Chapter 161: This Is the Normal State of Life
"What did you say?" I almost reflexively reached out my hand again, and Jiang Yu held my wrist tightly when my hand was about to touch his face.
Then he kissed me directly on the lips and gagged me tightly.
I was frightened by his action, and struggled desperately, turning my head away, and the smell of blood spread in my mouth. I felt disgusted, and I felt even more sorry for Lin Che.
But my hand was held tightly by Jiang Yu, and I couldn't move. His eyes were like knives, staring at me deadly, it was the first time I saw Jiang Yu like this, and I couldn't help but be a little scared, worried that he would do something out of the ordinary again.
But Jiang Yu didn't, he shook off my hand fiercely, glared at me and said, "Shen Zhihan, you owe me!" ”
"You're crazy! Song Xi is still pregnant with your child in the hospital, you pulled me here......" I wiped my mouth vigorously with the cuffs of my clothes, and also glared at Jiang Yu.
"Shen Zhihan, don't you fucking understand? If you want me to say it a few times, Lao Tzu has never touched her, that child is not mine! Jiang Yu yelled at me.
The way he looks now is really scary, and it doesn't look like he's lying at all.
I hesitated for a moment and asked, "What do you mean?" Will Song Hee cheat? ”
"I don't know! But Lao Tzu didn't touch her! ”
To tell the truth, when it comes to Jiang Yu and the girl who have never touched anyone, maybe even Wen Yi'an won't believe it, but I clearly remember that in the time he has liked me for so long, the most outrageous thing he has done so far is the one who kissed me just now.
Jiang Yu said that he had never touched Song Xi, even though they were boyfriend and girlfriend now and lived together.
About that child, if I hadn't told Jiang Yu, Jiang Yu wouldn't have known at all, he said that he and Song Xi were just a couple on the surface, and Song Xi had been pestering him all the time......
I was also skeptical, no wonder Song Xi was so resolute and didn't let me tell Jiang Yu that he would risk not being able to have children for the rest of his life to kill this child.
After Jiang Yu finished talking to me, I remembered that Song Xi was still alone in the hospital now, so I immediately rushed over to find her, but there was no shadow of Song Xi in the hospital at all, and the phone was turned off when I called her.
Jiang Yu looked at me anxiously, pulled me and said, "Don't look for it, I know where she is." ”
I followed Jiang Yu to the apartment where he and Song Xi lived.
Song Xi heard the sound of the door opening, and immediately ran over and hugged Jiang Yu, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'll take care of it myself." ”
Really, looking at her cringing with red eyes, even if she outside and has a child, you can't bear to say that she's wrong.
Jiang Yu resolutely pushed Song Xi away and said calmly: "Whether the child wants it or not, it's your business, you don't have to apologize to me." ”
Song Xi suddenly became even more helpless, and stood there with his head down.
I walked behind Jiang Yu and walked up to Song Xi, "Song Xi, let's talk!" ”
As soon as Jiang Yu heard this, he immediately responded, as if he heard the bell when he was in school: "You talk slowly, don't call me if it's okay." ”
Then he went back to his room and closed the door.
Song Xi sat on the ground with a slump in his ass, his eyes were hollow, like a dummy.
I also squatted on the ground and asked softly, "What do you want to do with the child's affairs?" ”
"You told Jiang Yu, right?" Song Xi raised his eyes and looked at me.
"It's me." I nodded, but I didn't want to apologize for it.
Fortunately, Song Xi was not completely out of her mind, she took a breath silently and said to me: "Zhihan, I don't blame you. I can see that Jiang Yu really doesn't care about me. ”
I looked at her and didn't say a word, how could I say it? Can I say you should have seen it a long time ago?
"But even so, I don't want to leave him, and being a woman in front of him is better than not even having a fake one. No matter how you say it, he is still Director Guo's eldest son, Zhihan, don't you say? ”
Saying that, Song Xi smiled and pulled the corners of his mouth very self-deprecatingly, "I just made myself like this, and I played a good hand of cards." If I was with Zhang Fatzi back then, maybe according to his family's intentions, we would have been married when we graduated. If you are pregnant with a child, you will be happy like other people's families. It's too painful to give up my happiness and pursue someone who will never love me, Zhihan, shouldn't I have given up a long time ago......"
I guess! Not necessarily, I'm not Song Xi, I'm not Jiang Yu, I don't know all their situations and thoughts.
"This kid, what's going on?" I asked Song Xi cautiously.
Song Xi looked down at his stomach, "Last month, I accompanied Jiang Yu to see Director Guo, and Jiang Yu told Director Guo that I was his girlfriend. I was very happy, but after leaving, Jiang Yu brought me here, he left me here alone, and told me that the road was chosen by myself, and he would not stay if he wanted to, and he would not object to leaving him, but he would not love me.
After I was sad, I secretly followed Jiang Yu and saw him enter a bar and around with a circle of fox friends inside, and I knew that if I rushed over like that, it would make him angry and disgusted. At that time, a man came to invite me for a drink, and I thought that I was drunk, and Jiang Yu would never ignore me, so he drank with that man. ”
There was medicine in the wine, and I got drunk after two sips, and I fell into the arms of the strange man until I was taken away by him, and Jiang Yu didn't look at me, he didn't see me. Afterwards, I came out of the hotel, I was very panicked, and I planned to hide this matter from anyone, even if Jiang Yu didn't like me, I didn't want him to be disgusted......" At this point, Song Xi couldn't cry anymore, choked up and couldn't continue.
