Chapter 162: I don't love it, but I'm sorry too

After I got out of Jiang Yu's car, Jiang Yu drove away quickly, and before leaving, he told me that I should stop meddling and don't provoke him in the future.

I returned to Lin Che's apartment in a gloomy mood, turned on my phone and saw a message from Lin Che, he said that there was something wrong with the project, the contract still needs to be negotiated and adjusted in the near future, and the original plan to come back tomorrow has come to naught, and he will continue to stay in the UK for a few days.

I asked Lin Che if he had time now, and he said yes, so he called me.

Listening to his voice, I felt a lot more comfortable, Lin Che liked to ask me the most - what did I do today, as long as I was not by his side, he would definitely have a good grasp of my itinerary.

I was a little weak and lied that I watched a Korean drama at home for a day.

"Tsk, I didn't like to watch bubble dramas before, and I went to play basketball with others all day long except for filming, Shen Zhihan, the more you live, the more you look like a woman." Lin Che laughed at me.

"Huh...... I have such a good-looking face, can a man look like it? ”

Lin Che smiled on the other end of the phone, and after a while he said again, "Are you okay?" How do I think you're a little out of order? ”

Maybe it's because of getting along with each other day and night, Lin Che also began to be like Wen Yi'an, and he could easily see through my wrongness. But of course I can't tell him what happened to Song Xi and Jiang Yu all day.

I continued to lie and talked to him about a bunch of tearful episodes of Korean dramas, and Balabala said that I was moved to cry.

Lin Che was speechless, and I thought I had deceived him, so I quickly hung up the phone.

Hanging up, he went to get to work on his part, and I went back to thinking about my thoughts.

Actually, I called Lin Che just to talk to him and listen to his voice, but Lin Che is a smart person, and he can detect it when I show a little bit of something wrong, and this kind of conversation is a bit tiring.

In the middle of the night, I lay on the bed and tossed and turned, thinking about Song Xi and Jiang Yu repeatedly, and what Jiang Yu said to me when he sent me back.

The next afternoon, Song Xi called me, cried with joy on the other end of the phone, and told me that Jiang Yu didn't blame her, and asked her to give birth to the child.

I thought this girl was really not saved, but she was so excited that I couldn't bear to splash cold water on her.

After a few words, hang up. I drove to the company, and when I arrived at the company, I saw a message from Song Xi after hanging up the phone.

Song Xi said-"Zhihan, I think about it. This kid was a mistake, and I didn't intend to have it from the beginning. Finally, Jiang Yu has a better attitude towards me now, I will not gamble on my happiness to give birth to this child, I am already in the hospital now, and the medicine I just took will soon take effect. ”

I was sweating nervously, and hurriedly turned a corner to go to the hospital, calling Song Xi back while driving.

When I arrived, Song Xi's child was gone, so she came alone and had a medicine flow.

Song Xi was lying on the hospital bed with her eyes wide open, and described to me the condition of her miscarriage just now, Song Xi said that she took medicine, her stomach hurt so much, the nurse told her to go to the toilet, she saw a small ball falling from her body, like a peeled grape.

When she described it, her face was calm and seemed to have no emotion, but I looked at Song Xi and imagined the picture she said, and I was speechless for a while.

I don't know what kind of courage Song Xi used to come to the hospital alone to kill the child, and after being silent for a while, Song Xi said to me: "Don't cry, Zhihan, I didn't cry, don't you!" I know I deserve all this, and you may think that I am hopeless, but I can't help it! That's how I fell in love with someone, and I experienced the taste of loving someone, which was uncomfortable, but I don't regret it, this end is what I deserve......"

Song Xi stayed in the hospital for three days, I accompanied her in the hospital, and slept with her in a ward and a bed at night, and I only told me about her pregnancy, and then I told Jiang Yu, and only the three of us knew about it.

Song Xi's mood is okay, she doesn't seem to have much concern for the aborted child, but she is relatively weak, I used to hear my grandmother say that the girl has to be confined if she has a miscarriage, and if she doesn't do well, she will fall ill, so I have been with Song Xi.

In my heart, I feel a little sorry for Song Xi, she likes Jiang Yu, and Jiang Yu likes me.

