Zheng Xi was also taken aback, he glanced at Hedi, and hurriedly smiled at Cheng Lin: "You're back?" ”

Cheng Lin glared at him and didn't speak.

"Why did you come back so late?" Zheng Xi pretended not to see it, and still smiled as if flattering. He exhaled, trying to calm himself down, and pretended to mock: "Don't you know where to fool around?" ”

Cheng Lin threw his schoolbag onto the chair, turned his head and glared at him fiercely.

"Kids, they just like to play." Zheng Xi smiled, took out a stack of money from his pocket, and greeted Cheng Lin, "Come, uncle will give you money, and you can buy some delicious and fun when you go out to play in the future, and share it with your classmates." ”

Cheng Lin's eyes lit up when he saw the money, but it immediately dimmed, he took the money without saying a word, turned around and walked towards his parents' bedroom.

"Why are you giving him money!" He Tu said dissatisfiedly.

"Child, coax, just in case—" Zheng Xi didn't say the rest of the words, but he felt that Hetu had understood, because she closed her mouth and didn't refute herself, but glanced outside, muttering, "Stinky girl, I don't know where to run." ”

It was already dark outside, and the figures reflected in the window panes could be clearly seen. He Tu stood up, lifted the curtain and looked outside, it was quiet outside, and there was no sound at all.

"Cheng Lin! Cheng Lin! She turned her head to the bedroom and shouted twice, "Did you see your sister?" ”

"Nope!" Cheng Lin replied, impatient.

He Di was about to say something, Zheng Xi hurriedly stood up and said, "Why don't I go and look for it, it's so late, and it's not safe for a little girl to be outside." ”

"If she wants to run, let her run, I'll see where she can run." He Tu complained, although he said so, he made a gesture of going out, "My temper is so big, I can't wait." ”

"Don't go, I'll go." Zheng Xi said again.

"She doesn't even listen to me, and she still listens to you?" He Tu glanced at him angrily and smiled, "Let's go together." ”

Cheng Yan didn't know where she went, she didn't go far, but she went around left and right, she was confused, and she didn't eat, and she was hungry, so she slowed down her pace and stopped next to a wall. She raised her hand to wipe her tears, and rubbed her stomach again, feeling very uncomfortable, but she didn't know what to do.

She remembered the scene just now, and she was still a little angry in her heart. But she was born with a big heart, and she thought about this matter and those words over and over again, but she also felt that it didn't matter, anyway, the words had already come out of her mother's mouth, and she was also heard by the uncle surnamed Zheng, what else could she do? I had to endure it. Thinking so, she sniffed, feeling relieved of the grievances in her heart, and felt that her lower abdomen was falling, and she became more and more uncomfortable.

I don't know how long she squatted, and the night around her became thicker and thicker, but she didn't get up to go back. She didn't know how to face her mother when she went back, and she didn't know what she would say or do to herself. According to her mother's temper, she must have scolded herself first, she remembered the words that her mother scolded herself on weekdays, her heart couldn't help but tremble, and she was afraid to give birth to three points, and she was even more reluctant to go back.

Fortunately, it was a summer night, and it wasn't too cold, but she felt more and more uncomfortable under her, as if she was stuck in a swamp. She couldn't sit any longer, so she stood up, stretched her hands and feet, and suddenly saw a light coming in the distance, it was a car, driving slowly, she hurriedly shrank her body inside, not wanting others to see her embarrassed appearance.

But there was no crack in the wall for her to shrink in, and the car stopped in front of her, and the two men walked out of the car one after the other, and before she could see who the person in front of her was, there was a shout in front of her: "You are bold, aren't you?" Don't come home so late, waiting for your wife to come out to find you? Who is used to your faults, and runs away when they say two words to you, why are you so angry! ”

It was my mother's voice, sharp as a knife. Cheng Yan was so frightened that he didn't dare to look up at her. He strode up to her, grabbed her by the arm, and pulled her towards the car. When he got to the car and was about to push her into the car, he saw the big pool of blood on her pants, and couldn't help but sneer, "Shameful thing, look at your pants!" ”

Cheng Yan's face was flushed, and he peeked at Zheng Xi's expression, seeing that he pretended not to see or hear. However, she was so embarrassed that she wanted to find a crack in the ground and hide it immediately.

When she got into the car, she didn't dare to sit steadily, twisted her body and awkwardly all the way, and finally arrived home, and before her mother could speak, she slipped out of the car and ran into the toilet.