What I can't bear to say is that if a man really doesn't care about you, and his joys, sorrows, and sorrows have nothing to do with you, how can he be disgusted? Song Xi and Jiang Yu, in the emotional world, compared to being unequal, I am afraid that this kind of wishful thinking is even more terrifying.
"Song Xi, think clearly, I don't advise you to ask for this child, if you beat it, you may not be able to conceive it in the future, if you don't beat it, the child has no father, and you, as a single mother, have to have the courage to face it."
I hugged Song Xi, "Think again!" We weigh the pros and cons together, but working a person who doesn't love themselves, this kind of thing, we don't try to do it, okay? ”
Song Xi leaned on me and cried for a long time, my mind was really confused, on the one hand, Song Xi's cry and her unexpected pregnancy, on the other hand, Jiang Yu's anger and his vengeful kiss, I thought of Wen Yi'an and Lin Che again, and then my eyes were black, and I fell on Song Xi's body.
Song Xi shouted, "Zhihan, what's wrong with you?" ”
I just feel very dizzy, like when I first went to the United States, every day I was immersed in loss, when I paralyzed myself, I also made myself like this from time to time, tired and tired, such days have passed for a long time, but I didn't expect it to happen again.
At this time, Jiang Yu's door was also opened by him, and he rushed out of the room, carried me to the sofa, and asked Song Xi what happened.
Song Xi didn't know at all, I rubbed my eyes, lay on the sofa weakly, and said to them, "I've been a little tired lately." ”
"You have a snack, Shen Zhihan!" Jiang Yu yelled at me angrily, "What the fuck are you so tired of?" Isn't there Lin Che who is raising you? Is he willing to make you tired? ”
I didn't speak, Song Xi touched my face and asked me if I wanted to sleep for a while, and I nodded.
Jiang Yu carried me into Song Xi's room, and I slept again wrapped in the quilt. I thought to myself, if I hadn't had my menstrual period on time, maybe I would have thought I was pregnant, and everyone said that people are very sleepy after pregnancy, probably like me!
When I woke up, it was already dark, and I got out of bed and walked out into the living room.
Song Xi was curled up in the corner of the sofa with his legs crossed, like a child who had done something wrong.
Seeing me come out, she hurriedly came down and asked me, "Zhihan, are you better?" Have you been working hard lately? ”
I shook my head and said I was fine, embarrassed to tell her that I hadn't had a job at all lately.
After a while, Jiang Yu came back from outside, he was carrying the packaged porridge in his hand, and put on a stinky face for me and Song Xi to go over for dinner.
Regarding Song Xi's pregnancy, we all have a tacit understanding not to mention it.
Jiang Yu has always been obsessed with the fact that I slapped him, and I admit that I was too excited.
In my entanglement with Jiang Yu, it has always been him who has let me, including him and Song Xi together, but also to block the mouth of public opinion, he doesn't care about fame, but he doesn't want me to become a watery poplar girl in the eyes of everyone, and he is entangled with Lin Che while having an affair with him, so he uses this way to help me, in fact, I can understand in my heart.
But if I want to apologize or be grateful, these words are beyond my mouth at the moment, on the one hand, Song Xi's irrational love for Jiang Yu, and on the other hand, the picture of him kissing me in the car today has been lingering in my mind.
Besides, Jiang Yu has also heard too many words of apology and gratitude, my words are useless, I can't give him what he wants.
I'm going back in the evening and ask Song Xi if he'd like to go with me.
Song Xi looked at Jiang Yu hesitantly, she was reluctant to leave. This stupid girl, no matter how she persuaded her, followed the devil, but she was unwilling to leave Jiang Yu.
Jiang Yu took the car keys and wanted to send me back.
I excused myself and went down to take a taxi, Jiang Yu glared at me, "It's not good to take a taxi here, if you are overtired and get sick on the road, you will freeze to death if you are not abducted." ”
Song Xi bit his lip aggrievedly, but still persuaded me: "Yes, Zhihan, let Jiang Yu send you!" I...... I don't care. ”
The original Song Xi would not have been so cautious. But in order to love someone, she has changed too much.
Jiang Yu tugged at my sleeve, "Let's go!" I have something to say to you. ”
Jiang Yu said that he had something to say to me, but along the way, he only asked me where Lin Che's apartment was. I gave an address, and he sent me over without saying anything.
When I arrived at the destination, I pushed the car door and was about to get out of the car, Jiang Yu looked straight ahead without looking at me, and said to me: "You don't care about my affairs with Song Xi." ”
"Huh?"
"I said you don't care about our business anymore, including her children, these things have nothing to do with you, don't worry about it! We'll take care of it ourselves. ”
"You don't love Song Xi, Jiang Yu, since you have no feelings for her, don't let her see hope anymore, okay?" I turned my head to look at Jiang Yu and said.
Jiang Yu sneered, looked at me, approached me and asked, "Are you like this to me?" Shen Zhihan, do you think everyone is the same as you, and their hearts are made of iron? You're just lucky, it just so happens that the person you love also loves you, but people like me are the majority, me, Wen Yi'an, Song Xi, we are all such people, falling in love with someone who won't love yourself, this is the normal state of life, do you understand? ”