If it weren't for me, Song Xi might not have had any intersection with Jiang Yu, and he wouldn't have fallen in love with him so without hesitation, no one can tell who these feelings are in love, but Jiang Yu is not Song Xi's beloved, he is not bad in nature, and he can't really accept those he doesn't love.

I asked Song Xi why she chose a medical abortion instead of an abortion, and the nurse said that the medical abortion was very harmful to the body and had side effects.

I asked Song Xi this question in the middle of the night, Song Xi didn't look out the window, the moonlight outside the window sprinkled on her face, she blinked her eyes, and said to me: "I just want to feel the feeling of the child in the body, there will be no more in this life, even if the child is separated from the mother's body, I also want to experience it, at least it can prove that I have had a child." Even if I don't love it, I'm sorry for it. ”

My throat was so uncomfortable that I couldn't speak, so I could only hug Song Xi tightly.

At this time, I didn't know that in my love life, wishful thinking is actually not the worst thing, people are like this, they are a little greedy and selfish, giving up their vested happiness to covet what they can't get, if Song Xi is with Zhang Fatzi, who loves her more, I accept Wen Yi'an, who loves me a little more, then many things that happened later will not catch us off guard.

On the fourth day of Song Xi's hospitalization, Jiang Yu came to pick her up.

Seeing Jiang Yu coming, Song Xi smiled happily, and he couldn't hide the joy, but he didn't dare to express it all. Song Xi whispered to Jiang Yu: "Jiang Yu, I didn't expect you to really come, I thought you wouldn't pay attention to the message I sent." ”

Jiang Yu pretended not to see me, passed by me expressionlessly, and then said to Song Xi, "Clean up and go back." ”

Song Xi nodded, and hurriedly got out of bed and began to pack up her things, Jiang Yu didn't ask her why she came to have an abortion on her own, nor did she ask any other questions, which he didn't care about, and he didn't want to understand.

And for Song Xi, it is already a great thing that Jiang Yu can come to pick her up.

Song Xi didn't bring anything over, I brought the change of clothes and the thermos bucket from home, I helped Song Xi bring her clothes, gave her her bag, and watched her go out with Jiang Yu, Jiang Yu walked in front, and Song Xi followed him.

The picture is not very pretty, and they will decide how they will go in the future.

We are both in our twenties, and although we occasionally play petty and have a small temper, more often than not, we learn to take responsibility and compromise and play the role of good adults.

I owe Jiang Yu a thank you and sorry, and I don't plan to say it to him again.

After they left, I packed up the ward and went home with my things.

Driving on the road, gradually I feel very tired again, this is often the case these days, what's worse is that I didn't see the red light in front of me, and chased a car in front of me, the owner of the car came to knock on my window in a rage to find me a theory, I came down to apologize to him, he recognized my previous Internet celebrity actor who had a moment of popularity, saying that I don't have long eyes, so I hurt others and myself on the road.

After taking the insurance, I apologized a few more times, and the driver who was rear-ended by me left.

The insurance officer asked me if I needed to find a substitute driver, saying that I didn't look very good, I went back to the car and looked in the mirror, and found that my face was a little pale and haggard, probably because I didn't have makeup!

I didn't think much about it, after all, because of Song Xi's affairs in the past two days, I was indeed quite busy, and it was normal for me to be in poor spirits.

But for the sake of my own life and the lives of others, I can't drive this car anymore. I found a substitute driver to help me drive the car home, I put on my mask and hat and walked slowly along the sidewalk, usually in this case, I need to blow the wind and be fine.

It turned out that it was not this time, I wandered around for more than an hour, I felt more tired, and when I went back, I lay on the bed and didn't want to move.

At this time, Lin Che called me again and anxiously asked me where I was and if I was okay.

I was a little confused, rolled over in bed, said I was at home now, and asked him what was wrong.

"Are you alright? Shen Zhihan, why are you driving so carelessly? Lin Che asked me.

I turned on my phone with hindsight, and the driver I had just rear-ended posted a photo of me hitting his car on the Internet, questioning my driving skills by name and accusing me of not doing good deeds.

Alas! Such a shameful thing, being accused is that I deserve to admit it, but I don't know about this kind of thing, but my boyfriend knows about it first, which makes me a little embarrassed, although I have lost a lot of face in Lin Che's eyes......

