted on it a little longer, would my father have agreed to let me continue to go to school......" He Yi looked up at the ceiling, as if she had seen her father promise to go to school, and a happy smile gradually appeared on her face, but the smile quickly disappeared, and she lowered her head again, listlessly watching her sister busy on the ground.

"Don't think about this, since you know that your father won't agree, why do you have to think so much to make yourself feel uncomfortable." He Tu paused, and before he could say anything, He Rui opened the curtain from the outside and came in. She glanced at the two of them coldly, shook her hair, and said to Heyi: "You still want to go to school, don't dream." ”

Seeing that her trouser legs were covered in mud and her hair was braided with a few straws, she knew she didn't know where to go to play again. He turned his face and continued to braid his braids, not wanting to talk to her. He Yi glanced at the third sister in disappointment, closed his mouth and stopped talking.

"Hmph." He Rui snorted coldly, "The family is dumb and doesn't say anything." ”

He knew that if he responded to Herui's words now, the scene after that would definitely be a fight to the death. So she bit her lip and held back, after all, she gradually got used to it after many times.

Seeing that no one paid attention to her, He Rui sneered again, and went directly to the kang without even washing.

Their conversation was interrupted by the arrival of Herui, and they could not continue. He Yi held back his stomach of grievances and the desire to confide, and he couldn't sleep when he rolled around on the kang. She remembered the days in school, the classmates were so kind and lively, the teachers were so kind and gentle, and the days in school, although they struggled in books every day, but that was the taste of hard work, and the brewing process of a better future, and what are these days now? Rolling around in the field every day, going home to eat, wash your face and go to bed, there is no progress, nothing new to speak of. The more He Yi thought about it, the more aggrieved he felt, as if he couldn't bear it anymore at this moment. She clenched her fist tightly, but suddenly, her fist loosened again, she knew that her current indignation would not have any effect, in the face of reality, she felt a deep powerlessness, this is not for her own decision, her future is in the hands of others, and she has no initiative.

Just as Heyi was tossing and turning at this end, there was also a person on the other side of the kang who couldn't sleep with his eyes open, and that was Herui. At the moment, she is the same as Heyi, her heart is full of dissatisfaction and resentment against reality, but the reasons are different and the circumstances are different. But the goal is the same, that is, to escape from here. She perfected the embryonic plan in her own brain, but she couldn't come up with a perfect plan with no flaws. She tossed and turned, racking her brains, but her brain became more and more chaotic.

During this time, it cannot be said that life was peaceful. When people grow up, they will have their hearts, and they can't be coaxed with candy like they did when they were children. Somehow, Heyi suddenly became distant and polite to his father, as long as he met with his father without saying a word, he lowered his head and left in a hurry. Jiafu was confused about her actions, and it was difficult to put down his father's shelf to ask her. The actions of the two little daughters have become strange, only Hetu is busy every day, and he greets everyone with a smile, which makes people feel more comfortable. But where did he know that Hetu also had his own thoughts, and he couldn't sleep every night when he thought about it. It's just that the wedding date is approaching, and she wants to stay at home for one more day, so she will smile more and do things softly, so that her parents will feel happy when they see her, and she will be satisfied.

On the afternoon after Hefu returned to school after the summer vacation, Hedi finally contacted Xiuhan. In the past few months, she has been calling almost once a month, expecting to hear Xiuhan's voice, but every time she is told that she has not come back yet, or where and where to train and perform. On the afternoon of sending her father and Hefu away, she was just holding the mentality of giving it a try, but she didn't expect the phone to be connected at once, Xiuhan's voice came from the other end, looking a little hoarse, and asked tiredly, "Who?" ”

"Xiuhan!" He was so excited that he almost shouted, "It's me!" Finally got in touch with you. ”

"Hedi?" Hearing Hedi's voice, Xiuhan cheered up a little, but his mood was still a little faint, "Why did you call?" ”

"I'll call you every month, but you're not home every time." He Tu said dissatisfiedly, "What are you busy with?" ”

Xiuhan sighed, was silent for a while, and suddenly said, "I'm so tired, Hedi." ”

He Tu was stunned for a moment, she remembered that Xiuhan she saw on TV every week was so radiant, elegant and beautiful, as long as Xiuhan stood on the stage, there were so many hands raised in the audience, so many mouths opened to shout her name, how could she be tired? Isn't that the life that many people look forward to?

"Why?" He hesitated, but asked anyway.

Xiuhan sniffed, paused, and said, "I'm really tired, I didn't expect to be so tired." ”

"But—I saw you on TV, weren't you quite successful? Heyi also said that you have won several awards, which is very powerful, why do you feel tired? He Tu suddenly said, "Are you tired from running around every day?" ”

Xiuhan shook his head with a wry smile and said, "Hedi, you don't understand. She paused, then added, "I love what I do, and I don't get tired just running around doing activities." I feel tired because of the environment I'm in now, I didn't expect it to be like this, it's different from what I first envisioned. ”

"What's the difference?"

