When Zheng Xi was counting the number of goods in the warehouse, there was a violent knock on the door of his residence, at first, he didn't take it seriously, but the knock lasted for a long time, he put down his notebook, walked to the door, and looked out suspiciously.

I saw Cheng Yan pinching his wrist with one hand, sobbing constantly, and desperately slamming the door of his house.

Zheng Xi hurriedly walked over, and at a glance saw the blood stains that were already half wet on the cuffs, and the blood was still flowing downward, Cheng Yan's face was pale, he couldn't breathe from crying, and looked at him through tears in a panic.

"What's wrong? What's wrong? Why is it bleeding? Zheng Xi also panicked, he grabbed Cheng Yan's wrist, coaxed the child to let go of his right hand, and carefully observed it in the sun, only to see that the wound was deep and bone-seeing, which was very terrifying. He hurriedly rummaged in his pocket, took out a stack of papers and pressed it against the wound, and said anxiously, "You press, don't let the blood flow out again." ”

Cheng Yan was already panicked at this time, and only listened to Zheng Xi's words. She followed Zheng Xi to the parking lot, got into the car, and ran to the hospital. Fortunately, the blood vessels were not cut, only the tendons and veins were cut, and a small operation was needed to suture them. Zheng Xi relieved himself, sat down opposite Cheng Yan, and asked worriedly, "What's wrong?" Tell your uncle, how did you get hurt like this? ”

Cheng Yan hung her head, she had calmed down at this time, and when she heard this question, she glanced up at Zheng Xi, and there was no emotion in her eyes. She shook her head, hung her head again, and refused to say a word.

Zheng Xi sighed, took out her mobile phone and was about to call Hedi, but was stopped by Cheng Yan's quick hand, she was a little flustered, shook her head and said, "Don't tell my mother." ”

"Why?"

"She'll kill me." Cheng Yan said, and hung his head weakly.

Zheng Xi looked at her for a few seconds, put the phone back in his pocket, and persuaded: "It's okay, the doctor said it's okay, just do a minor operation, does it hurt?" ”

"It doesn't hurt." Cheng Yan said stubbornly, from that tone, Zheng Xi actually heard a trace of Hetu's shadow, once upon a time, Hetu was also so alone to bear it, and he didn't want to say a bitter word to him.

However, no matter how scared Cheng Yan is, Hetu must know after all. When the child was sent to the operating room, Hetu came in a panic, she brushed the broken hair on her forehead, and cried out in a hurry, "What's wrong, what's wrong?" ”

"It's fine." Zheng Xi repeated the doctor's words and comforted her. He Tu breathed a sigh of relief, sat down on the chair weakly, and muttered: "I just scolded her a few words, why doesn't she have the strength to bear it at all, and she still wants to seek death?" ”

Zheng Xi looked at the back of her head, not knowing what to say for a while, just kept soothing her back, trying to calm her down.

"Let's wait until the child comes out of the operating room." Zheng Xi paused slightly, "Maybe it's too much pressure to study." ”

"Too much pressure?" He Tu glanced at Zheng Xi with wide eyes, "How stressful can she be to study, she can study to this extent now, she is already very happy, like when I was a child, I couldn't study if I wanted to!" ”

Zheng Xi was speechless, Hetu was always like this, and he could turn irrelevant topics to himself.

The two of them waited outside the operating room for a while, and Cheng Yan was pushed out, she was still under anesthesia, falling asleep with her eyes closed. He Tu grabbed the trolley and looked at her daughter worriedly, screaming incessantly. The nurse said impatiently: "The anesthesia is not over yet, and she can't hear you when you call her." ”

Zheng Xi took Hedi's hand, smiled apologetically at the nurse, and whispered, "It's okay, it's all right, don't worry." ”

Cheng Yan opened her eyes, and the first thing she saw was her mother's panicked and worried face that pretended to be calm, her reaction was a little sluggish, and she thought she was sleeping at home, but when she saw the white wall, she remembered what happened before. A sudden burst of fear swelled up in her calm heart, and she looked at her mother cautiously, and saw that her mother did not reproach her, so she secretly relieved her heart.