Lin Che counted me on the other end of the phone, and when he saw that I didn't speak, he stopped and asked me what was wrong.

I flipped through the news and said, "What's that...... Can you ...... It's a shame to have people take this news down......"

"Don't withdraw, keep it for you to remember." Lin Che replied to me without hesitation, "Let's see if you will do this next time." ”

I don't have to talk about it......

Fortunately, my mind turned quickly, and I suddenly remembered that two years ago, Lin Che also had an accident while driving, and he still hit the tree directly, so I immediately took out this incident and scolded Lin Che.

Lin Che replied to me slowly: "I missed you, I was upset, and I drank alcohol, aren't you also thinking about me?" ”

Forehead...... Of course not, but he didn't know, I quickly replied that I was thinking about him too, and I crashed the car when I thought about it.

"Don't make excuses for your driving skills, bring your brain and eyes next time you go out." Lin Che said.

So I said goodbye to him and went on lying down.

He sent me another message asking if I was not doing well lately.

That's the case, I think of Song Xi's matter, I've been taking care of her in the hospital for the past few days, and I don't have time to take care of anything else, so I told Lin Che that Song Xi was sick.

Lin Che told me to pay attention not to make myself sick.

Just kidding, I, Shen Zhihan, have been honest since I was a child, in Wen Yi'an's words, I have always been strong, and I probably lost weight in high school and looked like a fair lady, I coped with Lin Che's words, sent him a few messages, and then fell asleep again.

The next day was a very important day, our new movie was going to be officially released in the cinema, and Song Xi sent me a message to tell me that Jiang Yu promised to accompany her to watch it, and gave up Director Guo's film of the same schedule.

I cheekily went to find Zhiying again and wanted to go with her to see it.

Zhiying was upset by the tutors invited by Shen Zhen, and when she heard me say that she was going out to watch a movie, she didn't care about hating me, so she quickly agreed.

The two of us wore hats, masks, and similar coats as we walked down the street together, and I bought her her favorite strawberry pudding milk tea, and I had to buy the same one myself.

Gradually, I noticed the change in Zhiying, she seems to be more and more similar to me, originally we were similar in face and body, dressing or something, the style is very different, now Zhiying and I are the same.

Zhiying drank milk tea and asked me casually: "Shen Zhihan, is it interesting to go to the movies you made by yourself and watch them by yourself?" ”

"Yes! Isn't this with my sister! I laughed, and I was slapped in the eye.

For me, a lot of the joy of watching a movie comes from the person you're watching the movie with.

We went out a little early, it wasn't dark yet, and by the time the movie opened, Zhiying was a little impatient and didn't want to watch it anymore.

I dragged her in, and to my surprise, the audience was already full, and I was happy in my heart, it seemed that this movie was quite popular.

Zhiying also felt strange, looked around and raised her eyebrows and asked me: "Didn't you say that Director Guo Da's new movie was also premiered at this time?" Shen Zhihan, this group of people is blind? ”

How can it be? However, under normal circumstances, Director Guo's films, whether they are directors, screenwriters, actors, or publicity, are not comparable to our team, and I am also a little suspicious in my heart, maybe these people are brought by Lin Che, for fear of hitting my confidence.

But whether it is or not, I am still very happy to see that this place is full of people!

Not half an hour after the movie opened, Zhiying was still looking up, and I was actually sleepy again.

I began to wonder if something was wrong, how could it always be like this lately, and I would have to take the time to go to the hospital another day.

Thinking like this, my eyelids started to fight, my head kept drooping down, lifting, drooping again, repeating it several times, I felt like I couldn't hold it anymore, I was so sleepy.

At this time, Zhiying pushed me, and she said: "Shen Zhihan, this kind of bad movie is so bad that you have been filming for so many days, I was blind to come and watch!" Simply ......"

I didn't hear what Zhiying said later, but the moment she pushed me, I actually fell to the ground, and the people sitting next to us were all startled.

Originally, the distance between the seats in the movie theater was relatively small, and when I lay down, the space on the ground was not very wide, but I felt that this place was actually quite comfortable to lie in, but I was a little sore when I fell down......

This time I fell, unlike the last time I was in Jiang Yu's house, I was still conscious, and I fainted directly.