Xiuhan sighed, and her tone suddenly became cheerful, but there was reluctance in that cheerfulness, and when she heard it, she knew that she was pretending, "Forget it, don't talk about it, how are you doing?" ”

"Me?" He Tu was stunned, and suddenly felt that depression crept up into her heart again, and she said sullenly, "That's it, my mother has made a marriage for me, and I will ...... this winter."

"Marriage?" Xiuhan's voice suddenly raised, "Who?" And Zhu Hai? ”

He Tu smiled bitterly and said, "No. She wanted to say that to Xiuhan, but she couldn't say it anyway, she vaguely felt in her heart that as long as she said it, she would be ridiculed, she would be looked down upon, and she would be considered unhappy, but she was never willing to show her unhappiness in front of Xiuhan.

"Who's that?" Xiuhan asked suspiciously, "Then you and Zhu Hai?" ”

"I don't have anything to do with him." He Tu said in disappointment, "That's it." ”

"What a pity, you two." Xiuhan's tone suddenly paused, "What's the matter?" ”

"I don't want to say it." He Tu shook her head, and out of the corner of her eye, she saw the woman behind the counter looking at her strangely, and hurriedly changed the subject, "What about you?" So how are you and Xing Siyun? ”

As soon as she heard Xing Siyun's name, Xiuhan's tone suddenly became crazy, and she snorted a few times on the other end of the microphone before she snorted angrily: "Don't mention him." ”

"What's wrong?"

"Not really." Xiuhan snorted a few more times, "I always feel that he is against me." For example, I want to do this, and I think it's the right thing to do, but he wants me to do it, and then I lose the opportunity to do it, and I can't do either. He would lose his temper with me and say that I ignored him and didn't love him anymore. How do you think he could be? Xiuhan became more and more energetic the more he spoke, "Isn't it true that two people are together to understand and support each other?" I'm so busy with work and study now, I can't be busy at both ends, but he still wants me to accompany him every day, how can I have time? Do you know? Xiuhan's tone suddenly became intense, "He actually asked me to give up singing?" Let me give up? She screamed in disbelief, as if Xing Siyun was standing in front of her right now and saying this to her.

He Tu was stunned by Xiuhan's series of tongue twisters, and she didn't understand it for a while, and when Xiuhan stopped, she hurriedly asked, "Let you give up singing?" ”

"That's right!" Xiu coldly patted his thigh, "How can I give up?" This is my life! ”

"And what do you do now?"

He Tu originally didn't understand Xiuhan's words, but it was not good for her to ask this question when she was angry, but she didn't expect Xiuhan to be stunned when she heard it. She looked ahead blankly, chuckling in her heart, as if she had never thought about what to do, she had to get by, tearing down the wall of her career to make up for the wall of love, or tearing down the wall of love to make up for the wall of her career, and now she is not good at both ends, on the one hand, she is criticized by the company, and on the other hand, she is complained by her boyfriend. In addition, the company originally agreed with her that she would not fall in love within five years, and her relationship can be said to be an underground job, but she never thought about what she would do if someone else broke out. The more she thought about it, the colder it became, almost as if a basin of cold water had been poured over her head.

"I, I don't know." She stammered, "I never thought about it,"

"Do you prefer him, or do you like to sing?" He Tu asked again, she seemed to understand what Xiu Han was worried about.

Xiuhan thought about it seriously for a while, but she didn't find the result, she said in a hurry, "This can't be compared, one is a person, the other is a hobby, how can it be compared?" ”

"Then which is more important in your heart?" He Tu asked word by word, "If you were asked to choose only one at that juncture, which one would you choose?" ”

Xiuhan felt a terrible headache, and she couldn't understand why there was such a problem. She didn't think things would have turned out like this at all, so she said to herself, "No, there won't be such a juncture." ”

"How do you know?" He Tu asked again, "Aren't you at such a juncture now?" ”

Xiuhan was stunned and speechless for a while. She remembered the quarrel with Xing Siyun that day, she roared like that, and he looked at her coldly with his arms folded like that. She heard him say, "If you don't want to, then we'll separate and be good for each other." What else is that? I don't see you once a month, and I have to be asked at school if I'm in a relationship with you, and I can't admit it yet, have you ever thought about how unfair it was to me? ”

"You know, you know I love singing, and I'm not going to give it up." Xiuhan's face was full of snot and tears, "You know, why can't you be considerate of me, can't you understand me?" You bear with me a little longer, and I'll make it public when the time comes, okay? When the time comes, will we be together every day? I won't leave you for a minute! ”