He Tu didn't say a word, she has never been good at expressing her emotions, especially expressing love, she is just busy before and after, and even the small action of tucking the quilt corner has been done many times, as if she wants to express her feelings in this way. In fact, when Cheng Yan couldn't see it, she asked the doctor many times, for fear that there would be any sequelae, but the doctor assured her that there would be no problems, and she gradually put her mind at ease. This matter must be told to Cheng Jiahua, but when Cheng Jiahua arrived, Zheng Xi had to go, He Tu suddenly felt a little vulnerable, she looked at Zheng Xi reluctantly, her mouth opened, but she didn't say anything.

Cheng Yan stayed in the hospital for a week and was discharged home. She had a slightly yellowed gauze wrapped around her left wrist and tucked it in her sleeve, trying to act as if nothing had happened. But those neighbors, whether good or bad, already knew, crowded next to her and looked at her curiously and suspiciously, and kept asking Cheng Jiahua and Hedi. Cheng Jiahua pursed his lips tightly and didn't say a word, He Tu frowned, just answered impatiently once or twice, and the family of three finally entered the door, and the surroundings quieted down.

"That's what you do!" Hedi's temper was ignited again, and he scolded the listless Cheng Yan, "I didn't die, and I let the people outside say this, it's not a shame!" ”

Cheng Yan closed his eyes and took a deep breath.

Cheng Jiahua sat on the sofa with a gloomy face, although he didn't speak, his expression still showed reproach to Cheng Yan.

"I didn't say it before, because you haven't recovered yet. What are you not satisfied with in your life right now? I won't even let you cook, you just need to study well every day, what are you not satisfied with? You still have to seek death, since you are looking for death, you can die one by one, why are you still alive? Who are you doing this for? The more He Tu spoke, the more angry he became, and the spittle Xingzi was about to spray on Cheng Yan's face from a distance of one meter. Cheng Yan clenched his fists tightly and endured it desperately, so that the tears did not fall.

"Mom!" Cheng Lin shouted, stood in front of Cheng Yan, and blocked the spittle stars flying in the air, "Don't say it, it's all happened, what's the use of you scolding my sister now?" ”

"Look at that dead look!" He Tu pointed at Cheng Yan who was shrinking behind Cheng Lin with his index finger, "It's exactly the same as your father!" I didn't learn the good ones, but I learned all the bad ones! ”

This sentence was like a lit match detonating the gas-filled air, which once again caused a quarrel between Hetu and Cheng Jiahua. Although Cheng Jiahua doesn't quarrel, and he doesn't scold as much, but occasionally the words he says are poisonous and stinging, and the Hetu crosses his waist and is about to explode. At this time, Cheng Lin and Cheng Yan seemed to have become one person, and the two children exchanged glances tacitly and slipped out the door, leaving room for their parents to quarrel.

"It's really annoying!" Cheng Lin sat down on the steps, looked at the sky and exhaled heavily.

Cheng Yan sat down next to him and didn't speak, just stared blankly at his left wrist.

"Does it still hurt?" After being silent for a few seconds, Cheng Lin suddenly asked. He was a little embarrassed, but he still looked at Cheng Yan with some concern.

"It doesn't hurt." Cheng Yan was a little flattered, she lowered her head and shook her head gently.

"Do you agree with your parents' divorce?" Cheng Lin asked again, his topic turned very bluntly, and he felt embarrassed, "If your parents divorce, who are you going to follow?" ”

"I don't follow anyone." Cheng Yan said, although his voice was soft, but the things he expressed were very firm, "I can take care of myself." ”

"That's what I thought too." Cheng Lin sighed, shifted his gaze back to the blue sky, and was stunned.

Cheng Yan's things are very inconsistent with her appearance, and when she was about to fill in the college volunteer at the end of the college entrance examination, she resolutely filled in the university in the city farthest from home. She doesn't care whether the university is good or not, and whether the major she chooses is good or not, the only thing she cares about is the farther away from home, the better. Of course, the parents disagreed, but the form had already been submitted and there was no way to modify it, so they could only grind and force Cheng Yan to repeat it so that she could go to the nearest university to her home. Cheng Yan disagreed, although she cried and made trouble, her will never changed, no matter whether her parents scolded her or begged her.

