Lin Che spoke again, "Zhihan, there is also the matter of the child, you provoked Zhiying that day and ruined my wedding, so let's do it tomorrow!" Before the wedding is completed, I want to give Zhiying an explanation, I told the doctor, the surgery will be done tomorrow, and you will rest well tonight. ”

"You're perverted!" I gasped and pushed him away with all my might, "You don't mention the matter of the child to me, the marriage is divorced, what does the child have to do with you?" My child, I must leave it! ”

"Do you have what it takes to stay? Your current body, whether you can conceive or may not be able to give birth, and being born with a cripple or retardation is what you want? He suddenly got angry and asked me sharply.

When I heard this, I was even angrier than he was, and I raised my hand and slapped him hard, "This is your child too!" How can you curse it like that? ”

When I was about to slap him in the face again, he grabbed my arm, glared into my eyes and said, "I don't want it because it's my seed!" If you're pregnant with other men, I don't care if you give birth or not! ”

My tears couldn't be suppressed for a while, he watched me cry, and finally softened his tone, "I'm sorry, but Zhihan, we can't have a child, you keep it, and I can't explain it to Zhiying." We're all going to have an easy time, okay? ”

"Easy? You asked me to kill my own child, is that easy? Relaxed person is you not me! I have nothing but children, and you make me give it up, how can you say it? ”

Lin Che shook his head, "How could you have nothing?" You still have your family and friends, you just don't stay by my side anymore, in fact, it's good for both of us, Zhihan, I found out a long time ago that the two of us can't go far, even if there is no Zhiying, our three views are too different, and being together will make each other very tired. ”

"You don't talk about it anymore, I won't die because of your departure, but you have no right to interfere with me!" I pushed him away.

Suddenly, he stopped holding my hand, but hugged me and hugged me tightly, making me feel a little breathless.

I heard Lin Che say softly: "Zhihan, I am also very sad to live in such a relationship with you. If there is a future life, we will be together forever, don't be separated, no matter what the reason, I will not get angry with you and quarrel with you again, I hope that you are the first person I met. ”

This is really perverted, I just think it is endlessly funny, I tried to raise my head, looked at Lin Che steadily, and asked softly, "Have you ever loved me?" ”

He nodded.

"And now?"

He didn't speak, he didn't shake his head.

I continued: "No matter what reason you got involved with Cheng Zhiying, I may still not be able to accept the fact that you no longer love me, and I will still deceive myself into thinking that there is a secret in this, but this does not mean that I will do crazy things to save this relationship." I hope you can understand that your actions, whatever the reason, really hurt our feelings. ”

I stopped crying, smiled bleakly, and continued, "If there is such a thing as an afterlife, I would wish I had never been a sister like Cheng Zhiying, and I had never met someone like you. Sometimes I've been very sad, I wonder why I was born into that kind of perverted and twisted family, but after thinking about it, all this has made me have grandparents who will always love me, and I have also met Wen Yi'an, and everything is worth it. ”

"Will you be with Wen Yi'an?" Lin Che exhaled lightly, and suddenly buried his head in my neck, helplessly like a child, getting cheap and obedient.

"That's something that you have nothing to do with it, just like you and Cheng Zhiying, whether you will grow old together or part ways in the future, I don't need to know." I slowly calmed down, "Now, can you let me go?" ”

Lin Che didn't look away, and slowly let go of me.

I turned my head and left, and when I returned to the ward, I was disheartened, Song Xi asked me what I said to Lin Che, and Wen Yi'an motioned for her not to ask.

I was lying on the hospital bed, touching my stomach, and suddenly remembered that on a winter night when I was twenty years old, I came out of the movie theater with Lin Che, and he went to buy me milk tea, I saw Jiang Yu and Ji Xiaoxiao, quietly followed them, and found out that Ji Xiaoxiao was pregnant.

I still remember at that time, I was quite disgusted by all this, and felt that Ji Xiaoxiao was betting on a prodigal son with his own child. I also remember the fear in my heart at that time, I was afraid that I would end up like that when I was pregnant, Lin Che hugged me at that time, and he said it was impossible.

But the fact is that my fate is no better than Ji Xiaoxiao.

I sat up from the bed and said calmly to Song Xi and Wen Yi'an: "Lin Che came over just now and asked me to beat the child, he will get married tomorrow, and he will give his wife an explanation after he gets married, I am going to sleep, this is the last night the child and I will stay together, can you go out and let me stay alone with my baby for one night?" I'm going to lose it after tonight. ”

Song Xi listened to my words, and was stopped by Wen Yi'an just as she wanted to speak, Wen Yi'an shook her head at her, and then came over and rubbed my hair, "Okay, Tuanzi, you have a good rest, let's go, it's okay, it's going to be over soon, tomorrow will be a new day, all the bad things will all disappear from you." ”

After they left, I turned off all the lights in the room, and the child, the child, had just reached the third month, and I couldn't see it.

I hugged my stomach, my heart was empty, I just felt so sorry for it! Such a young child, before he came into this world, was about to leave. It has to rush to reincarnate again, and the road to heaven does not know whether it is dark or not, and whether there is anyone with it......

I stayed up all night, and when I was wheeled into the operating room the next day, I was given a general anesthetic and didn't feel anything.

When I came out again, the TV in the ward was reporting on the grand wedding of Lin Che and Cheng Zhiying, and the host said that Mr. Lin Che and Miss Shen Zhihan were the most suitable golden boys and girls.

I fell asleep groggily, and I only felt like I had slept for a long, long time, and I wished I never woke up.

Later, Song Xi took care of me for half a month, and my body slowly improved, and in the blink of an eye, next month, Wen Yi'an said that I would have surgery to remove my spleen.