Not long after, someone suddenly stuffed a paper bag at the door, and the mother's cold voice sounded outside: "Hurry up and change it!" ”

Cheng Yan hurriedly responded, sniffed on his nose, wiped away the tears on his face, and then started to change. When she slept at night, she felt uncomfortable lying down, and she fell asleep in a daze until the early hours of the morning, and she didn't sleep for long, and suddenly she was shocked, and the whole person jumped up, lifted the quilt, and took a closer look at the quilt, only to see a small pool of blood on the white sheets, red and glamorous, as if laughing at her.

Cheng Yan sat down in fear and glanced at his mother, who was sleeping next to him and had not yet woken up. Mother has always had a habit of cleanliness, and it is very serious, and she still vaguely remembers that when she was a child, she wetted the bed and was beaten by her mother with a bed broom. Thinking of this, she felt even more frightened in her heart, and hurriedly slipped out of bed lightly, found a handkerchief, which was wet, and wanted to wipe off the bloodstains.

He Tu was woken up by her movements, and looked at her blindfolded, and saw her half-kneeling on the bed wiping something fiercely. After taking a closer look, I saw that there was a pool of dirty blood on the sheets that I had just changed yesterday, and I couldn't help but feel angry, and I tore Cheng Yan's arm away and scolded: "I only changed the sheets yesterday!" Is your ass filled with a funnel! Can't hold back at all! You see the sheets are made like this, it's one thing whether they are washed or not! Can you be a girl who understands a little shame and shows the sheets red and gorgeous! ”

Cheng Yan shrank to the side, cautiously looking at his mother's face, and didn't dare to move. Hedi's eyebrows were almost twisted into one, his face was ugly, as if he was going to eat her, while vigorously dismantling the sheets, he smacked Cheng Yan a few times with the whites of his eyes, and kept scolding in his mouth. Cheng Yan couldn't help but feel aggrieved, she didn't expect this matter, and it wasn't what she wanted to see. Seeing her mother remove the sheet and throw it aside, she hurriedly climbed out of bed and walked outside with the sheet.

"Why are you going!"

There was another roar behind him.

Cheng Yan couldn't help but stand still, turned around and said timidly, "I'll go wash the sheets." ”

He Tu sat on the bed and stared at Cheng Yan, in Cheng Yan's small figure and face, she seemed to see Cheng Jiahua's shadow. Isn't this what Cheng Jiahua is like in front of her now, always submissive, absent-minded, saying things in and out of the left ear, only perfunctory promises to her, even if she wronged him, she will not plead. She hated the way he looked, like a little sheep, without any manly temperament. Somehow, she thought of Zheng Xi again in her heart, Zheng Xi is tall, although he has a gentle personality, but there is a stubbornness hidden in that gentleness, and he will never have any big ambitions like Cheng Jiahua as long as he can make do with his life. In Hedi's heart, Cheng Jiahua is unproductive, cowardly, and easy to be pinched, but Zheng Xi is different, Zheng Xi has his own career and his own plan for the future, this is the person who is admirable, and this is the person who can bring good influence to people.

She thought wildly, and forgot about what was happening in front of her for a while. Cheng Yan saw that she didn't speak, hurriedly turned around and walked outside, mixed hot water by himself, squatted in the yard and scrubbed hard, I don't know how much laundry detergent I put in, and finally cleaned the dirty stain, and laboriously fished out the sheets, put them aside, and half-bent over to support the basin and pour water.

She is only so old, and her strength is far from enough to support that large basin of water. was desperately exerting her strength, and someone next to her suddenly pushed her away, Cheng Yan turned his head to see his mother pick up the basin and splash it into the barren grass clearing next to her.

Cheng Yan hung a pair of wet hands and looked at his mother unhindered.

"Look at your unproductive appearance, it's exactly like your dad." He said with a frown, pouring water into the basin again, and pointing to the sheets, "Wash it clean." ”

Cheng Yan didn't speak, and hurriedly sat on the small bench to clean up. He turned to go into the house to make breakfast, and soon smoke came out of the chimney on the roof of the kitchen. The first day of the holiday passed so unpleasantly.