"Look, you ran so far, in case you get sick or something, your parents can't take care of you, don't you let the two old people worry about it so far away?" Cheng Jiahua persuaded with a sad face, "You are at home, the family is also lively, I will still have a smiling person when I come back, and someone can take care of me a little bit as a half-old man, look at your mother, now I can't wait to stay as far away from me as possible, are you willing to let your father be lonely and live in this family?" ”

Cheng Yan hung his head and didn't look at his father, but his heart was indifferent.

"You're leaving, you're growing up and your wings are stiff now, and you're thinking about getting farther and farther away from us? I don't want to give birth to you, I pull you up with a handful of and urine, and give you the best food and clothing, you are so filial to me now? Did you choose a university that far away? I provided you with a few years of schooling, and you learned this? Look at the daughter of your Aunt Liu's family, she doesn't go anywhere, she stays by her parents' side, why am I so envious of others? gave birth to such a good girl! Look at you again, what are you doing so far away a girl! Have you ever thought about your mother? Have you ever thought of your brother? Ever thought about our family? This is how He "persuaded" Cheng Yan.

"What's wrong with the girl!" Cheng Yan couldn't help it and retorted, "Can't girls go out and make a world by themselves!" ”

He Tu sneered and said, "Girl, you are a girl, you still want to break out of the sky?" Look at your aunt, what did you come back from? Even your grandpa almost didn't recognize her! And your aunt, your aunt is very good at studying, but it's not more than thirty years and you haven't found a single object? Didn't you listen to your grandparents and quit your job and come back on a blind date to get married? ”

"You listen to your mother!" On this issue, Cheng Jiahua and Hetu formed a short-term alliance, "This is the road that the predecessors have walked, there is nothing good to do, no matter how good you study, no matter how good your job is, it is better to stay by our side obediently, and when you are old, your parents will find you a good family, and you will live a comfortable life in the future!" Why run so far, endure those hardships, let us worry in vain! ”

"Looking for a good family?" Cheng Yanqi's face turned red, and he said stubbornly, "I'm not married!" Whoever loves to tie the knot! I think it's good, I'm going to go to school there, don't persuade me, I won't listen! ”

"Look, this is the good girl you taught!" He's face turned pale, and he scolded Cheng Jiahua, "I don't know who this wild man is with!" If you want to go, I won't give you a penny, I'll see what you can read! ”

"I can go for student loans!" Cheng Yan shouted, she was ready for everything, she also inquired about everything, and she was willing to bear her own choice no matter what the consequences were.

The two people blocked by this sentence had nothing to say for a while, Cheng Yan turned around and ran out with tears in his eyes. She stood in the sun, took a few deep breaths, and comforted herself, "It's okay, you can do it." ”

But she ignored one point, even if it is a student loan, it needs to be signed by her parents, which she can't do alone. She was worried for half a month, seeing that the day of leaving school was getting closer and closer, but her parents still stubbornly disagreed with her to go there to study, and even instigated the whole family to convince her, even her grandparents went into battle. Cheng Yan didn't know where she came from so much importance, and she provoked the whole family to persuade her not to go to school, to repeat her studies, and her grandmother even said that a girl, even if she goes to high school, what kind of college is she going to, it is better to marry early now, see if she is still so stubborn. Of course, she didn't say this to her face-to-face, but when she heard it from Cheng Siwen's mouth, she was still half angry, and her impression of her grandparents fell to the bottom from then on, and she refused to go to her grandparents' house again. However, in this family, the only ones she feels have hope to support her are her uncle and aunt, they are both people who love to study, and they will definitely understand her. But the uncle hasn't been home for several years, and it's hard for anyone to find him, so the only one left is the aunt. Cheng Yan held on to this faint hope, and planned to go to her aunt one day and ask her aunt to persuade her father to agree to her study, but this hope was also terminated one day in mid-August.

Before she instigated her aunt, her aunt had already been instigated by her father.

That afternoon, Cheng Yan was hiding in the courtyard reading a book, Uncle Jia Ji walked in, followed by Aunt Jia Yi, the two of them went one after the other, and when they walked up to her, they exchanged glances with each other. Cheng Yan raised her head and looked at them vigilantly, slightly disappointed in her heart, but she didn't say a word, waiting for them to speak first.