The doctors said it was a minor operation, but I had a vague feeling that it was not easy.

I saw Wen Yi'an sitting in the ward in a daze all night, my grandparents came to see me and secretly wiped her tears, and Song Xi told me her cold jokes all day long, which was not funny at all, it was ugly to death.

I was lying in a hospital bed late that night because I was going to have surgery the next day, and I knew that this operation would not be easy, so I couldn't sleep for a long time.

Then I heard familiar footsteps, very light, and the one who crept in and sat down beside me, tried to reach out and touch my face, just touched, and moved away.

Lin Che leaned down and kissed me lightly on the forehead. I seem to have finally guessed something.

I suddenly opened my eyes and looked at him with a smile, it was too dark in the room late at night, but he must have seen me laughing.

I laughed like nothing had happened between us, and then I asked him, "What are you doing here?" ”

Lin Che's tears fell on my cheeks defenselessly, he didn't speak, I think he should be speechless.

I continued: "Lin Che, I know it's you, I knew you were coming when you pushed the door open. Do you know? Just now I had a dream that I was terminally ill and you couldn't stay with me anymore in order to save me. But at the thought that I might die, you can't help but want to come and see me, this might be the last time we'll be together, don't you think? ”

Then I heard Lin Che crying loudly, he hugged me, all the tears fell on my face, and I couldn't say a word in a choked voice. This is the first time I have seen him in such pain, and I have a feeling that I am still dreaming, but I clearly remember that people don't feel pain when they dream, but my heart hurts so much.

After a long time, he sorted out his emotions and said to me in a dumb voice: "Zhihan, I'm sorry for you. Fool, don't think too well of me, I'd rather you hate me. ”

"Of course I hate you, I want to stay by your side even if I die, but if you don't give me such a chance, of course I will hate you. But have you really failed me? "Compared to his heaviness, my tone must still be cheerful.

He nodded, "I don't say I'm sorry, I'm annoyed, you give me a good life, Zhihan, I think that a person like you who has revenge will definitely seek revenge on me, I'll wait for you to take revenge on me!" ”

I laughed, "I feel that my condition is not simple, if I can live, then I must stay away from you, how good is the time to live, how can I waste it on people I hate?" You and Cheng Zhiying, are you okay? ”

"Good, don't talk about it." He took my hand, "Shall I accompany you tonight?" If you had fallen asleep, I would not have been discovered. Zhihan, I have a bit of a troubled conscience. ”

"Do you come to torture me because you have a troubled conscience?" I felt the irony and couldn't talk to him properly anymore, "Lin Che, I always have a premonition that I might die, I have felt this way since I beat the child, and it lasted until tonight, and suddenly this feeling disappeared, is this a ...... Back to light? I'm going to die, can you tell me the truth, you still love me, don't you? ”

"Stop talking nonsense, how could you possibly die? Zhihan, I don't love you, but I hope you live a better life than mine. "Lin Che said it was extremely decisive, after so many days, I think I can finally accept the fact that he doesn't love me anymore.

I nodded, "Alright, you can leave." I haven't seen you yet, go home and be with your daughter-in-law! ”

Lin Che didn't move.

My tone slowly cooled down, "Hurry up, I don't want to say it a second time, if I die, I hope you can really have a good conscience, if you don't die, I hope I never see you again." ”

"Okay, you live well, let's not see each other again." Lin Che stood up, and he also smiled, although I couldn't see it.

After Lin Che left, I secretly got Wen Yi'an's cigarettes and lighters, hid in the bathroom alone, locked the door, and took a puff of cigarettes.

The smell choked me straight to tears, I didn't cry in the first place. I always felt that I was about to die, but I was not afraid, and it was okay to die, I just felt sorry for my grandparents, sorry for Wen Yi'an and the Wen family, as well as Song Xi and Jiang Yu, and sorry for those who were reluctant to me.

I turned on the bathroom light, stood in front of the mirror, and smiled to myself.

Lin Che, Lin Che, until now, all I have in my mind is him.

I was not very skilled at holding the cigarette between my index and middle fingers, and I followed his old example, sending the cigarette into my mouth, trying to spit out a beautiful eye circle, but I didn't succeed at all.

Then I reached out my left arm and pulled the sleeve of my hospital gown up, revealing my red-spotted arm, and burned myself with a cigarette butt.

For the first time, I want to forget all the good memories he brought me, forget the circles he threw at me in the nightclub, forget the sunrise he took me to watch by the sea, forget the marriage he proposed to me in the room late at night, forget the wedding he gave me in a small church in Switzerland, forget his unkindness, forget that he gave me his love for five years, forget that he personally admitted that he was in love with Cheng Zhiying, forget that he forced me to beat my child......

The second time, I poked it hard along the top of my arm, but it didn't hurt as much as I thought. When I was a child, I started fireworks with Wen Yi'an, and a small flame jumped on the back of my hand, and I was almost dying of pain, but now I don't feel like that at all. This time, I want to forget Lin Che, his good or bad has nothing to do with me, and in the future, whether he is dead or alive, and whether I am dead or alive, has nothing to do with each other. I'm going to completely forget about this person as if he wasn't in my life at all.

The last time, I squatted on the ground, and finally cried silently, this time it was the hardest time I burned, and I directly extinguished the cigarette butt on my arm. I said to myself, remember! After all, this is the first man you fall in love with, and in the future, you will definitely never love someone like this again, so let's keep these things in your heart! Thinking that there was once a person who fell in love with him without hesitation. Now that his real princess is back, he has to leave me, I can't be sad, it's not necessary, it's not necessary.