Cheng Yan thought that although her mother always lost her temper inexplicably and said something that frustrated and hurt people's hearts and lungs, she always loved herself. Cheng Yan is weak, always has a fever and cold, or is inflamed everywhere, and his cheeks and eyelids are swollen and high, which is very terrifying. In her father's absence, her mother always took her to the hospital, sought medical advice, and cured all kinds of minor ailments on her body. Later, the cheeks and eyelids were no longer inflamed, but I often had a fever, and I went to the hospital several times, but the doctor just said that the immunity was too low, so I should eat more nutritious things, and be careful not to catch a cold when the weather is hot and cold. At that time, my mother didn't know where she heard about it, and after Cheng Yan had a fever, she no longer took her to the hospital, but covered her with a thick two-bed quilt, slept for an afternoon, sweated all over, and the fever actually subsided. Whether it was a hot summer afternoon or a cold winter day, she had a fever, and her mother would always buy some delicious food to coax her. What a rare thing it is, my mother has never been willing to spend a dime. In these little things, Cheng Yan moved herself, at least her mother really loved herself, otherwise she wouldn't do this to herself, but she had a bad temper, or she didn't know where she was wronged, and she wanted to vent it on herself.

But later, when this kind of thing became more and more frequent, and when the words of Hetu's scolding became more and more excessively ugly, Cheng Yan could no longer use this reason to persuade himself. She is also old, she has her own ideas, she has done something wrong, it doesn't matter if her mother scolds her, she just listens to it. But when she didn't do anything wrong, but her mother came to insult her, she couldn't hold back anymore, began to refute, began to argue, and began to scold her mother. There have been many times like this, and Cheng Lin has also been affected, as long as he is in a bad mood, he will begin to find fault with Cheng Yan, anger Cheng Yan, and insult her like his mother. Cheng Yan was aggrieved at this time, she felt that she had become a punching bag for the whole family, except for her father, as long as everyone else was in a bad mood, they would use her to open the knife, and they could scold any ugly words. She became more and more introverted, barely speaking at home, either hiding in the garden with a book and reading, or locking herself in the house to do her homework. But even so, they still feel that they are right. Hetu thought to himself, you are always a piece of meat that fell from my body, scolding you for a few words, what's wrong. Cheng Lin thought to himself, as long as I am in a bad mood, I see that you are not pleasing to the eye, what's wrong with scolding you a few words? No one thought about what Cheng Yan thought about when she was going through this. As time passed, her attitude became negative, and she began to habitually avoid things, as long as she could find an excuse to go out, even if she lied, she had to go out, only outside, when her mother and brother were away, she could breathe a breath of fresh air, so that her heart became a little more relaxed.

Fortunately, she made some good friends in school, although these good friends couldn't help her substantially, as long as she played and laughed with them, Cheng Yan felt very happy and satisfied.

Cheng Yan was promoted to junior high school, and when the first semester was about to end, Hetu had a showdown with Cheng Yan.

At that time, Cheng Jiahua had just left home, I didn't know if the food outside was too good, or if no one cared about it outside, his figure swelled sharply and began to develop horizontally, the whole person was like a round ball, and the face that was always smiling became more and more rounded. But in the face of such a face that always has a kind smile, Hedi has a face that has been stiff for a whole week, and he can't help but lose his temper to show this face. When he encountered Hetu's tantrum, Cheng Jiahua always grimaced at the two children, and snickered in a low voice: "Your mother has lost her temper again, you see." Cheng Yan and Cheng Lin were always amused by the naughty expression on their father's face, but they didn't dare to laugh, for fear that they would be heard and scolded by Hedi. When his father came back, it was the happiest time for Cheng Yan, because that week, his mother no longer lost his temper with himself, and his younger brother Cheng Lin would not be angry with him, and his father would buy delicious and fun things to bring to them, even if he always rubbed his brother's toys to play, she felt very happy.

The day my father was leaving, it was the time for the final exams. Before leaving, Cheng Yan said to his father: "Dad, you wait for me to come back before leaving." Cheng Jiahua agreed with a smile, but when she finished the exam and ran home with her schoolbag, the room was deserted, her father's luggage and clothes were gone, and the usual sound of TV broadcasts had disappeared. Cheng Yan walked around every room, and when she didn't see her father, she knew that her father had left.

She was just when she was lost, and Hedi's voice suddenly came out of the back room. There was no light in the room, and only a faint light came in through the window. He Tu sat in front of the window with his knees crossed, staring blankly at the shadows of the trees outside the window, his face full of loneliness.