Xing Siyun sneered, he looked at her for a long time, reached out and took out a pack of handkerchief paper from his pocket and handed it to her, motioning for her to wipe the tears on her face. He had always been so polite and detached, as if they weren't a couple. Xiuhan didn't take it, so he put it back in his pocket, and then slowly said, "I understand you, who understands me?" ”

The next day, Xiuhan sang the wrong lyrics and entered the wrong beat in a very important performance, and finally fell hard when he left the stage. The company severely criticized her, but at this serious criticism meeting, she still didn't belong, and her mind was full of Xing Siyun's resolute face. She felt that she was in a terrible state now, so she simply took a few days off and went home to rest. However, the past few days when she went home have not been peaceful, and all kinds of relatives have come to visit her after hearing about it, either taking pictures and posting them on social networks or asking her about various gossip about the entertainment industry. Xiuhan was so annoyed that she had to put on a kind and kind expression to receive them, otherwise the next day there would be news about her playing a big name and not knowing her relatives. After a few days of such confusion, Huirui finally ended this unnutritious reception with Hui Rui successfully faking the illusion that the family was traveling. It's just that the family can't go out at will, and all the purchasing activities are handed over to the nanny, which makes Xiuhan's vacation more and more boring, more and more irritable, almost to the point of being unable to sleep at night.

"Hetu." Xiuhan was silent for a long time, and finally spoke, "The current situation is not so simple, what I am facing is too complicated, and it is not a simple choice that can be decided. ”

"How complicated can it be?" He Tu asked rhetorically, "I think it's very simple, why don't you pick one yourself?" ”

"It's not like that, you haven't experienced it, you don't understand."

He Tu was silent, she really hadn't experienced it, she wasn't as glamorous as Xiuhan, nor did she have a good voice like Xiuhan, she was just a country girl. Even the two younger sisters beside her couldn't cope with it, and she was still delusional about giving Xiuhan an idea, she was really too naïve. He felt a deep sense of loss in his heart, and for a moment both of them fell silent, and only the sound of each other's inaudible breathing could be heard.

"Forget it, let's not talk about these unhappy ones." It took a long time for Xiuhan to speak, "Let's say something else." ”

"Say what." He Tu asked in despair, she originally thought that this conversation would be very pleasant, but she didn't expect it to go to such a point, which made her unexpected, and the whole person withered.

"Your marriage." Xiuhan cheered up and said, "You are still young, why did your parents get you engaged so early?" ”

"We're all like this here, and my sister was married at my age." He Tu paused, as if in revenge, "You haven't experienced it, you don't understand." ”

Xiuhan sighed softly, stopped talking, I don't know how long it took, she said again: "I don't want you to be like this, you are still young, there are still many things worth doing for you, don't let your parents decide your life on their own." It's really too early for you to get married now, and you're going to be dragged down. ”

He Tu listened silently, she didn't understand Xiuhan's words, and she also understood Xiuhan's kindness, but she couldn't disobey her father's orders, she could only obey them. She is not like Xiuhan, she can decide her own life. Still, she whispered a thank you, knowing that this friend was genuinely looking out for her, not just superficially.

"You listen to me." Xiuhan's tone became urgent, "You have to resist, you have to decide your own destiny, and don't put your life in the hands of others." You know? ”

"Got it." He Tu suddenly smiled, "Thank you, Xiuhan, it's good to have a friend like you." ”

Xiuhan's originally restless heart suddenly calmed down, and she was deeply moved by Hedi's thanks. If you want to, this friend of mine is usually not easy to say what is in his heart, let alone say such sensational words. Xiuhan believes that she is sincere, and believes that she will definitely remember her words and work hard to implement them.

"You're going to be okay too." He Tu said, "Don't worry about those unnecessary things, just be yourself." ”

Xiuhan nodded at the other end, as if he thought his friend could see it. However, she seemed to really see it, and she smiled brightly, and suddenly felt that she could finally help her friend, which made her feel extremely happy.

After greeting for a while, the two hung up the phone. Xiuhan is still worried about his own affairs, and Hetu is going home to prepare the family's lunch. She walked slowly on the sparsely populated dirt road, the sun shining on her body, and her burning skin seemed to be on fire. She can't imagine what kind of life Xiuhan is living now, she is trapped in her own emotions and can't extricate herself, no matter what she thinks of Xiuhan, she carries her own shadow. However, my life is so boring, no matter how fantasizing I am, I can't bring novelty to it. She suddenly felt a little deflated, as if she had lived in vain for more than ten years.

She didn't know where to go, just walked by inertia, and when her toes finally touched the threshold of her courtyard door, two male voices suddenly came from behind her. She was startled and hurriedly turned around.