"Xiao Yan-" Jia Ji cleared his throat and began to speak, still the same old saying, nothing more than how difficult it was for her parents to bring her up, so that she should not embarrass Cheng Jiahua and Hetu on this issue. Cheng Yan sneered, suddenly interrupted his words, and said, "You are not me, you don't understand, don't persuade me, I won't listen." ”

added that Cheng Yan was so stubborn, ruthless, took himself out as a typical negative example, and began to persuade Cheng Yan. Cheng Yan listened halfway, stood up, put on the book in his hand, and said coldly: "Auntie, I used to envy you, but now, I don't envy you at all." She walked past the two men and towards the outside of the courtyard. Cheng Jiaji and Cheng Jiayi were stunned in place, and for a long time, the two of them frowned and said, "I don't know how the eldest brother taught him, he taught such a wild man!" ”

Cheng Yan's hopes were disappointed, and the only way at present was to find Zheng Xi and let Zheng Xi convince his mother so that he could have someone to support. As soon as she thought of Zheng Xi, Cheng Yan's heart felt a little relied on, this Uncle Zheng has always been very good to her, when he was in school, he also came to see him several times, and brought a lot of delicious food and use, which was even better than his biological father to her. In addition, my mother loves Uncle Zheng so much, and she will definitely listen to Uncle Zheng's words to support her. Thinking of this, Cheng Yan's heart had a little bottom, and while the whole family was having lunch, she expressed her determination to go on a hunger strike, and sneaked to the door of Zheng Xi's residence with a book in her arms and knocked on the door.

Zheng Xi didn't know about this yet, since Cheng Jiahua came back, he and He Tu had never met, and then after hearing what Cheng Yan said, he thought about it for a while, with a look of embarrassment on his face, and said: "Xiao Yan, it's not that your uncle doesn't support you, but my uncle thinks that what your mother said is quite reasonable." Look at your mother, there are many illnesses, people love to think a lot, when you are at home, she still has a person to rely on, you are gone, she wants to rely on no one to rely on, then think about it, how sad your mother is. ”

"She still has you." Cheng Yan said, and silently answered in his heart, but I only have myself.

"Can I compare my status with you? You are your mother's flesh and blood, I am just an outsider, in her heart, you will always be more important than me. Zheng Xi persuaded, seeing Cheng Yan's face turn from ruddy to iron-blue, before he finished speaking, Cheng Yan stood up from the chair, she said coldly: "Uncle Zheng, I thought you would be different from others, but you are still the same as them." She looked at him disappointedly, bit her lip, and turned to leave the cramped room. Standing under the sun again, she felt a wave of despair in her heart, and that despair was like a tidal wave that gradually overwhelmed her, making her feel like she was constantly bubbling with cold.

I don't want to go home, but I don't know where to go. Cheng Yan held the book, slowly walked to the front, crossed the courtyard of her house, and walked onto the stone-paved road, she looked at everything around her, the world was so big, there was no place for herself.

Cheng Yan sighed and squatted down on the side of the road. She buried her head in the book, smelling the faint scent of ink, and couldn't help but feel more and more sad. She was sighing to herself, when a voice suddenly came from above her head, and someone stopped in front of her, bent down and asked, "Little girl, do you know which family the Hetu family is?" ”

"Huh?" Cheng Yan raised her head suspiciously, facing the sun, she couldn't see the appearance of the person in front of her, she only felt that the person was bathed in the sun, as if he was shining like a god. Cheng Yan looked at her blankly, slowly stood up, and found that the person was a head taller than her, with a slender figure, fair skin, a huge sunglasses on the bridge of his nose, and a purple scarf around his head.

"You are?" She asked, looking at the man quizzically.

The man smiled and said, "I'm a friend of Hedi, do you know which family her family is?" ”

"Hetu is my mother, who are you?" Most of my mother's friends have seen it myself, but the temperament of the person in front of me is extraordinary, and at first glance, I feel that I am not a person who is not a person from my mother, where did my mother come from such a friend, I don't know?

"You're the daughter of Hedi? Are you Cheng Yan? The man looked at her in surprise, took off his sunglasses, and squinted at her.

Cheng Yan was immediately attracted by the appearance of the person in front of her, in this small county town, she had never seen such a good-looking person, although there were some traces of time on that face, but it still looked energetic and beautiful. Cheng Yan nodded dumbly, and his eyes couldn't take off that face for a moment.

"I'm Xiuhan, I'm your mother's friend." Xiuhan laughed, she raised her hand and touched Cheng Yan's head, and smiled happily.